If You Only Knew

by:kawaiiteddybear

kawaiiteddybear: lol!!! okay okay... finally I can begin S+S mush!!! *clap clap* thanx for ALL those reviews!!!!!! not bad for a really bad writer... anyways onto chapter sixteen!!!

DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN ANY OF CCS, CLAMP DOES!!!

Chapter Sixteen: Finding My Way

'How can this happen?' Syaoran asked himself angrily. He isolated himself in the training room, to think over what had happened the last twenty four hours. 'I was grieving at Sakura's death, but she was in front of me the whole time!' he swung his sword. 'Now she probably hates me then ever.' he guessed. Hot tears stinged down his face, 'I can't believe I slapped Sakura and pushed her into the lake...' he scolded himself. He dropped his sword, letting it hit the ground and he fell to the ground as well. "I'm so sorry, Sakura..." was all he could breathe as tears streamed down his face.

"Syaoran!" he heard a female voice call.

He quickly wiped his tears away and turned to see Tomoyo, with a smirk on her face. "Yes Tomoyo?" he asked flatly.

"It's time for dinner, your mother told me to call you." she told him, with the same smirk on her face. 'Well, well... could the o mighty Syaoran, possibly be crying?' she asked herself.

"Okay... tell her I'll be in, in a minute." he said, standing up. 'I better go wash my face, before everyone notices that I've been crying.' he thought. He walked into the washroom and looked into the mirror. He scowled, 'It's all my fault that Sakura is in this condition...'

"Hurry up, Syaoran!" he heard four female voices call.

He splashed water onto his face, hoping that the red brim around his eyes weren't noticable. He walked down to the dining room and noticed that there was a table setting for everyone, but, there weren't any seats for him. "Just a minute... Let me go grab another chair." Syaoran said annoyed.

"No that's okay my cute little descendant... your going to keep Sakura company today." Eriol smiled widely, holding up a tray that had two bowls of rice and little plates that was filled with various kinds of food.

Syaoran mumbled something that no one could here but then grabbed the tray and headed towards the guestroom. 'I hope she won't mind...' he wondered, remembering what had happened before, Sakura didn't want to see his face ever again. He knocked on the door and hoped that Sakura wouldn't be angry that Li Syaoran was coming into the room.

Sakura was reading a book when she heard a knock on the door, "Come in!" she called happily.

A tall figure walked in, Sakura immediately turned away. "Syaoran." she said, not wanting to see him, afraid that her heart was going to melt when she looked into his amber eyes.

"My mother told me that I should keep you company, and plus, I brought dinner." Syaoran whispered sadly, holding up a large tray.

'No I can't look at him... I can't! Remember what he did to you! He's engaged with Akane!' she battled within herself. She looked at him, and suddenly, all the doubts and pain that Syaoran had caused, melted away. "Okay, fine, lets have dinner, I'm starving!" Sakura said quietly. 'You baka!' Sakura scolded herself.

Syaoran took a chair that leaned against the wall and set it beside Sakura, who laid in the bed. He took out a small table, which he had miraculously pulled out of under the bed. He set the tray onto the table, which sat on top of the bed and passed Sakura a bowl of rice.

In the dining room, everyone was having a fabulous and delicious dinner. Tomoyo, Eriol, Yelan, Fujitaka and the four Li sisters were all wondering in curiousity. What is going on between Sakura and Syaoran? They were all thinking about.

"If that gaki hurts Sakura... I swear!" Touya growled angrily.

"Count me in too!" Kero bursted out.

Fujitaka sat their trying to hold back the "chinese gaki exterminator duo" from interrupping Sakura's and Syaoran's privacy.

"Why can't I record them with my video camera?" Tomoyo asked Eriol.

Eriol sighed, "Because, if you went EVERYONE would have to come, and would Sakura and Syaoran get anywhere?"

"But it would be a great documentary for my collection! 'The Recarnation of Love'..." Tomoyo squealed with stars in her eyes.

Eriol sweatdropped.

Yelan had finally came back from wherever she had went and everyone looked at her intently. "Everyone, I would like to make a important annoucement!" she announced.

When she had everyone's full attention and continued, "Well, maybe, I should let these two tell you. Akane... Ryu..."

Akane walked in with a boy with black hair and grey eyes. Everyone glared at her.

"I've broken my engagement with Syaoran." she let out quickly, before a whole gang of people were after her.

Tomoyo and the four Li sisters squealed with happiness.

"Now little brother can be with Sakura!" the four Li sisters screeched in unison.

"Who is this guy with you, Akane?" Eriol piped up, raising an eyebrow.

Akane let out a long sigh and sat down. She told them everything, when she ended, all four of the Li sisters squealed in happiness once again. Tomoyo walked up to her and whispered into her ear, "I was wondering if you could help Eriol and I, to set up two certain people."

Akane let out a chuckle, 'This is going to be good!' she thought happily.


Back in the quaint, quiet room, Syaoran and Sakura sat there, not a word was spoken. They had been staring at each other intently, but the other had always missed each other's gaze. Their hearts were pounding inside their chest, and they felt as if they were carrying 500 tons of weights. Finally Sakura spoke up, breaking the silence, "Syaoran... Why did you accept the engagement?"

Syaoran looked at her frowned slightly, "I thought you were dead Sakura... I needed to move on... When my mother had offered an engagement I jumped at the chance." he told her quietly, not able to look at her, afraid of her reaction.

