LORD AND GUARDIAN
Written by Jaya and Blue
Part 9 - Nightfall
(The original chapter 9 is the story's ultimate "smut-chapter" - stricktly NC-17 for lots and lots of specific, grafical sex scenes between consenting males. If you want to read the original chapter 9, go to default chapter 0 for link to archive site. Please come back afterwards to leave review.)
After Haldir's two brothers had left, Elrohir sat with Haldir for a time, neither of them saying anything. Finally Elrohir chuckled softly, feeling better than he had in a long time. //Definitely drunk// he thought to himself, running a hand through his messed up hair, pulling away so that he could look at Haldir, a slow grin spreading across his face. "Do you like being tickled?" He asked - a mischievous twinkle in his eyes.
"Ai, no, not you too!" Haldir laughed, pretending to move away from Elrohir. The room swam a little before his eyes and he felt warm and giddy. Giggling slightly, he poked Elrohir in the side. "But I am sure you like it."
"Oh no you do not!" Elrohir batted at Haldir's hand, making a face at him ending up landing more on top of Haldir then farther away from him when he tried to pull away. "I get enough of that from Elladan."
"Then you should be careful what you ask for," Haldir grinned, hooking an arm around Elrohir dragging him tighter, while continuing poking his ribs and evading his arms.
Elrohir made a soft sound, trying to tickle Haldir back when he found he could not get away from his invasions, collapsing finally into giggles as he curled up against the other elf. "Haldir pllleeassee!"
Rolling over on his back on the couch with Elrohir on top of him, Haldir could do nothing but giggle helplessly, folding both his arms around the young elf to hold him at bay.
Curling up on top of him Elrohir suddenly became more aware of Haldir's warm heated body near his own than he had been all night. Perhaps it had been the presence of his brothers, the distraction of the conversation and the wine that had kept him from really noticing it or his own reaction all night, but now... Now, Elrohir groaned softly snuggling closer against Haldir.
Feeling the warm body pressing close to him made Haldir feel the same way, and he lifted Elrohir's face to his own with both hands and kissed him rather passionately, shifting under him to move his body even more on top of him.
The two elves quickly became very excited, and dropped their clothes all over the room as they moved to Haldir's bed, where they made passionate love. Afterwards they talked.
Haldir turned towards Elrohir and nuzzled into his cheek and hair, snuggling against him holding him with both arms. "I want to stay here forever", Haldir sighed content, covering him with tender light kisses. "My love..."
Elrohir had nothing to say to the gentle, sweet words, nothing would come, except the tears that pricked his eyes. Pressing his face against Haldir's chest, Elrohir sighed softly kissing skin with parted lips still trying to catch his breath. "I will stay with you love." He whispered ever so softly.
With great tenderness Haldir gently lifted Elrohir's face toward his, kissed him tenderly on the lips and looked deep into his eyes: "I think I am falling in love with you," he whispered with moist eyes, "I cannot help it... I am sorry..."
Elrohir did not say anything at first not sure he could, touched by the words that scared him as well. He knew he cared for Haldir deeply and always would but he was not sure he could love him the way he knew that Haldir meant it, not again, after what had happened. Finally simply pressing a finger to Haldir's lips Elrohir blinked back tears shaking his head slightly. "No love... you cannot love me; you and I both know that I cannot stay here, and where you to love me it would only make it harder. You love another Haldir, I am only an available substitute nothing more."
Sighing heavily, Haldir looked down. "I do not think I love that person anymore. He has never loved me, and I have been a fool to think about him at all". Gently, he kissed Elrohir along his jaw, then on his cheeks, and finally on both eyelids, light as a feather. "I know you love another; Elrohir, and I know you have to leave sooner or later. I... I did not chose to let my feelings awaken, they just did." Whispering now, pressing his face close to Elrohir's: "I will not ask anything of you, my love, only that you let me stay with you for as long as you need me..." He hid his face in Elrohir's hair, not wanting him to see the tears that filled his eyes, just wanting to feel his body close to him.
Elrohir did not have to see the tears to know they were there, so he said nothing more, arms tightening around the other elf. Part of him wished that he could have loved Haldir first, that perhaps they could have been happy even being apart as they would be a good deal of the time. Yet it had not happened that way and so there was no reason to dwell on it. He wanted to ask who it was that Haldir had longed after with such passion, wondered what had happened that had caused him such hurt. "Shhh... As long as I am here you are welcome to be with me," he said softly, promise written in his voice, and he meant it. Turning his head Elrohir's lips brushed along Haldir's cheek gently, along his face to his ear, arms still tight around him.
