Author: babyg @ babygxpress
Ahem! Just for your information, I included some songwords from
my favourite songs as they seem to picture the situation perfectly. I do not own
the songs, nor is it my original creation so, don't sue me!
Songs used : Dimension of Love taken from - Tenchi Muyo! and Itsuka Tenshi Nareru (someday I'll Be An Angel) taken from -
Magic Knights Rayearth
Sanzo- A Part of his Untold Past
Sanzo sat by the window, watching the rain splatting against the window, the walls. Trees were being blown sideways by the strong winds. Again he couldn't sleep. The violent rain had been giving him nightmares again. Only, this time it wasn't about his master. It was something else, something that made him absolutely, totally detest the rain and himself.
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"Mama! Look over there! Someone's fainted!" A 10 year-old girl ran towards the river. On the river bank, lay a small boy, she saw. She cradled him in her arms. Her mother ran over, wondering what her little girl saw.
"Mama! She's covered in blood ! Can't we help her, mama?" the girl looked pleadingly at her mother. "Let me see what's wrong with her, Ling."
Her face and her clothes are covered in blood, Ling's mother noted. Something terrible must have happened to her. She took out some strong smelling leaves from her basket and put them under the boy's nose.
The boy's eyelids fluttered opened and he sneezed. "Yokatta! She's alright, mama!" Ling clapped her hands in delight. Ling's mother sighed in relief.
Suddenly, the boy jumped out of her arms, and took a defensive stance. He held out his gun with both hands, aiming at them. His eyes flared with contempt and hatred. Ling and her mother gasped, horrified.
Ling suddenly stood in front of her mother. "What are you doing! We saved you, and this is what we get?"
The boy's arms faltered. He opened his mouth to say something, but no words came out. He steadied his arm and took aim again.
Ling's mother got up. "Well, you are really a determined girl. You've got a lot of wounds to tend to. And the woods out here are dangerous. Come with us."
The boy's eyes widened and he said defiantly, " I am NOT a girl! Can't you see that, old woman!"
"I won't allow you to say nasty things to my mama!" She took a step forward, with her fists ready.
Ling's mother stopped her and walked to the boy, each step taken slowly but firmly. The boy, clenched his gun tightly, and shut his eyes, trying to make himself press the trigger.
Ling's mother reached him, and placed her hands gently on his shoulder. "Maa, shall we go now?"
The boy could've shot her there and then, but something stopped him. He looked up and saw a kind, gentle face looking down at him. He lowered his gun slowly.
"Now that's a good boy. Saa, lets go now, it's getting dark and all the youkai will be out hunting soon."
~At Ling's cottage~
Ling was helping out her mother at the kitchen.
"Mama, do you think we should really have taken him? He seems dangerous."
Her mother smiled. " Don't judge a book by its cover, dear. Something must've terrified him. Saa, take this bowl of herbal soup to his room. It'll do him some good." Her mother handed her the bowl.
Ling crossed her arms and pouted. "But I don't like him."
"Now dear, he's a fine little boy. You can make friends with him too, since we have no other near neighbours living near us."
Ling took the bowl and slowly dragged her feet out. "I'm only doing this for you, mama!" she called out. Her mother laughed and nodded.
Ling stopped in front of the door to the room where the boy was. She knocked. No answer. She knocked a few times again, each time louder. No answer. She pushed opened his door.
"Why didn't you answer me, little boy? And after all the trouble I went to to bring you this!" She walked furiously in but suddenly stopped short.
The boy was staring outside the window, and at the sound of the door being opened, he turned. Ling saw tears falling down his face a split second before he rubbed them off and furiously pointed his gun at her.
"Why'd you come in without my permission?"
"What....! I knocked! And anyway, this is MY house, do I need permission to walk around freely in MY house?" Ling trembled in anger, and was about to fling the bowl of soup at him when the boy suddenly lowered his gun and looked down to the floor.
"I'm...sorry."
