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the plot.
~+~ Chapter 8 An Older Sister To Lean On
Heero opened his eyes to the bright sunlight streaming in through the large palace windows, his back turned to the door and Faith pressing against it. He'd slept comfortably and felt much better after the day before. He was also somewhat excited about what Trowa had said the day before as well, that if they got to the circus in time, he could see his first show and that maybe he would have a surprise for the young man. Pushing off of the bed, he found that Quatre was still asleep. Maybe someone else was up. "Come on Faith." The ready puppy stood and answered his whisper, hopping off of the bed and stretching her long body on the unmoving floor. Heero grabbed her leash and chained it to her collar, not bothering to grab his shoes this early and instead walked around in his socks.
Quietly leaving the room, Heero went down the corridor and made his way to the grand staircase, making his way silently to the dining hall like the night before. Arriving, he found it to be empty and the great clock striking five. He was up early. "What do we do now Faith?"
The young greyhound only looked at him with curious eyes, then began to drag him toward the terrace doors in the back of the room and to the garden.
Heero followed, opening the doors and walking out onto the dewy lawn. He didn't pay attention to the cold, crisp air or the condensation soaking his socks, but made his way to the middle of the garden and into a large gazebo. The day was breath-taking and the colors of the flowers fascinated him, along with those of the sun rising above the hills and sending its rays over the kingdom. The song of the birds calling to him sent a smile straight to his face, their beautiful songs and vibrant colors fluttering in the air about him. Butterflies, moths, honeybees, and dragonflies were once again alive from the night, scattering about and filling the air with a humming sound. "It's so pretty Faith..." he called softly.
The dog had other plans, bolting from his grasp and after a squirrel that sat near the pond.
Looking down, he yelled after the dog and ran toward her. "No! Faith, come back. No, bad Faith! Bad dog!" Yet the dog ran, always ahead of him as she sprinted around the large garden, jumping through the flowers and over the ponds. All the while, evading his shouts. So Heero continued to run after her, knowing that he was going to be in big trouble for this.
Pouncing as a cat would, the greyhound surprised and cornered the squirrel momentarily, all the while taking advantage of this and snatching it up in her teeth. To her, it was a toy. Shaking her head back and forth vigorously, she only shook harder at hearing its frantic and pained cries.
Heero grabbed the dog's leash, dropping it and taking the scruff of her neck so that she couldn't get away and she stopped her movements. The Japanese youth's jaw dropped slightly as he watched the squirrel struggle and cry, stuck in her jaws as she looked back at him. With a soft cry himself and watering eyes, he shook his head. "No, bad Faith. It's not a toy. Drop it." Holding out his hand, he quickly put his other hand through the leash and wrapped it around his wrist, the terrified squirrel dropping to his awaiting hand. It didn't move but cried and shook in terror, it's small body rising and falling fast with its panicked gasps. Holding the tiny creature to his chest, he began to stroke its fur softly, his gentle fingers running down its back and careful of its wounds from the dog's teeth. He wasn't sure if it was going to be okay, but he hoped it didn't die. The others would know what to do, but looking back, he realized that he didn't know where he was. He was outside the palace gardens, the large bushes opening at one side but he wasn't sure how to get back to the dining hall from there. Entering the garden, he hoped that someone would find him, but for the time he only sat inside the garden, trying to calm the squirrel as he uttered soft assurances.
Quatre awoke, feeling better but still tired. Something told him that things weren't right, like he could feel a fear and a panic within him, but it was not his own. It did turn to his own when he realized that Heero and Faith were no longer in the room with him. "Maybe he went to the main room and is waiting for us with someone else who woke up earlier, or he might be in the dining hall." Quickly, the young man jumped from his bed anyway and threw on his shoes, seeing that Heero hadn't bothered with his, and exited the room. He found the others just to be awakening and exiting their rooms as well. "Have any of you seen Heero or Faith?"
Trowa, who was waking everyone again, looked at Quatre in puzzlement. "You mean he's not in the room?"
"No, I woke up and he and the dog were gone. Maybe Relena's up and with him."
Trowa shook his head, worry now filling him. "Relena just came and woke me like I asked her. She'd just gotten up herself and said that she hoped that Heero and the rest of us slept or were sleeping well. Oh no..." With the others, he sprinted down to the main sitting room, finding no one there before leaving to check the dining hall. Finding nothing there, he looked back at the others, Relena finally joining them with a curious gaze. "He's not here either."
Looking at the four, Relena asked. "What's wrong?"
"Heero must have woken up before the rest of us and decided to go exploring." Duo shook his head.
Wufei looked over at the princess. "Have you seen Heero yet this morning?"
Shaking her head, Relena looked into the dining hall to confirm that Heero wasn't there. Heading in, she looked into the kitchen to see if maybe he'd grown hungry and went about to make something to eat himself, but still he wasn't there. "He's not anywhere here, maybe he's up on the second level and lost his way to his room again." Turning to leave, something caught her eyes. The terrace door, it was unlocked and slightly open. "Or not. I shut and locked the doors myself. He might be outside."
Without needing to be told twice, Trowa crossed over and exited the doors, looking about to find the garden desolate except for the natural wildlife. Yet, things look like they'd been shaken up a bit, a patch of flowers near a smaller pond having been trampled. "Well, someone's been out here." Motioning for the others to follow, he began to trot along the "path of destruction" and scanned the large area for Heero. Turning the corner, he was glad to see that his friend sat near the wall of bushes, far from the palace walls. "Found him." Sprinting, he headed to where his friend resided, but became worried at seeing Heero's fear.
The troubled youth looked up with a sad smile to see Trowa and the others making their way to him. He didn't bother to wipe away any of his stray tears. He held the tiny animal in his cupped hands, close to his chest as Trowa kneeled by his side.
"Heero, you can't do that, you can't just go running off like that! We didn't know where you were and you scared us when we couldn't find you. You didn't tell us where you were going and you can get hurt if you go out like that by yourself." He listened to the others near, but quieted his voice when he realized that Heero's tears began to flow again and he cringed away from him. Gently placing a hand on his shoulder, Trowa tried to catch his averting eyes. "It's okay Heero, we were just worried about you. We don't want to see you getting hurt, that's all."
Looking up, he stared at the rest. "I'm sorry. Please help it..." Holding out his hands, he opened them to show everyone the small squirrel. It was just a baby, but it was still breathing too fast and shaking badly, blood still matting its fur and it didn't move from what it had when released. "I don't want it to die..."
Trowa looked at Heero, then held out his hand and gently stroked the small creature's back. Faith must have gotten a hold of it, it seemed. He wasn't sure if he could really do anything for the small animal, but the desperation and sincerity in Heero's eyes told him he had to try. "I'll try the best I can Heero." Taking the small creature softly into his own hands, he knew that it was old enough to leave the nest but it was just trying to make it on its own. "I'll try." Smiling, he rose from his crouched position and watched Heero do the same, the others looking at the tiny life he held in his hands.
Quatre smiled, offering Heero his hand and helping him up. Faith must have thought the squirrel a toy and gotten out of Heero's hands, making the mess of the flowers, and gotten the small animal, thus the fear and blood. And he knew that Trowa was good with animals, doing the best he could to try and save the poor thing. It'd set them back a bit, but that was okay. "It'd be easier to work inside."
Heero followed the others inside, Duo guiding him in and telling him that things would be okay and that they were just worried about him. He knew he was in trouble. If he had just stayed in Quatre's room until he was awake, he wouldn't have made everyone else worried and Faith wouldn't have ruined the flowers or gotten the baby squirrel. And if it died, it'd be his fault too.
Entering the dining hall, Trowa looked about. "Do you have a couple of towels I could use? We need to get the blood cleaned from it's wounds and then stitch them up or close them to stop the blood flow. By the looks of it, it's nothing major internal wise, except for losing blood and this little thing doesn't have much to spare. By any chance, some ether as well?"
Relena nodded and quickly scurried about. "There are some towels in the kitchen, the back left corner, the first cabinets. Surprisingly, we do have ether, just for the five of you when you visit. I'll be right back."
Nodding with a smile, Trowa went ahead and called out his next orders. "Duo, you and Quatre go and get me two towels and a washcloth. Like, a medium size or so. That, a large bowel and a smaller one filled with warm water, try not to make it one of the ones she uses for eating and dining. Oh no, Wufei. In my stuff upstairs, I have a small bag inside the book bag, it does have a small kit with sewing utensils and other things. Can you grab that for me?" The others left with their jobs, the worried, Japanese teen staying by his side as he wept quietly in fear and guilt. Looking over to Heero, Trowa smiled. "Don't worry, we're going to help him. You did good in saving him and trying to keep this little one warm and calm him down. If I remember right, he won't be able to go back to his nest, he's too old for that. So he'll need a home. Maybe we can take him with us and let him go around the circus area, there area always a lot of trees around and safe places for him. That way we can make sure he's all right. Go ahead and take a seat Heero, I won't let anything happen to it."
Heero did as he was told, watching Duo and Quatre come back into the room and set their things down and then stand back somewhat. "I know I'm in big trouble, but don't let it die. I don't want it to because I let Faith go. I don't want it to leave me too." Turning his face, he only stroked Faith who sat by his side, her head on his leg while she whined softly. Leaning his head against his arm, he hid his face in shame.
Wufei slowed his step, having raced up and back down the stairs easily. Dropping the bag, he watched Heero. "You aren't in trouble, you just had us worried until we found you. Faith pulled out of your hands when you weren't expecting her to, so you didn't know that Heero. That, and we won't let it die. This has more to do with you staying with Cathy, doesn't it?"
Trowa went ahead and softly instructed Duo, having the other teen put the two larger towels into the oversized bowl as he laid the creature down. Taking the wash cloth, he dipped a corner of it in the water and squeezed the excess water out with his fingers. Then, he softly washed the squirrels fur, careful around the edges of the three wounds inflicted by the dog's teeth. "Heero, you know we aren't going to leave you and go for good, don't you? You don't want this squirrel to die, but we can't take you with us because of that same fact. Death. We have to kill in battle, to save others but we have to kill none the less. If you came with, you'd have to do the same thing and you don't want to, I can tell that now. Neither do we, but we have to in battle to live, and to let others live, and we need to fight each battle to win this war for good. So we can come home again. So we don't have to kill anymore and see others die. If we didn't fight, this would go on forever and hurt everyone. That's what makes us different as gundam pilots, we are fighting to end the war and bring peace, but keep the colonies and the people free. We're pretty much the only ones who can win this battle, just like Relena and a few others are the only ones that can really bring peace when this war is over and make people see that peace is the answer. We'll only be gone for a little while, but never for good. Cathy will know how to get a hold of us, and we'll send updates whenever we can. And you can talk to us, with letters and emails or by talking when we can call. We're not trying to leave or hurt you, but we want to end this war and get it over with as soon as possible so that we can come back to our homes and no more people have to die."
Quatre placed his hands on Heero's shoulders, trying to comfort him. "Trowa's right, you can always get a hold of us when you need someone to talk to. And when this is all over, we'll come back and never have to leave again."
Relena entered with the bottle of ether, her heart breaking at seeing Heero. His head laid upon his arm on the table, tears dropping to his legs and onto the floor. The young woman wasn't sure what he was crying for, so she remained silent, but she wanted to comfort him so. Just as she had so many times before this, yet each time he'd forced her away. She'd learned than to do so, and if he ever let anyone comfort him, it were his friends and comrades in arms. Yet he'd changed, but he was also still somewhat wary of her. Did she dare to? Chiding herself mentally, she only walked over to Trowa's side, placing the ether on the table. "Is it okay?"
Trowa traced the wash cloth along the squirrels head and down its back, the little creature calming somewhat. "It will be if we can just close the bite wounds quickly and keep it calm. It should be." Placing the tiny animal on the bed of towels, he took a dry corner of the cloth and opened the ether, soaking the tip. Then, he placed the cloth just before the squirrel's nose and let it inhale the smell. After a few seconds, the little thing was calmed down, its eyes closing as Trowa moved the cloth quickly. If it inhaled too much, it could kill the animal. With nimble fingers, he quickly took a needle and threaded it, then picked up the animal and went about his work. He only needed to put a stitch or two in each of the puncture wounds, then to wrap up the small one's mid-section so that it wouldn't get at them. "I'm almost done Heero, and he's calmed down a lot with the help of the ether. As long as he doesn't start getting feisty and go after the stitches, he'll be just fine."
Looking up, he began to dry his tears with the sleeve of his shirt and a small smile. "Thank you, Trowa..." was his soft call, for he was all too grateful.
"Hey, how do you know it's a he, Trowa?" Duo questioned, having taken a seat in front of Heero and tried to keep assuring him that things would be okay.
"You only spend so much time around animals Duo, before you can tell. That, and it's what separates him, reproductive wise, from being a female." Smirking, he gently but firmly wrapped the gauze around the squirrel's middle and tied it securely but not too tightly. Laying the small animal back in the new nest, he folded a part of the thicker towel and covered the creature, keeping it warm as it slept. "It should be out for a little while longer, do you have a small box that we could use? I want to keep an eye on it, so that it heals properly and without trouble. My old shirt is nothing but a worn rag now, so we can use that as bedding." Looking at Relena as she pondered over this idea, he smiled down at Heero. "He's going to be just fine, thanks to you."
Without a word, Relena headed into the kitchen upon seeing a small smile light Heero's face. Rummaging through the kitchen, she found a small box filled with older kitchen utensils that were kept around but not used often enough to place in the drawers. Dumping the contents out onto the counter and entered the dining hall once more. "Here, will this work?"
Nodding, he took the box and set it on the table, then jogged out of the room, taking the stairs two to three at a time and down the hall towards his room. They hadn't eaten, but they had to get going or they'd never make it in time for anything but to sleep. He didn't want to disappoint Heero either, he was so excited about seeing his first show and he could really use some fun right now. He seemed to feel bad enough as it was. Figuring he'd make it easy, he jumped over the railing and to the floor, not bothering with the twenty-some steps.
Heero watched as Trowa entered the room, quickly placing the old, black turtle-neck on the table and listening as Relena told him that he could keep and use the towels. So, he took them, placing them in the small box and spreading them out along the length of it, then picked the tiny squirrel up once more, placing the old shirt in the box, then the squirrel on it and using his shirt to fold into a blanket for the little one. After that, he closed the flaps for the lid, bending them so they laid with on side on another flap, one side covered. Rising, he yawned and looked at the others, then to Relena. "I'm sorry Miss Relena, Faith ran through your pretty flowers and messed up your garden and I shouldn't have let her go. I'm sorry for making you all worried and for not telling you. I'm really sorry." Sighing, he began to walk from the room, his head hanging as he held onto Faith's leash tightly and went to get his shoes. He knew that the others had to look for him and that he'd probably make them late, but he went to get his shoes none the less and to come back, ready to leave.
Relena watched him begin to leave, but crossed by the table and took his hand up in hers, holding it gently but firmly. Standing in front of him, she smiled softly. "Heero, it's okay. The garden can be fixed and the flowers replaced, but we can't replace another one of you. We were just worried, we don't want to lose you. But things are going to be okay, and you shouldn't be so mad at yourself, everything's going to be all right. Just give us fair warning next time. Smile a little bit, it suits you better." Using her other hand to delicately take his chin in her hands, she raised his face to hers, their eyes locking. He searched them, implored them, and she kept her gaze, smiling when his eyes lit up once more with a life that she hadn't seen very often. With him in this state, unless he grew out of it, they'd be no more than friends. But if they were friends, that would make her happy none the less.