Still fighting the tears that threatened to overcome him, Haldir whispered shakingly: "Please love me tonight... hold me and make love to me like I was the one you truly love..." His hands tightened around Elrohir, hiding his face even deeper in his hair. "I need you so..."
"Look at me, love." Elrohir murmured quietly, nuzzling at Haldir's neck a little. "You do not have to hide your tears from me, you have seen enough of mine already." His hand came up to brush gently against Haldir's cheek.
Haldir slowly lifted his head from Elrohir's hair and gazed at him with a look filled with love and affection. Warm tears escaped from both his eyes and trickled down, dripping on Elrohir's cheek. "I will not hide from you, my love..." Bending down to tenderly kiss his lips, brushing a wet cheek along Elrohir's face, he mumbled: "Please love me tonight."
"Aye I will..." Elrohir whispered gently drawing Haldir's lips to his own for a gentle loving kiss, his eyes and actions saying more then his words might. Pulling away as he moved to kiss Haldir's tears away. "Smile for me." He said softly, rolling Haldir over on his back.
"Give me a moment..." Returning the tender kiss, Haldir murmured against Elrohir's lips: "I am sorry I am so emotional... it is the wine... sorry I have dampened the mood..." He felt stupid, weeping like this - but it was not all due to the wine. Something was happening in his heart that he could not control, and emotions he had hid for many years were surfacing.
Elrohir lead the gentle kiss, hands coming to cup Haldir's face gently. "You do not have to explain yourself to me." He whispered softly - breathlessly - after a long couple of moments, letting one of his hands slide slowly down from Haldir's face along his exposed side, just touching gently.
Extremely sensitive to Elrohir, Haldir closed his eyes. Lifting his arms to Elrohir's shoulders, he let one slowly slide down to the small of his back and rested it there, wanting to forget himself in his lover's touch.
Sigh softly into the touch, Elrohir's lips moved down away from Haldir's gently along his jaw and neck, nibbling lightly at smooth skin. He would love Haldir as he had asked but not just because he had asked, also because he knew what it was like to need like that, because he could feel his own heart reaching out to Haldir's as he knew Haldir was reaching out to him. Elrohir knew it must be harder for Haldir, knowing his love and knowing that he would always be around, while at least Elrohir did not have to deal with the pressure of seeing and not being able to have, just the not knowing
For Haldir, loving Elrohir was somewhat similar to loving Celeborn. True, Elrohir was here with him, sharing his body with him, making love to him - but he knew that he did not love him just like Celeborn did not love him. During their ride to the city Haldir had allowed himself to hope that perhaps one day he might have a love of his own, feeling his heart stir every time he looked at Elrohir, but he was getting more realistic now. It seemed it would always be his fate to love somebody who could not love him back, but at least Elrohir was here with him, and Haldir was grateful for that.
"I do love you Haldir." Elrohir mumbled quietly, lavishing Haldir's neck with his tongue feeling the pulse of Haldir's blood beneath his questing tongue.
"Do you?" Haldir could not hide the hope in his voice, although he feared Elrohir did not mean it. Lifting one of his hands up to stroke the dark hair away from his lovers face, he pulled his face gently down to his own and kissed the sweet lips tenderly.
It was not that Elrohir did not mean it but more that perhaps it was not that he meant it in the way that Haldir might wish he did - not in the same way that he loved Shadow - but there was still a love there for Haldir that would forever be there.
Slowly and beautifully, the two elves made love once more, displaying much love, tenderness and passion for each other. Afterwards, they were exhausted from wine and weariness.
Elrohir made a soft sound,lying on top of Haldir instead of beside him, too tired to move any farther. "Haldir..." he murmured the name so softly against Haldir skin. He wanted to stay awake to enjoy this moment in time with his lover, but he could not do it feeling sleep drag him down.
Nuzzling into Elrohir's hair, too tired to move, Haldir simply snuggled into the body on top of him, holding him tight. "Elrohir, my love... he whispered, moved almost to tears with tenderness, "I love you, Elrohir..." His eyes could not stay open, and sighing contently, he drifted into pleasant dreams.
Already almost asleep Elrohir hardly heard him, exhausted from the travel, the emotional strain of the last few days and the last few hours, the wine, and of course what they had just done. His head rested on Haldir's chest, his dark hair looking even darker just as Haldir's light skin looked even lighter in contrast to one another. The moonlight that shone through the windows glistening softly off their entwined sleeping bodies, catching the faint gleam of sweat. Lost in their own little world neither one of them was coherent enough to notice the dark figure that had slipped through the trees to the door and into the room... Only to stop in the doorway, eyes falling on the sight of the two lovers in bed. For a few moments it was as if time had stopped and then he was gone leaving them to sleep in peace.
