Chapter 3: Forgetting Emptiness!
DISCLAIMER: Refer to chapter 1.
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The sun came though the window so intensely as the blind was open. Either Buffy or Willow was in my room, ready to wake me up for school. Maybe if I act really still and make the sound I make when I'm asleep, maybe they won't notice because I can't be stuffed getting up.
Hang on a second, this is a waterbed and since when does the sun wake me up! The sun only enters my room in the afternoon. And why do I have a headache that feels like I've been in a fight? I must be in the hospital about to murmur the classic 'Where am I" line overused in cinema. But hospitals don't have waterbeds! Oh gosh, where am I.
I better open my eyes, face up to whatever I've done.
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She is about to wake up and I'm excited because she looks so beautiful and all I want to do is repeat the events of the night before. She is so tiny, when you put her in a double bed, she is just so tiny, and her arms look like they could snap because they are so skinny. Her hair lays across the pillow and it is still so strait.
"Hey sleepy head, I made breakfast?" Her eyes open and she looks up to me. Her face changes from slender and beautiful to horrified and scared. She sits up and pulls the sheet to cover herself, she obviously doesn't want me to see her naked. She has changed since last night. She isn't the girl I met at the bronze all dressed in leather.
"Where am I, why am I naked, who are you?" She jumps out of bed and the sheet comes with her. I have boxer shorts on so I'm covered.
"I'm Conner, we came here last night after meeting at The Bronze and this is my house, my room!" Dawn looked confused, she obviously doesn't remember, maybe she had too much booze. She isn't the confident, strait forward girl I met the night before and she is definitely looking to run from the room. She scurries for her clothes, underwear, everything that is hers.
"And we...slept together?" Oh God, she must of been a virgin!
"Yes. You asked me to take you some place we could be alone. We danced at The Bronze, you had a few drinks and then we drove here. You didn't seem drunk, you seemed normal, but the way you're acting now is totally different from the display I saw last night." I'm trying to act calm because she seems to want to leave, but she can't, I need her. She can't leave, not after last night.
"Well obviously. Conner, did you know I'm only 15 years old? Did you know that it is illegal for me to have alcohol? Did you realise last night that I was still a virgin? Did you realise I wouldn't remember in the mourning. Did you think at all while I was drunk and doing things I wouldn't normally do? Well, here's me normal. I feel so sick and I'm going to go home, I'm in the biggest trouble imaginable once I get home."
"You can't go, I don't even know your name and I need you." She was dressed and was searching for a door.
"No. I'm not staying and I don't want you to know my name. Please, just let me go! I have a sister who is going to rip me to shreds when she finds out what I've done so I need to make sure she doesn't!" She opened the door and was gone. Conner watched as the brunette who had erupted his brain, left bewildered with her surroundings.
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I had sex. I had sex with a complete stranger and I've been out all night. Think Dawn think. Why did you go to The Bronze, why did you get drunk, why did you leave with a guy (a dead gorgeous guy), why did you lose your virginity.
"Dawn! Dawn!" Xander rolled up next to me in his car with Anya and parked at the side of the road. "Where have you been, Buffy, Willow, Tara, Anya, Spike and I have been searching everywhere for you. We were so worried." I need to think up a story, something magical they'll believe.
"I...got lost. I've been walking everywhere trying to find my way home. I don't know where I am, this neighbourhood I don't really see that often." Xander looked sceptical, as it hadn't been the first adventure I had decided to take without telling anyone.
"You left the Magic Shop in such a hurry, I know your not flash on taking make-up classes but you've missed so much work!" Oh yeah, we were fighting over going to Summer School and I stormed out.
"I've had time to think...take me home!" I think the best approach is to try and act hurt and exhausted. Well, that isn't lying except I left out guilty cause I got drunk and had sex. Man I'm in trouble.
"Let's go!" Xander opened the back door and I got in.
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She got into the car and drove of so I followed in my car. I want to know where I can find her because I will see her again. 'Dawn' as I heard the guy say isn't getting away from me while I need her.
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