*Author's Note: Reference to Sept. 11

Chapter 3

Just A Kiss?



c IJournal,

I don't even care that Michael and I have significant others. It doesn't even faze me about how Max must feel right now. Loving me like I'm a good little girl, while in reality I was just this afternoon cuddled in the arms of Michael Guerin. The kisses that were passed were electric. I cannot deny the magic in them, nor can I deny the chemistry or passion between us. It's not like I can just ignore my feelings, like I can just forget all about Michael because of Max. We promised that we would always be together. I know this, but Michael is just… NO. No it can never be. I will just push my feelings aside and be the devoted girlfriend that Max wants me to be. There is no turning back but I will miss the kisses. Michael is an artist at them, he is the best kisser I've ever had the opportunity of kissing. Okay so now that I have confessed my feeling about Michael Guerin I think it's best that I/I NEVER Irepeat this to anyone. Not even Maria or Isabel. I mean they are someone I could trust but- I don't know I just think it's best that I not say anything. Me and Michael haven't discussed the situation that happened earlier but I feel that I will be hearing from him soon. We parted on good terms; actually it was steaming hot terms that set my body on fire. But eventually I had to pull away and say that it wasn't right. I wonder who his girlfriend is anyways. I told him about Max before –well actually all I said was that I had a boyfriend, it's not like I actually said his name. Anyways Journal, I have to go. My dad is yelling for me to help out in the kitchen at the CrashDown downstairs. It seems as though my dad and me are growing a bit closer. But I still have doubts about that Nancy character slash wife; I think she's sweet ya know? I think she's good for my dad- but… OH! My dad is really screaming now! Talk to ya later!!!

-Liz/I /c



(Downstairs)

"What is it pops?" Liz said, tying the back of her uniform and grabbing for her silver alien head apron. "Could the fits be anymore cheesy pop?" Liz giggled.

"Nancy designed them herself." He nudged her and shot a glance in Nancy's direction.

"OH! I mean the fits are the shit!" Liz hollered, causing Maria to pop her head in the kitchen.

"Need help Mr. Ortecho?" Maria smiled sweet and grabbed Liz's wrist.

"Hey!" Liz shouted as she was pulled out into the diner.

"You wanna give your dad a hard time, do it on your time, not the staffs." Maria said pushing a note pad and pen in Liz's hands and leading her to a table.

"May I take your order?" Liz replied in the most sarcastic way she could.

"Not my idea of a fantasy job either." The customer at the table responded to Liz's remark.

Liz's eyes widened and a gasp escaped her lips, "Michael!?"

"The one and only… Miss me?" He teased wiggling his eyebrows.

Liz giggled, "Egotistic much?"

"I'll have a galaxy burger and a side of Saturn rings." He said.

Liz wrote down his order, "And to drink?"

"Hmm…" He thought a moment, "Dr. Pepper."

"Good choice." Liz smiled. "Anything else?"

"Uh, actually yes. I'd love a side order of…" Michael pulled Liz into his lap, "You." He whispered into her ear seductively.

"That comes with every Michael order." Liz winked, taking his face in her hands and kissing his lips soft, soft soon turned to rough hard kisses in no time.

"Liz? Liz?" Michael uttered confused, "Earth to Liz!"

Liz shook her head, "I'm sorry what?" It was all in her imagination, it was all okay. It was just a… a… daydream?

"Are you okay?" He asked worried, "You kinda spaced out there for a second."

"OH! I'm fine! Fine, I'm going to uh… I'm going to go put in your order okay? Okay. I'll be going now." Liz quickly scurried away to the kitchen. "Here." Liz slapped the order down on the counter and stepped into the lounge area of the CrashDown. "Shit." She cursed herself, throwing her antennae's across the room.

"WHEW…" Liz breathed in deeply and exhaled blissfully. It was all a dream, all just an imaginary act of insanity during a time of pure lustful passion –wait.

How the hell could–

"Liz?" Michael's whisper was heard in Liz's ears.

Liz stepped into view from the dark corner of the room she wished to hide in, "Yea?"

"I really wanted to talk about this afternoon…" Michael took a daring step towards Liz.

Liz took two steps back into her corner, "Wh-what about this afternoon?" She stuttered.

"I wanted to know if things between us are gonna be weird now? I mean I enjoyed the kisses –I mean what guy wouldn't but I–"

"Listen Michael, what happened today was just a slip of our emotions. Maybe possibly something's there but we both have someone and… and…" Liz hadn't noticed at the time but she sure as hell noticed now. Michael lips were piercingly close to hers and any second they were going to have full frontal contact.

"You were saying?" Michael muttered staring at Liz's lips.

"Fuck it, just kiss me will ya?" Liz immediately wrapped her arms around Michael's neck and held on tight as his hands roamed all parts of her back and every now and again caressing her bottom half.

It felt so good, so damn very good…

"Michael stop… This is wrong." Liz whimpered when Michael's hand went up her skirt.

"You sure you want me to stop?" He breathed in her ear.

"You have a girlfriend Michael." Liz exclaimed. "I have a boyfriend too…"

Michael's hand shot out her skirt and he backed up, "I'm so sorry… I'm. I can't even express what I feel right now." Michael nervously ran his fingers through his hair.

"Michael…" Liz said after a while.

"No Liz." Michael held his hand to stop her.

"So are we gonna be weird now?" Liz asked.

"No. I'm okay if you are." Michael smiled, remembering when they first met.

"Okay then. Now… Get out of here and let me get back to work." Liz shuffled him out.