Ling's face softened. She set down the ball on a small table and gestured to him to sit down.
"Come and eat. Mama made this specially for you." The boy didn't budge.
Ling sighed frustratedly. " Your dinner is ready, houtei-sama. Please come and eat it while it's hot."
The boy gave the slightest hint of a grin and sat down. He took the bowl in his hands and slowly sipped the hot soup.
"You know, you really are a weird little fella. Oh! By the way my name's Ling. What's yours?" Ling said.
"Genjo."
"Only...Genjo? Oh.... I guess you're like me. I don't have any last name too, just my given name. Anyway, I'm really glad we found you now, though I wasn't so sure about it at the riverbank just now. You looked really frightening you know." Ling stopped to catch her breath and looked at him.
Genjo was still sipping his soup as if he never heard what she was saying. But Ling continued on. She'd never met any other kids her age before, except for those naughty, ill-mannered ones at the village 5 miles away who only shouted nasty things at her whenever she followed her mother there for business.
"Isn't the soup good? My mama's really clever and she can make the most delicious food! I'm learning to be like her. She works as a medicine woman. That's why she can cure you. Don't you think you're really lucky to have found us? I'm learning to be a medicine woman too. I want to save people when I grow up. What do you want to be when you grow up?" Ling asked curiously.
"Don't know."
"Then, how old are you? I'm 10."
"Don't know."
"Oh well. When we found you, you were all covered in blood. Were you attacked by the youkai? They are really ferocious around here. And your gun looks pretty cool. Where'd you get something like that?"
"Yes. Monastery."
"Oh, you're a monk?! But you sure don't look like one. I mean, you've still got your hair and all. I like your hair color. It's a brilliant blond. Mine's only a dingy brown."
"I like it."
"You do??! Oh thank you! By the way does monastries provide guns? I've never gone to one before."
"........."
"Oh well. You know, your name sounds kinda funny. Genjo. Who'd..-"
Genjo slammed his bowl on the table and stood up, looking angry. " Don't you dare criticize my name."
"Hey Genjo-chan, you can talk more than four syllables! That's cool. Okay, I won't say anything about your name. You know, once you keep on and on pronouncing it, it starts to sound nice, in a way. Genjo-chan, Genjo-chan, Genjo-chan, Genjo-chan...." She chanted as she gestured for him to sit back down. Instead he walked over to the window and stared out again.
"So you want to stand. Okay! I'll do the same thing. By the way, mama said we could adopt you, we'll have so much fun together! Although you're kind of weird, you're nice in a way." A big sweatdrop appeared on Genjo's hair.
"I'm going soon."
"Of course you can't, don't be silly. You're hurt all over, and anyway, you won't be able to find your way out without our help. You know, I'm really good at finding my way around the woods, I've lived here all my life and....-"
The door opened and Ling's mother peeped inside.
"Ling! It's bedtime! Go clean yourself up and get ready for bed."
"But...Mama....."
"Ling."
"Oh okay... bye Genjo-chan, see you tomorrow!" the girl waved cheerily before skipping out. Genjo didn't budge an inch.
Ling's mother came in and said gently, " So your name's Genjo." Getting no reply, she continued, "It's time for bed. No exceptions. Now come along and I'll tuck you in."
Genjo couldn't think why he obeyed. The only person he obeyed was his master, whom he was now seeking revenge for. But he climbed into bed like a good little boy with no protest.
"Maa, now go to sleep. " Ling's mother brushed his bangs to the side of his head, and smiled gently before blowing out the candle and went out.
They are ignorant, Genjo thought. Life isn't so simple. Master, why did you leave me? I'm all alone.
"Aah, Kouryuu, here's a good saying. Don't keep debts. Never be debted to anyone, for you will be expected to pay double." A recent memory of his master, Koumyou Sanzo floated back to Genjo.
But for now, I must repay them back for saving me.... I don't want to have any debts.
At dawn, a cock crowed. Ling immediately woke up and rushed to Genjo's room. "Gen-chan, wake...up?" She looked at the empty bed, which looked unmade.
