Turning her head, Manda wasn't there. She shook her head and went on to Spike's crypt. She walked down and saw Spike sitting on his bed, looking to be shaking, or crying.
"Spike?" Julie called out.
He kinda sat there as if he didnt hear her
She moved forward slowly,"Spike?" She called out again, a bit worried.
He just sat there his head in his hands, rocking back and forth"
"Spike? Say something.." She said going to put her hand on his shoulder.
"no, don't touch me" he said first at loudly and then softening his tone
"Spike? What's wrong?" She asked, backing up a little.
"I hear them, i hear her" he said as he held his head in his hands
"Hear who?" Julie asked, confused.
"Them, the victims" he said
"Spike, the victims of what?" She asked kneeling in front of him.
"me" he said
"Wh.. Spike.. What's happening to you..?"
"Shhh.. pet.. Shh..." Spike said shaking.
"No!" She said as a tear ran down her face,"What's happening to you, Spike?"
"its all comming back to me, times 3" he said as he stood finally
Julie just looked at Spike,"What's happening? What is coming back to you? I'd like to know."
"all the death, the guilt ive been avoiding all these years its comming back" he said
"What are you saying?" She asked, still sitting on the bed, watching him.
"Spike, tell me.." Julie demanded standing in front of him as he gazed down at her.
"he has a soul" Came a voice from the shadows, a familiar voice that they both knew all too well
"What?" Julie turned her head.
"his soul, all the people that he has killed in his lifetime, there comming back to haunt him, hes feeling something he hasn't felt in a long time... guilt" The voice said as Manda walked into the crypt and out of the shadows.
"You have a soul?" She looked at Spike.
"How did you.. ?"
"Ironicly I hear voices.." Julie said looking at him,"How did it happen?"
"I don't know" he said
"The powers that be, thought that with all the heartache he has endured theyd give him what he wanted the most, i guess he didnt realize it would end up like this" Manda said as she walked closer to Julie.
"Excuse me a moment.." Julie said stepping out of the crypt, out into the graveyard, and looked at Manda,"What happens now that he has a soul?"
"He has to learn to deal with the guilt that he has placed upon himself, only by accepting responsibility for it will he get through it" Manda sadi
"But I mean.. is it just like when Angel had a soul or what?" Julie said looking at Manda.
"Well when Angel got his soul back he felt this guilt as well, but he learned to deal with it " Manda said
"That's not what I mean Manda.." She said looking at her,"I mean the whole one moment of true happiness thing."
"no Spikes soul has a permanent fix upon himself" she said
"Which means..?"
"theres no way to loose it, but i must warn you it could drive him to insanity if not watched carefully" Manda said caringly, "Please don't let him hurt himself" she begged
"Will he always be like this?" Julie asked.
"no i hope not" she said
"Ok." Julie got up, and went back into the crypt where Spike was laying down, dim lights.
She walked over to the bed and sat down,"Spike?" She whispered softly.
He was asleep, she traced her fingers down his strong cheekbones. Her fingers gently ran across his lips. She then leaned down and gently kissed them watching him sleep with what looked like to be peace. She gently blew out the candles and headed off towards home.
"Spike?" Julie called out.
He kinda sat there as if he didnt hear her
She moved forward slowly,"Spike?" She called out again, a bit worried.
He just sat there his head in his hands, rocking back and forth"
"Spike? Say something.." She said going to put her hand on his shoulder.
"no, don't touch me" he said first at loudly and then softening his tone
"Spike? What's wrong?" She asked, backing up a little.
"I hear them, i hear her" he said as he held his head in his hands
"Hear who?" Julie asked, confused.
"Them, the victims" he said
"Spike, the victims of what?" She asked kneeling in front of him.
"me" he said
"Wh.. Spike.. What's happening to you..?"
"Shhh.. pet.. Shh..." Spike said shaking.
"No!" She said as a tear ran down her face,"What's happening to you, Spike?"
"its all comming back to me, times 3" he said as he stood finally
Julie just looked at Spike,"What's happening? What is coming back to you? I'd like to know."
"all the death, the guilt ive been avoiding all these years its comming back" he said
"What are you saying?" She asked, still sitting on the bed, watching him.
"Spike, tell me.." Julie demanded standing in front of him as he gazed down at her.
"he has a soul" Came a voice from the shadows, a familiar voice that they both knew all too well
"What?" Julie turned her head.
"his soul, all the people that he has killed in his lifetime, there comming back to haunt him, hes feeling something he hasn't felt in a long time... guilt" The voice said as Manda walked into the crypt and out of the shadows.
"You have a soul?" She looked at Spike.
"How did you.. ?"
"Ironicly I hear voices.." Julie said looking at him,"How did it happen?"
"I don't know" he said
"The powers that be, thought that with all the heartache he has endured theyd give him what he wanted the most, i guess he didnt realize it would end up like this" Manda said as she walked closer to Julie.
"Excuse me a moment.." Julie said stepping out of the crypt, out into the graveyard, and looked at Manda,"What happens now that he has a soul?"
"He has to learn to deal with the guilt that he has placed upon himself, only by accepting responsibility for it will he get through it" Manda sadi
"But I mean.. is it just like when Angel had a soul or what?" Julie said looking at Manda.
"Well when Angel got his soul back he felt this guilt as well, but he learned to deal with it " Manda said
"That's not what I mean Manda.." She said looking at her,"I mean the whole one moment of true happiness thing."
"no Spikes soul has a permanent fix upon himself" she said
"Which means..?"
"theres no way to loose it, but i must warn you it could drive him to insanity if not watched carefully" Manda said caringly, "Please don't let him hurt himself" she begged
"Will he always be like this?" Julie asked.
"no i hope not" she said
"Ok." Julie got up, and went back into the crypt where Spike was laying down, dim lights.
She walked over to the bed and sat down,"Spike?" She whispered softly.
He was asleep, she traced her fingers down his strong cheekbones. Her fingers gently ran across his lips. She then leaned down and gently kissed them watching him sleep with what looked like to be peace. She gently blew out the candles and headed off towards home.
