Through My Eyes Summary: Harm's point of view. Mainly to show the magnitude of his feelings towards Mac. I don't think there's any better way to do it.

A/N: So, so sorry that I haven't updated in forever. I've been grounded from my computer. Anyhoo, I think I'll be wrapping this up soon unless anybody has any objections. Let me know.

Unknown Place Unknown Time

I'm walking through the White House Rose Garden. It's nice and peaceful, and reminds me of Mac. Where is she? Now, I see her, she's calling me. I walk towards her, and I'm almost there when a Tomcat lands right in front of me, as if it has dropped from the sky. I'm pulled into it, and it flies away before I can tell Mac that I love her. I'm flying far away from her, and I don't want to be that way. I hit the eject button, and parachute out of the Tomcat. When I land, I'm in front of her again, but farther away this time. I call to her, but she ignores me. Then, I see Mic Brumby come and stand next to her. He's talking to her, and she's listening. This goes on for what seems like forever, then she walks onto a boat. I follow her, intent on telling her that I love her. She turns to me and holds her arms out as if to hug me. She's waiting for me to come to her. I can't do it, I'm stuck to the spot. She turns away and Mic is right there in front of her. I scream for her, but she goes with him. Suddenly, I'm in front of a Tomcat again. I climb in willingly this time, and fly over her and Mic's wedding. I eject again, and fall into water. Never ending, freezing cold water. I'm screaming her name, but she's not there. She's married to Brumby. I scream her name as the ocean swirls around in a whirlpool, and I'm sucked into it. I go underwater, but not before I scream her name one last time.

************************* Bethesda Medical Center 0852 EST

The world turns white, and I'm fighting the ocean, tossing and turning violently. I'm still screaming for Sarah, and I feel two hands on my head, a person trying to calm me down. It's her. I open my eyes, and see her. She looks worried.

"Harm, Harm are you all right?" I reach up and touch her collarbone, much like I did the time right after I'd daydreamed that she was wearing a shimmering evening gown and I'd called her 'sweet thing'. She doesn't look at me the same way this time, though. She looks scared, not curious. I try to smile at her.

"I'm alright." I lean back and take several deep breaths, calming myself. I look back at her.

"You had a nightmare. You were calling my name." She says quietly. I don't say anything. I don't really want her to know how weak I am right now. "Harm, if we can't be honest with each other, this is never going to work." Darn. She's got me. I sigh and proceed to describe my dream to her in detail. When I'm finished, she kisses me softly. I think she's afraid of hurting me.