"Okay," was his soft reply, a grin spreading across his lips. He only continued to his room to grab his things without a word, feeling Quatre follow him and lead him back toward the steps.
~+~
Smiling, Heero sat silently while the others talked, preparing to leave. In one hand, he held the box, the baby squirrel awake but it was still somewhat dazed from the ether, and in the other he held his dog's leash tightly. At last, they were heading to their final destination, Heero's new home for a span of time. He was going to miss the palace, Relena was really nice to him and he trusted her as he did the others.
"Heero, are ya ready buddy?" Duo piped up.
His smile fading somewhat, he nodded. "I am. Faith wants to play again, though."
Relena giggled, smiling. "Well, then I'm sure she can't wait to get to the circus, she'll have a wonderful time." Pulling her hands from behind her back, she held a delicately wrapped object, a small card and white ribbon tied to it. Holding it out, she watched Trowa take the box from Heero and the young man reach out for the object. "I'm not sure when your birthday is and I've been saving this, especially since the last time we met near my birthday, I received a very special teddy bear from you, and a happy birthday card. Don't open it yet, when you're on the road. You take care of yourselves, all of you. And especially you Heero. Faith, you better keep this young man out of trouble, okay?" She bent to pet the dog again as Heero took the object meant for him.
Faith only barked and wagged her tail in response.
"Good." Relena couldn't help but smile.
Heero looked over to the young woman, having to remember to put her birthday down so he wouldn't forget it. He had a feeling he knew, but he wasn't for sure. Averting his eyes, he looked at the ground and spoke. "Thank you Miss Relena. Is it okay to hug a princess?"
Relena looked somewhat shocked, but a giant smile crossed her face seconds later. "You're welcome Heero, and I'm sure you can, and I wouldn't mind one." Refraining herself from doing anything she shouldn't, she hugged the young man back and had to remember that he had changed.
~+~
Heero laid on the seat again, not really all that tired but it calmed Faith down because she really wanted to play and she didn't when she thought he was asleep. Looking at the ceiling, he listened to the music that Trowa was and began to think. "Why did I feel different when I hugged Miss Relena?"
Trowa was caught off guard by the sudden question, having seen Heero lay down and believing him to sleep, but evidently he was wrong. Smirking, he answered his friend's question with a question of his own. "What do you mean different?"
Heero didn't know how to say it, it was just-different. Thinking, he tried to say what he felt. "She made me smile when I didn't want to and I thought I was in a lot of trouble. She always made me happy, but I felt really glad and unhappy when she gave me the present. Then she said I gave her a teddy and she loved it and I wanted to get her another one to make her happier." He wasn't really understanding this.
Smirking, Trowa nodded. "Do you remember her, before that night?" He knew that the other youth would recall which night.
Shuddering slightly, Heero tried to push past the pain, the place, and see before it. "No."
Sighing, he nodded. "Well, even before that, you knew Miss Relena and were always extremely careful about keeping her at a distance but protecting her with your life. When we first met, you had just self-destructed Zero in battle and Quatre was worried for and about you, but I took you in and with the help of Cathy, nursed you back to health. I'd realized more about you than I ever could have known from facts and logical thinking, that, and more about myself. You cared greatly for Relena, as she does you, but you didn't admit any of it as anything more than friendship. I was uncertain at the time and you'd said that "the only way for a person to live a good life is to follow their emotions." Well, I advise you of the same thing. Have you ever felt love Heero? Besides that of a family?"
Thinking, Heero wasn't sure. He cared a lot for the others because they were his family, and he loved Faith because she was his friend and dog, and he loved Wing Zero because he was his, and like an old friend that he could always trust. But Trowa said besides those things. With Relena, he cared about her a lot too, but it was different than he cared for his friends. Somehow, it just was. "I-I'm not sure."
Smiling, he spoke again. "Well, then you'll realize it in due time, but don't trouble yourself over it now. You still haven't opened her present." Motioning toward the dashboard, he spared his Japanese friend a glance as he quickly tried to sit up, the dog not wanting him to move.
That was right, he hadn't opened her present. He was still very curious as to what it was. Taking the card, he opened it and read it aloud.
"You've always been there for me when I needed you, or to let a smile drift to my face just by being in the room. You push me away, but I fear that my heart won't let me leave, so I am still by all, loyally yours. I hope you find use of this gift, and from now on, I only accept gifts by person. Until we meet again.
Yours truly, Relena "
Looking confused at the card, he put it down and carefully undid the ribbon, then the wrapping paper from where it was taped. It was pretty and he didn't want to ruin a nice job. Pulling back the last portion of the paper, he reached for the leather-bound book, turning it over to find a giant, golden eagle imprinted and painted on the front of it. Other animals decorated the sides, a fox with the name "Duo" underneath, a dragon with "Wufei", a wolf with "Quatre", and a falcon with "Trowa". The eagle was the biggest and sat in the middle, his animal. His first name was painted in gold, cursive letters at the top of it; a small leather strap held it shut with Velcro on its side. Opening it, he found a silvery pen, unused, just for him, a golden ribbon for a page marker. His eyes were wide in fascination and amazement, but yet he read what was on the first, inside page.
"Use this journal as you see fit, but it has a part of all of us within it; a gift from all of those who care for you and about your life. From your friends." And still, there was another message within the page.
"The mighty wolf, wisdom far beyond thy years holds sanctuary within this creature. Swift and true, its loyalties never lie. Though it may be weaker than the other beasts of the forest, the wolf is thy companion, its strength proving itself in times of need.
The Falcon, creature of flight and keeper of the skies, is quick to aid those in need. His decisions, for the greater good of those around him, his skills, surpass his age by generations. Take careful note with this bird, for he can be quick to strike out, yet a friend that will never fail. Make him thy friend, he is true to you and will be by thy side, but make him thy enemy, and he shall seek a swift retribution.
The Fox, animal of swiftness, cunning, and deceit. He is the humble trickster, smart in his ways and knows how to fool the eye. Yet, he knows when it's time to hide, or when to fight. Small yes, but do not forgo your strength in pity, for one may not judge by appearance. He is strong and fierce, a good ally but hard to keep his loyalties. Find your way past his barriers and to his heart, and you'll never find yourself alone or without hope, for he always carries another "trick up his sleeve".
The Dragon, strong in power and that of justice. He must do as he sees fit, to rectify the mistakes made by those who are foolish and to deal punishment to those who do not seek compensation for his actions. Living the life of loneliness, it takes one strong of heart to reach him, and once thy loyalties are won, thou needst never fear. For thou has made a good friend, and nothing will sway the dragon's heart from such a thing.
And yet, the mighty Eagle. Master of the skies and heavens above, strength, agility, skill, wisdom, justice, truth. All four of the other animals combined, he holds their characteristics. A bird of independence, he seeks to be alone, no one may tame his wild spirit as no one may catch the wind within thy hand. But yet, only one will truly make their way past his walls and fortresses to his heart, to tame the wildness within his body and soul. Though allies he may have, they cannot limit his spirit without feeling his wrath. Only the gentle winds and the call of the wild can sooth him, yet the song of a dove is but the only thing that can capture his heart. A true friend and ally, make him not thy enemy, but have patience to push past his protective walls and make him thy brother. And you will never regret thy decision, for you will never be alone, but always the watchful eye in the sky, keeping notice of you and safety for you.
Made in special dedication to Heero Yuy"
Trowa listened, smiling. It was true, only a dove's song could quell the eagles wild spirit, and Relena had done that since the day she and Heero met, whether he wanted to admit it or not. "Well, she put a lot of thought into that one for you."
Heero nodded, smiling and holding the journal within his hands, closing the binding and gracing his fingers over the designs of the eagle. He knew that this animal was meant to symbolize him, and he was fascinated by the outline and detail. "I love it..."
Shaking his head, he looked out over the horizon, finding the familiar tops of the circus tent just ahead. "Look, we're almost there." He pointed in the direction and watched Heero gaze at it, his smile becoming larger.
With anxious eyes, he scanned the horizon and found the large tent of which his friend spoke. They were almost there. Faith jumping up and looking out the front window told him that she knew as well. "We're almost there Faith. Then you can play, but you've got to behave." A small scratching and a chattering inside the box drew his attention to it, the squirrel was awake.
Trowa noticed this as well, smiling. "Sounds like he's feeling better. We'll go ahead and take a look at him when we get to the fair grounds, then he can have some food and water. He'll be fine for a few more minutes, as long as Faith doesn't try and get to him again." He could tell by the numerous people running about that they were getting ready for the evening's show. The familiar faces and welcoming surroundings made him feel at home once more. Slowly turning into the long, gravel road, he watched the others' heads look up, smiling and waving at his return.
Cathy listened to the commotion, not thinking anything of it but instead concentrated on practicing her aim. She was skilled, but everyone needs their practice. Stopping a friend that worked at one of the booths, she looked at her giant smile in curiosity. "What is everyone fussing about?"
The young woman looked at her as if she were crazy. "You didn't know your brother's back?"
Cathy smiled, forgetting her practice and tossing all the daggers that she had left at the target before running to meet her brother. The others were excited that one of their star performers were back, but they weren't swarming the vehicles. Looking as the truck parked, she only smiled and called her greeting. "If you liked to take any longer Trowa, we'd be done and moved on before you got here."
Nodding to Heero, he waited of the dog to be connected the leash before he opened the door, Heero exiting on his side. "We had something to take care of before we left. Don't lie, you didn't miss me."
Smirking, Cathy gave her brother a hug, regardless of whether he cared on not. "Who would miss a trouble-making, tag-a-long little brother like you?" Giggling softly as the others exited the second truck, she shook her head. "Of course we did. Welcome home, even if you won't stay for anything longer than a week at a time or so. What else did you have to take care of?" Looking over curiously, she watched Heero cross over to Trowa's side, yet stayed behind him and held the dog leash. Heero, with a dog? And shying away from her? It was different, that was for sure, yet she knew why and pity filled her. The others joined them and she spared them each a smile.
"I'll tell you later. Heero, come on. It's okay, she won't hurt you. This is my sister, Cathrine. Cathy, I believe you already know Heero here. Faith will be staying with him as well, the greyhound." Placing his hand on the other youth's shoulder, he led Heero up to his side and tried to coax him into meeting his sister's gaze.
Duo piped up at this. "Don't worry Heero, she's nice or can be. We met rather.... differently and under different circumstances."
Heero looked up from the ground, catching her soft smile and giving a small grin of his own. Looking back at the others, he wasn't sure if they were going to leave him when he got comfortable with Cathrine around or not. He didn't want them to, this was all new to him. This place, these people.
Cathy, seeing his uncertainty, held out her hand to show him she meant no harm. Holding it palm up, she watched him look at it in curiosity. "I'm glad you've come to stay with us Heero, I'm sure you'll love it here. Most of my jobs are helping to take care of the animals, and you can too. Do you want to see them? They're big, but nice. It's okay, I won't hurt you like Trowa said." Holding her hand steady as he slowly placed his in hers, she closed her fingers around his with a kind smile. "My little brother was telling me that you've never seen a show before. Well, we'll be sure to make this one you won't forget. The grounds aren't really set up, but you're welcome to go ahead and wander around and look at things, just be careful. Or, you can go ahead and sit in the tent, it's cooler in there and you can watch the different acts practice. It won't be a lot of what's in the show, that's mainly done out here, but most of the time it's just working with the animals. To get them ready."
Heero watched her, feeling somewhat better about being around her now that he knew she was nice, but he still didn't want to leave his friends. "I'm not sure." His voice was soft as he looked back to the others.
Trowa nodded, a gentle smile on his lips. "It's okay, we need to take care of the little guy in the truck first anyway. You can also stay and rest in Cathy's trailer, it's air conditioned and roomy, if you want to rest. I'll have to leave you all on your own for a little while though, I need to do something and work with a couple of the animals to help for tonight's show and Cathy has to work on her act a little bit." Motioning toward his sister's trailer, he spoke again. "It'd be easier to take care of him in there, it's a bit hot out here and he can stay where it's cool. Duo, why don't you go ahead and get the box out of the passenger side, it should be on the floor. We can grab your journal later, okay Heero?"
With a growing smile, he nodded and kneeled down, not bothering much to pull his hand from Cathy's as he began to stroke Faith. "See Faith, this is our new home, we're gonna stay here. There's lots of room for us to play and Cathy is really nice. Go ahead and say hi, Faith." Releasing the dog's collar, he watched her cross over to Trowa's sister, sniff her legs, then jump up on the young woman. Grabbing the leash and standing, he was about to call Faith back when he saw that Cathy didn't move, but let the dog jump on her and began to pet her.
Laughing softly, the young woman let the dog give her a couple of kisses, rubbing her back and scratching behind her ears with both hands. "She's a sweet-heart and she is really pretty. Especially her blue eyes. Faith is a good name for her, and I'm sure she'll love it here Heero, there most definitely will be enough room for the both of you to play." Giggling, she watched Duo return with a box in curiosity. Leading them away, glad that Heero held her hand comfortably, almost like a little boy, she headed toward her trailer. "You'd better change Trowa if you're going to go ahead and work with the animals. You know better."
Trowa nodded, looking to the others as they followed his sister. "She's adopted them both already."
Quatre laughed softly in agreement. "By the smile on his face, Heero's taken to this place and Cathy quickly and far better than we could have expected."
Wufei smirked. "He has, and that's good. He should be safe here, and have the time of his life in the meanwhile. One question that still plagues me though, when we leave, what will he do before each show when your sister is preparing her act?"
Trowa watched Heero look at Enchantress, their largest and oldest female, white, Siberian tiger work with her trainer. She wasn't all that old and she kept the others in check. "He seems quite taken with the animals as well. He'll be able to help Cathy or the animal trainers and work with the animals, or wherever he's needed. He'll learn quickly, and things aren't that hard around here. They wouldn't let him do anything too big or that he could get hurt badly doing. But he can help, it'd pass the time, and an extra hand can always be used."
Duo added at this. "Sounds like fun, and yet you'd rather be working now than lounging about when you can?"
"I can't. I have to work with the animals. It'll all make sense later, and Quatre, I know you know what I was thinking; so keep quiet. Here we are." Turning and smiling, he knew that Quatre would keep quiet for a while, he just wasn't sure how long he could handle Duo. The young American was bound to persist until Quatre told or Wufei probably threatened him.
~+~
Sitting backstage, Trowa looked at Cathy as she fixed her hair and makeup in the mirror. Laughing softly as she posed, he only shook his head and continued with his costume when she shot her gaze at him. "Sometimes, I worry about you Sis."
Giggling softly, Cathy looked at her little brother. "You laughed, it's been a while since you did that. Learning to open up are we?"
"Only until I have to go back Cathy, you know that." Letting his smile falter, he put on his welcome mask and sighed.
"Are you okay Trowa?"