"MAMA HE'S GONE!!!!!!!!" Her screams rang around the little cottage.
Genjo, who had just arrived at the front doorstep heard her and wondered. Before he could reach for the door, it flew open and a very worried mother nearly trampled on him in her haste.
"Genjo-chan! You scared me!" Ling's mother bent down and hugged him, crying in relief.
What was the fuss all about? He thought. He handed up a basket of mushrooms to her startled face.
"For you. I picked them."
Ling rushed out. "Oh, you're fine!! But you....-"
Ling's mother shushed her, and taking Genjo's hand, smiled and said, "Thank you very much Genjo-chan. Now,come on in. Breakfast's ready."
For a week, or two, or three, Genjo wasn't really sure, he stayed with Ling and her mother. They taught him which leaves had what medicinal properties and how to pick them the right way and all the other rubbish. He never really paid attention. All he noticed was the warmth that surrounded them, and their kindness. Many a time he had wanted to go, to avenge his master's death but always, he stopped, for a reason he could not think of. And so he stayed with them, getting a little more chattier by the day, thanks to Ling. He found himself also beginning to like Ling more to, to his surprise and shock and horror.
When the cherry blossom starts to bloom
Meet me here in my lonely room
We'll find a passion filled fantasy
And this time you will stay with me
All the misery we knew before
Stays away when you are at my door
My heart will sing at ev'ry tender touch
And, oh, you'll want me twice as much
*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ babyg sings in the background~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*
One day, Genjo shyly gave Ling a little wooden monkey he had carved out of wood himself. Ling took it, exclaiming over the fine handiwork.
"That's the first present you've given me, Gen-chan. Oh, I'll cherish it for ever and ever and ever!" She kept it with her at all times, and when that wasn't possible she hid it in her drawer in her room.
Only on rainy nights was Genjo unbearable. Each time the rain came, all he could think was of his master and he would go off alone, running into the woods, carrying with him his gun and the precious sutra. The first few times he had alarmed Ling and her mother, but soon they got used to his 'rainy' excursions.
On one particularly rainy night, Genjo slipped out and went into the woods alone. He walked around trying to calm himself. He finally made up his mind. I'll have to leave by tomorrow. Master can't wait any longer, he thought. He walked until the early dawn came, the birds had just woke up and were singing (in the part of the woods where he was in).
Satisfied after having made up his mind, he ran back to the cottage. But wait, something didn't look right. The cock should be crowing by now, but there was not a sound. Suddenly, something ran through Genjo's heart, the same scared feeling he had felt, when his master had protected him at the last moment from youkai and got killed instead. No! I'll just run up, and oka-san (aunty) will greet me with her cheerful smile and....
He stopped in front of the door way, his hand froze, his eyes wide open with shock. In front of him, lay Ling's mother, covered with blood, with several knives sticking out of her. In her hand she held a butcher knife, apparently trying to protect herself and Ling. He took a step back, repeating no, this can't be, to himself. Where was Ling then?
He gathered his courage and checked every room. Nothing. With a sense of foreboding he checked Ling's room which was right at the back of the house. There he was greeted by a gory sight.
Ling lay on the floor, face against the floor. On her back, were several clawmarks slashed on her and blood still pumped out, almost ceaselessly, but lessening by the minute. Next to her, on the floor, lay the wooden carved monkey he had given her, now broken into a million pieces. That zaru....no....she was....trying to protect it?
"LIIIING!!!"
He rushed and slowly turned her over, tears streaming down his cheeks. He shook her gently, "Don't Die! Don't DIE!"
Ling's lips moved a little. Genjo leaned closer, desperately trying to hear what she was saying.
"I'm so..rry...Gen-cha...n.....I coul...dn'..t sav...e....it...." With that Ling's head dropped lifelessly to the side.
Genjo's screams could be heard, ringing all around in the woods and miles away.
