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~Tomoe Hotaru~
Hello. I am Hotaru. It's nice to meet you. I am the Sailor of Silence, Sailor Saturn. I died at the hands of Sailor Neptune and Sailor Uranus, who were under the influence of Galaxia. Sailor Pluto died with me. I was reborn thirteen years ago. Unfortunately, my old father, Professor Tomoe, does not recognize nor remember me. So much has changed; I can't even find my one and only friend, Chibi-Usa. I'm worried that she may not have been reborn.
It's so lonely. I still have my ability to heal, and that scares people away. This life is just a repeat of the last for me. It always will be. If I were to die and be reborn again, not only would I still have the same painful memories, but I'd still be an outcast, perhaps even more so. Why can't people just accept me? Don't they know how they're hurting me?
I can't help being Sailor Saturn! If I had a choice, I would be a normal little girl, without any special powers and with many friends. Why can't my life be like that? Chibi-Usa's was...Usagi's was, too. She has plenty of friends. And no matter how many times they tried to tell me they were my friends, none of the senshi were my buddies. Only Chibi-Usa. And I can't find her.
I don't feel like me without her. She made me happy. I felt complete with a friend in my life, and now I have none. Am I really a person? Am I just the freak people make me out to be?
Even the senshi were afraid of me because I have the ability to destroy an entire world. I never had the intention of destroying the world except when I was Mistress 9, and even that wasn't my idea. I wish I were normal.
I haven't been able to find any of the senshi, not just Sailor Chibi Moon. Even Luna and Artemis disappeared, from what I haven't seen. Am I the only one left? Am I truly doomed to be alone?
The only people who understood--at least a little bit--how I felt are gone? How am I supposed to continue on like this? How can I be strong when I'm alone? Both of my new parents are dead, now. I've lived in an orphanage for as long as I can remember. Or maybe I was lied to and they just abandoned me because of my abilities.
I don't understand why people are afraid of my ability to heal!
And I don't understand why I'm destined to be alone! It's not fair!
Why do Crusaders have to have such terrible lives?