"I'm fine Sis, just wish this war was over." Standing, he walked to the curtain and watched the people file in, sitting and crowding on the wooden benches. He pushed the curtain aside enough to look, but not enough for anyone to see him. Spotting his small group of friends, he smirked. Faith wasn't allowed in the tent, it'd be crowded as it was, so she stayed in Cathy's trailer, the squirrel in Cathy's room and in a small cage that was big enough for it and its "nest", but the bars small enough so that it couldn't get out. Faith couldn't get to him, he couldn't get out and into everything or have a chance to get caught in the dog's jaws again. They sat near the isle as advised, that was good. He'd stopped Zita, she was working with Enchantress and she used the tigers in her acts, curious as to what she was doing earlier and to find out what she was doing for an act. She's told him it was her regular working with the large cats, but she was teaching them to listen to others and not her commands until she made a certain motion. It was almost like sign language. She'd wanted to get the audience involved, having them use trained tigers to follow the commands of other people but rebel to her for the time being. They'd be random people from the audience. His only request was, to see if she couldn't get Heero down there and enjoying himself. She agreed and knew who to look for and where. A hand on his shoulder made him jump slightly and whirl about to find a sympathetic sister.
"Trowa, don't worry. They'll be fine and Heero will be fine with us here, but when you leave as I've learned you must, end this war swiftly and come home safe, and for good. All of you." Smiling, she hugged her brother again and released him to find a small grin.
"I will, don't worry." Taking a deep breath, he listened to the manager speak, introducing the circus and some of the things they'd see. Trowa would go ahead and start the show after the introductions and the animal tamers grabbed the attention of the people with the more exotic animals. Cathy would end it, the true star giving the crowd one last memory to take with them. Taking a few steps, he turned to look at Lerado, his partner in most of his acts. The giant lion remained quiet, letting Trowa stroke the beast's head. "Let's do this Lerado, give them something to laugh about and enjoy themselves. I'm counting on you, we haven't practiced this a lot, so I really need you to help me now. Okay? Good. Go ahead and let them know you're here." Trowa listened to the manager speak, then urged the lion to roar behind the curtains.
Heero listened intently, his interest drawn as he sat with the others, hearing the lion roar. "Isn't Trowa going to come watch?"
Quatre laughed softly and spoke quietly. "Don't worry, he's watching this. You'll know in a minute."
Duo shot Quatre a glare, the Arabian hadn't broken like he'd hoped. "C'mon Quatre, please tell me?"
Wufei silenced the persistent pilot. "You'll know soon enough, now be silent baka."
The manager continued with the act. "It seems we may have a little bit of a problem, our great lion, Lerado, seems to have gotten out. But don't worry, there is one that can find him, with your help." Standing out of the spotlight, he headed behind the curtain as the spotlight was focused on the entrance to the ring.
Heero watched, somewhat scared for his friends. If the lion had gotten out, someone could get hurt. "Will Trowa be okay?"
"He'll be just fine, he knows what he's doing." Quatre assured.
Trowa took his cue, doing a triple back flip out into the ring, catching the oo's and ah's of the people. With a final push, he catapulted himself into the air with his arms, doing a double twist, flip, then final spin so that he was facing the audience and landed with ease. He actually smiled to the crowd, raising his hands in the air and catching his friend's surprised and approving expressions. Not saying a word, he pretended to look around, catching Lerado's roar backstage and looking about some more as if he hadn't a clue. Walking around the outside of the ring, he quickly gazed back at hearing everyone's gasps and knew it was all up to Lerado now. Pretending to think, he held one hand to his side, a scrap of meat in his hand for he'd also asked that Lerado be fed little so that he was still hungry. Resting his chin on his other hand as his elbow rested on his other arm, he kept pondering. Finally, he raised his hands in defeat, shrugging his shoulders clueless as he felt the lion sneak up behind him.
The crowd screamed at this. "Behind you! He's behind you!"
Giving them a final minute, he turned a second after Lerado pounced, heading and looking behind him where the lion once stood. This go a laugh out of everyone as they watched the stunned lion.
Heero watched, worry filling his being as he watched the lion ready to pounce on Trowa, but smiled when Trowa moved at the last minute. "He didn't see him."
Quatre laughed as his friend continued the game of cat-and-mouse. "No, he didn't. It's okay, Trowa's trying to find him but Lerado isn't going to hurt him, they're just playing." Assuring Heero, they watched the act, Trowa looking all over but never finding Lerado.
'Last time, pull it off Lerado and land on the platform.' Sitting in front of the circular step, he listened to Lerado pounce and steady on the platform before he turned, a giant smile on his face as he gave the lion the food. Listening to the crowd cheer and applaud, many rising to their feet and giving a standing ovation, he stroked Lerado and looked to his other friends. "Great job Lerado, you did it again. Now, let's go ahead and get this show started." Pushing the lion softly, he watched the creature head towards the audience, circling about as he did another back flip, pushing himself into the air with a triple twist and coming down into a one-handed hand stand on the lions back, riding him out of the ring and backstage. Once there, he listened to the manager introduce the next act, Lerado stopping and settling down.
Cathy trotted over to her brother, having watched. "That was a great show Trowa, and I think that's the first time I've seen you smile out there! You really got the crowd on their feet and laughing." Hugging him from behind, she laughed as he struggled to keep his balance.
"Well, Lerado did what he was supposed to, exceptionally well considering that he only practiced it for a few hours. You can eat now partner, you did great." Letting the animal trainers take him away, he smiled and quickly began to change.
"What are you doing Trowa?"
"Changing, why?"
"Don't you remember? We all go out a final time at the end of the show, you'd just have to put everything on again." Shaking her head, the young woman only smirked.
Thinking, he put his mask down upon the table and looked back at her. "It's been a little while, and with everything that's happened, it's easy to forget." Sighing, he walked over and watched the acrobats enter the ring. "When's Zita up?"
Looking at him curiously, she smiled. "What, she becoming your girlfriend or something?"
Shooting her a glare, he shook his head. "No, I'd asked a favor of her, and I want to watch Heero when he's working with Enchantress."
"I see, you went ahead and asked her to pick him as one of the three audience tamers." Giggling, she listened to the crowd cheer and laugh, seeing their faces light up as she gazed through the curtain.
Walking up beside her, he leaned against one of the posts. "I just wanted to see him have some fun, he was really shaken up after the escape, and then broken-hearted when we told him we had to leave and that he'd be staying with Relena. Who he was staying with changed, but nothing else. We tried to make it easier on him, and right now, he could really use some fun. He still has Zero, though it's with Sally, but he knows how to fly thanks to Quatre's help. Yet, Quatre has a few bruises to sport for Heero's, professional maneuvers when he was just supposed to be relearning. That, and the journal Relena got him, and we're just trying to make it easier. I'll have to program your computer to immediately connect to Heavyarms should you need to get a hold of us. We'll call whenever and if I can finally get into Heero's laptop, I can program your computer to email to that and so that we can get it. He wouldn't remember the passwords to get past the firewalls, but we don't really have a computer that we can gain access to all the time, nor the same one. We'll try and visit when we can as well, he knows all this, and has accepted it, yet he isn't going to like it in the slightest. Oh, and if you move near any OZ bases for a show, try not to let him get out too much, he'll be easily recognized by the soldiers and he gets really nervous around them. It'd be best to pre- warn him, then expect nightmares and extreme uneasiness, but I don't want him to be by himself. Especially during times like those. They'll take him captive again and he won't know what to do or how to defend himself, they won't believe that he doesn't know anything any longer and they'll just hurt him again Cathy."
Placing her hand on his shoulder, she watched him turn to her. "I will take care of him just like I do you. Like a little brother. I won't let him out of my sight and no one will hurt him again. Don't worry Trowa, he'll be fine. If anything does happen, I know that I can stall long enough after telling you so that you can get there to help if I can't handle it myself, and Heero will be safe. I swear it Trowa." With a sympathetic smile, she watched a small one grace his lips. "You really do look so much better out there when you smile. You really do look so much better when you smile period."
Letting his smile grow, he only shook his head. "I'll have enough to smile about later, after this damned war. We all will."
Zita looked over to find Trowa and Cathy standing by the exit from the ring, her tigers growing impatient behind her but Enchantress kept them quiet, knowing the drill and what was expected. "Trowa!" She called just above a whisper, waving over to him. "Where's he at?"
"Isle seat, middle section, the left side of the fifth isle." He called back, watching the final moves by the acrobats. He would have been one, but being a clown, he was hidden by the mask and clothes, even if they were goofy looking. He need not fear of his identity being revealed.
"My left or their left?"
"Yours."
Nodding, she watched the two siblings move and the acrobats leave the ring, the manager introducing her act. With an anticipating sigh, she grinned and swung her leg over Enchantress's back, she always rode the tiger out and the people welcomed her. "Ready girl?" At receiving a look from the large feline, she ushered her out at a gallop, into the ring. "Go Chant." The five tigers followed in knowing. Throwing her hands into the air, she watched the tigers circle the ring, the last three falling out into the middle of the stage, standing side by side. On the second round in the circle, the last two tigers left Chant's lead and raced toward the crowd, jumping upon the others and forming the second level of the pyramid. This was something new she was trying. With a final urge, she held onto Enchantress's coat and braced herself. "Now Chant," she whispered in the cat's ear. "This is your turn. I trust you." With a final leap, she and Chant landed on the backs of the top two tigers, forming the pyramid as the people cheered. With a soft kick, she urged Chant to jump down, forming the circle again, rounding once by herself, the second time with two more cats, the third with all five trailing her. Her equipment and everything was set up for everyone. Stopping before everyone, she watched the other cats line up behind Enchantress.
Heero stared on in awe, the woman that road the tiger was the same one he saw before, she was pretty and she looked really nice. The white tigers were also very beautiful, strong but graceful. Clapping with the others, he watched the tigers spread out and lay down, the biggest tiger following the lady back to the middle of the rink. When everything quieted down, music could be heard, it didn't have any words but it was energetic and moving, the guitars and drums driving the tempo on.
Smirking, Trowa nodded in approval. "She's finally got the pyramid down, how long did it take her?"
Cathy hid her laughter. "Three months."
"She's done pretty good. Now, just to go on with the show." Yawning, he realized how truly tired he was from the day. Looking at his sister, he knew he should have stifled it.
"You're going to bed when this is all over Trowa."
"What? I'm fine and there is a lot to be done still in cleaning up after the show. You may have done it without me, but that doesn't mean that now that I'm here, I don't have to do anything just because I'm back. Don't look at me like that Cathy." Sighing, he knew that even if he did help clean up after the show and put everything away, he'd never hear the end of it until he was asleep. Then it was going to be a long night for the both of them.
With a look of disapproval, Cathrine turned back to watching the acts. Zita was still trying to get Chant to listen to her.
Zita had already given Chant the signal to ignore her commands, so she tried harder as the crowd laughed. "Enchantress, you climb up here." With a sigh, she climb up to show the cat what she meant and watched it walk away. "Hey, where do you think you're going?"
Heero laughed softly, enjoying the circus and his first show. The others had said that he'd like it, and he didn't just like it, he loved it. Even Wufei was laughing some. Turning back, he watched the young woman try and get the tiger to listen to her.
Turning to the crowd, she spoke. "Oh, you all think you can do better? Let's see, then I need someone to come down here and show me to do it right if you all think so." Watching hands pop into the air, she walked straight into the audience and chose a girl about the age of seven, a young boy about the age of twelve, and finally, she turned to look again. "Hey, I didn't say we were going anywhere guys, get back here you six. The act isn't done yet." She got a laugh out of the people as the tigers came back to their spots reluctantly and laid down. They were meant to do that, called back by a few of the circus trainers. Walking about, she finally came to Heero and held out her hand. "I think I've found three of the best tiger tamers there is, come on."
Heero looked up at her in uncertainty, then over to Quatre.
"It's okay Heero, go ahead and go with her. We'll be right here and she needs your help." Smiling, he watched his friend take her hand and followed her down.
Zita smiled, he was reluctant now but he'd have fun, she'd see to it personally. Standing him next to the other two, she went ahead and asked their names, having them speak into her microphone. Then she assigned them each a tiger, taking one of the others as Chant went to Heero. "Let's give these brave tiger tamers another hand." She let the applause quell itself, quickly giving the signal to Tigger. "Okay, let's see if I can't get this another time. Tigger, on the step." She used her hands to command the tiger into laying down. As the audience laughed, she walked over to the three other people in the ring and looked at them as they laughed. "Think it's funny? Let's see you do better. Go ahead Jason, take Trinity and see if you can do anything with her." Sighing in "defeat", she watched the boy take the tiger over to the platform. "Go ahead and tell her where to go, then point to it and maybe she'll do something."
The young boy, Jason, did as he was instructed. Watching the tiger climb up, he laughed as the crowd did.
Zita walked over, an amazed look on her face as she played along. "Well, maybe you were just lucky. Trinity, down." She used her hands to motion for "hide". The tiger hid her eyes with her paws, then looked up and hid her face again. Looking down, she found Jason trying to keep himself from collapsing to the ring floor. "I suppose you could do better?"
Jason pointed to the ground, having gotten the hang of this commanding thing and called between laughs. "Down Trinity." The tiger jumped from the step and he was instructed to join the others, the crowd applauding.
"Let's give this young man a hand, he's got to be Doctor DoLittle himself." Zita smiled as the kid took it overboard and turned, bowing dramatically and even getting a laugh out of her. "You can go ahead and sit back down Jason, you've managed to show me up. You did a great job." Smiling, she watched Trinity lay along the ring in her spot. "Okay Kalina, let's see if Dæmon will work. Dæmon, come." She motioned for him to turn around and head in the other direction. "Dæmon stop!" Sitting on the ground in "frustration", she watched the others laugh and Kalina giggle as she petted the tiger. "Dæmon doesn't like working for just anyone, Kalina. Go for it if you think you can."
Kalina, having seen Jason, walked to Zita's side with Dæmon at her side. "What do you want him to do?"
Biting her bottom lip, she thought. "I bet you can't get him to go on the slide." Smiling, she watched Kalina lead the tiger over to the slide.
"Get up there Dæmon." She pointed to the top and watched the tiger climb. Looking over her shoulder, she fell into giggles at Zita's face, her eyes wide and her jaw dropped. "Come down." Pointing to the end, she watched the tiger do as he was told. The crowd cheered loudly and she blushed from the attention.
"I'm just having a bad day. Are you Mrs. DoLittle?"
Sticking out her tongue and pretending to gag, boys still had cooties at this time, she shook her head viciously and got another laugh from the crowd.
"Okay, go ahead and sit down Kalina. You did great. Let's all give Kalina another round of applause."
The crowd did so.
Heero hoped that his tiger would work for him, he watched the other two but felt shy and nervous in front of all these people. Petting Enchantress, he felt her nose nudge his hand and he smiled slightly. He wasn't feeling so good again. Looking up, he found Zita walking over to him.
Skillfully clicking off her battery pack to the mic, she walked over and put a hand on his shoulder. With a soft voice while the crowd chattered, she looked at him and spoke. "It's okay Heero, this is going to be just fine. Trowa told me all about you. He said you were really good with animals and I had to see for myself, so, how about we show these people how it's done. There's nothing to be afraid of, she likes you and will listen. Are you going to help me?"
Heero looked at her, calming down somewhat. Nodding, he watched her turn her mic back on and waited for his instructions.
"Okay, now there have been two people that have made two of the worst tigers I've had listen to them. They're not bad, they just don't listen." She heard the people laugh and smiled. "Now, Enchantress, or Chant, always listens to me, but I think she found someone she liked better. She won't listen to me, so maybe you can get her to work for you Heero and finish the show. How about it?"
