Bray sat in his hammock, swinging gently. It was Patsy's birthday tomorrow, and people kept asking him to help them arrange her party or get a present or something along those lines. It wasn't a surprise party this year, after what had gone wrong last time. Everyone getting upset about whether they would die from the virus or not. Amber. Amber trying to get them to do chores. Amber yelling that she didn't care what happened to them. His thoughts then wandered. The water trial where Amber had believed in him, defended him. When they had almost got together on Hope Island. What he had felt when the place had exploded. What he had felt when he was told Amber was dead. The fact that Zandra also didn't find her after the explosion. For a while he thought that maybe Amber hadn't died, that maybe something had happened to her and she was still alive and it was probable that Zandra hadn't looked very far into the building. Zandra was the type of person who got scared quite easily, especially when she was all alone. She would probably be scared of chipping a nail or something. But now he realized that it was all wishful thinking. If Amber had survived she would have come back.
He rolled over to see what the time was. Tomorrow was now today thanks to those depressing thoughts - the same depressing thoughts he had every day. He couldn't get to sleep most nights. His eyes moved slowly across to two of Amber's belongings; her necklace, and her diary. He picked them both up, holding the necklace to his heart for a few seconds. Then he picked up the diary and opened it. He didn't read it often, because it hurt him to, but he didn't care tonight. He was depressed enough as it was. He flicked through the pages until he found what Amber had written about Patsy's birthday last year...


Pretty much the same as yesterday. I still miss Sasha, but no as much as
I did at first, right after he left. KC said some pretty mean things to me
about me being bored of sulking all the time. All I was trying to do was
get that lazy lot to do some chores for a change, but all they do is drag
up my problems, make me upset and angry again. I don't know why, but
this time they got to me and I kinda lost it a bit, and shouted at them.
Told them that I didn't care. But I didn't really mean the stuff I said,
it was just...oh...anyway, now I feel all mean and evil. I was going to go
back and say sorry to them, but I heard Bray sticking up for me, running
through the roster with the others. Lex said some pretty mean things
to him too - about me. But I still can't be sure if Bray likes me or not,
it might just be my mind making me think what I want to believe. I
mean...Sasha was fun to be with and I loved him for that and all
but...I think I've always loved Bray. Why didn't I do anything about
it before? God, I can be so stupid sometimes. Stupid and unsure of
myself.

Love Amber


"The pain was almost more than I could bear...And still I
hear...Your last words to me...Heaven is a place nearby...So
I won't be so far away...And if you try and look for me...Maybe
you'll find me someday."


Bray flicked through some more pages, noticing Amber liked to put songwords after some of her diary entries. He snapped the diary shut and rolled over again, and had the feeling that he would never get to sleep that night.

"Bray, get up!" Danni said cheerfully as she walked into his room the next morning.
"Whatever." He sighed, and groaned inwardly. Danni was not his favourite person at the moment. She had been flirting with him big time recently. He liked her and all, but only as a friend. He didn't want to go out with anyone anymore, well not until the very far future at least.
"No need to sound so enthusiastic Bray! The others want you in the café. In two minutes." She turned to leave.
"Tell them I don't want to see them. Not today." He said after her.
"Why?" She asked. Bray looked at the floor. "You still miss...her, don't you?" She carried on untactfully. She'd pushed it too far.
"Leave me alone Danni! Just go!" He snapped. Danni ran out the room, somewhat upset. Bray hit his head with his hands, realising he had been a bit harsh with her.

"Hey, you decided to join us!" Trudy said cheerfully when Bray came into the café.
"Where's Danni? I need to apologise to her...I bit her head off earlier." He explained. Danni was nowhere to be seen.
"I don't know...I haven't seen her all day." Salene still looked a bit confused.
"Never mind." He shook his head.
"You don't think she's..." Patsy started.
"...Run off." Chloe finished for her.
"I wouldn't be surprised." Trudy started. "She hasn't seemed herself recently."

