A/N- alrighty the awaited chapter (hopefully) is here. I had school today and I got an idea! Lol during Pre Advanced TX History I just got this idea and its now in words! Yea! Lol okay thanx for ALL the reviews they mean a lot! SO read, review, if ya flame I don't own a gun but I am a damn good shooter! Just kidding so here it is…………..

Disclaimor- still don't own. JK Rowling still does. Just the plot like it said in al the other chapters!!!

HERMIONES POV

I woke up from the same dream. It seems so real! Why can't they just stop! However, this time more detail was on the dream. This time I had the knife and actually cut myself then I was about to jump, but I saw those eyes!

Now I am convinced this dream might come true! Infact I have the urge to go to the astronomy tower right now and cut myself. But I am not going to till later. I got outta bed, put on my robes, and did my hair. I would be early to breakfast but that would be fine today. I walked down the stairs to the common room with my bag of books, I did not see Malfoy and I was thrilled! When I got to the great hall I was the first Gryffindor there. Though when I sat down and started eating a noticed there were some Ravenclaws, Hufflepuffs, and there was 1 Slytherin. The Slytherin was staring straight at me and I ignored their eyes and quickly ate. When I was almost done, I looked up. The same Slytherin was still staring at me. Pansy (a/n not Malfoy cause at this point he is still in the common room. After all, it's very early.)

Then Ron and Harry came over and sat next to me as more people began piling into the great hall.

"Hey Hermione, how'd last night go? Sharing a place with Malfoy must be like living in hell." Ron said as he started eating his food. Very pig like.

"Well, we did get in a short argument but I didn't see him this morning. We have to plan the Yule Ball together to! Plus this morning we have double potions with the Slytherins!" I told them, of course I left out why we Malfoy and Me faught.

"Double Potions with the Slytherins? Damn its only the first day of classes and they want to torture us already!" Ron said. Just then I noticed Malfoy came in and sat at his table next to Pansy.

"Sorry you have to work with Malfoy for the Yule Ball that must be horrible!" Harry said and I nodded. We finished breakfast and walked to potions.

In potions class we sat at the back as everyone else piled in. Snape came in and smirked at us.

"I see the golden Harry Potter trio is still together. I hoped over the summer they would get bored of each other and stop being friends." He said. This was going to be a long long year!

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(a/n lets skip ahead here till december!) It was 2 weeks before the Yule Ball. Malfoy and me still had a lot to do but we managed this far without killing each. We argued since the beginning of school but it wasn't like throwing knife arguing. We never mentioned my mom being dead or me reading the Abuse book. Of course I still cut myself all the time. I had scars because some spells got rid of the cuts and left them. There wasn't one person that noticed so I figured I could get away with it till the end of the year. Then I figured I had enough money in the Gringotts to get a room at the Leaky Cauldron. I was expecting a letter from my dad saying Marie was pregnant I hadnt gotten one yet but I knew it was only a matter of time! The day after the Yule Ball Harry and Ron were going to the burrow and well they didn't ask me so I was staying here.

MALFOY'S POV

It was almost Christmas vacation and I received a letter from my mom this morning. It seems that the bastard who is my father so happened to hit my mom with a baseball and put her in the ER at a muggle hospital it was so bad. She said she was fine now but my dad brought home a 30-year-old the other day and probably slept with her. So my mom is constantly writing saying don't come home. I wish I could though I don't want her to get hurt.

Moreover, Granger was staying for the holidays. We weren't killing each other but we fought a lot. I never mentioned her mom. I went in her room the other day when she was at lunch and found blood on her sheets. I saw her once in the common room cutting her arm. I was in an invisibility cloak so she didn't see me. She does not think I know she cuts herself but I do. I see scars all over. Shes gone pale and looks like shes dead. She has lost a lot of blood. It was time for dinner then I had to meet Granger and finish the Yule Ball.

Hermiones POV

I went to the hall for dinner and sat down next to Harry. He glanced at me and smiled. Across from me at the table Ron also smiled. That was weird.

"Hermione I have something to ask you" Harry said and I saw Ginny down the table start to cry and walk out of the Great Hall. I wondered what was up. Ron was shaking his head no to Harry though. "Hermione will you go to the Yule Ball with me?" he asked and I droped my food on the floor real loud and screamed. Everyone glared at me but then I realized Ron was screaming to.

"WHAT?" I shouted and Ron stood up and so did I. Everyone even the teachers were looking at us.

"I sorta broke up with Ginny to ask you to the Yule Ball." Harry said and the color drained from my face.

"HARRY YOU ONLY ASKED HER BECAUSE YOU ARE BISEXUAL AND ARE IN LOVE WITH COLIN AND HERMIONE!" Ron shouted and everyone in the hall even teachers gasped and started whispering. Harry started to cry.

"Ron you werent supposed to tell! You said you would never tell! I love hermione and I only LIKE Colin. I might like guys but I still like girls! Hermione PLEASE go with me to the Yule Ball!:

"HARRY I WILL NOT GO WITH YOU TO THE YULE BALL IF YOU LIKE SOMEONE ELSE AND ESPECIALLY IF IT'S A GUY! YOU ALSO BROKE UP WITH GINNY FOR THIS! HARRY I WILL NOT GO WITH YOU TO THE YULE BALL EVER!" I shouted and walked out of the great hall. I walked out the doors and up to the astronomy tower with my knife in hand.