Deserve to Die
Did you like the last chappie? Sad enough? The next few chapter names will be very uncreative so I'm apologising before I start!
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing, only the girls.
Chapter 8 - Yumi
She looked up again. Yumi was shivering violently and gripping herself.
"Yumi, are you okay?" she asked quietly.
Yumi opened her eyes. "How can I be," she whispered, "When I just murdered my best friend? Do you have any idea how much I hate myself?"
Kaiya was blown away. Every word hit on target and she felt herself cringing and shrinking away. "So you hate me?" she asked trembling in spite of herself. Yumi looked up again with her soft brown eyes.
"Do you think he hates me?" she asked desperately. Kaiya knew what she was really asking. Did he love me? She knew the answer to that but she didn't have an answer for the first question. Kaiya knew Yumi needed her reassurance and Trowa's forgiveness but she couldn't give it to her. What if she was wrong?
She glanced up silently, her green eyes showing all Yumi needed to know. Yumi blocked her ears and clenched her eyes tightly shut as if trying to get rid of the words Kaiya wouldn't say. "No." she said shaking her head, "I loved him more than life itself and I killed him.And if he loved me, that makes me." but she stopped. She couldn't find words to describe how she felt.
She closed the link and as her screen switched back to normal mode, Kaiya could see the Boom Boom 70 diving into the sea of dead below. Her mind flashed back over Yumi's words. ".When I murdered my best friend?"
She was right. Up to now, they had never killed anyone just for the sake of it. There was always a reason for their doing it. But now they had killed just because. And so it was murder. And what about best friend?
Killing was fine. To kill was to survive, but murdering wasn't. She hit her hand on the controls and sped after Yumi.
Skye watched as they went. She wiped her face on the back of her sleeve. "There's no point crying if I'm not going to do anything about it. I'll find Quatre, dead or alive, and I'll tell him. I have to. What if he thinks that I loved him only so I could kill him later?" She powered up and sped off after them.
Anike appeared on Cillas's link. Her face was stained with tears but so was her own, so Cillas said nothing. They nodded to each other and flew together towards their friends. For they would all be friends, whatever happened, and nothing could change that. Ever.
~*~*~*~*~
Kaiya touched down. She saw Boom Boom 70 kneeling on the ground with the cockpit hatch open. She opened hers and was blasted by the cold. It was freezing and the wind bit at the edges of her heart. She bundled herself together and jumped down from the Psyche Raider. "Yumi!" she called.
She couldn't even see her hand in front of her face and her teeth were chattering. The weather was absolutely bitter. If they stayed out in the rain for much longer they would die for sure.
"Yumi!" she called again. And suddenly she bumped into her.
"Kaiya?" Yumi asked. Her voice was no more than a whisper and as Kaiya reached for her hand; she found there was no difference between it and the snow that was beginning to fall.
"Yumi!" she shouted. She could hardly hear herself over the storm that was beginning to brew. The dark clouds gathered above them and thunder roared menacingly.
"Yumi! We have to get back to the Gundams or we'll freeze!" "No!" Yumi yelled back suddenly, her own voice faint. "I have to find Trowa!" "Yumi, don't be stupid! Trowa's dead!" "No! You're the one that's stupid! Trowa's not dead! I have to find him!" "Yumi, even if he wasn't dead in the explosion or the fall, he'd be dead with cold! Now, come on!" she said, pulling Yumi with her. "NO! Do you hear me? I said no! Now go away and leave me alone if you're not gonna help!" She tore her hand away from Kaiya and walked determinedly in the opposite direction. "Yumi?" Kaiya called, in a last desperate plea. She could no longer see her retreating back. "Yumi! You'll never find your way back! Yumi!" She waited in the howling wind, the snow whipping around in funnels of air that knocked her off her feet. She pounded the ground angrily. She'd lost her. Then she heard a distant reply.
"I don't care if I'm lost! As long as I'm with him, I'll be fine." And she left her alone in the frosty peaks.
~*~*~*~*~
Yumi hugged herself and kept trudging forward, no longer sure of where she was going. The snow had turned to hail, sharp and piercing, and the wind was fiercer than ever, slashing away at her already shredded skirt.
Suddenly, something hard and heavy hit her head and she stumbled into a snowdrift. She felt weak and tired and there seemed to be no end to the bleak and desolate path. She felt something warm trickle down her skin and she moved back, her shoulders wet and icy from the building snow. Then she hit something.
She turned her head numbly to the side and saw the remains of a mobile suit. She felt her back vibrate gently with the hum of the dying engine.
