Disclaimer: I still no matter how much I wanted to don't own these
characters=)this is Shelby's essey Me and my shadows. It's a bit different
and I just thought it would be fun to write this because the actual
episode( babes in arms) didn't ever show that essey.
ME AND MY SHADOWS
I don't know where to start. I can't get the words and the feelings out of my head. It's too much to bare. Peter why did you make me do this?
My shadows have haunted me for so long. This is hard. How would you feel if the person who you think is here to love you is only here to hurt you? How would a little girl understand why she's been so brutally abuse? I was that little girl long ago. Not anymore. I haven't been innocent for long time. The things I've done. I can't understand it even myself so how could someone else. I'm hard and icy because I need to be. No one who hasn't been they could never understand it. I always have known that I'm something that never should have become to be. I'm just some twisted skank. Someone who doesn't deserve love just like Scott said. I know someday I will grow stronger than I am now. Yes I'm not that strong see no one knows me really not even you. God if there is one had a good sense of humour when he/she created me. I have survived the street and I still can't survive with this paper. I just hope that, that monster gets what it deserves. It was just me who he wanted no one else. Just me. I wish I would be to dead to cry or too dead to feel so no one wouldn't have to bother. I think that if I would die no one would care. Except Jess. She is the only thing I still exist. I stand it because of her. Well I guess I told enough.. someone someday may love me too.. I just wait. Wait life wait death maybe there is someone for me. thank you Peter for trying to figure me out.
ME AND MY SHADOWS
I don't know where to start. I can't get the words and the feelings out of my head. It's too much to bare. Peter why did you make me do this?
My shadows have haunted me for so long. This is hard. How would you feel if the person who you think is here to love you is only here to hurt you? How would a little girl understand why she's been so brutally abuse? I was that little girl long ago. Not anymore. I haven't been innocent for long time. The things I've done. I can't understand it even myself so how could someone else. I'm hard and icy because I need to be. No one who hasn't been they could never understand it. I always have known that I'm something that never should have become to be. I'm just some twisted skank. Someone who doesn't deserve love just like Scott said. I know someday I will grow stronger than I am now. Yes I'm not that strong see no one knows me really not even you. God if there is one had a good sense of humour when he/she created me. I have survived the street and I still can't survive with this paper. I just hope that, that monster gets what it deserves. It was just me who he wanted no one else. Just me. I wish I would be to dead to cry or too dead to feel so no one wouldn't have to bother. I think that if I would die no one would care. Except Jess. She is the only thing I still exist. I stand it because of her. Well I guess I told enough.. someone someday may love me too.. I just wait. Wait life wait death maybe there is someone for me. thank you Peter for trying to figure me out.
