AN: Wow, its been a long time since I touched anything having to do with FF8. Haven't played the game in the longest time...and I'm starting to miss the characters :) Well, this will be my first fic since like a year so I hope you all enjoy it!
Disclaimer: I don't own FF8 and everything in it.
Dedication: My ice cream boy :)
~My Song to You~
Chapter One: Shattering Glass
Life is so long, yet so short in some people's perspective. In my opinion, I personally think it's a long road going up and down...and right now I feel like everything is going deep down...rock bottom to hell. Yet thinking about a person in my life, makes everything seem to go up again...yet deep down I know we can't be.
Why?
He is the commander...I am the sorceress.
We live in two different worlds...yet technically, we're all on earth and we happen to be in love. Such a strange thing isn't it? It's like black and white together...One is destined to save the world, while the other is destined to destruct and cause chaos. But life is fairly...let's say balanced. I mean, I'm not evil...but knowing that inside I have this...sorcery within myself that could take over my mind any second...is a heavy burden.
Some people think that I'm still just that little girl...in that little group called the Forest Owls, trying desperately to fight for what's right. I know some people hate me..afraid of me even, and it hurts. Do they know that? Does everyone think maybe the sorceress doesn't have emotions? How would they feel if the world feared you and the best thing would be to have you killed?
Sad. Yet everyone thinks I'm fine. I'm the happy, carefree girl named Rinoa Heartilly. Yeah, you could say that...to some extent. Not even my knight can sometimes see the other side of me and my emotions. Sadness, pain...I'm even scared. Scared that one day they'll all turn on me.
It's such a possible thing that I feel like it could happen right now. The tables could be turned, and I could have Squall's gunblade at my throat. It's just a matter of time...I know it.
Somehow I can feel in my veins that someday I won't be able to control the magic surging in me. I would do anything to go back to the time where I was just...Rinoa Heartilly...age 17.
Princess of the Forest Owls.
"Hey Zell!!" A excited usually hyper-active Selphie came bounding up from across the cafeteria and towards the blonde.
Zell looked up from his pyramid of hot dogs and grinned. "Morning Selphie."
She plopped herself down on the seat across from him, her brown hair bouncing up and down as she did so. "Guess what?!"
"...Uh...what?" Zell blinked.
Selphie squealed in delight. "I got Irvy a new hat!!"
Zell looked amused, "But he would never replace that old hat of his."
"Well, now he will!!" Selphie said with determination as she leaned back on the chair. "I know he'll love it!"
Zell tried to hide his laughter as he bit into a hot dog, looking one hundred percent amused. "Uh huh, can't wait to see him in it."
"I know!!" Selphie beamed.
"Hey guys..."
"Hey Rin!!" Selphie moved aside so that Rinoa could also take a seat next to her.
Zell finished off his third hot dog and glanced at Rinoa quickly. "You seem grim." He commented.
"Not enough sleep I guess." Rinoa replied as she rubbed her eyes.
"Are you sure you didn't come down with a flu or something?" Selphie said worridly at the raven haired girl.
Rinoa sighed, "No, it's nightmares. Nothing really though."
Selphie frowned, "You know...they could be..."
"Real," Rinoa finished for her and frowned. "Yes, I know, but I hate the fact that whenever I have dreams of some sort...people start freaking out because I'm the sorceress! And supposidly they'll come true ." Rinoa mumbled. "I hate it, I hate it all."
"Oh cheer up!" Zell said cheerfully. "Want a hot dog?"
Rinoa looked at him thankfully but shook her head. "No, it's ok. I don't feel so good..." She stood up from the table. "I think I'll go to the bathroom."
"Ok," The two replied.
Rinoa walked away from her two friends quickly, she had a pounding headache although she didn't feel feverish. Her feet carried her towards the bathrooms as she entered the ladies one.
I feel...so weird... Rinoa stared at her reflection in the mirror. Her round almond eyes seemed slightly tired, and as she reached to touch the tip of her raven hair, it felt awfully greasy. I better remind myself to wash up... She stared slightly longer when all of a sudden the mirror cracked.
First from the right hand corner, and then it kept on cracking downwards. Rinoa's eyes went wide as she stepped back, her eyes darting away from the mirror as she ran out of the bathroom.
Something's wrong with me...but what is it? The mirror...it can't just...it must have been me. Maybe my staring cracked it...but why? Rinoa walked quickly down the hallways of garden, not really knowing where she wanted to go.
Well, you're a sorceress. A voice nagged at the back of her head as a another frown crossed her pink lips. These things are normal...
"Ouch! Rinoa??"
Rinoa looked up, startled that she hadn't noticed she had been walking straight into someone. "Oh!! Sorry..." Then she noticed it was a pair of intense deep icy blue eyes she had locked gaze with, and it was all to familiar. "Squall!"
"Rinoa, are you feeling ok?" Squall said, concern in his voice.
"Yeah, just I'm in a hurry," Rinoa lied but plastered a smile on her face. "Why weren't you at the cafeteria for breakfast?"
Squall scratched his head and stiffled a yawn. "I kind of..."
"Overslept," Rinoa teased and giggled.
Squall nodded sheepishly. "Well, I had lots of paperwork last night...and so..."
"Yeah...I know Squall," Rinoa said softly. "You work yourself to hard...I'm so worried for your health."
"I'm fine Rin, it's you that I'm worried about," Squall sighed.
Rinoa blinked innocently. "Me? Why me of all people?"
"Well...you seem really off these days," Squall said in a hesitant way but then glanced away quickly. "Well, maybe it's just me."
"Yeah, I think it's just you," Rinoa punched him playfully on the shoulder. "Well, I really need to go to my dorm to get some of my notes for class this afternoon."
Squall smiled and nodded as he gave her a quick peck on the forehead when no one was around. "I'll see you then."
"Ok," Rinoa smiled back as they parted.
I'm sorry Squall, I don't mean to lie to you...Rinoa entered her dorm and locked the door behind her as she went to the window to let in some fresh air. It's just that...I don't want you worrying over me when you have the whole garden to run.
She flopped onto her small yet comfortable bed and breathed into her bed sheets. "What am I going to do?" Rinoa mused out loud as she sat up, leaning against the white wall with her knees tucked in.
Her chocolate eyes glanced upwards towards her slightly messy desk. A bunch of papers were stacked around the desk, a couple pens and notebooks. A clock sat by the corner and a glass of water which her eyes landed on.
Maybe I should go talk to Edea... The face of the friendly women appeared in her mind, formerly a sorceress herself. Rinoa looked at the glass of water, finding it actually interesting to look at.
A shiny glass cup of water...and suddenly it broke into a thousand crystaline pieces, the water dripping over the edge of the desk.
Drip.
Drip.
Drip..
Rinoa sat on her bed, horrified as she quickly shut her eyes. Oh hyne...what on earth is happening to me?
AN: Yes this chapter was short I guess, but I guess it's to get into the story. I hope you enjoy the first chapter so far and please R+R, thank you :)