Syaoran suddenly jumped when he heard a small weeping sound, "I wanted to tell you, Syaoran... so much... I was dying inside... But if I did-" Sakura sobbed.

Syaoran removed the tray of food off of the bed and placed it on the ground. He moved closer to Sakura, sitting beside her on the bed and held her close. He hugged her tightly, smelling the sweet scent of cherry blossoms that she still let into the air. "I know, Sakura... I know..." He looked at Sakura's angelic face, it was bruised and their were several cuts that had scorned her lovely face, but he still thought she was beautiful.

'Should I ask him now?' Sakura battled inside her mind, 'But then you would ruin everything!'

"Sakura... I..." Syaoran started.

"What the hell do you think you are doing gaki?" a angry male voice shouted, bursting into the room. A whole mob of people were trailing behind him and Kero, who were both leading the pack. They were the only two that seemed angry, the rest were either grinning happily or smiling.

'Damn!' Syaoran thought in his mind.

"Touya! Kero!" everyone yelled at them, which made them shrink into the size of peas.

"I'm taking kaijuu back to Japan! Before she gets hurt again!" Touya announced angrily.

"But Touya... I'm staying here in Hong Kong, to finish up University." Sakura explained to him.

"But-but..." Touya stuttered, eyes widen in shock, 'How can she stay here when all she will get is pain from this gaki?' he thought.

"Let your sister choose her own decision... if she wants to stay in Hong Kong, I will let her." Fujitaka spoke up.

"Excuse me... but I need to go finish some errands." Syaoran quickly brushed out of the room.

Tomoyo, Akane and the four Li sisters smacked Touya and Kero. "Look what you have done!"

Sakura sat there, confused, "What's going on?"

Tomoyo let out a sigh, "So dense!" she waved her hands in the air. She turned back to Touya and Kero and gave them deadly glares. She pushed them outside of the room, with Akane and the four Li sisters following behind.

Once they were sure that Sakura couldn't hear them, they all smacked them again. "Why the hell did you interrup them?" Tomoyo said angrily, "I wanted to get it on tape!" The videocamera rested over her shoulder, the strap supporting the weight of the camcorder.

"Can't you accept that Syaoran and Sakura belong together?" Akane pointed out angrily, she was overjoyed that her father had accepted her and Ryu's engagement, and she wanted to see the same happiness between Syaoran and Sakura. She kepted scolding herself for getting between Syaoran and Sakura.

"If you two pull a stunt like that again," Fuutie threatened angrily, "You will have at least 6 angry females after you."

"And don't forget the half recarnation of Clow Reed." Eriol spoke from behind. He grabbed Tomoyo's waist and she let out a squeal.

"So do you promise never to interrup Sakura and Syaoran ever again?" Tomoyo asked, with flames in her eyes.

Touya and Kero sat there astonished, they both nodded slowly, shocked by the reaction and threats they had all given them.


Next morning, Sakura woke up feeling wonderful, she loved the way smelling, it was surrounded by love and the sun was shining brightly radianting into the room. Sakura sat up, with a huge smile, and jumped out of the bed. She quickly dressed and brushed her teeth. She never did notice that all her wounds were completely healed, aside from the bruises and cuts that were still scarred on her delicate face.

Sakura was full of joy, she didn't even notice that she had bumped into Eriol.

"My, my, aren't we in a good mood this morning?" Eriol asked happily.

"I've never felt better, my father and brother are alive, thats all I can ask for." Sakura smiled.

"Sakura have you noticed that you can walk again?" Eriol asked.

Sakura's eyes widen, "I guess I haven't noticed." she grinned sheepishly.

"I'm glad that the ordeal with Aku hasn't damaged your happy spirit one bit." Eriol observed.

The two friends both went to the kitchen and joined Tomoyo, the four Li sisters, Yelan, Fujitaka, Akane, Ryu, Touya and Kero for breakfast. Suprisingly, Touya and Kero didn't croak one word about anything that had happened yesterday.

Sakura was the first one to finish and she excused herself. She left for the garden that she had immediately grown fond of in the beginning of the year. It was still filled with roses and peonies. In the distance was a cherry blossom tree. Sakura was still breath taken by the sight, 'I'll never get tired of this.' she thought taking in the wonderful aroma. She sat on one of the big rocks that stood by the forest, in fact, it was the same rock she had placed the present for Syaoran. 'I needed to move on...' Syaoran's word rang in her mind. 'Does that mean that he doesn't love me anymore?' Sakura asked, trying to hold back tears.

Little did Sakura know, Syaoran was training on top of the hill once again. He had taken a break and saw Sakura sitting on the rock by herself. "Sakura..." Syaoran whispered quietly.

Sakura turned around, the wind was blowing through her hair, shadowing her sadden emerald eyes. A few cherry blossom pedals managed to fall off of the tree and blew in sync with the wind, creating a beautiful affect. Syaoran melted when he saw the sight, but he felt a wave of guilt as he saw the sadness in her eyes.

[a/n: SORRY! I'm stopping it HERE!!! LOL... evil evil! I KNOW!! ITS A REALLY BAD CHAPTER!!! anyways next chapter is going to be the last... YAY!!!! please review... yea i no i'm really bad at writing all this mushy stuff]