Heero nodded again, smiling. He could hear the people clapping and cheering, just for him. He could hear Duo's loud shouts of encouragement too. "Okay."
Trying one more time, Zita verbally commanded the tiger to circle again but with her hands, she told her to go backstage. "Hey hey hey! Where do you think you're going missy?" The tiger only came back and laid down, looking away from Zita. "I give up, see if you can't get her to circle." Winking at Heero, she stood back and took a seat on the metal steps, just outside the ring.
Heero nodded, walking out toward the center of the ring, Chant following. Kneeling, he began to stroke the tigress's head and speak softly to her. "Let's finish this, like Zita said. Make the others proud, okay?" Standing, he pointed toward the outside of the ring and said in a firm voice loud enough for everyone to hear. "Circle Chant."
Enchantress took off immediately, circling around and having the other five follow her lead. She kept circling, never quitting until commanded otherwise.
Zita stood and ran to Heero's side, smiling. "Well, I'll be. If you were bribing her, then I'm in big trouble."
Heero shook his head and laughed. "I just told her we had to work now."
Sighing, she watched the tigers circle, another "amazed" look upon her face. "Well, that's good. Now, let's see how good you really are. I want you to go ahead and get Chant to lead the others on the step, they'll jump from there up the ramp and down the slide, around, up this other ramp, and on through this ring." She pointed to the raised ring.
Heero nodded, knowing what to do as if he had commanded like this before. "Okay." Looking out, he caught Chant watching him. Standing next to the step, he pointed at it and called out. "Enchantress, up." The tiger followed his command, the others doing the same as he moved to the ramp near the slide, pointing first to the top then the bottom of the slide, then walking around to the other ramp where Chant circled around and on up to jump through the hoop. The five tigers followed in suite. After he was done, a loud explosion was heard near the ring, sending up colored smoke and streamers into the air, getting surprised cries, oo's and ah's once again from the crowd.
Zita laughed, placing her hand on Heero's shoulder to keep him calm and quickly telling him that it was supposed to happen. She had forgotten to tell him earlier and Trowa had said that he might be scared. "It's okay Heero, you did everything perfectly and that was supposed to happen. Don't be afraid."
Heero stood where he was, somewhat shaken but he kept fairly calm. Smiling, he watched the smoke clear and heard the thundering applause as people rose from their seats and clapped for him, his friends cheering louder and Duo shouting above the crowd and rooting him on.
Quickly signaling to the tigers, she called her commands once the others hand seen her hand gestures. "Chant, stop." The six felines stopped and raised their heads as meant to, releasing a victorious call. "Well, they listen now. I've heard of a horse-whisperer, but you've got to be the tiger-whisperer. Or cat-whisperer, whichever you choose. Let's give him another round of applause ladies and gentleman for a job well done!" Raising her left hand, she let her right stay on his shoulder as she caught his smile.
Heero couldn't hide his smile, feeling it grow larger on his face. Everyone was proud of him and he did a good job. He was going to like it here. Receiving the go ahead, he quickly made his way back to his seat to watch the rest of the show.
Zita smiled, finishing her act and leaving the ring, catching a smirking Trowa and laughing Cathy just behind the curtains. Jumping off of Chant, she headed over to the two as another act entered. "Well, what'd ya think guys?"
"That's all?" Trowa teased.
Cathy was surprised that her brother was acting so open around everyone now, showing emotions, but she slapped his arm anyway. "Trowa, behave."
"I mean, that was great. Heero really had fun it looks like and he's bound to remember this for the rest of his life. Thanks." Trowa nodded and looked out again, certain by the giant smile on Heero's face that he wasn't going to forget it and by the way the others were smiling and congratulating him, they wouldn't either. Turning, he sighed and headed back into the circus tent to sit down, he knew the rest of the show and would watch again when Cathy ended it, then it was his turn to go ahead and lead the others back out for a final bow with the other performers and everyone else that helped make the show possible. Then, they'd all let the manager have his turn in the spotlight as they applauded him, then he'd lead them back, change, then meet the others in the stands as they had planned.
With a slight frown, Cathy crossed over to Trowa's side. "I can tell the manager that you're not feeling so hot and lead the other performers out for you if you'd rather Trowa. You can go ahead and join the others, then take it easy for the rest of the night. You don't look like you got too much sleep little brother."
Shaking his head, Trowa looked up at her. "When you wake up and instantly find out that your friend is somewhere, by himself with only a spunky puppy, in a large palace or on the palace grounds somewhere, that and he isn't his normal self and could get into every kind of trouble there is, it drains you, besides waking up early and taking that long ride. That, and trying to save every little bit of wildlife you come across." With a tired laugh, he smiled tiredly. "I'll lead them out, and argue with you if I can find the energy and help at least put the animals away and get them taken care of."
With a sigh, Cathy nodded. "Fine, but you can't argue with me for long little brother, you're too tired to. I'm guessing that Heero will find the couch better than the pullout bed inside of it?"
"Yeah, don't worry about us. We'll make due on the floor or wherever. We always do. If everything goes all right tonight, without nightmares or anything, we should be leaving within about two to three days. I don't want to ruin tonight, so we can tell him tomorrow. He's probably as ready as he'll ever be within these next few days to let us leave as he stays here."
"All right then, and I'll take care of him for all of you. Feel free to drop by unexpectedly and call whenever, I can tell you are all really trying to make this easier on him, but what's going to make it easier on the four of you?" Cathy watched the next performers leave and the previous ones exit the ring.
Sighing, he thought. "Knowing that he's safe. And ending this war for good."
The next hour and a half passed, performers going on and coming off, giving the crowd memories to last them a lifetime. All the while, Trowa rested and closed his eyes, knowing that the others were enjoying themselves, or at least he hoped so.
At last, it was his turn. Looking back at the acrobats, he nodded and waited for the manager to give the cue. He'd enter with a double, one- handed, front flip, followed by a spin in mid air, then a triple, no-handed back flip and continue the back flips until he reached the other side of the ring. The acrobats would follow with their stunts, Zita riding Enchantress, and so on and so forth until Cathy had come out and they all took a bow. Things would go from there. Hearing the cue, he turned and started his job, giving the others a few minutes and continuing his work around the outside of the ring. The applause were all well worth it, the smiles on peoples faces, their laughter, their amazement, and their eyes watching you. It was all worth in and why he loved working in the circus, besides the people he worked with and now called his family. Smiling and waving to the audience, he watched the others exit, then looked to Cathy and they started the wave of bows that started from the ends, to the middle, and back again. Things were a little different, the manager stood in the middle of the ring of people. Taking a bow, he waited for his turn to come again. Then he clapped with the others as the manager took a final bow and bid the people a safe night and trip home, hoping they enjoyed themselves and telling them of their next shows and that everything else was still open for exploring. Waiting until the animals had gone and the trainers, he led the others back behind the curtain and immediately took his mask off, changing into his normal set of clothes.
"You look like you're forcing everything Trowa, go get your friends and enjoy yourself for a little while, show them around the rest of the circus. Then go to bed, you're tired." Cathy didn't rush her changing, she was letting down her hair when her brother was putting his normal shoes on.
"Later. I'll help with..."
"We've got it, you know you're going to worry enough about Heero when you leave, have fun while you can little brother." Smiling, she dug into her purse and snatched out some money for him, forcing it into his hand. "The circus uses the money to pay for our necessities, you can't just take them around and let them play the games for free. What will everyone else think? Besides, it comes back to us anyway, just take it and have fun."
Looking up and smiling, Trowa sighed. "All right, thanks Sis. Your routine was perfect and great, as normal, and that's why you're the closing star and the biggest." He headed toward the curtain that separated the performers from the guests and stopped when he heard her speak up.
"And you give yourself no credit Trowa. You made this the most memorable night that these people will probably ever experience for a while, at least in more lives than you know. My work wouldn't mean anything without your help. You were the star out there, now don't argue and let me change." Giggling, she watched him leave with a smile. She wasn't being modest, she knew she spoke the truth. He would be though and try to convince her otherwise, but she could be stubborn too.
"Well well, look who came back." Wufei smirked, stretching his legs from sitting down for so long. It was interesting and he even had to admit, somewhat fun.
Heero beamed, watching Trowa take the steps two at a time as he crossed over to them. "Did you see me Trowa? They all listened to me, the tigers, and they didn't listen to the other lady but they did what I told them to do! And the one called Chant, I think she's really pretty and she let me pet her and..."
Trowa smirked, laughing softly. "I take it you liked your first show?"
"I loved it! I've never been to the circus but I like it now and I never got to go before. And Cathy said that maybe I could help her with the animals. I want to help! I really do! They're so big but nice and they like me! I got scared when I saw you look for the lion and he was behind you, didn't you see him? But, Quatre said that you were just playing a game and that the lion was playing too and then I started laughing. I haven't seen those animals before, not so close! They're not like Faith or anything! I've seen cats, but those were big and strong and had a loud roar, but they're really nice if you make them your friends. The lady said I did everything perfectly and that I could even work with the animals too!" Taking a deep breath, he heard the others laugh while he tried to calm down.
Quatre looked up, nodding. "I think he *might* have liked the circus," he teased. Placing his hand on Heero's arm, he smiled. "Settle down, we don't want you hyperventilating and passing out or something." Laughing, he only shook his head.
"I watched it all, and I would have come out and joined you, but I had to lead everyone out. Cathy offered to take it and tell the manager, but it was my job so I stayed behind the curtain. I'm glad you all enjoyed yourself, and here I was thinking I did awful." Laughing, he led the others from the tent and out into the cool night. "We can go ahead and get Faith now, she's allowed to wander the grounds if she's with us."
"Okay!" Was Heero's response. "You didn't do awful, you were really really good! And when the lights turned off and the colored lights came on, and the elephants made the jungle noises and the smoke made it almost scary, I also liked the part when..."
Duo snickered softly as they headed toward Cathy's trailer. "Only one part Heero? Wow. He's talked more in the past ten minutes than in the entire time I've known the guy!"
Heero looked at the others curiously, but didn't pay it any mind as he raced up to the trailer, opening the door and finding Faith waiting for him on the couch, her tail wagging madly. "You can come now Faith, it was really pretty and lots of fun, but they didn't let puppies in the tent so you couldn't come. I'll tell you all about it, but we're going to go for a walk now and look at everything else and you can come too! Come on! What's she doing?" He called back to his friends, for Faith kept her distance and sniffed at his hand and lower legs like she didn't know him.
Trowa spoke at this, stifling a yawn. "She smells Enchantress and she doesn't know her. She'll be fine in a minute, she's just curious."
Wufei looked at his comrade in uncertainty. "You're pushing yourself again Trowa. You have this entire time."
"What?" The young circus performer looked at his Chinese friend.
"He's right Trowa, you should take it easy, we all can while we've finally got the time." Quatre added. "You didn't switch drivers the entire time, you've always been up before us, and doing tonight's show after everything that has happened in the day has drained you. Take it easy for a little while, we aren't fighting yet."
Nodding, he smirked. "You and Cathy think alike, all of you do."
"Sometimes, I wonder about you man." Duo eyed him and closed the trailer door.
"Why?"
"I'm just gonna leave it at that."
Rolling his eyes, he led them toward the rides, quickly stopping by the booth and getting twenty dollars worth of tickets. Everything here used tickets. "Fine. I'll figure it out later." Uncrossing his arms and lifting them, he called out. "Take your pick, and enjoy."
~+~
Watching the others settle into their beds, Trowa finished covering Heero after he'd finally worn himself out on the amusement rides. He barely carried himself back to the trailer, most of the time, Trowa standing at the exit gate when the others went to enjoy themselves. He was tired, but he'd also ridden each of the rides. Most of the time, Cathy dragged him along and they tested them out. "Go to sleep Heero, there's plenty of time tomorrow to tell us everything." Drawing the blanket with tired arms over his friend's shoulders, he listened to the others as they fell asleep. Cathy sat in her room, keeping quiet and just relaxing after the night's show.
Heero closed his eyes, feeling Faith snuggle next to him on the couch. "Goodnight Trowa. Thank you..."
"You're welcome. And goodnight Heero." Petting Faith for a second or so, he thought about going ahead and going into his sister's room and talking some. He'd have time later, right now he was just tired, so instead he settled down on his makeshift bed, even the sparsely carpeted floor was comfortable. With that, he fell almost straight into sleep.
~+~
The next two days passed without much of a problem, Heero somewhat disheartened about them leaving so soon, but he promised the others to take care of the circus and help, and to take especially good care of Cathy and himself. Cathy would know when to release the squirrel into his new home and she would know how to get a hold of them and take care of everything.
Duo looked at his friend with a sad smile. The time had come to part ways, them to return to the battlefield, Heero, to life. "We'll miss ya buddy, but we'll come back, all of us, alive."
Heero nodded, averting his gaze. This time, he was going to be strong in front of all the others. Forcing back his tears and covering it with a smile, he looked up. "Faith is going to miss you too."
Quatre kneeled to stroke Faith's head. "And we'll miss her, but we'll be back sooner than you know it."
Taking a deep breath, Wufei crushed his emotions with an iron will and allowed himself a small smile. "You'll have too much fun to miss us for long."
Shaking his head, he felt Cathy's comforting hand on his shoulder. She had said that he was allowed to call her Sis or Cathy like Trowa did too. He asked, confused at the time. "It won't be a lot of fun without you." Quickly brushing away a tear, he looked down to hide his eyes. He wasn't as strong as the others were being. Maybe at one time he was, but not now.
Trowa forced himself to remain where he was. "Yes it will, I'm sure. Don't worry, it took me forever but I finally found the passwords to the computer firewalls that will let us get into the email portion. Cathy has a laptop as you've seen, and she'll show you exactly how to get to the part where you can send us anything, anytime you want. We'll be back soon, but we've gotta go so that we can come back for good. Okay?"
Nodding, Heero looked up and smiled. "Okay." Dropping the chain-link leash so that it hung loosely on his wrist, Heero gave each of his brothers a hug for the last time before they left. Watching them climb into the trucks, Duo with Trowa and Quatre with Wufei, he waved and smiled along with Cathy when they left and pulled out. He stood in the same spot until he couldn't see them anymore before he turned to his new, older sister.
Cathy took Heero into an embrace, knowing that he'd fought off his emotions for long enough. Feeling her shoulder beginning to dampen, she smiled and spoke softly to him. "It's okay Heero, Trowa leaves a lot like that and I don't really like it either, but when he says that they'll come back, he will, come hell or high water. And if he says that they'll all come back, alive, and for good when they end this war, they will. It'll be okay. Let's let you go ahead and get some rest, you woke up early this morning and you're still tired." Leading him back to the trailer, she smiled sadly. "Come on little brother."
"Okay Sis. Come on Faith, they'll be back later." With a small smile, he wiped the stray tears away and followed her into the trailer. "They'll be back later."
~+~The End...
...or is it?
Author's Note: Well, poor Heero... *sniffles* He had the time of his life being a "star" before everyone else after blaming himself for so much he thought he did wrong, and then the others leave him again! *sobs* Don't worry, this is the end of this portion.. but not of this story... *grins* I've got the sequel coming up, it'll be just like a journal. Okay, so that's the layout for the story, it does go off of his journal writings and into story format, but it took a little while to get into his head, then to see it as if he were from in a child's state of mind... *giggles* I'm so mean to him at times... Oh well, please look for the sequel, it's called "Starting Anew: Sequel to Innocence Restored". Please review!
