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This chapter is based on Sora's P.O.V. I thought it might be the best way to see what she is going through.
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I finally reached our apartment door. I turned the handle but was unable to open it since it was lock. 'Mom must be still at the flower shop. I got out my spare key and unlocked the door and got in. I dropped my stuff by the door while taking of my flip-flops. I notice our answer machine light blinking. I went over and push the play button.
"Sora, honey, this is your mother. You must still be at the beach. Well, we had an emergency down here at the shop, so I'll be here kinda late. Make sure you take a shower as soon as you come home. You know how I hate you smelling like ocean."
After the message was done I decided to do what my mother said. Maybe it will make me feel a little better. Even though I doubt it.
I turned the handle of the shower then tested so it was just the right temperature for me. Then I removed the clothes on my body and enter the water.
Then I was thinking even harder then I did before. About Matt and Tai.
'That kiss was wonderful! Why did I pull away? Poor Matt, he is probably blaming himself right now. It wasn't him. It is I. I can't figure out what I am feeling and to whom. Ha! And I am the one with the Crest of Love. I can't even figure out whom I love. Maybe I don't love anybody right now. Maybe my heart is just playing games. Well it doesn't matter because Matt is my boyfriend. If he still wants to be, that is.'
After I got out of the shower, I put on my boxer and my old soccer t-shirt. I went to my room and got on the computer to check my e-mail. I only had one. It was from Matt.
Hey Sora,
I didn't mean to make you mad at me. I'm sorry for kissing you. It just felt like the right moment. I love you Sora and I don't want to do any thing to hurt you.
I just stared at one part of his e-mail over and over again. I love you Sora. Poor Matt! How am I suppose to return his love if I don't even know who I love.
I turned off the computer and laid down on my bed. How am I ever going to figure this out?
Then I went over to my drawer and pulled out a book. My photo album. This album was filled with pictures of Tai and me ever since we where still in diapers. With even recent pictures. I study each one very carefully.
Tai and I have always been friends. I even consider him somewhat my brother. Then when we made our first trip into the digital world, I started to develop more then friendly feelings. But I did my best to bury them inside. He was a very good friend to me. It is stupid to ruin good friendships. It is very hard to find a true friend like Tai. That is why I buried my feelings. I didn't want to jeopardize our friendship.
Matt was also a good friend to me. But I haven't known him as long as I did Tai. So it didn't really matter as much. When I started to date Matt I thought that all my feelings for Tai had just dissolve. But now, today in the beach. When we were in each other's arms, I didn't pull back. I hate it or felt uncomfortable. In fact, I had enjoyed it. And when Matt kissed me, the only thing that was in my head was Tai.
I couldn't hold it in any longer. I collapsed on my bed and started bawling. I hate this! Why is love so difficult! I love Matt! I have to! He loves me! Tai couldn't be anymore then my friend. That was his position. It couldn't change!
I cried my eyes out for a while. I kept telling myself that I loved Matt. Tai was only a friend and couldn't change. Then I finally knew what to do.
I went into our living room and pick-up the phone. I dialed the number that I knew by heart. It started to ring. It was a while before anyone picked up. I was just about to hang up when I heard a voice on the other end.
"Hello?" The voice said. Hearing the voice made my heart ache. I couldn't listen to it.
"Hello, is someone there?" he asked. I finally found the strength to talk.
"Um, hello, Matt?"
TBC
I am still debating on what to make this to but I have a strong idea! Well thanks for reading and now if you will please review! ^_^
