This piece of fanfiction was written in December 1999, and the
final chapter was completed in April 2000. Only author's notes
have been altered to remove outdated mentions and dedications.

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The Die Is Cast - Chapter 1 - Betrayal
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by The Legendary Redhawke

I was ever captivated by her long blonde hair and deep blue eyes.
Nothing seemed to be able to keep me from my desire. I fell in
love over and over again, before finally stumbling upon her.
There were always reasons why it seemed wrong. She was only 14
after all, and had yet to come into full maturity, although her
body showed maturity all too well. As all love does, it seemed
but a crush, before blooming beautifully into a gallant passionate
flower.

She had always been as beautiful as I did see her, though I'd
never noticed her those millenia ago. Within the Moon Kingdom,
she shone like a beam of radiance wrought forth from the heavens,
to bless the eyes of all mortals who dared gaze upon her beauty.
Yet, in my ignorance, and perhaps indifference, I failed to see
her as what she truly was; a goddess. Instead, I left behind the
thought of a woman, to defend our way of life, from the evil
beyond.

Though in vain was our battle upon the marvelous sphere, my reborn
self did never forget its horror. My single, misunderstood dream,
was of her radiance. Until memory mine restored, I knew but little
of the truth behind my dream. T'was a vibrant truth indeed, that
my love desired, had never I even approached before. I knew her
all too well, for I'd come upon her many a time over the course of
the centuries. She trusted me indeed, for I was a savior of her,
and those others.

My rose of justice, oft was defender of the justice warriors, known
as Sailor Scouts. I, their gallant, darkened hero was sworn to
defend them from whatever evil may befall.

It seemed in many ways, wrong to pursue my love in any way. I was
with another woman at the time, but that bothered me none. Gladly
would I discard any relationship to find but true love.

Days upon days upon days passed as I longed for my blonde love, but
yet could not bring myself to say but one word. Her aura, silky and
wonderful, as it surrounds me in my dreams. My vivid thoughts,
broken by my current girlfriend's entrance. "Hey hun", I said hoping
her footsteps would lead again through the threshold of my apartment.

"Hello Sweety! I was just around and thought I'd pop in to see you."
she said exuberantly, making it quite clear that I was doomed to
endure this visit.

"What a nice surprise. So, what have you been up to today?" I said,
trying to seem as normal as I had been before slipping off into my
wonderous dreams. Of course she babbled on, as was she bound to, and
I listened contentedly to all her stories.

Some hours later, she realized the time, and announced quite worriedly,
"I really have to get home, babe. I'll see you later." She then
kissed me and told me she loved me, as she always did. As usual, I
responded likewise.

Never had I realized how much I truly did love her, my current. In
love so deeply with two women, not wanting to surrender either. Now
torn between a love existent, and a love desired, my heart ached for
clarity. How can one ever hope to come to a logical decision
concerning such an issue?! Two loves between I, and neither one will
I release! 'Tis hopeless indeed. Must I release the silken aura of
my true, to be with the constant passion of the current? It would I
pay the oracles of the four corners of the earth but to be given a
single glimpse of the prime solution.

'Tis oft said that to gain happiness, one must risk it. Having made
that detested decision to pursue my angelic blonde lover, and
compromise my faith to my current, I set forth. Destiny sways me
none. Now, 'twas but a mere issue of opportunity, though that be the
most difficult issue to conquer. Starlit midnight, and the glow of
our heavenly abode upon us two, as we are bathed by the cool summer's
breeze. Perfection is but an impossibility to behold, and as such,
perfection was not destined.

Her school held dances regularly, and on this particular Friday, was I
determined to make the blue eyed heroine my own. The regret began to
race through my head like a bullet fired from a freshly warmed gun.
What if it doesn't work out? What if she hates me? What if nothing
ever gets back to the way it is? The guilt in my stomach, heart, and
mind swelled to the point of near rupture, but yet did I continue on.

Perhaps I was but mad that evening, or perhaps every evening. What I
do know is that what came of that magical evening, could not have been
imagined, yet the pain it did so cause was unimaginable as well.

I walked softly into the darkened ballroom, as the spotlights shone
their dazzling hues upon the walls. She stood there, bathing in the
beauty of the evening, in a dress that would make the angels look like
lepers. Still masked, slowly did I walk to her, and said softly, "May
I have this dance fair beauty?"

She nodded her head slowly, as I took her hand and led her unto the
dance floor. Never could one dance have been so magical, was my first
thought. Afterwards, my heart but pounded for love found anew, but
ached for love betrayed. We spun, and hallowed in each other, until,
one horrid minute uncounted, the music ceased.

My mask then raised, to show my fresh face, and her shocked one. I
leaned in, for but one purpose. I laid a kiss, so tender, and so sweet
as to make cupid himself cry, upon her beautiful lips. When we parted,
a single tear ran down your pure, white cheek, and I held you in my
arms. I too, shed but one tear, for my current girlfriend, whom I had
betrayed.

My soft face moved to your ear for the words that I had come to say.
I held her long blonde hair within my hands, and looked into her deep
blue eyes, to say those few words, "I Love You Mina."

*** And so I dance with you in my dreams, dear Mina. You smile at me, I ***
*** guess I'm just a fool. I gave up so much just to hold you in my arms. ***
*** You may never know just how much. ***

Dear Serena, I'm so sorry.
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Well, I hope that you liked it, and if you did, then the next chapter
will be soon on its way.

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