~+~ Chapter 8 An Older Sister To Lean On
Heero opened his eyes to the bright sunlight streaming in through the large palace windows, his back turned to the door and Faith pressing against it. He'd slept comfortably and felt much better after the day before. He was also somewhat excited about what Trowa had said the day before as well, that if they got to the circus in time, he could see his first show and that maybe he would have a surprise for the young man. Pushing off of the bed, he found that Quatre was still asleep. Maybe someone else was up. "Come on Faith." The ready puppy stood and answered his whisper, hopping off of the bed and stretching her long body on the unmoving floor. Heero grabbed her leash and chained it to her collar, not bothering to grab his shoes this early and instead walked around in his socks.
Quietly leaving the room, Heero went down the corridor and made his way to the grand staircase, making his way silently to the dining hall like the night before. Arriving, he found it to be empty and the great clock striking five. He was up early. "What do we do now Faith?"
The young greyhound only looked at him with curious eyes, then began to drag him toward the terrace doors in the back of the room and to the garden.
Heero followed, opening the doors and walking out onto the dewy lawn. He didn't pay attention to the cold, crisp air or the condensation soaking his socks, but made his way to the middle of the garden and into a large gazebo. The day was breath-taking and the colors of the flowers fascinated him, along with those of the sun rising above the hills and sending its rays over the kingdom. The song of the birds calling to him sent a smile straight to his face, their beautiful songs and vibrant colors fluttering in the air about him. Butterflies, moths, honeybees, and dragonflies were once again alive from the night, scattering about and filling the air with a humming sound. "It's so pretty Faith..." he called softly.
The dog had other plans, bolting from his grasp and after a squirrel that sat near the pond.
Looking down, he yelled after the dog and ran toward her. "No! Faith, come back. No, bad Faith! Bad dog!" Yet the dog ran, always ahead of him as she sprinted around the large garden, jumping through the flowers and over the ponds. All the while, evading his shouts. So Heero continued to run after her, knowing that he was going to be in big trouble for this.
Pouncing as a cat would, the greyhound surprised and cornered the squirrel momentarily, all the while taking advantage of this and snatching it up in her teeth. To her, it was a toy. Shaking her head back and forth vigorously, she only shook harder at hearing its frantic and pained cries.
Heero grabbed the dog's leash, dropping it and taking the scruff of her neck so that she couldn't get away and she stopped her movements. The Japanese youth's jaw dropped slightly as he watched the squirrel struggle and cry, stuck in her jaws as she looked back at him. With a soft cry himself and watering eyes, he shook his head. "No, bad Faith. It's not a toy. Drop it." Holding out his hand, he quickly put his other hand through the leash and wrapped it around his wrist, the terrified squirrel dropping to his awaiting hand. It didn't move but cried and shook in terror, it's small body rising and falling fast with its panicked gasps. Holding the tiny creature to his chest, he began to stroke its fur softly, his gentle fingers running down its back and careful of its wounds from the dog's teeth. He wasn't sure if it was going to be okay, but he hoped it didn't die. The others would know what to do, but looking back, he realized that he didn't know where he was. He was outside the palace gardens, the large bushes opening at one side but he wasn't sure how to get back to the dining hall from there. Entering the garden, he hoped that someone would find him, but for the time he only sat inside the garden, trying to calm the squirrel as he uttered soft assurances.
Quatre awoke, feeling better but still tired. Something told him that things weren't right, like he could feel a fear and a panic within him, but it was not his own. It did turn to his own when he realized that Heero and Faith were no longer in the room with him. "Maybe he went to the main room and is waiting for us with someone else who woke up earlier, or he might be in the dining hall." Quickly, the young man jumped from his bed anyway and threw on his shoes, seeing that Heero hadn't bothered with his, and exited the room. He found the others just to be awakening and exiting their rooms as well. "Have any of you seen Heero or Faith?"
Trowa, who was waking everyone again, looked at Quatre in puzzlement. "You mean he's not in the room?"
"No, I woke up and he and the dog were gone. Maybe Relena's up and with him."
Trowa shook his head, worry now filling him. "Relena just came and woke me like I asked her. She'd just gotten up herself and said that she hoped that Heero and the rest of us slept or were sleeping well. Oh no..." With the others, he sprinted down to the main sitting room, finding no one there before leaving to check the dining hall. Finding nothing there, he looked back at the others, Relena finally joining them with a curious gaze. "He's not here either."
Looking at the four, Relena asked. "What's wrong?"
"Heero must have woken up before the rest of us and decided to go exploring." Duo shook his head.
Wufei looked over at the princess. "Have you seen Heero yet this morning?"
Shaking her head, Relena looked into the dining hall to confirm that Heero wasn't there. Heading in, she looked into the kitchen to see if maybe he'd grown hungry and went about to make something to eat himself, but still he wasn't there. "He's not anywhere here, maybe he's up on the second level and lost his way to his room again." Turning to leave, something caught her eyes. The terrace door, it was unlocked and slightly open. "Or not. I shut and locked the doors myself. He might be outside."
Without needing to be told twice, Trowa crossed over and exited the doors, looking about to find the garden desolate except for the natural wildlife. Yet, things look like they'd been shaken up a bit, a patch of flowers near a smaller pond having been trampled. "Well, someone's been out here." Motioning for the others to follow, he began to trot along the "path of destruction" and scanned the large area for Heero. Turning the corner, he was glad to see that his friend sat near the wall of bushes, far from the palace walls. "Found him." Sprinting, he headed to where his friend resided, but became worried at seeing Heero's fear.
The troubled youth looked up with a sad smile to see Trowa and the others making their way to him. He didn't bother to wipe away any of his stray tears. He held the tiny animal in his cupped hands, close to his chest as Trowa kneeled by his side.
"Heero, you can't do that, you can't just go running off like that! We didn't know where you were and you scared us when we couldn't find you. You didn't tell us where you were going and you can get hurt if you go out like that by yourself." He listened to the others near, but quieted his voice when he realized that Heero's tears began to flow again and he cringed away from him. Gently placing a hand on his shoulder, Trowa tried to catch his averting eyes. "It's okay Heero, we were just worried about you. We don't want to see you getting hurt, that's all."
Looking up, he stared at the rest. "I'm sorry. Please help it..." Holding out his hands, he opened them to show everyone the small squirrel. It was just a baby, but it was still breathing too fast and shaking badly, blood still matting its fur and it didn't move from what it had when released. "I don't want it to die..."
Trowa looked at Heero, then held out his hand and gently stroked the small creature's back. Faith must have gotten a hold of it, it seemed. He wasn't sure if he could really do anything for the small animal, but the desperation and sincerity in Heero's eyes told him he had to try. "I'll try the best I can Heero." Taking the small creature softly into his own hands, he knew that it was old enough to leave the nest but it was just trying to make it on its own. "I'll try." Smiling, he rose from his crouched position and watched Heero do the same, the others looking at the tiny life he held in his hands.
Quatre smiled, offering Heero his hand and helping him up. Faith must have thought the squirrel a toy and gotten out of Heero's hands, making the mess of the flowers, and gotten the small animal, thus the fear and blood. And he knew that Trowa was good with animals, doing the best he could to try and save the poor thing. It'd set them back a bit, but that was okay. "It'd be easier to work inside."
Heero followed the others inside, Duo guiding him in and telling him that things would be okay and that they were just worried about him. He knew he was in trouble. If he had just stayed in Quatre's room until he was awake, he wouldn't have made everyone else worried and Faith wouldn't have ruined the flowers or gotten the baby squirrel. And if it died, it'd be his fault too.
Entering the dining hall, Trowa looked about. "Do you have a couple of towels I could use? We need to get the blood cleaned from it's wounds and then stitch them up or close them to stop the blood flow. By the looks of it, it's nothing major internal wise, except for losing blood and this little thing doesn't have much to spare. By any chance, some ether as well?"
Relena nodded and quickly scurried about. "There are some towels in the kitchen, the back left corner, the first cabinets. Surprisingly, we do have ether, just for the five of you when you visit. I'll be right back."
Nodding with a smile, Trowa went ahead and called out his next orders. "Duo, you and Quatre go and get me two towels and a washcloth. Like, a medium size or so. That, a large bowel and a smaller one filled with warm water, try not to make it one of the ones she uses for eating and dining. Oh no, Wufei. In my stuff upstairs, I have a small bag inside the book bag, it does have a small kit with sewing utensils and other things. Can you grab that for me?" The others left with their jobs, the worried, Japanese teen staying by his side as he wept quietly in fear and guilt. Looking over to Heero, Trowa smiled. "Don't worry, we're going to help him. You did good in saving him and trying to keep this little one warm and calm him down. If I remember right, he won't be able to go back to his nest, he's too old for that. So he'll need a home. Maybe we can take him with us and let him go around the circus area, there area always a lot of trees around and safe places for him. That way we can make sure he's all right. Go ahead and take a seat Heero, I won't let anything happen to it."
Heero did as he was told, watching Duo and Quatre come back into the room and set their things down and then stand back somewhat. "I know I'm in big trouble, but don't let it die. I don't want it to because I let Faith go. I don't want it to leave me too." Turning his face, he only stroked Faith who sat by his side, her head on his leg while she whined softly. Leaning his head against his arm, he hid his face in shame.
Wufei slowed his step, having raced up and back down the stairs easily. Dropping the bag, he watched Heero. "You aren't in trouble, you just had us worried until we found you. Faith pulled out of your hands when you weren't expecting her to, so you didn't know that Heero. That, and we won't let it die. This has more to do with you staying with Cathy, doesn't it?"
Trowa went ahead and softly instructed Duo, having the other teen put the two larger towels into the oversized bowl as he laid the creature down. Taking the wash cloth, he dipped a corner of it in the water and squeezed the excess water out with his fingers. Then, he softly washed the squirrels fur, careful around the edges of the three wounds inflicted by the dog's teeth. "Heero, you know we aren't going to leave you and go for good, don't you? You don't want this squirrel to die, but we can't take you with us because of that same fact. Death. We have to kill in battle, to save others but we have to kill none the less. If you came with, you'd have to do the same thing and you don't want to, I can tell that now. Neither do we, but we have to in battle to live, and to let others live, and we need to fight each battle to win this war for good. So we can come home again. So we don't have to kill anymore and see others die. If we didn't fight, this would go on forever and hurt everyone. That's what makes us different as gundam pilots, we are fighting to end the war and bring peace, but keep the colonies and the people free. We're pretty much the only ones who can win this battle, just like Relena and a few others are the only ones that can really bring peace when this war is over and make people see that peace is the answer. We'll only be gone for a little while, but never for good. Cathy will know how to get a hold of us, and we'll send updates whenever we can. And you can talk to us, with letters and emails or by talking when we can call. We're not trying to leave or hurt you, but we want to end this war and get it over with as soon as possible so that we can come back to our homes and no more people have to die."
Quatre placed his hands on Heero's shoulders, trying to comfort him. "Trowa's right, you can always get a hold of us when you need someone to talk to. And when this is all over, we'll come back and never have to leave again."
Relena entered with the bottle of ether, her heart breaking at seeing Heero. His head laid upon his arm on the table, tears dropping to his legs and onto the floor. The young woman wasn't sure what he was crying for, so she remained silent, but she wanted to comfort him so. Just as she had so many times before this, yet each time he'd forced her away. She'd learned than to do so, and if he ever let anyone comfort him, it were his friends and comrades in arms. Yet he'd changed, but he was also still somewhat wary of her. Did she dare to? Chiding herself mentally, she only walked over to Trowa's side, placing the ether on the table. "Is it okay?"
Trowa traced the wash cloth along the squirrels head and down its back, the little creature calming somewhat. "It will be if we can just close the bite wounds quickly and keep it calm. It should be." Placing the tiny animal on the bed of towels, he took a dry corner of the cloth and opened the ether, soaking the tip. Then, he placed the cloth just before the squirrel's nose and let it inhale the smell. After a few seconds, the little thing was calmed down, its eyes closing as Trowa moved the cloth quickly. If it inhaled too much, it could kill the animal. With nimble fingers, he quickly took a needle and threaded it, then picked up the animal and went about his work. He only needed to put a stitch or two in each of the puncture wounds, then to wrap up the small one's mid-section so that it wouldn't get at them. "I'm almost done Heero, and he's calmed down a lot with the help of the ether. As long as he doesn't start getting feisty and go after the stitches, he'll be just fine."
Looking up, he began to dry his tears with the sleeve of his shirt and a small smile. "Thank you, Trowa..." was his soft call, for he was all too grateful.
"Hey, how do you know it's a he, Trowa?" Duo questioned, having taken a seat in front of Heero and tried to keep assuring him that things would be okay.
"You only spend so much time around animals Duo, before you can tell. That, and it's what separates him, reproductive wise, from being a female." Smirking, he gently but firmly wrapped the gauze around the squirrel's middle and tied it securely but not too tightly. Laying the small animal back in the new nest, he folded a part of the thicker towel and covered the creature, keeping it warm as it slept. "It should be out for a little while longer, do you have a small box that we could use? I want to keep an eye on it, so that it heals properly and without trouble. My old shirt is nothing but a worn rag now, so we can use that as bedding." Looking at Relena as she pondered over this idea, he smiled down at Heero. "He's going to be just fine, thanks to you."
Without a word, Relena headed into the kitchen upon seeing a small smile light Heero's face. Rummaging through the kitchen, she found a small box filled with older kitchen utensils that were kept around but not used often enough to place in the drawers. Dumping the contents out onto the counter and entered the dining hall once more. "Here, will this work?"
Nodding, he took the box and set it on the table, then jogged out of the room, taking the stairs two to three at a time and down the hall towards his room. They hadn't eaten, but they had to get going or they'd never make it in time for anything but to sleep. He didn't want to disappoint Heero either, he was so excited about seeing his first show and he could really use some fun right now. He seemed to feel bad enough as it was. Figuring he'd make it easy, he jumped over the railing and to the floor, not bothering with the twenty-some steps.
Heero watched as Trowa entered the room, quickly placing the old, black turtle-neck on the table and listening as Relena told him that he could keep and use the towels. So, he took them, placing them in the small box and spreading them out along the length of it, then picked the tiny squirrel up once more, placing the old shirt in the box, then the squirrel on it and using his shirt to fold into a blanket for the little one. After that, he closed the flaps for the lid, bending them so they laid with on side on another flap, one side covered. Rising, he yawned and looked at the others, then to Relena. "I'm sorry Miss Relena, Faith ran through your pretty flowers and messed up your garden and I shouldn't have let her go. I'm sorry for making you all worried and for not telling you. I'm really sorry." Sighing, he began to walk from the room, his head hanging as he held onto Faith's leash tightly and went to get his shoes. He knew that the others had to look for him and that he'd probably make them late, but he went to get his shoes none the less and to come back, ready to leave.
Relena watched him begin to leave, but crossed by the table and took his hand up in hers, holding it gently but firmly. Standing in front of him, she smiled softly. "Heero, it's okay. The garden can be fixed and the flowers replaced, but we can't replace another one of you. We were just worried, we don't want to lose you. But things are going to be okay, and you shouldn't be so mad at yourself, everything's going to be all right. Just give us fair warning next time. Smile a little bit, it suits you better." Using her other hand to delicately take his chin in her hands, she raised his face to hers, their eyes locking. He searched them, implored them, and she kept her gaze, smiling when his eyes lit up once more with a life that she hadn't seen very often. With him in this state, unless he grew out of it, they'd be no more than friends. But if they were friends, that would make her happy none the less.