But the thing that caught her interest was that it was flashing.
Yumi sighed gently. It was impossible to tell what the mobile suit used to look like, it was wrecked beyond description.
She crawled forward slowly until she found a gap to shelter herself from the cold. She edged into it and leant back on the wall. She closed her eyes and her hand slipped from her soaking clothes and onto the cold hard floor.
Then she touched something. Curious, she groped around for it again and felt a human hand. She inched into the tunnel that the collapsed walls of the mobile suit had made and found herself in a small compartment where part of the roof had fallen in. A large screen was emitting a strange flickering white light that lit the room dimly. Suddenly she recognised the controls, nearly burnt black. She was inside another Gundam.
Her heart raced suddenly and she looked around for the pilot. In the small light that the screen gave, she managed to make out a body. She moved quickly towards it, making sure not to hit the roof and turned it over. She gasped.
"Trowa!" He made no response. She knelt beside him and tapped his face lightly. "Trowa!" she said again and this time he stirred. "Who's that?" he murmured, panting slightly, for it hurt to breathe. "It's Yumi," she said tearfully and Trowa opened his eyes. "Yumi?" he asked in disbelief but then he smiled softly. "I thought I'd died at last." "Yumi thought she'd lost you," she said happily and she rested her head on his chest. He flinched and Yumi drew away carefully. "I think you've broken something," she said worriedly. Trowa just snickered. "Just my luck." Yumi flushed. "Tro - wah!" she said, pretending to be cross. But suddenly a shudder ran through his body and he lay still. "Trowa?" Yumi asked, scared again. "Yeah?" he asked, his voice faltering slightly. Yumi looked at his pale face and battered body. "This is all my fault," she whispered, hanging her head. "It's not," Trowa whispered back, "I did it because I wanted to, no one made me." "What do you mean?" Yumi asked fretfully. Trowa just shook his head and before she could say anything, he gathered his courage, pulled her closer and kissed her lightly on the lips.
Yumi started and Trowa watched her anxiously, waiting for her reaction. She smiled and he smiled back, thoroughly relieved.
She lay down in his arms and sighed as she nuzzled into him comfortably. "Why are you so nice to me?" she asked again and this time, he touched the tip of her nose and smiled wistfully at her. "Because.I love you."
Aww. keke ^ ^
Did you like the last chappie? Sad enough? The next few chapter names will be very uncreative so I'm apologising before I start!
Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing, only the girls.
Chapter 8 - Yumi
She looked up again. Yumi was shivering violently and gripping herself.
"Yumi, are you okay?" she asked quietly.
Yumi opened her eyes. "How can I be," she whispered, "When I just murdered my best friend? Do you have any idea how much I hate myself?"
Kaiya was blown away. Every word hit on target and she felt herself cringing and shrinking away. "So you hate me?" she asked trembling in spite of herself. Yumi looked up again with her soft brown eyes.
"Do you think he hates me?" she asked desperately. Kaiya knew what she was really asking. Did he love me? She knew the answer to that but she didn't have an answer for the first question. Kaiya knew Yumi needed her reassurance and Trowa's forgiveness but she couldn't give it to her. What if she was wrong?
She glanced up silently, her green eyes showing all Yumi needed to know. Yumi blocked her ears and clenched her eyes tightly shut as if trying to get rid of the words Kaiya wouldn't say. "No." she said shaking her head, "I loved him more than life itself and I killed him.And if he loved me, that makes me." but she stopped. She couldn't find words to describe how she felt.
She closed the link and as her screen switched back to normal mode, Kaiya could see the Boom Boom 70 diving into the sea of dead below. Her mind flashed back over Yumi's words. ".When I murdered my best friend?"
She was right. Up to now, they had never killed anyone just for the sake of it. There was always a reason for their doing it. But now they had killed just because. And so it was murder. And what about best friend?
Killing was fine. To kill was to survive, but murdering wasn't. She hit her hand on the controls and sped after Yumi.
Skye watched as they went. She wiped her face on the back of her sleeve. "There's no point crying if I'm not going to do anything about it. I'll find Quatre, dead or alive, and I'll tell him. I have to. What if he thinks that I loved him only so I could kill him later?" She powered up and sped off after them.
Anike appeared on Cillas's link. Her face was stained with tears but so was her own, so Cillas said nothing. They nodded to each other and flew together towards their friends. For they would all be friends, whatever happened, and nothing could change that. Ever.
