Chapter 7
Its HERE!! And Its MUSH!! For all those I/M fans who have been waiting… HERE you are!! Quick Review for those who've forgotten. Susan Got caught by the Psi Corps, then rescued, (By Delenn) but ended up Blind and Mute due to the Psi Corps. She ended up a ranger, with her little Shadow Mari following her everywhere. Currently, Best is going to arrive on the Station in two days, threatening to take her and Mari back…but that's not going to happen…or is it? :Þ (That is really quick, I hope that gets you sort of back into things.
Marcus walked down the hall, looking for the caped figure of Susan Ivaonva. There wasn't many places she could go-he knew she couldn't leave this level. He found her sitting on a bench in the observation room, with Mari on her lap.
Hello Marcus.
"You did give Garibaldi quite a shock you know."
Did you hear what he suggested?! I…
"Do you mind if I sit?"
No not at all.
He sat beside her. "They want you to go back and talk with them."
Figures. I really don't want to. I'm tired of being around people.
"You've been jumpy, I've noticed."
On Minbar I stayed to myself, and Delenn wants me to come back and pretend like everything is great. Is it really that noticeable?
"Well, considering the fact you've nearly thrown me across the room telepathically and tripped me in a 24 hour span, not meaning to, I might add, I'd say, yeah you are."
I don't think I've gotten the ranger control thing down like I should. I'm surprised they even passed me.
"Well, you've never exactly been the calm type."
I've never exactly been the jumpy type either. I can handle anything, except them.
"Susan, if you ever…look, I'm here for you okay, no matter what."
Marcus? She could feel his sincerity, his love. She wrapped her mind in it tightly, afraid to let it leave her. I…don't know how to say what's happened. I'm not sure that I remember all of it, I get bits and pieces at moments…Just let me be on my own okay? I've got to take care of Mari to.
"You love Mari don't you?"
I'd protect her with my life.
Mari added in, She's my big sister.
"You don't have to have just the two of you. We're here for you as friends. Not just me, but Delenn and Steven, and John. You know that, you've known that."
I… I'm not the Susan you knew. She was caught and torn apart.
"No, I see her, she's right in front of me. She's a little hidden, and probably a little frightened to come out, but I see her."
I am not frightened.
"I saw you when Bester came on the vid screen. You tensed up like an animal about to run."
She knew she couldn't fight that. He isn't someone I want to run in to any time soon.
"And he's going to be here in two days."
Don't remind me.
"Susan, you're going to have to fight them, here you know that. You can't just hide."
Do you have any idea what it is like to hide your entire life from yourself? Pretend you something your not? Do you have any idea what it was like sitting there in a school building praying the man in black didn't drag you away? I remember all those moments, every time I have to run. Then they caught me, all because some stupid telepath wanted to eat lunch with me! They wouldn't let me go…you can't run from a psicop. You can't run. You can hide, but you cannot run.
"You won't be running, you'll be fighting, and I'll be right beside you."
They'd hurt you, as soon as they saw you, maybe even before. You don't understand what power a telepath holds.
"I'm not afraid. I just want you alive and here." Marcus took Susan's hand gently . The touch brought on an involuntary scan. A fierce protectiveness, worry, concern, love all mixed together, and all about her. It went though her mind for a brief second before she jerked away, I'm sorry, I scanned you….
"Susan, I want you to answer a question."
Okay. Marcus' nervousness was radiating towards her.
"Susan, answer honestly, what you feel?"
She contemplated her answer. I…I felt something… I…could show you, because I think I feel like that…
"I trust you enough to do that, Susan. Just tell me what to do, I don't care what you see Susan, ever."
She paused.
I…Marcus, simply hold out your hands and relax.
He held out his hands to hers, and she touched them gently, before intertwining her fingers in his. She fed her own thoughts, her fear, her confusion, her love, her hopes and dreams all focused about him, but there was an underlying darkness to it all. She let herself fall into his, feeling the warmth engulf her soul. She didn't want to leave.
She heard his mind in almost a musical tone, How…
***Inside The Minds of…***
"Its all in your mind-in our minds.
Here…" Susan projected an image of a room, and they were standing in it. Susan
wrapped in his embrace.
"It's all in the mind, but
this makes it a little better to digest sometimes. My mother would do this when
I was a child."
"She'd make projections of places? Its amazing…It feels real"
"It should."
"Do you
know how much I missed you?" He spoke into her hair.
"Yes."
"Did you miss
me?"
Susan took a step away from
him, the projection of the room becoming dark, as space appeared around them,
as a holographic video screen. The floor shook. Susan placed her hands on her
head with a muffled sound before the original projection began to appear again.
She took a deep breath… "I…"
"What was that? The whole thing it felt like it was falling apart."
"It was, because…" She trailed off…
"Susan…what?"
She shook her head. "They told me you were dead."
"Su…"
"No, listen."
"They showed me you were dead. They made me believe you were dead. I didn't know, I couldn't know."
The projection had gone black. Marcus and Susan stood within a void.
"Marcus, I watched you die over and over again, and all I wanted was you there. They wouldn't even let me have a hope…" Her words became images, pictures, mere feelings…as she forgot words in telepathy, and resorted to simpler forms.
A picture of a White Star exploding in space, a data pad with Cole, Marcus, Ranger ….Dead. Her pain, fear, and loss, all out for him to feel, to know for himself.
He came up and embraced her; no words would ever be needed.
** End of 7.
I wrote something!! Look at me go!! I hope you enjoyed this, and haven't been waiting impatiently. I should be writing more soon ^_^ REVIEW Thankies. –Moon Bunny