"Okay," was his soft reply, a grin spreading across his lips. He only continued to his room to grab his things without a word, feeling Quatre follow him and lead him back toward the steps.
~+~
Smiling, Heero sat silently while the others talked, preparing to leave. In one hand, he held the box, the baby squirrel awake but it was still somewhat dazed from the ether, and in the other he held his dog's leash tightly. At last, they were heading to their final destination, Heero's new home for a span of time. He was going to miss the palace, Relena was really nice to him and he trusted her as he did the others.
"Heero, are ya ready buddy?" Duo piped up.
His smile fading somewhat, he nodded. "I am. Faith wants to play again, though."
Relena giggled, smiling. "Well, then I'm sure she can't wait to get to the circus, she'll have a wonderful time." Pulling her hands from behind her back, she held a delicately wrapped object, a small card and white ribbon tied to it. Holding it out, she watched Trowa take the box from Heero and the young man reach out for the object. "I'm not sure when your birthday is and I've been saving this, especially since the last time we met near my birthday, I received a very special teddy bear from you, and a happy birthday card. Don't open it yet, when you're on the road. You take care of yourselves, all of you. And especially you Heero. Faith, you better keep this young man out of trouble, okay?" She bent to pet the dog again as Heero took the object meant for him.
Faith only barked and wagged her tail in response.
"Good." Relena couldn't help but smile.
Heero looked over to the young woman, having to remember to put her birthday down so he wouldn't forget it. He had a feeling he knew, but he wasn't for sure. Averting his eyes, he looked at the ground and spoke. "Thank you Miss Relena. Is it okay to hug a princess?"
Relena looked somewhat shocked, but a giant smile crossed her face seconds later. "You're welcome Heero, and I'm sure you can, and I wouldn't mind one." Refraining herself from doing anything she shouldn't, she hugged the young man back and had to remember that he had changed.
~+~
Heero laid on the seat again, not really all that tired but it calmed Faith down because she really wanted to play and she didn't when she thought he was asleep. Looking at the ceiling, he listened to the music that Trowa was and began to think. "Why did I feel different when I hugged Miss Relena?"
Trowa was caught off guard by the sudden question, having seen Heero lay down and believing him to sleep, but evidently he was wrong. Smirking, he answered his friend's question with a question of his own. "What do you mean different?"
Heero didn't know how to say it, it was just-different. Thinking, he tried to say what he felt. "She made me smile when I didn't want to and I thought I was in a lot of trouble. She always made me happy, but I felt really glad and unhappy when she gave me the present. Then she said I gave her a teddy and she loved it and I wanted to get her another one to make her happier." He wasn't really understanding this.
Smirking, Trowa nodded. "Do you remember her, before that night?" He knew that the other youth would recall which night.
Shuddering slightly, Heero tried to push past the pain, the place, and see before it. "No."
Sighing, he nodded. "Well, even before that, you knew Miss Relena and were always extremely careful about keeping her at a distance but protecting her with your life. When we first met, you had just self-destructed Zero in battle and Quatre was worried for and about you, but I took you in and with the help of Cathy, nursed you back to health. I'd realized more about you than I ever could have known from facts and logical thinking, that, and more about myself. You cared greatly for Relena, as she does you, but you didn't admit any of it as anything more than friendship. I was uncertain at the time and you'd said that "the only way for a person to live a good life is to follow their emotions." Well, I advise you of the same thing. Have you ever felt love Heero? Besides that of a family?"
Thinking, Heero wasn't sure. He cared a lot for the others because they were his family, and he loved Faith because she was his friend and dog, and he loved Wing Zero because he was his, and like an old friend that he could always trust. But Trowa said besides those things. With Relena, he cared about her a lot too, but it was different than he cared for his friends. Somehow, it just was. "I-I'm not sure."
Smiling, he spoke again. "Well, then you'll realize it in due time, but don't trouble yourself over it now. You still haven't opened her present." Motioning toward the dashboard, he spared his Japanese friend a glance as he quickly tried to sit up, the dog not wanting him to move.
That was right, he hadn't opened her present. He was still very curious as to what it was. Taking the card, he opened it and read it aloud.
"You've always been there for me when I needed you, or to let a smile drift to my face just by being in the room. You push me away, but I fear that my heart won't let me leave, so I am still by all, loyally yours. I hope you find use of this gift, and from now on, I only accept gifts by person. Until we meet again.
Yours truly, Relena "
Looking confused at the card, he put it down and carefully undid the ribbon, then the wrapping paper from where it was taped. It was pretty and he didn't want to ruin a nice job. Pulling back the last portion of the paper, he reached for the leather-bound book, turning it over to find a giant, golden eagle imprinted and painted on the front of it. Other animals decorated the sides, a fox with the name "Duo" underneath, a dragon with "Wufei", a wolf with "Quatre", and a falcon with "Trowa". The eagle was the biggest and sat in the middle, his animal. His first name was painted in gold, cursive letters at the top of it; a small leather strap held it shut with Velcro on its side. Opening it, he found a silvery pen, unused, just for him, a golden ribbon for a page marker. His eyes were wide in fascination and amazement, but yet he read what was on the first, inside page.
"Use this journal as you see fit, but it has a part of all of us within it; a gift from all of those who care for you and about your life. From your friends." And still, there was another message within the page.
"The mighty wolf, wisdom far beyond thy years holds sanctuary within this creature. Swift and true, its loyalties never lie. Though it may be weaker than the other beasts of the forest, the wolf is thy companion, its strength proving itself in times of need.
The Falcon, creature of flight and keeper of the skies, is quick to aid those in need. His decisions, for the greater good of those around him, his skills, surpass his age by generations. Take careful note with this bird, for he can be quick to strike out, yet a friend that will never fail. Make him thy friend, he is true to you and will be by thy side, but make him thy enemy, and he shall seek a swift retribution.
The Fox, animal of swiftness, cunning, and deceit. He is the humble trickster, smart in his ways and knows how to fool the eye. Yet, he knows when it's time to hide, or when to fight. Small yes, but do not forgo your strength in pity, for one may not judge by appearance. He is strong and fierce, a good ally but hard to keep his loyalties. Find your way past his barriers and to his heart, and you'll never find yourself alone or without hope, for he always carries another "trick up his sleeve".
The Dragon, strong in power and that of justice. He must do as he sees fit, to rectify the mistakes made by those who are foolish and to deal punishment to those who do not seek compensation for his actions. Living the life of loneliness, it takes one strong of heart to reach him, and once thy loyalties are won, thou needst never fear. For thou has made a good friend, and nothing will sway the dragon's heart from such a thing.
And yet, the mighty Eagle. Master of the skies and heavens above, strength, agility, skill, wisdom, justice, truth. All four of the other animals combined, he holds their characteristics. A bird of independence, he seeks to be alone, no one may tame his wild spirit as no one may catch the wind within thy hand. But yet, only one will truly make their way past his walls and fortresses to his heart, to tame the wildness within his body and soul. Though allies he may have, they cannot limit his spirit without feeling his wrath. Only the gentle winds and the call of the wild can sooth him, yet the song of a dove is but the only thing that can capture his heart. A true friend and ally, make him not thy enemy, but have patience to push past his protective walls and make him thy brother. And you will never regret thy decision, for you will never be alone, but always the watchful eye in the sky, keeping notice of you and safety for you.
Made in special dedication to Heero Yuy"
Trowa listened, smiling. It was true, only a dove's song could quell the eagles wild spirit, and Relena had done that since the day she and Heero met, whether he wanted to admit it or not. "Well, she put a lot of thought into that one for you."
Heero nodded, smiling and holding the journal within his hands, closing the binding and gracing his fingers over the designs of the eagle. He knew that this animal was meant to symbolize him, and he was fascinated by the outline and detail. "I love it..."
Shaking his head, he looked out over the horizon, finding the familiar tops of the circus tent just ahead. "Look, we're almost there." He pointed in the direction and watched Heero gaze at it, his smile becoming larger.
With anxious eyes, he scanned the horizon and found the large tent of which his friend spoke. They were almost there. Faith jumping up and looking out the front window told him that she knew as well. "We're almost there Faith. Then you can play, but you've got to behave." A small scratching and a chattering inside the box drew his attention to it, the squirrel was awake.
Trowa noticed this as well, smiling. "Sounds like he's feeling better. We'll go ahead and take a look at him when we get to the fair grounds, then he can have some food and water. He'll be fine for a few more minutes, as long as Faith doesn't try and get to him again." He could tell by the numerous people running about that they were getting ready for the evening's show. The familiar faces and welcoming surroundings made him feel at home once more. Slowly turning into the long, gravel road, he watched the others' heads look up, smiling and waving at his return.
Cathy listened to the commotion, not thinking anything of it but instead concentrated on practicing her aim. She was skilled, but everyone needs their practice. Stopping a friend that worked at one of the booths, she looked at her giant smile in curiosity. "What is everyone fussing about?"
The young woman looked at her as if she were crazy. "You didn't know your brother's back?"
Cathy smiled, forgetting her practice and tossing all the daggers that she had left at the target before running to meet her brother. The others were excited that one of their star performers were back, but they weren't swarming the vehicles. Looking as the truck parked, she only smiled and called her greeting. "If you liked to take any longer Trowa, we'd be done and moved on before you got here."
Nodding to Heero, he waited of the dog to be connected the leash before he opened the door, Heero exiting on his side. "We had something to take care of before we left. Don't lie, you didn't miss me."
Smirking, Cathy gave her brother a hug, regardless of whether he cared on not. "Who would miss a trouble-making, tag-a-long little brother like you?" Giggling softly as the others exited the second truck, she shook her head. "Of course we did. Welcome home, even if you won't stay for anything longer than a week at a time or so. What else did you have to take care of?" Looking over curiously, she watched Heero cross over to Trowa's side, yet stayed behind him and held the dog leash. Heero, with a dog? And shying away from her? It was different, that was for sure, yet she knew why and pity filled her. The others joined them and she spared them each a smile.
"I'll tell you later. Heero, come on. It's okay, she won't hurt you. This is my sister, Cathrine. Cathy, I believe you already know Heero here. Faith will be staying with him as well, the greyhound." Placing his hand on the other youth's shoulder, he led Heero up to his side and tried to coax him into meeting his sister's gaze.
Duo piped up at this. "Don't worry Heero, she's nice or can be. We met rather.... differently and under different circumstances."
Heero looked up from the ground, catching her soft smile and giving a small grin of his own. Looking back at the others, he wasn't sure if they were going to leave him when he got comfortable with Cathrine around or not. He didn't want them to, this was all new to him. This place, these people.
Cathy, seeing his uncertainty, held out her hand to show him she meant no harm. Holding it palm up, she watched him look at it in curiosity. "I'm glad you've come to stay with us Heero, I'm sure you'll love it here. Most of my jobs are helping to take care of the animals, and you can too. Do you want to see them? They're big, but nice. It's okay, I won't hurt you like Trowa said." Holding her hand steady as he slowly placed his in hers, she closed her fingers around his with a kind smile. "My little brother was telling me that you've never seen a show before. Well, we'll be sure to make this one you won't forget. The grounds aren't really set up, but you're welcome to go ahead and wander around and look at things, just be careful. Or, you can go ahead and sit in the tent, it's cooler in there and you can watch the different acts practice. It won't be a lot of what's in the show, that's mainly done out here, but most of the time it's just working with the animals. To get them ready."
Heero watched her, feeling somewhat better about being around her now that he knew she was nice, but he still didn't want to leave his friends. "I'm not sure." His voice was soft as he looked back to the others.
Trowa nodded, a gentle smile on his lips. "It's okay, we need to take care of the little guy in the truck first anyway. You can also stay and rest in Cathy's trailer, it's air conditioned and roomy, if you want to rest. I'll have to leave you all on your own for a little while though, I need to do something and work with a couple of the animals to help for tonight's show and Cathy has to work on her act a little bit." Motioning toward his sister's trailer, he spoke again. "It'd be easier to take care of him in there, it's a bit hot out here and he can stay where it's cool. Duo, why don't you go ahead and get the box out of the passenger side, it should be on the floor. We can grab your journal later, okay Heero?"
With a growing smile, he nodded and kneeled down, not bothering much to pull his hand from Cathy's as he began to stroke Faith. "See Faith, this is our new home, we're gonna stay here. There's lots of room for us to play and Cathy is really nice. Go ahead and say hi, Faith." Releasing the dog's collar, he watched her cross over to Trowa's sister, sniff her legs, then jump up on the young woman. Grabbing the leash and standing, he was about to call Faith back when he saw that Cathy didn't move, but let the dog jump on her and began to pet her.
Laughing softly, the young woman let the dog give her a couple of kisses, rubbing her back and scratching behind her ears with both hands. "She's a sweet-heart and she is really pretty. Especially her blue eyes. Faith is a good name for her, and I'm sure she'll love it here Heero, there most definitely will be enough room for the both of you to play." Giggling, she watched Duo return with a box in curiosity. Leading them away, glad that Heero held her hand comfortably, almost like a little boy, she headed toward her trailer. "You'd better change Trowa if you're going to go ahead and work with the animals. You know better."
Trowa nodded, looking to the others as they followed his sister. "She's adopted them both already."
Quatre laughed softly in agreement. "By the smile on his face, Heero's taken to this place and Cathy quickly and far better than we could have expected."
Wufei smirked. "He has, and that's good. He should be safe here, and have the time of his life in the meanwhile. One question that still plagues me though, when we leave, what will he do before each show when your sister is preparing her act?"
Trowa watched Heero look at Enchantress, their largest and oldest female, white, Siberian tiger work with her trainer. She wasn't all that old and she kept the others in check. "He seems quite taken with the animals as well. He'll be able to help Cathy or the animal trainers and work with the animals, or wherever he's needed. He'll learn quickly, and things aren't that hard around here. They wouldn't let him do anything too big or that he could get hurt badly doing. But he can help, it'd pass the time, and an extra hand can always be used."
Duo added at this. "Sounds like fun, and yet you'd rather be working now than lounging about when you can?"
"I can't. I have to work with the animals. It'll all make sense later, and Quatre, I know you know what I was thinking; so keep quiet. Here we are." Turning and smiling, he knew that Quatre would keep quiet for a while, he just wasn't sure how long he could handle Duo. The young American was bound to persist until Quatre told or Wufei probably threatened him.
~+~
Sitting backstage, Trowa looked at Cathy as she fixed her hair and makeup in the mirror. Laughing softly as she posed, he only shook his head and continued with his costume when she shot her gaze at him. "Sometimes, I worry about you Sis."
Giggling softly, Cathy looked at her little brother. "You laughed, it's been a while since you did that. Learning to open up are we?"
"Only until I have to go back Cathy, you know that." Letting his smile falter, he put on his welcome mask and sighed.
"Are you okay Trowa?"