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"And then I was like totally angry about how Erin treated you but knowing her I know she's sure not going to be saying sorry anytime soon. I can't believe how she was acting; she usually backs down when push comes to shove. Wow Liz you were amazing too! I really believed you were about to kick her ass!" Maria yammered on to Liz on the phone.

"Yea, well I was trying to stop my violent side from following me to Roswell but if she tries being bold again I might have to ya know…" Liz rolled her eyes.

"Again babe. I. Am. So. Sorry for the way Erin was acting. I sincerely thought that she was going to stop hanging with us as soon as Derek dumped her." Maria apologized.

"Maria. I don't care, it's not like I can't beat that hussy from here to fuckin' kingdom come." Liz shrugged.

"You sure you're all cool about the Erin thing?" Maria repeated.

"Don't sweat it." Liz replied thinking about her lunch with Derek that day. Then a couple days later she was having lunch with Michael and one thing lead to another…

"Liz? You still there? Have I lost you?" Maria whined.

"Nope still here." Liz snapped back into reality.

"Yea so anyways we missed you at lunch where were you girl?" Maria asked curious.

"I uh… I was eating out with a friend. No biggie."

"Oh. Okay, well Isabel told me to ask you if you will be attending the sleepover with us this weekend?" Maria pinned.

"Oh uh –sure! I'd love to!" Liz replied a little too enthused.

"Coolio chica! Anyways like I have said many times before... I'm so sorry for Erin's behavior."

"Listen Deluca I've got to get some shut eye so I'll see you tomorrow aight?" Liz said ready to hang up.

"Oh sure! Tomorrow –and Liz?" Maria stopped short.

"Yea?"

"Stay away from Michael okay? He's bad news. If you haven't found out by now. You definitely will be finding out soon. I'm not one to be a snitch so I won't even say anything it's just… a kiss right? Nothing more. Trust me on this babe."

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That night while Liz lay in her bed thinking about what Maria said, she noticed that on her nightstand were two unopened letters. Rising from the bed she reached out and swooped them up in her hand. Reading the first address Liz sighed, it was a "change in address" form for her CosmoGirl! magazine. She turned the next letter over and read the cover:

To: Liz

Love: Max

Her heart stopped. There was no return address, so how had the letter been sent? Was he there in Roswell? Had he seen her and Michael too? Liz began to slightly panic inside.

"Papa!" Liz cried out. Causing her father to rush to her side panting from the run.

"What? What is it?!" He shouted.

"Where did this come from?" Liz held up the letter.

"Oh that? It came for you a couple days ago but the envelope was uh… Unpleasant. So I took it out of the large manila folder and just put the env-"

"Yo no lo creo papa." (I can't believe this papa) Liz closed her eyes.

"¿Que te problema?" (What's the problem?) He asked.

"You opened my letter papa. How could you?"

"I didn't MEAN to open it Liz-"

"Vete dia aqui." (Get out of here.) Liz snapped.

"No ME digas que hacer." (You can't tell ME what to do.) Her father snapped back.

"GET OUT!" Liz screamed enraged.

Her father sighed then left without another word.

Liz shook her head free of all the angry thoughts that flew through her. She looked back to the letter and finally opened it. She hadn't realized it then but she had held her breath the entire time she was reading the letter.

IDear Liz,

I love you, I miss you. What can I say? But baby I have to let you go. I know this might come as a big ass shock but I just think that it is for the best right now.

(:Yea freaking right, Liz thought to herself:)

Believe it or not but I'm starting to actually LIKE all this disciplinary shit. It makes me feel more at ease to know that of I screw up there is someone there to scream at me to knock it off. Anyways, the reason I am telling you to move on is because I sighed up for the air force. Yup –your baby boy is going to be up in the air soon. You know how all this shit with Afghanistan is going down. Well they've decided to recruit some of us rookies into the sky.

(:Liz thought her heart stopped beating, she smacked her herself in her chest… Yup still working:)

But baby just know that if anything happens for any freakish reason, I just want you to know how much I love you and cherish you and how much I thank god up above for sending you as my love. –Haha I can rhyme too!

(:Liz smiled:)

Now don't get me wrong Lizzie, I am coming back for you so don't COMPLETELY move on. It's just that while I'm away I don't want you to have to be alone. I know you and I know that you hate to be lonely. I understand, just don't go around fucking guys cuz you know I'll be beatin' some ass if I find out… don't worry about me. I hear that if I stay in this program for a couple of years that our lives will be set! We could buy that nice 2-story house with the white picket fence and all that girlie shit you always talk about. Our little Max jr.'s and Liz babies can run around the yard and we can have cat's ands dogs and all the stuff we've always wanted. Liz I not only do this thing for myself… I do it for US.

(:A single tear rolled down Liz's cheek to the letter:)

I love you Liz Ortecho, and when I come back… I'm making you my wife. I'll be everything you want me to be and more, I'll be making an honest salary without all the fucking drugs and illegal shit that I put you through. I miss you… But I need this time to myself. Please don't write me back because this is as hard a situation as I think I can take for right now babe. Bye for now…

–Max Evans

P.S. –I heart you. (Remember the 2gether movie?)/I

Liz laughed remembering the time they saw the MTV movie, the fraise had seemed to stick with them always.

"I heart (love) you too…" Liz cried herself to sleep that night, clutching the letter to her heart.





A/N: Any suggestions? I know you're all going to LOVE the next chapter… I have it already for you guys but I want to wait and see what you think of this one. E-mail me at swtlatinakisses@yahoo.com

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