Poor angsty newsies 'long to Disney. Maybe that's why they're so sad.

I hide from myself. I've been doing it all my life. I'm afraid of what I'll see if I look too deep. I'm afraid of what I'll feel if I let my heart take over. I rule myself, with a strict hand. I bury my emotions deep under layers and layers of lies. I've eliminated 'want' in favor of 'should'. I am a clone. I am perfectly normal, neutral.

It's not like I've lost my real self, like I don't know who I am. No, I try to hide, but I don't always succeed. The truth struggles to show itself, but I won't let it.

At least, I hope I won't.

I'm getting quite the reputation as a lady's man. Almost every night now, a girl A kind of desperate proving to myself, trying to ignore my feelings. And it's working.

…isn't it?

Then why is it that I find myself watching you all the time? Why is it that your smile twists my insides, your touch makes me shiver?

I've pretended so many times, convinced myself about this girl or the other, told so many lies. There's no way I can't realize what's happening.

I become more and more the exact normal, watching the others. I have no quirks. A girl every night, trying to drown out the echo of my instincts.

You damn fool, Kid. There's no use hiding anymore. No use pretending. You can't deny it.

You damn fool. You can't live your life as someone you're not.