"I'm fine Sis, just wish this war was over." Standing, he walked to the curtain and watched the people file in, sitting and crowding on the wooden benches. He pushed the curtain aside enough to look, but not enough for anyone to see him. Spotting his small group of friends, he smirked. Faith wasn't allowed in the tent, it'd be crowded as it was, so she stayed in Cathy's trailer, the squirrel in Cathy's room and in a small cage that was big enough for it and its "nest", but the bars small enough so that it couldn't get out. Faith couldn't get to him, he couldn't get out and into everything or have a chance to get caught in the dog's jaws again. They sat near the isle as advised, that was good. He'd stopped Zita, she was working with Enchantress and she used the tigers in her acts, curious as to what she was doing earlier and to find out what she was doing for an act. She's told him it was her regular working with the large cats, but she was teaching them to listen to others and not her commands until she made a certain motion. It was almost like sign language. She'd wanted to get the audience involved, having them use trained tigers to follow the commands of other people but rebel to her for the time being. They'd be random people from the audience. His only request was, to see if she couldn't get Heero down there and enjoying himself. She agreed and knew who to look for and where. A hand on his shoulder made him jump slightly and whirl about to find a sympathetic sister.
"Trowa, don't worry. They'll be fine and Heero will be fine with us here, but when you leave as I've learned you must, end this war swiftly and come home safe, and for good. All of you." Smiling, she hugged her brother again and released him to find a small grin.
"I will, don't worry." Taking a deep breath, he listened to the manager speak, introducing the circus and some of the things they'd see. Trowa would go ahead and start the show after the introductions and the animal tamers grabbed the attention of the people with the more exotic animals. Cathy would end it, the true star giving the crowd one last memory to take with them. Taking a few steps, he turned to look at Lerado, his partner in most of his acts. The giant lion remained quiet, letting Trowa stroke the beast's head. "Let's do this Lerado, give them something to laugh about and enjoy themselves. I'm counting on you, we haven't practiced this a lot, so I really need you to help me now. Okay? Good. Go ahead and let them know you're here." Trowa listened to the manager speak, then urged the lion to roar behind the curtains.
Heero listened intently, his interest drawn as he sat with the others, hearing the lion roar. "Isn't Trowa going to come watch?"
Quatre laughed softly and spoke quietly. "Don't worry, he's watching this. You'll know in a minute."
Duo shot Quatre a glare, the Arabian hadn't broken like he'd hoped. "C'mon Quatre, please tell me?"
Wufei silenced the persistent pilot. "You'll know soon enough, now be silent baka."
The manager continued with the act. "It seems we may have a little bit of a problem, our great lion, Lerado, seems to have gotten out. But don't worry, there is one that can find him, with your help." Standing out of the spotlight, he headed behind the curtain as the spotlight was focused on the entrance to the ring.
Heero watched, somewhat scared for his friends. If the lion had gotten out, someone could get hurt. "Will Trowa be okay?"
"He'll be just fine, he knows what he's doing." Quatre assured.
Trowa took his cue, doing a triple back flip out into the ring, catching the oo's and ah's of the people. With a final push, he catapulted himself into the air with his arms, doing a double twist, flip, then final spin so that he was facing the audience and landed with ease. He actually smiled to the crowd, raising his hands in the air and catching his friend's surprised and approving expressions. Not saying a word, he pretended to look around, catching Lerado's roar backstage and looking about some more as if he hadn't a clue. Walking around the outside of the ring, he quickly gazed back at hearing everyone's gasps and knew it was all up to Lerado now. Pretending to think, he held one hand to his side, a scrap of meat in his hand for he'd also asked that Lerado be fed little so that he was still hungry. Resting his chin on his other hand as his elbow rested on his other arm, he kept pondering. Finally, he raised his hands in defeat, shrugging his shoulders clueless as he felt the lion sneak up behind him.
The crowd screamed at this. "Behind you! He's behind you!"
Giving them a final minute, he turned a second after Lerado pounced, heading and looking behind him where the lion once stood. This go a laugh out of everyone as they watched the stunned lion.
Heero watched, worry filling his being as he watched the lion ready to pounce on Trowa, but smiled when Trowa moved at the last minute. "He didn't see him."
Quatre laughed as his friend continued the game of cat-and-mouse. "No, he didn't. It's okay, Trowa's trying to find him but Lerado isn't going to hurt him, they're just playing." Assuring Heero, they watched the act, Trowa looking all over but never finding Lerado.
'Last time, pull it off Lerado and land on the platform.' Sitting in front of the circular step, he listened to Lerado pounce and steady on the platform before he turned, a giant smile on his face as he gave the lion the food. Listening to the crowd cheer and applaud, many rising to their feet and giving a standing ovation, he stroked Lerado and looked to his other friends. "Great job Lerado, you did it again. Now, let's go ahead and get this show started." Pushing the lion softly, he watched the creature head towards the audience, circling about as he did another back flip, pushing himself into the air with a triple twist and coming down into a one-handed hand stand on the lions back, riding him out of the ring and backstage. Once there, he listened to the manager introduce the next act, Lerado stopping and settling down.
Cathy trotted over to her brother, having watched. "That was a great show Trowa, and I think that's the first time I've seen you smile out there! You really got the crowd on their feet and laughing." Hugging him from behind, she laughed as he struggled to keep his balance.
"Well, Lerado did what he was supposed to, exceptionally well considering that he only practiced it for a few hours. You can eat now partner, you did great." Letting the animal trainers take him away, he smiled and quickly began to change.
"What are you doing Trowa?"
"Changing, why?"
"Don't you remember? We all go out a final time at the end of the show, you'd just have to put everything on again." Shaking her head, the young woman only smirked.
Thinking, he put his mask down upon the table and looked back at her. "It's been a little while, and with everything that's happened, it's easy to forget." Sighing, he walked over and watched the acrobats enter the ring. "When's Zita up?"
Looking at him curiously, she smiled. "What, she becoming your girlfriend or something?"
Shooting her a glare, he shook his head. "No, I'd asked a favor of her, and I want to watch Heero when he's working with Enchantress."
"I see, you went ahead and asked her to pick him as one of the three audience tamers." Giggling, she listened to the crowd cheer and laugh, seeing their faces light up as she gazed through the curtain.
Walking up beside her, he leaned against one of the posts. "I just wanted to see him have some fun, he was really shaken up after the escape, and then broken-hearted when we told him we had to leave and that he'd be staying with Relena. Who he was staying with changed, but nothing else. We tried to make it easier on him, and right now, he could really use some fun. He still has Zero, though it's with Sally, but he knows how to fly thanks to Quatre's help. Yet, Quatre has a few bruises to sport for Heero's, professional maneuvers when he was just supposed to be relearning. That, and the journal Relena got him, and we're just trying to make it easier. I'll have to program your computer to immediately connect to Heavyarms should you need to get a hold of us. We'll call whenever and if I can finally get into Heero's laptop, I can program your computer to email to that and so that we can get it. He wouldn't remember the passwords to get past the firewalls, but we don't really have a computer that we can gain access to all the time, nor the same one. We'll try and visit when we can as well, he knows all this, and has accepted it, yet he isn't going to like it in the slightest. Oh, and if you move near any OZ bases for a show, try not to let him get out too much, he'll be easily recognized by the soldiers and he gets really nervous around them. It'd be best to pre- warn him, then expect nightmares and extreme uneasiness, but I don't want him to be by himself. Especially during times like those. They'll take him captive again and he won't know what to do or how to defend himself, they won't believe that he doesn't know anything any longer and they'll just hurt him again Cathy."
Placing her hand on his shoulder, she watched him turn to her. "I will take care of him just like I do you. Like a little brother. I won't let him out of my sight and no one will hurt him again. Don't worry Trowa, he'll be fine. If anything does happen, I know that I can stall long enough after telling you so that you can get there to help if I can't handle it myself, and Heero will be safe. I swear it Trowa." With a sympathetic smile, she watched a small one grace his lips. "You really do look so much better out there when you smile. You really do look so much better when you smile period."
Letting his smile grow, he only shook his head. "I'll have enough to smile about later, after this damned war. We all will."
Zita looked over to find Trowa and Cathy standing by the exit from the ring, her tigers growing impatient behind her but Enchantress kept them quiet, knowing the drill and what was expected. "Trowa!" She called just above a whisper, waving over to him. "Where's he at?"
"Isle seat, middle section, the left side of the fifth isle." He called back, watching the final moves by the acrobats. He would have been one, but being a clown, he was hidden by the mask and clothes, even if they were goofy looking. He need not fear of his identity being revealed.
"My left or their left?"
"Yours."
Nodding, she watched the two siblings move and the acrobats leave the ring, the manager introducing her act. With an anticipating sigh, she grinned and swung her leg over Enchantress's back, she always rode the tiger out and the people welcomed her. "Ready girl?" At receiving a look from the large feline, she ushered her out at a gallop, into the ring. "Go Chant." The five tigers followed in knowing. Throwing her hands into the air, she watched the tigers circle the ring, the last three falling out into the middle of the stage, standing side by side. On the second round in the circle, the last two tigers left Chant's lead and raced toward the crowd, jumping upon the others and forming the second level of the pyramid. This was something new she was trying. With a final urge, she held onto Enchantress's coat and braced herself. "Now Chant," she whispered in the cat's ear. "This is your turn. I trust you." With a final leap, she and Chant landed on the backs of the top two tigers, forming the pyramid as the people cheered. With a soft kick, she urged Chant to jump down, forming the circle again, rounding once by herself, the second time with two more cats, the third with all five trailing her. Her equipment and everything was set up for everyone. Stopping before everyone, she watched the other cats line up behind Enchantress.
Heero stared on in awe, the woman that road the tiger was the same one he saw before, she was pretty and she looked really nice. The white tigers were also very beautiful, strong but graceful. Clapping with the others, he watched the tigers spread out and lay down, the biggest tiger following the lady back to the middle of the rink. When everything quieted down, music could be heard, it didn't have any words but it was energetic and moving, the guitars and drums driving the tempo on.
Smirking, Trowa nodded in approval. "She's finally got the pyramid down, how long did it take her?"
Cathy hid her laughter. "Three months."
"She's done pretty good. Now, just to go on with the show." Yawning, he realized how truly tired he was from the day. Looking at his sister, he knew he should have stifled it.
"You're going to bed when this is all over Trowa."
"What? I'm fine and there is a lot to be done still in cleaning up after the show. You may have done it without me, but that doesn't mean that now that I'm here, I don't have to do anything just because I'm back. Don't look at me like that Cathy." Sighing, he knew that even if he did help clean up after the show and put everything away, he'd never hear the end of it until he was asleep. Then it was going to be a long night for the both of them.
With a look of disapproval, Cathrine turned back to watching the acts. Zita was still trying to get Chant to listen to her.
Zita had already given Chant the signal to ignore her commands, so she tried harder as the crowd laughed. "Enchantress, you climb up here." With a sigh, she climb up to show the cat what she meant and watched it walk away. "Hey, where do you think you're going?"
Heero laughed softly, enjoying the circus and his first show. The others had said that he'd like it, and he didn't just like it, he loved it. Even Wufei was laughing some. Turning back, he watched the young woman try and get the tiger to listen to her.
Turning to the crowd, she spoke. "Oh, you all think you can do better? Let's see, then I need someone to come down here and show me to do it right if you all think so." Watching hands pop into the air, she walked straight into the audience and chose a girl about the age of seven, a young boy about the age of twelve, and finally, she turned to look again. "Hey, I didn't say we were going anywhere guys, get back here you six. The act isn't done yet." She got a laugh out of the people as the tigers came back to their spots reluctantly and laid down. They were meant to do that, called back by a few of the circus trainers. Walking about, she finally came to Heero and held out her hand. "I think I've found three of the best tiger tamers there is, come on."
Heero looked up at her in uncertainty, then over to Quatre.
"It's okay Heero, go ahead and go with her. We'll be right here and she needs your help." Smiling, he watched his friend take her hand and followed her down.
Zita smiled, he was reluctant now but he'd have fun, she'd see to it personally. Standing him next to the other two, she went ahead and asked their names, having them speak into her microphone. Then she assigned them each a tiger, taking one of the others as Chant went to Heero. "Let's give these brave tiger tamers another hand." She let the applause quell itself, quickly giving the signal to Tigger. "Okay, let's see if I can't get this another time. Tigger, on the step." She used her hands to command the tiger into laying down. As the audience laughed, she walked over to the three other people in the ring and looked at them as they laughed. "Think it's funny? Let's see you do better. Go ahead Jason, take Trinity and see if you can do anything with her." Sighing in "defeat", she watched the boy take the tiger over to the platform. "Go ahead and tell her where to go, then point to it and maybe she'll do something."
The young boy, Jason, did as he was instructed. Watching the tiger climb up, he laughed as the crowd did.
Zita walked over, an amazed look on her face as she played along. "Well, maybe you were just lucky. Trinity, down." She used her hands to motion for "hide". The tiger hid her eyes with her paws, then looked up and hid her face again. Looking down, she found Jason trying to keep himself from collapsing to the ring floor. "I suppose you could do better?"
Jason pointed to the ground, having gotten the hang of this commanding thing and called between laughs. "Down Trinity." The tiger jumped from the step and he was instructed to join the others, the crowd applauding.
"Let's give this young man a hand, he's got to be Doctor DoLittle himself." Zita smiled as the kid took it overboard and turned, bowing dramatically and even getting a laugh out of her. "You can go ahead and sit back down Jason, you've managed to show me up. You did a great job." Smiling, she watched Trinity lay along the ring in her spot. "Okay Kalina, let's see if Dæmon will work. Dæmon, come." She motioned for him to turn around and head in the other direction. "Dæmon stop!" Sitting on the ground in "frustration", she watched the others laugh and Kalina giggle as she petted the tiger. "Dæmon doesn't like working for just anyone, Kalina. Go for it if you think you can."
Kalina, having seen Jason, walked to Zita's side with Dæmon at her side. "What do you want him to do?"
Biting her bottom lip, she thought. "I bet you can't get him to go on the slide." Smiling, she watched Kalina lead the tiger over to the slide.
"Get up there Dæmon." She pointed to the top and watched the tiger climb. Looking over her shoulder, she fell into giggles at Zita's face, her eyes wide and her jaw dropped. "Come down." Pointing to the end, she watched the tiger do as he was told. The crowd cheered loudly and she blushed from the attention.
"I'm just having a bad day. Are you Mrs. DoLittle?"
Sticking out her tongue and pretending to gag, boys still had cooties at this time, she shook her head viciously and got another laugh from the crowd.
"Okay, go ahead and sit down Kalina. You did great. Let's all give Kalina another round of applause."
The crowd did so.
Heero hoped that his tiger would work for him, he watched the other two but felt shy and nervous in front of all these people. Petting Enchantress, he felt her nose nudge his hand and he smiled slightly. He wasn't feeling so good again. Looking up, he found Zita walking over to him.
Skillfully clicking off her battery pack to the mic, she walked over and put a hand on his shoulder. With a soft voice while the crowd chattered, she looked at him and spoke. "It's okay Heero, this is going to be just fine. Trowa told me all about you. He said you were really good with animals and I had to see for myself, so, how about we show these people how it's done. There's nothing to be afraid of, she likes you and will listen. Are you going to help me?"
Heero looked at her, calming down somewhat. Nodding, he watched her turn her mic back on and waited for his instructions.
"Okay, now there have been two people that have made two of the worst tigers I've had listen to them. They're not bad, they just don't listen." She heard the people laugh and smiled. "Now, Enchantress, or Chant, always listens to me, but I think she found someone she liked better. She won't listen to me, so maybe you can get her to work for you Heero and finish the show. How about it?"
Heero nodded again, smiling. He could hear the people clapping and cheering, just for him. He could hear Duo's loud shouts of encouragement too. "Okay."