Hurt by the dull pain, in a lonely heart
Born again with a much purer soul
Reaching out to find a softer side of love
Someday I wish to become an angel
My eyes burn with tears, so I close them softly,
Embraced by the dark which won't ever subside.
When the darkness comes, I wish I had wings,
To escape from the pain, To fly far away,
And never again be hurt.
You've always said that I should be strong,
to clear the clouds deep inside my heart,
And soar higher up into the light.
The more that I wish,
the more selfish I get,
but I cannot afford to give up,
or the light will ne'er enter my heart
I still hold onto my dreams,
in my heart, to soar high above the clouds,
leaving the darkness of my past far behind.
Hurt by the dull pain, in a lonely heart
Born again with a much purer soul
Trying to fill the hole formed from loneliness
With all my heart I long to be an angel
You've always said that I should be strong,
to clear the clouds deep inside my heart,
And soar higher up into the light.
*~~~~~~~~~~~~~~babyg sings softly in the background~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~*
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Sanzo looked outside the window fiercely. The youkai were finding for me. If I'd left earlier, they wouldn't have been killed. It's all my fault. No, if I didn't leave the house that rainy night, I could've protected them! I can't even protect the people I loved. Why am I still living when I'm the one with the most sin?! Master....Oka-san....Ling.....
"Aah, Sanzo!! Ohayooo! Why are you up so early? *Yawnnn* Goku stretched his arms up wide.
Sanzo took a last look at the window.Yep, the rain had stopped, and the morning sun was shining through.
"Sanzo??" Sanzo turned to find two HUGE shining eyes in front of him.
"Can we go have breakfast now? I'm hungry!!"
"URUSAIII!" *Whhaccck!*
"Ittai....what did I do!! Goku held his head in pain.
"Don't bother me like that! GET YOUR OWN BREAKFAST BY YOURSELF!!"
"Aah, the corrupted monk wannabe and his pet is up." Gojou's voice drifted from the doorway.
"Sanzo, ohayo gozaimasu." Hakkai stood there too, smiling his infuriating smile again.
"What pet, stupid water-monster!"
"You are the pet, you dumb stupid monkey!"
"I am not, you horny water-monster!"
"You so are, baka !"
"Am not, baka, baka!"
"Are too, baka, baka, baka!"
"URUSAIIIIII!" *bullets flying*
"Aaaah! Sanzo!!!" *the monkey and the water-monster runs out, trying to shield themselves*
Hakkai smiled and walked out after them.
Sanzo smiled secretly (no one ever saw this smile before) and thought, guess my question's been answered. Now I'm supposed to protect this stupid monkey, and the others, and pay up double for those debts.
I hate debts.
Glossary
Yokatta - Thank goodness/Thank
god/ I'm glad!
houtei-sama - emperor
youkai - demon
Author's Note: What do you think?!??!?!? I like this story a lot, it's the best one so far! Now I guess you know why I can never make Sanzo fall in love SERIOUSLY and HAVE A RELATIONSHIP in my other stories! Well.... it is a good reason.....
Sanzo: Who gave you permission to write that! *Whhack*
babyg: Aww! Stupid monk, that hurt! You should be glad I'm that kind to retell it so people won't think you're unfeeling!
Sanzo: URUSAI! *whaccccck!*
Goku and Gojou: Hahahaha, somebody's getting beaten by the fan and it's not us!!
babyg: Why you..... (takes out an iron fan) This'll do! *runs after Goku and Gojou*
Hakkai: ^ ^;; That's it for now! Please give your reviews for the hardworking, kind babyg who brought this to you!
Sanzo: -_- + + Do you want to die, too? (knocks his halisen menacingly against other hand)
Hakkai: Aa..-aa....h... ^ ^;;;
babyg: *stops and pants* One more thing, Saiyuki and its characters does not belong to me! However, I can still punch them up , bwahhahaha....... YAAIAAAAAA!! *suddenly shrieks and runs away*
Gojou: Come back here, you small fart!