~*~*~*~*~
Kaiya touched down. She saw Boom Boom 70 kneeling on the ground with the cockpit hatch open. She opened hers and was blasted by the cold. It was freezing and the wind bit at the edges of her heart. She bundled herself together and jumped down from the Psyche Raider. "Yumi!" she called.
She couldn't even see her hand in front of her face and her teeth were chattering. The weather was absolutely bitter. If they stayed out in the rain for much longer they would die for sure.
"Yumi!" she called again. And suddenly she bumped into her.
"Kaiya?" Yumi asked. Her voice was no more than a whisper and as Kaiya reached for her hand; she found there was no difference between it and the snow that was beginning to fall.
"Yumi!" she shouted. She could hardly hear herself over the storm that was beginning to brew. The dark clouds gathered above them and thunder roared menacingly.
"Yumi! We have to get back to the Gundams or we'll freeze!" "No!" Yumi yelled back suddenly, her own voice faint. "I have to find Trowa!" "Yumi, don't be stupid! Trowa's dead!" "No! You're the one that's stupid! Trowa's not dead! I have to find him!" "Yumi, even if he wasn't dead in the explosion or the fall, he'd be dead with cold! Now, come on!" she said, pulling Yumi with her. "NO! Do you hear me? I said no! Now go away and leave me alone if you're not gonna help!" She tore her hand away from Kaiya and walked determinedly in the opposite direction. "Yumi?" Kaiya called, in a last desperate plea. She could no longer see her retreating back. "Yumi! You'll never find your way back! Yumi!" She waited in the howling wind, the snow whipping around in funnels of air that knocked her off her feet. She pounded the ground angrily. She'd lost her. Then she heard a distant reply.
"I don't care if I'm lost! As long as I'm with him, I'll be fine." And she left her alone in the frosty peaks.
~*~*~*~*~
Yumi hugged herself and kept trudging forward, no longer sure of where she was going. The snow had turned to hail, sharp and piercing, and the wind was fiercer than ever, slashing away at her already shredded skirt.
Suddenly, something hard and heavy hit her head and she stumbled into a snowdrift. She felt weak and tired and there seemed to be no end to the bleak and desolate path. She felt something warm trickle down her skin and she moved back, her shoulders wet and icy from the building snow. Then she hit something.
She turned her head numbly to the side and saw the remains of a mobile suit. She felt her back vibrate gently with the hum of the dying engine.
But the thing that caught her interest was that it was flashing.
Yumi sighed gently. It was impossible to tell what the mobile suit used to look like, it was wrecked beyond description.
She crawled forward slowly until she found a gap to shelter herself from the cold. She edged into it and leant back on the wall. She closed her eyes and her hand slipped from her soaking clothes and onto the cold hard floor.
Then she touched something. Curious, she groped around for it again and felt a human hand. She inched into the tunnel that the collapsed walls of the mobile suit had made and found herself in a small compartment where part of the roof had fallen in. A large screen was emitting a strange flickering white light that lit the room dimly. Suddenly she recognised the controls, nearly burnt black. She was inside another Gundam.
Her heart raced suddenly and she looked around for the pilot. In the small light that the screen gave, she managed to make out a body. She moved quickly towards it, making sure not to hit the roof and turned it over. She gasped.
"Trowa!" He made no response. She knelt beside him and tapped his face lightly. "Trowa!" she said again and this time he stirred. "Who's that?" he murmured, panting slightly, for it hurt to breathe. "It's Yumi," she said tearfully and Trowa opened his eyes. "Yumi?" he asked in disbelief but then he smiled softly. "I thought I'd died at last." "Yumi thought she'd lost you," she said happily and she rested her head on his chest. He flinched and Yumi drew away carefully. "I think you've broken something," she said worriedly. Trowa just snickered. "Just my luck." Yumi flushed. "Tro - wah!" she said, pretending to be cross. But suddenly a shudder ran through his body and he lay still. "Trowa?" Yumi asked, scared again. "Yeah?" he asked, his voice faltering slightly. Yumi looked at his pale face and battered body. "This is all my fault," she whispered, hanging her head. "It's not," Trowa whispered back, "I did it because I wanted to, no one made me." "What do you mean?" Yumi asked fretfully. Trowa just shook his head and before she could say anything, he gathered his courage, pulled her closer and kissed her lightly on the lips.
Yumi started and Trowa watched her anxiously, waiting for her reaction. She smiled and he smiled back, thoroughly relieved.
She lay down in his arms and sighed as she nuzzled into him comfortably. "Why are you so nice to me?" she asked again and this time, he touched the tip of her nose and smiled wistfully at her. "Because.I love you."
Aww. keke ^ ^