Written by Jaya and Blue
Part 9 - Nightfall
(The original chapter 9 is the story's ultimate "smut-chapter" - stricktly NC-17 for lots and lots of specific, grafical sex scenes between consenting males. If you want to read the original chapter 9, go to default chapter 0 for link to archive site. Please come back afterwards to leave review.)
After Haldir's two brothers had left, Elrohir sat with Haldir for a time, neither of them saying anything. Finally Elrohir chuckled softly, feeling better than he had in a long time. //Definitely drunk// he thought to himself, running a hand through his messed up hair, pulling away so that he could look at Haldir, a slow grin spreading across his face. "Do you like being tickled?" He asked - a mischievous twinkle in his eyes.
"Ai, no, not you too!" Haldir laughed, pretending to move away from Elrohir. The room swam a little before his eyes and he felt warm and giddy. Giggling slightly, he poked Elrohir in the side. "But I am sure you like it."
"Oh no you do not!" Elrohir batted at Haldir's hand, making a face at him ending up landing more on top of Haldir then farther away from him when he tried to pull away. "I get enough of that from Elladan."
"Then you should be careful what you ask for," Haldir grinned, hooking an arm around Elrohir dragging him tighter, while continuing poking his ribs and evading his arms.
Elrohir made a soft sound, trying to tickle Haldir back when he found he could not get away from his invasions, collapsing finally into giggles as he curled up against the other elf. "Haldir pllleeassee!"
Rolling over on his back on the couch with Elrohir on top of him, Haldir could do nothing but giggle helplessly, folding both his arms around the young elf to hold him at bay.
Curling up on top of him Elrohir suddenly became more aware of Haldir's warm heated body near his own than he had been all night. Perhaps it had been the presence of his brothers, the distraction of the conversation and the wine that had kept him from really noticing it or his own reaction all night, but now... Now, Elrohir groaned softly snuggling closer against Haldir.
Feeling the warm body pressing close to him made Haldir feel the same way, and he lifted Elrohir's face to his own with both hands and kissed him rather passionately, shifting under him to move his body even more on top of him.
The two elves quickly became very excited, and dropped their clothes all over the room as they moved to Haldir's bed, where they made passionate love. Afterwards they talked.
Haldir turned towards Elrohir and nuzzled into his cheek and hair, snuggling against him holding him with both arms. "I want to stay here forever", Haldir sighed content, covering him with tender light kisses. "My love..."
Elrohir had nothing to say to the gentle, sweet words, nothing would come, except the tears that pricked his eyes. Pressing his face against Haldir's chest, Elrohir sighed softly kissing skin with parted lips still trying to catch his breath. "I will stay with you love." He whispered ever so softly.
With great tenderness Haldir gently lifted Elrohir's face toward his, kissed him tenderly on the lips and looked deep into his eyes: "I think I am falling in love with you," he whispered with moist eyes, "I cannot help it... I am sorry..."
Elrohir did not say anything at first not sure he could, touched by the words that scared him as well. He knew he cared for Haldir deeply and always would but he was not sure he could love him the way he knew that Haldir meant it, not again, after what had happened. Finally simply pressing a finger to Haldir's lips Elrohir blinked back tears shaking his head slightly. "No love... you cannot love me; you and I both know that I cannot stay here, and where you to love me it would only make it harder. You love another Haldir, I am only an available substitute nothing more."
Sighing heavily, Haldir looked down. "I do not think I love that person anymore. He has never loved me, and I have been a fool to think about him at all". Gently, he kissed Elrohir along his jaw, then on his cheeks, and finally on both eyelids, light as a feather. "I know you love another; Elrohir, and I know you have to leave sooner or later. I... I did not chose to let my feelings awaken, they just did." Whispering now, pressing his face close to Elrohir's: "I will not ask anything of you, my love, only that you let me stay with you for as long as you need me..." He hid his face in Elrohir's hair, not wanting him to see the tears that filled his eyes, just wanting to feel his body close to him.
Elrohir did not have to see the tears to know they were there, so he said nothing more, arms tightening around the other elf. Part of him wished that he could have loved Haldir first, that perhaps they could have been happy even being apart as they would be a good deal of the time. Yet it had not happened that way and so there was no reason to dwell on it. He wanted to ask who it was that Haldir had longed after with such passion, wondered what had happened that had caused him such hurt. "Shhh... As long as I am here you are welcome to be with me," he said softly, promise written in his voice, and he meant it. Turning his head Elrohir's lips brushed along Haldir's cheek gently, along his face to his ear, arms still tight around him.
