A/N okay well I need more reviews please! I posted 2 chapters and got what 4 reviews? Lol sorry but I am not satisfied with myself. Anyways this chapter is well I dunno yet cause it just comes to me when I sit here so on with the show or story!

Disclaimer- read the other chapters they will tell ya that I don't own it!

Hermione's POV

I sat on the lake with Ron for awhile before I came back in. We said goodnight and he told me something was up with Harry and I agreed. Harry was going home with Ron the next day so he would try to find out. I went back to my common room. I silently opened Malfoy's door and saw him asleep so I went to my room got my knife and went into the common room with it.

I sat on the couch with my knife about to cut my arm when I saw a paper on the floor. I picked it up and read. It was from Malfoy's father. Pansy was right he was suppose to kill me! I threw the note back on the floor took my knife and deeply cut my arm. It poured with a lot of blood and I didn't even bother to clean it yet. I just watched it drip and land on my robe. After 5 minutes of watching it I heard Malfoy come into the room. I turned around and he was staring at my knife, my cut, then slowly at me.

Malfoys POV

I stared at her mouth opened. "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING TO YOURSELF? YOU PROMISED ME YOU WOULDN'T HURT YOURSELF AGAIN!" I screamed at her and suddenly her face transformed from surprise to anger.

"PANSY TOLD ME I WAS YOUR ASSINGMENT MALFOY! SHE SAID YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO GAIN MY TRUST THEN KILL ME FOR YOUR DEATH EATERS! I ACTUALLY TRUSTED YOU FOR A WHILE YOU BASTARD! I GUESS YOU COULD NEVER CHANGE! YOU ALWAYS HATED ME!"

"Hermione you have to understand! I wasn't going to kill you! I got a letter just tonite saying to kill you. Just tonight! I am not going to either Hermione you have to understand! Please understand!" I begged. No matter how much I denied it I knew I liked her and I couldn't let this ruin her trust of me.

"YEAH RIGHT! WHAT WAS UP WITH BEING NICE TO ME BEFORE THEN? YOU JUST STARTED BEING NICE THIS YEAR! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR YOUR ESCUSES YOU ASS!" she yelled and ran upstairs crying. I was so hurt that it turned to anger. I yelled after her.

"YOU BITCH!" she slammed her door shut and then I realized something. Her knife wasn't on the counch anymore. I let her get her knife how could I?

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The next morning everyone that was leaving for holidays got on the train. After that, everyone else was supposed to go to breakfast. I went down and I did not see Granger. After being with the Slytherins for a while in their common room, I went to lunch and I didn't see her there either. By dinner time I did not see her either didn't care now. She never liked me and I realized I only liked her out of pity for being a mudblood with a knife. She could go to hell for all I cared.

Hermione's POV-

I stayed in my room all day. To upset to leave for anything. I hadnt eaten and I was starved but I was not going to eat. After dinner I did go to the common room because it had a fire and I was cold. I read a book in front of the fire when an owl flew in and dropped a letter on me. At the same time Malfoy came in. he looked at me then sat in the arm chair. I looked at my letter and ripped it open.

Hermione- YOU ARE NOT GOING TO TRY TO KILL URSELF AGAIN I KNOW YOU AND I KNOW YOU CANT TAKE PAIN! YOU CANT HANDLE ANYTHING! YOU ARE SUCH A BABY! I AM FEELING LUCKY CAUSE I KNOW FOR A FACT YOU WONT KILL URSELF AGAIN YOU BITCH.

I stared at the letter and growled then I noticed Malfoy was staring at me. I ignored him and through the letter into the fire then I grabbed my knife from my bedroom and ran out of the common room with Malfoy staring at me. I still ignored him.

I went to the Lake and cut myself three times on my arm. I did this quickly and ran back to my room where I noticed Malfoy wasn't there. He was probably screwing a new bitch. I thought. I went to my room and slept.dreaming of my dad.

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I woke up the next morning on Christmas and went to my common room. Malfoy wasn't their cause it was early. I spotted my presents and went over. First I found my dad sent pictures of my mom and I could feel the tears in my eyes. Then the portrait swung open and Malfoy came in and sat on the couch why was he up so earlier? I continued with my presents despite Malfoy was there and I was sobbing.

The next present was from Harry and it was a book, then there was a note. I read it and cried harder. Malfoy was still staring at me. I read the note over again.

Hermione,

I know I have been a real bastard lately and I am sorry. I was making excuses. This is the real story. This summer I was walking in the park near the Dursleys when someone in a cloak stepped in front of me and shot something at me before disappearing. When I went to Ron's over the summer Mr. Weasley did a test on me and it was a spell to make anyone who had it be confused, tell lies and lose their memory. Yesterday when we got to the borrow MR Weasley found a counter curse and put it on me. Then I got memories back of things I did like saying I was BISEXUAL! Dancing with Colin, asking Ginny out, breaking up with Ginny, telling you I loved you. Ron then told me everything! I AM SO SORRY! I CANNOT SAY THIS ENOUGH! I AM SO SORRY AND I LOVE YOU AS A FRIEND AND I WANT YOUR FRIENDSHIP MORE THEN ANYTHING! PLEASE FORGIVE ME! And Marry Christmas Hermione! -Love, Harry

I couldn't believe it! Everything was now getting better. Harry wasn't BI! I put it to the side and moved on to the next present it was from Ron. It was a silver necklace with the letter H on it. I stopped crying and gasped. It was beautiful! I put it on quickly and found a note from Ron.

Hermione,

I am sure Harry told you all about his curse. We don't know who did it but it had to be a death eater. How are you? Do you like your gift? I hope you do! I didn't know what to get you and I thought Harry giving you a book was to cheap. So I hope you love it! I cant wait to see you again write me soon. Marry Christmas Love- Ron

I smiled and noticed Malfoy was still watching me! I still didn't say anything but moved to last present. I opened it and took out an object rapped in muggle Christmas paper. I looked at it and gasped. It was a new knife with a sharper silver blade and a brown handle. I turned it over and found an H carved into it. Then I saw a note.

Hermione- Marry Christmas Bitch! You might need this! Even if I hate you I had to get you something! I am still your dad even if I want you to kill yourself with this knife!- MR Granger.

I started to laugh and ran up to my room with my presents. Even if he hated me, he got me something that would come in handy.

Malfoy's POV

I watched as she laughed when she unwrapped the knife and ran to her room. Apparently, she was going to break my promise. I did not care this time I would not stop her from dying but I wouldn't be the cause of it either. I wouldn't kill her. She hadn't eaten for 2 days I knew she would die sooner or later!