As he stared at the grave he felt his heart start beating and he knew the
final step had come. Only it had come at the worst possible moment, and the
emotion he had tried to block out for all his years of life, came rushing
to his eyes in the form of tears.
Buffy squeezed his hand, there was nothing she could do for him, his best
friend was gone and there was no cure for heartbreak.
Did you feel that?" Angel asked looking at Buffy quickly, "It was her." He felt his cheek and glanced around him, but saw nothing. "Angel it wasn't." Buffy made him look at her, "She's gone." "No Buffy," Wesley replied looking up, "She'll never be gone." He opened his jacket and quickly took out the package she had asked him to give to Angel, he handed it over and smiled. "I hope some day, you can forgive me like she did." Wesley said and then dropping a single white rose onto the grave he walked slowly away. Looking down at the package, Angel ran his fingers over the ribbon tying it together. "I'll be waiting in the car," Buffy said sensing his need to be alone and she joined Gunn and Fred on their walk towards the exit of the graveyard. Staring at the grave Angel noticed that Fred and Gunn had placed several white roses at the heath of the grave as well as Wesley's. Sitting at the foot of the tree next to the grave, he opened the package. Inside were a journal, a letter & a box. He opened the letter first,
To My Darling Angel, Nearly all my life I have never been myself around people. Placing a shield between them, and myself and being the one and only Queen C. You have shown me that to lead my life to the fullest, I have to accept my situation and be true to myself. Writing this letter to you has been the hardest part of leaving. As for three years you have been my best friend and yet for a year of our friendship I hid the fact that my body was dying. I was given a chance because of you Angel. A chance to become someone, something. A higher being. Someone to watch over the good of the world and make sure they succeed. So that's where Il'l be Angel, watching over you and the others. I'll always be around and I'll always be there. For your centuries of torture you receive a gift from me. It has been a long road on your path to redeem yourself in the eyes of others, and to become something other than an evil demon with a soul. So from me Angel you receive the gift of life. The gift of humanity. A gift for you to use to the fullest as you so often taught me to do. You need to love and live at the same time. Be a part of the world, not just a being that lives within it. Your pain has been rewarded my friend and now you become human. This does not mean your powers are stripped from you like before. Your strength is still as strong as it was in your vampire form, it simply means you can walk in the sun and if you choose, live an evil free life. Now I must go. Remember I'll be watching from Afar. Be Happy Angel. Be Happy. With Eternal Love Cordy
He folded the carefully wrote letter and a tear rolled down his cheek. He flipped open the journal, and realised it was from back in high school. He turned to the page before the last and it spoke of the night before the party she had been to in L.A. The very last page she had wrote in held three lines of writing in the middle of the pages;
A New Life For Me Has Begun in L.A. It's A New Beginning In The City of Angels. I Have Truly Been Saved By An Angel.
Tears now flooding his face he opened the box and his heart broke as he saw a plain silver cross and on its back an A was engraved carefully.
His instincts made him flinch as he touched the cross, but as he put it on, he smiled at the grave and slowly standing with the journal and letter under one arm he reached into his pocket and pulled out a present that he had been planning to give to her. Placing the gift at the bottom of the grave he moved the flowers and scattered them over her final resting place and with peace in his heart. He made his way out of the graveyard and towards his future.
Did you feel that?" Angel asked looking at Buffy quickly, "It was her." He felt his cheek and glanced around him, but saw nothing. "Angel it wasn't." Buffy made him look at her, "She's gone." "No Buffy," Wesley replied looking up, "She'll never be gone." He opened his jacket and quickly took out the package she had asked him to give to Angel, he handed it over and smiled. "I hope some day, you can forgive me like she did." Wesley said and then dropping a single white rose onto the grave he walked slowly away. Looking down at the package, Angel ran his fingers over the ribbon tying it together. "I'll be waiting in the car," Buffy said sensing his need to be alone and she joined Gunn and Fred on their walk towards the exit of the graveyard. Staring at the grave Angel noticed that Fred and Gunn had placed several white roses at the heath of the grave as well as Wesley's. Sitting at the foot of the tree next to the grave, he opened the package. Inside were a journal, a letter & a box. He opened the letter first,
To My Darling Angel, Nearly all my life I have never been myself around people. Placing a shield between them, and myself and being the one and only Queen C. You have shown me that to lead my life to the fullest, I have to accept my situation and be true to myself. Writing this letter to you has been the hardest part of leaving. As for three years you have been my best friend and yet for a year of our friendship I hid the fact that my body was dying. I was given a chance because of you Angel. A chance to become someone, something. A higher being. Someone to watch over the good of the world and make sure they succeed. So that's where Il'l be Angel, watching over you and the others. I'll always be around and I'll always be there. For your centuries of torture you receive a gift from me. It has been a long road on your path to redeem yourself in the eyes of others, and to become something other than an evil demon with a soul. So from me Angel you receive the gift of life. The gift of humanity. A gift for you to use to the fullest as you so often taught me to do. You need to love and live at the same time. Be a part of the world, not just a being that lives within it. Your pain has been rewarded my friend and now you become human. This does not mean your powers are stripped from you like before. Your strength is still as strong as it was in your vampire form, it simply means you can walk in the sun and if you choose, live an evil free life. Now I must go. Remember I'll be watching from Afar. Be Happy Angel. Be Happy. With Eternal Love Cordy
He folded the carefully wrote letter and a tear rolled down his cheek. He flipped open the journal, and realised it was from back in high school. He turned to the page before the last and it spoke of the night before the party she had been to in L.A. The very last page she had wrote in held three lines of writing in the middle of the pages;
A New Life For Me Has Begun in L.A. It's A New Beginning In The City of Angels. I Have Truly Been Saved By An Angel.
Tears now flooding his face he opened the box and his heart broke as he saw a plain silver cross and on its back an A was engraved carefully.
His instincts made him flinch as he touched the cross, but as he put it on, he smiled at the grave and slowly standing with the journal and letter under one arm he reached into his pocket and pulled out a present that he had been planning to give to her. Placing the gift at the bottom of the grave he moved the flowers and scattered them over her final resting place and with peace in his heart. He made his way out of the graveyard and towards his future.