Danni made her way through the streets for ages, still upset about that morning. She was now nearing the edge of the city, nearer the country. She knew where she was...well, basically where she was, and she would be able to find her way back to the Mall - if she wanted to. As she slumped against a tree to rest for a while, she realised she had no idea where she was going to stay. It would be dark in a few hours. She supposed she could make it back to the Mall before the darkness came, but decided she didn't want to go back just yet. She should go back soon though.
"Danni?" A voice interrupted her thoughts. A voice she knew. "It's you, isn't it!" Danni turned around to face the girl.
"Hey! I haven't seen you in...years!" It was her cousin. They hadn't always got on too well, but all the same they were happy to see each other.
"How've you been? Oh, and, what are you doing out here...the country. You always liked the city better." The girl sat down next to her.
"I'm alright. It's just...this boy. I really like him, but I don't think he likes me back, well, you know...not in the same way." Danni sighed. "That's enough of me, how are you? You're definitely slimmer than when I saw you last."
"Really?" She looked at Danni quite surprised.
"Yes! Why...is that a big shock to you or something?" Danni was confused.
"Yeah...no...well..." She smiled.
"Spit it out!" Danni rolled her eyes.
"I had a baby, not too long ago." She smiled. Danni raised her eyebrows.
"Wow, you! Congratulations!" A broad smile crossed her face.

The two girls talked for quite a while, and the sun was starting to go down.
"I've really got to go now. I left the others babysiting, and I doubt they'll be too pleased with me when I get back. I was away a bit longer than I told them."
"Why don't you came back to the city with me?" Danni asked.
"You know me...I'm more a country person. And besides, the city is no place for a baby. I'm sorry Danni." She frowned. "But I doubt you want to stay in the country either." Danni shook her head.
"I'm going to head back now. I know where you are, so I'll come back an see you soon. Promise." The two girls hugged, a bit awkwardly. They had never got on this well before.

As Danni walked back to the Mall it dawned on her that she hadn't said where she lived. Oh well, it didn't really matter. She's just have to visit the country more often.

Patsy looked up, and smiled when she saw Danni had come back.
"Hey, you're back!" Chloe piped up.
"Girls, it's really late! I know it's your birthday and all Patsy, but you really should go to bed now." Trudy shooed them off to their room, and Danni walked off back to hers.
"Wait, I just need to go and do something." Patsy said and walked off.
"What is it with her!" Trudy muttered under her breath.


So much has happened recently! We decided to go to go to Hope
Island to try and find the antidote. Tai-San warned us not to go,
and we should have listened really. First we almost got turned into
pink mist by the mines, then we got locked in the building. It was
quite frightening, but I had to try and keep myself together for Dal's
sake. He was getting freaked. Well, we finally got out of that mess
and I went and landed myself in another. I forgot my jacket, and
when I went back to get it the place exploded. I don't know what
happened next, but I had a chat with Dal when we got back home.
Bray went back in and got me out, even when Lex told him I was
probably dead...and then he stayed with me until I woke up. I can't
understand him sometimes.
Anyway, on a more important note (well, from my point of view
anyway) he paid a visit to me last night! He was worried about
me, but eventually we kissed! I can't believe it. Oh God, what
would my mum think of me if she could see me now. I miss
her...but if she were still here I'd be getting lecture after lecture
about how I shouldn't be sleeping with people while I'm still so
young. Well I don't care really, I'm in love. And anyway,
surviving on your own makes you grow up fast.
Must dash now, I promised Bray I'd meet him on the roof...

Love Amber


"All she needs is, all she needs is you...And she
wishes today was one year ago...When you cared
so much for her, and loved her so...Not a doubt
in her mind that it would still be you...Cause the
love that you shared…It was true."


"Bray?" Patsy said nervously.
"Hey, Pats. Happy Birthday...I'm sorry I wasn't in too good a mood earlier." He smiled at her. "Hey, what is it?" He looked at her.
"I just wanted to tell you what my birthday wish was, you know, like I did last year." She smiled weakly. "I wished that you'd stop hurting so much, you know about Amber." She said sadly. "I hope it comes true"
"PATSY! BED, NOW!" They heard Trudy shout.
"Goodnight Patsy. And thanks. I hope your wish comes true too." Patsy skipped off to find Trudy. Bray looked at the diary on his lap and closed it. It would be easier if he didn't deliberately make it hard for himself.