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Chapter 11
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As Samantha lied, having just awoken, on the white bed in the hospital room, she looked at the bare room. 'What was I thinking? How could I ever think that I could get away with it in a place like that? Of course they were going to find me. There was no possible way I could get away with it. I didn't get away with it last time I had tried. I'm so stupid.'
Daisy had been close to figuring out why Samantha tried to kill herself. Seeing Auggie and Jules was part of the reason, but it wasn't the whole reason. Samantha tried to put them all in order in her head, but couldn't. There were too many of them and her head got too cluttered.
'I can't believe seeing Auggie and Jules set me off like that. After all the things I have been through, a little thing like seeing Auggie and Jules set me off. How pathetic,' Samantha thought to herself very disappointed.
A slight click and Samantha's glance moved toward the door. It was Peter. "How you doing?" he asked her as he walked across the room toward her bed.
"I'm okay," she answered not really registering the question that he had asked.
"You gave us quite a scare. We didn't really know if you were gonna pull through or not. The doctor had to pump your stomach. He said that if we had found you a couple minutes later we would have lost you."
Samantha looked up at him. "Like it would have made a difference to you," she said quietly.
"How can you say that? Of course it would have made a difference to me. I care about you, Sam."
"Yeah right," she looked away from him. Out the window she could see a park. A little girl and her father were playing on the swings. 'Why can't I have a father like that?' she asked herself.
"No, I do, I care about you Sam," he told her again.
"Yeah, you care about me so much that you just let my dad come and take me away last time I was here. You don't really care about me. You just need me to think that you care so that way you can say, 'Well, at least I tried to show her that someone cared.' When I reality, it's all just a big lie. I'm not stupid you know. I know that you don't really care."
"But you're wrong, Sam, because I do care. I care a lot. Why do you think that we called the ambulance to come save you?"
"That's easy. You called the ambulance so that it would look like you cared. You couldn't just let me die there. I mean how would it look for Horizon if one of their camp members died. I'm sure you would get a lot more customers with that kind of record."
"Sam, I don't know how to tell you this any other way than I am telling you now. I care," there was a slight pause and Samantha could tell that Peter had something else that he needed to tell her.
"But?" she asked.
"But," he didn't want to tell her, "you can't come back to Horizon unless you can guarantee me that something like this won't happen again."
She looked at him surprised to hear those words after his whole I care quest. "Yeah, you really care." Her glance fell to the sheets on the bed and tears began to form behind her eyes. 'I really thought he cared. I guess he doesn't. He's just like the rest of them.'
"It's just that I can't take the chance that you might pull another stunt like this. I don't even have legal permission to have you at Horizon."
"I don't wanna go back out onto the streets."
"Well, there is one thing that I will consider doing that will allow you to stay." Her eyes lit up with a glimmer of hope.
"What is it?"
"You need to call your dad and tell him where you are and get his permission to allow you to stay."
The hope faded away at the word dad. "Are you serious?"
"Yeah and the doctor said that you would be out of here in about three days. That doesn't leave you much time."
"But what if he says no? What if he comes to get me cause he will know where I am?"
"That's just a chance that you are going to have to take if you want to stay in the program." Peter began to walk toward the exit of the room and turned back one last time. "Look, you have three days. You can wait until right before you have to leave if you really want to. As long as he says yes, then you can come back, but if he says no, then I'm sorry, but you're going to have to find another place. Just think about it for right now, okay?"
"Okay," and with that Samantha was left alone to think about what she was willing to do to stay at Horizon.
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A/N: well, what is gonna happen? What is she willing to do in order to stay at Horizon? Well, that's for me to know, again, & you to eventually find out. Hope you're liking my story. Keep the reviews coming. Like I said before I'm a review whore. I love to hear what you think.
Chapter 11
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As Samantha lied, having just awoken, on the white bed in the hospital room, she looked at the bare room. 'What was I thinking? How could I ever think that I could get away with it in a place like that? Of course they were going to find me. There was no possible way I could get away with it. I didn't get away with it last time I had tried. I'm so stupid.'
Daisy had been close to figuring out why Samantha tried to kill herself. Seeing Auggie and Jules was part of the reason, but it wasn't the whole reason. Samantha tried to put them all in order in her head, but couldn't. There were too many of them and her head got too cluttered.
'I can't believe seeing Auggie and Jules set me off like that. After all the things I have been through, a little thing like seeing Auggie and Jules set me off. How pathetic,' Samantha thought to herself very disappointed.
A slight click and Samantha's glance moved toward the door. It was Peter. "How you doing?" he asked her as he walked across the room toward her bed.
"I'm okay," she answered not really registering the question that he had asked.
"You gave us quite a scare. We didn't really know if you were gonna pull through or not. The doctor had to pump your stomach. He said that if we had found you a couple minutes later we would have lost you."
Samantha looked up at him. "Like it would have made a difference to you," she said quietly.
"How can you say that? Of course it would have made a difference to me. I care about you, Sam."
"Yeah right," she looked away from him. Out the window she could see a park. A little girl and her father were playing on the swings. 'Why can't I have a father like that?' she asked herself.
"No, I do, I care about you Sam," he told her again.
"Yeah, you care about me so much that you just let my dad come and take me away last time I was here. You don't really care about me. You just need me to think that you care so that way you can say, 'Well, at least I tried to show her that someone cared.' When I reality, it's all just a big lie. I'm not stupid you know. I know that you don't really care."
"But you're wrong, Sam, because I do care. I care a lot. Why do you think that we called the ambulance to come save you?"
"That's easy. You called the ambulance so that it would look like you cared. You couldn't just let me die there. I mean how would it look for Horizon if one of their camp members died. I'm sure you would get a lot more customers with that kind of record."
"Sam, I don't know how to tell you this any other way than I am telling you now. I care," there was a slight pause and Samantha could tell that Peter had something else that he needed to tell her.
"But?" she asked.
"But," he didn't want to tell her, "you can't come back to Horizon unless you can guarantee me that something like this won't happen again."
She looked at him surprised to hear those words after his whole I care quest. "Yeah, you really care." Her glance fell to the sheets on the bed and tears began to form behind her eyes. 'I really thought he cared. I guess he doesn't. He's just like the rest of them.'
"It's just that I can't take the chance that you might pull another stunt like this. I don't even have legal permission to have you at Horizon."
"I don't wanna go back out onto the streets."
"Well, there is one thing that I will consider doing that will allow you to stay." Her eyes lit up with a glimmer of hope.
"What is it?"
"You need to call your dad and tell him where you are and get his permission to allow you to stay."
The hope faded away at the word dad. "Are you serious?"
"Yeah and the doctor said that you would be out of here in about three days. That doesn't leave you much time."
"But what if he says no? What if he comes to get me cause he will know where I am?"
"That's just a chance that you are going to have to take if you want to stay in the program." Peter began to walk toward the exit of the room and turned back one last time. "Look, you have three days. You can wait until right before you have to leave if you really want to. As long as he says yes, then you can come back, but if he says no, then I'm sorry, but you're going to have to find another place. Just think about it for right now, okay?"
"Okay," and with that Samantha was left alone to think about what she was willing to do to stay at Horizon.
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A/N: well, what is gonna happen? What is she willing to do in order to stay at Horizon? Well, that's for me to know, again, & you to eventually find out. Hope you're liking my story. Keep the reviews coming. Like I said before I'm a review whore. I love to hear what you think.