Still fighting the tears that threatened to overcome him, Haldir whispered shakingly: "Please love me tonight... hold me and make love to me like I was the one you truly love..." His hands tightened around Elrohir, hiding his face even deeper in his hair. "I need you so..."
"Look at me, love." Elrohir murmured quietly, nuzzling at Haldir's neck a little. "You do not have to hide your tears from me, you have seen enough of mine already." His hand came up to brush gently against Haldir's cheek.
Haldir slowly lifted his head from Elrohir's hair and gazed at him with a look filled with love and affection. Warm tears escaped from both his eyes and trickled down, dripping on Elrohir's cheek. "I will not hide from you, my love..." Bending down to tenderly kiss his lips, brushing a wet cheek along Elrohir's face, he mumbled: "Please love me tonight."
"Aye I will..." Elrohir whispered gently drawing Haldir's lips to his own for a gentle loving kiss, his eyes and actions saying more then his words might. Pulling away as he moved to kiss Haldir's tears away. "Smile for me." He said softly, rolling Haldir over on his back.
"Give me a moment..." Returning the tender kiss, Haldir murmured against Elrohir's lips: "I am sorry I am so emotional... it is the wine... sorry I have dampened the mood..." He felt stupid, weeping like this - but it was not all due to the wine. Something was happening in his heart that he could not control, and emotions he had hid for many years were surfacing.
Elrohir lead the gentle kiss, hands coming to cup Haldir's face gently. "You do not have to explain yourself to me." He whispered softly - breathlessly - after a long couple of moments, letting one of his hands slide slowly down from Haldir's face along his exposed side, just touching gently.
Extremely sensitive to Elrohir, Haldir closed his eyes. Lifting his arms to Elrohir's shoulders, he let one slowly slide down to the small of his back and rested it there, wanting to forget himself in his lover's touch.
Sigh softly into the touch, Elrohir's lips moved down away from Haldir's gently along his jaw and neck, nibbling lightly at smooth skin. He would love Haldir as he had asked but not just because he had asked, also because he knew what it was like to need like that, because he could feel his own heart reaching out to Haldir's as he knew Haldir was reaching out to him. Elrohir knew it must be harder for Haldir, knowing his love and knowing that he would always be around, while at least Elrohir did not have to deal with the pressure of seeing and not being able to have, just the not knowing
For Haldir, loving Elrohir was somewhat similar to loving Celeborn. True, Elrohir was here with him, sharing his body with him, making love to him - but he knew that he did not love him just like Celeborn did not love him. During their ride to the city Haldir had allowed himself to hope that perhaps one day he might have a love of his own, feeling his heart stir every time he looked at Elrohir, but he was getting more realistic now. It seemed it would always be his fate to love somebody who could not love him back, but at least Elrohir was here with him, and Haldir was grateful for that.
"I do love you Haldir." Elrohir mumbled quietly, lavishing Haldir's neck with his tongue feeling the pulse of Haldir's blood beneath his questing tongue.
"Do you?" Haldir could not hide the hope in his voice, although he feared Elrohir did not mean it. Lifting one of his hands up to stroke the dark hair away from his lovers face, he pulled his face gently down to his own and kissed the sweet lips tenderly.
It was not that Elrohir did not mean it but more that perhaps it was not that he meant it in the way that Haldir might wish he did - not in the same way that he loved Shadow - but there was still a love there for Haldir that would forever be there.
Slowly and beautifully, the two elves made love once more, displaying much love, tenderness and passion for each other. Afterwards, they were exhausted from wine and weariness.
Elrohir made a soft sound,lying on top of Haldir instead of beside him, too tired to move any farther. "Haldir..." he murmured the name so softly against Haldir skin. He wanted to stay awake to enjoy this moment in time with his lover, but he could not do it feeling sleep drag him down.
Nuzzling into Elrohir's hair, too tired to move, Haldir simply snuggled into the body on top of him, holding him tight. "Elrohir, my love... he whispered, moved almost to tears with tenderness, "I love you, Elrohir..." His eyes could not stay open, and sighing contently, he drifted into pleasant dreams.
Already almost asleep Elrohir hardly heard him, exhausted from the travel, the emotional strain of the last few days and the last few hours, the wine, and of course what they had just done. His head rested on Haldir's chest, his dark hair looking even darker just as Haldir's light skin looked even lighter in contrast to one another. The moonlight that shone through the windows glistening softly off their entwined sleeping bodies, catching the faint gleam of sweat. Lost in their own little world neither one of them was coherent enough to notice the dark figure that had slipped through the trees to the door and into the room... Only to stop in the doorway, eyes falling on the sight of the two lovers in bed. For a few moments it was as if time had stopped and then he was gone leaving them to sleep in peace.