Trying one more time, Zita verbally commanded the tiger to circle again but with her hands, she told her to go backstage. "Hey hey hey! Where do you think you're going missy?" The tiger only came back and laid down, looking away from Zita. "I give up, see if you can't get her to circle." Winking at Heero, she stood back and took a seat on the metal steps, just outside the ring.
Heero nodded, walking out toward the center of the ring, Chant following. Kneeling, he began to stroke the tigress's head and speak softly to her. "Let's finish this, like Zita said. Make the others proud, okay?" Standing, he pointed toward the outside of the ring and said in a firm voice loud enough for everyone to hear. "Circle Chant."
Enchantress took off immediately, circling around and having the other five follow her lead. She kept circling, never quitting until commanded otherwise.
Zita stood and ran to Heero's side, smiling. "Well, I'll be. If you were bribing her, then I'm in big trouble."
Heero shook his head and laughed. "I just told her we had to work now."
Sighing, she watched the tigers circle, another "amazed" look upon her face. "Well, that's good. Now, let's see how good you really are. I want you to go ahead and get Chant to lead the others on the step, they'll jump from there up the ramp and down the slide, around, up this other ramp, and on through this ring." She pointed to the raised ring.
Heero nodded, knowing what to do as if he had commanded like this before. "Okay." Looking out, he caught Chant watching him. Standing next to the step, he pointed at it and called out. "Enchantress, up." The tiger followed his command, the others doing the same as he moved to the ramp near the slide, pointing first to the top then the bottom of the slide, then walking around to the other ramp where Chant circled around and on up to jump through the hoop. The five tigers followed in suite. After he was done, a loud explosion was heard near the ring, sending up colored smoke and streamers into the air, getting surprised cries, oo's and ah's once again from the crowd.
Zita laughed, placing her hand on Heero's shoulder to keep him calm and quickly telling him that it was supposed to happen. She had forgotten to tell him earlier and Trowa had said that he might be scared. "It's okay Heero, you did everything perfectly and that was supposed to happen. Don't be afraid."
Heero stood where he was, somewhat shaken but he kept fairly calm. Smiling, he watched the smoke clear and heard the thundering applause as people rose from their seats and clapped for him, his friends cheering louder and Duo shouting above the crowd and rooting him on.
Quickly signaling to the tigers, she called her commands once the others hand seen her hand gestures. "Chant, stop." The six felines stopped and raised their heads as meant to, releasing a victorious call. "Well, they listen now. I've heard of a horse-whisperer, but you've got to be the tiger-whisperer. Or cat-whisperer, whichever you choose. Let's give him another round of applause ladies and gentleman for a job well done!" Raising her left hand, she let her right stay on his shoulder as she caught his smile.
Heero couldn't hide his smile, feeling it grow larger on his face. Everyone was proud of him and he did a good job. He was going to like it here. Receiving the go ahead, he quickly made his way back to his seat to watch the rest of the show.
Zita smiled, finishing her act and leaving the ring, catching a smirking Trowa and laughing Cathy just behind the curtains. Jumping off of Chant, she headed over to the two as another act entered. "Well, what'd ya think guys?"
"That's all?" Trowa teased.
Cathy was surprised that her brother was acting so open around everyone now, showing emotions, but she slapped his arm anyway. "Trowa, behave."
"I mean, that was great. Heero really had fun it looks like and he's bound to remember this for the rest of his life. Thanks." Trowa nodded and looked out again, certain by the giant smile on Heero's face that he wasn't going to forget it and by the way the others were smiling and congratulating him, they wouldn't either. Turning, he sighed and headed back into the circus tent to sit down, he knew the rest of the show and would watch again when Cathy ended it, then it was his turn to go ahead and lead the others back out for a final bow with the other performers and everyone else that helped make the show possible. Then, they'd all let the manager have his turn in the spotlight as they applauded him, then he'd lead them back, change, then meet the others in the stands as they had planned.
With a slight frown, Cathy crossed over to Trowa's side. "I can tell the manager that you're not feeling so hot and lead the other performers out for you if you'd rather Trowa. You can go ahead and join the others, then take it easy for the rest of the night. You don't look like you got too much sleep little brother."
Shaking his head, Trowa looked up at her. "When you wake up and instantly find out that your friend is somewhere, by himself with only a spunky puppy, in a large palace or on the palace grounds somewhere, that and he isn't his normal self and could get into every kind of trouble there is, it drains you, besides waking up early and taking that long ride. That, and trying to save every little bit of wildlife you come across." With a tired laugh, he smiled tiredly. "I'll lead them out, and argue with you if I can find the energy and help at least put the animals away and get them taken care of."
With a sigh, Cathy nodded. "Fine, but you can't argue with me for long little brother, you're too tired to. I'm guessing that Heero will find the couch better than the pullout bed inside of it?"
"Yeah, don't worry about us. We'll make due on the floor or wherever. We always do. If everything goes all right tonight, without nightmares or anything, we should be leaving within about two to three days. I don't want to ruin tonight, so we can tell him tomorrow. He's probably as ready as he'll ever be within these next few days to let us leave as he stays here."
"All right then, and I'll take care of him for all of you. Feel free to drop by unexpectedly and call whenever, I can tell you are all really trying to make this easier on him, but what's going to make it easier on the four of you?" Cathy watched the next performers leave and the previous ones exit the ring.
Sighing, he thought. "Knowing that he's safe. And ending this war for good."
The next hour and a half passed, performers going on and coming off, giving the crowd memories to last them a lifetime. All the while, Trowa rested and closed his eyes, knowing that the others were enjoying themselves, or at least he hoped so.
At last, it was his turn. Looking back at the acrobats, he nodded and waited for the manager to give the cue. He'd enter with a double, one- handed, front flip, followed by a spin in mid air, then a triple, no-handed back flip and continue the back flips until he reached the other side of the ring. The acrobats would follow with their stunts, Zita riding Enchantress, and so on and so forth until Cathy had come out and they all took a bow. Things would go from there. Hearing the cue, he turned and started his job, giving the others a few minutes and continuing his work around the outside of the ring. The applause were all well worth it, the smiles on peoples faces, their laughter, their amazement, and their eyes watching you. It was all worth in and why he loved working in the circus, besides the people he worked with and now called his family. Smiling and waving to the audience, he watched the others exit, then looked to Cathy and they started the wave of bows that started from the ends, to the middle, and back again. Things were a little different, the manager stood in the middle of the ring of people. Taking a bow, he waited for his turn to come again. Then he clapped with the others as the manager took a final bow and bid the people a safe night and trip home, hoping they enjoyed themselves and telling them of their next shows and that everything else was still open for exploring. Waiting until the animals had gone and the trainers, he led the others back behind the curtain and immediately took his mask off, changing into his normal set of clothes.
"You look like you're forcing everything Trowa, go get your friends and enjoy yourself for a little while, show them around the rest of the circus. Then go to bed, you're tired." Cathy didn't rush her changing, she was letting down her hair when her brother was putting his normal shoes on.
"Later. I'll help with..."
"We've got it, you know you're going to worry enough about Heero when you leave, have fun while you can little brother." Smiling, she dug into her purse and snatched out some money for him, forcing it into his hand. "The circus uses the money to pay for our necessities, you can't just take them around and let them play the games for free. What will everyone else think? Besides, it comes back to us anyway, just take it and have fun."
Looking up and smiling, Trowa sighed. "All right, thanks Sis. Your routine was perfect and great, as normal, and that's why you're the closing star and the biggest." He headed toward the curtain that separated the performers from the guests and stopped when he heard her speak up.
"And you give yourself no credit Trowa. You made this the most memorable night that these people will probably ever experience for a while, at least in more lives than you know. My work wouldn't mean anything without your help. You were the star out there, now don't argue and let me change." Giggling, she watched him leave with a smile. She wasn't being modest, she knew she spoke the truth. He would be though and try to convince her otherwise, but she could be stubborn too.
"Well well, look who came back." Wufei smirked, stretching his legs from sitting down for so long. It was interesting and he even had to admit, somewhat fun.
Heero beamed, watching Trowa take the steps two at a time as he crossed over to them. "Did you see me Trowa? They all listened to me, the tigers, and they didn't listen to the other lady but they did what I told them to do! And the one called Chant, I think she's really pretty and she let me pet her and..."
Trowa smirked, laughing softly. "I take it you liked your first show?"
"I loved it! I've never been to the circus but I like it now and I never got to go before. And Cathy said that maybe I could help her with the animals. I want to help! I really do! They're so big but nice and they like me! I got scared when I saw you look for the lion and he was behind you, didn't you see him? But, Quatre said that you were just playing a game and that the lion was playing too and then I started laughing. I haven't seen those animals before, not so close! They're not like Faith or anything! I've seen cats, but those were big and strong and had a loud roar, but they're really nice if you make them your friends. The lady said I did everything perfectly and that I could even work with the animals too!" Taking a deep breath, he heard the others laugh while he tried to calm down.
Quatre looked up, nodding. "I think he *might* have liked the circus," he teased. Placing his hand on Heero's arm, he smiled. "Settle down, we don't want you hyperventilating and passing out or something." Laughing, he only shook his head.
"I watched it all, and I would have come out and joined you, but I had to lead everyone out. Cathy offered to take it and tell the manager, but it was my job so I stayed behind the curtain. I'm glad you all enjoyed yourself, and here I was thinking I did awful." Laughing, he led the others from the tent and out into the cool night. "We can go ahead and get Faith now, she's allowed to wander the grounds if she's with us."
"Okay!" Was Heero's response. "You didn't do awful, you were really really good! And when the lights turned off and the colored lights came on, and the elephants made the jungle noises and the smoke made it almost scary, I also liked the part when..."
Duo snickered softly as they headed toward Cathy's trailer. "Only one part Heero? Wow. He's talked more in the past ten minutes than in the entire time I've known the guy!"
Heero looked at the others curiously, but didn't pay it any mind as he raced up to the trailer, opening the door and finding Faith waiting for him on the couch, her tail wagging madly. "You can come now Faith, it was really pretty and lots of fun, but they didn't let puppies in the tent so you couldn't come. I'll tell you all about it, but we're going to go for a walk now and look at everything else and you can come too! Come on! What's she doing?" He called back to his friends, for Faith kept her distance and sniffed at his hand and lower legs like she didn't know him.
Trowa spoke at this, stifling a yawn. "She smells Enchantress and she doesn't know her. She'll be fine in a minute, she's just curious."
Wufei looked at his comrade in uncertainty. "You're pushing yourself again Trowa. You have this entire time."
"What?" The young circus performer looked at his Chinese friend.
"He's right Trowa, you should take it easy, we all can while we've finally got the time." Quatre added. "You didn't switch drivers the entire time, you've always been up before us, and doing tonight's show after everything that has happened in the day has drained you. Take it easy for a little while, we aren't fighting yet."
Nodding, he smirked. "You and Cathy think alike, all of you do."
"Sometimes, I wonder about you man." Duo eyed him and closed the trailer door.
"Why?"
"I'm just gonna leave it at that."
Rolling his eyes, he led them toward the rides, quickly stopping by the booth and getting twenty dollars worth of tickets. Everything here used tickets. "Fine. I'll figure it out later." Uncrossing his arms and lifting them, he called out. "Take your pick, and enjoy."
~+~
Watching the others settle into their beds, Trowa finished covering Heero after he'd finally worn himself out on the amusement rides. He barely carried himself back to the trailer, most of the time, Trowa standing at the exit gate when the others went to enjoy themselves. He was tired, but he'd also ridden each of the rides. Most of the time, Cathy dragged him along and they tested them out. "Go to sleep Heero, there's plenty of time tomorrow to tell us everything." Drawing the blanket with tired arms over his friend's shoulders, he listened to the others as they fell asleep. Cathy sat in her room, keeping quiet and just relaxing after the night's show.
Heero closed his eyes, feeling Faith snuggle next to him on the couch. "Goodnight Trowa. Thank you..."
"You're welcome. And goodnight Heero." Petting Faith for a second or so, he thought about going ahead and going into his sister's room and talking some. He'd have time later, right now he was just tired, so instead he settled down on his makeshift bed, even the sparsely carpeted floor was comfortable. With that, he fell almost straight into sleep.
~+~
The next two days passed without much of a problem, Heero somewhat disheartened about them leaving so soon, but he promised the others to take care of the circus and help, and to take especially good care of Cathy and himself. Cathy would know when to release the squirrel into his new home and she would know how to get a hold of them and take care of everything.
Duo looked at his friend with a sad smile. The time had come to part ways, them to return to the battlefield, Heero, to life. "We'll miss ya buddy, but we'll come back, all of us, alive."
Heero nodded, averting his gaze. This time, he was going to be strong in front of all the others. Forcing back his tears and covering it with a smile, he looked up. "Faith is going to miss you too."
Quatre kneeled to stroke Faith's head. "And we'll miss her, but we'll be back sooner than you know it."
Taking a deep breath, Wufei crushed his emotions with an iron will and allowed himself a small smile. "You'll have too much fun to miss us for long."
Shaking his head, he felt Cathy's comforting hand on his shoulder. She had said that he was allowed to call her Sis or Cathy like Trowa did too. He asked, confused at the time. "It won't be a lot of fun without you." Quickly brushing away a tear, he looked down to hide his eyes. He wasn't as strong as the others were being. Maybe at one time he was, but not now.
Trowa forced himself to remain where he was. "Yes it will, I'm sure. Don't worry, it took me forever but I finally found the passwords to the computer firewalls that will let us get into the email portion. Cathy has a laptop as you've seen, and she'll show you exactly how to get to the part where you can send us anything, anytime you want. We'll be back soon, but we've gotta go so that we can come back for good. Okay?"
Nodding, Heero looked up and smiled. "Okay." Dropping the chain-link leash so that it hung loosely on his wrist, Heero gave each of his brothers a hug for the last time before they left. Watching them climb into the trucks, Duo with Trowa and Quatre with Wufei, he waved and smiled along with Cathy when they left and pulled out. He stood in the same spot until he couldn't see them anymore before he turned to his new, older sister.
Cathy took Heero into an embrace, knowing that he'd fought off his emotions for long enough. Feeling her shoulder beginning to dampen, she smiled and spoke softly to him. "It's okay Heero, Trowa leaves a lot like that and I don't really like it either, but when he says that they'll come back, he will, come hell or high water. And if he says that they'll all come back, alive, and for good when they end this war, they will. It'll be okay. Let's let you go ahead and get some rest, you woke up early this morning and you're still tired." Leading him back to the trailer, she smiled sadly. "Come on little brother."
"Okay Sis. Come on Faith, they'll be back later." With a small smile, he wiped the stray tears away and followed her into the trailer. "They'll be back later."
~+~The End...
...or is it?
Author's Note: Well, poor Heero... *sniffles* He had the time of his life being a "star" before everyone else after blaming himself for so much he thought he did wrong, and then the others leave him again! *sobs* Don't worry, this is the end of this portion.. but not of this story... *grins* I've got the sequel coming up, it'll be just like a journal. Okay, so that's the layout for the story, it does go off of his journal writings and into story format, but it took a little while to get into his head, then to see it as if he were from in a child's state of mind... *giggles* I'm so mean to him at times... Oh well, please look for the sequel, it's called "Starting Anew: Sequel to Innocence Restored". Please review!
