Title: I'm Walking Away
Author: RedWitch
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: none
Summary: Spike's thoughts before he leaves Sunnydale in S6. Based on the song 'I'm Walking Away' by Craig David.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything! Nope, none, nothing. Wish I did.
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I'm Walking Away
I'm walking away
From the troubles in my life
I'm walking away
Oh, to find a better day
*Shit! I left my duster! MY duster! She has MY duster! Damn can't go back.*
Spike looked back at the town. Sunnydale was not his home anymore, heck it never really was. Sunnydale was his own personal Hell. He couldn't stay. He couldn't live with what he had done. *You stupid Wanker! You shagged the Slayer God knows how many times. But I only wanted her to love me. That was it. And I thought if I showed her much I loved her she would know.* He had been wrong. She did not love him and never would.
All those months he was the only one there for her. She had used him. And he didn't care at all. Just as long as he was with her, but eventually that wasn't enough. He needed to know how she felt too. *It killed her to use me, my Bloody arse! She could have used me just fine if I hadn't asked for something more. All I asked was for her love. Stupid! Stupid! You stupid Poof, just 'effen like him. And with the same stupid Bint of a Slayer!* He had tried to do everything he could for her, and now she hated him for it.
Spike started up the motor bike he had. He would go as far away from here as possibly and get what he wanted. All he wanted was for her to see. And when he came back she would. She would see who he really was.
He felt bad about not saying anything to Dawn. She was the only one, who could stand him, but he hadn't been around and Buffy probably told her about what had happened between them. And now she probably hated him too. Hell, everyone hated him.
And Anya.what about Anya? He had shagged her. Big deal? She was good in bed at least. He couldn't feel bad it, he was evil and soulless. It was a pity shag for each other really. Now he could never really ever go back and tell Buffy he lover her though. *Right Slayer. I love you some much I shagged Demon Girl.* That would really work.
Plus Xander would have him dust in five seconds flat. *But why does the Whelp even care? The Bloody Bastard dumped her at the alter.* Xander wasn't a problem really. Once he got what he wanted he would never have to deal with the likes of Hellmouth or anybody there again.
What would Willow think? She was always the little nice one. Only she had her problems too. All that magic crap got her girlfriend to dump her, but it was her own fault. She had gotten in to deep. It all started with raising the dead. *This her fault. If she hadn't brought the Slayer back all this wouldn't have happened.* Everything would have been normal. They would have grieved and got over it.
*Or maybe it's Buffy's fault. Yea if that Bitch hadn't asked me to stay and look after the Lil' Bit I would have left. Left along time ago and probably got this damn chip out too.* She had refused to tell her friends. She had used him! She had used him and thrown him out like yesterday's trash.
But that was all in the past now. He was leaving for bigger and better things.
"Now I'm walking away Slayer! It's what you wanted isn't it? I'm walking away from you and all my other problems! Going to get what I need and then." Spike shouted as he started up his motor bike.
Author: RedWitch
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: none
Summary: Spike's thoughts before he leaves Sunnydale in S6. Based on the song 'I'm Walking Away' by Craig David.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything! Nope, none, nothing. Wish I did.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
I'm Walking Away
I'm walking away
From the troubles in my life
I'm walking away
Oh, to find a better day
*Shit! I left my duster! MY duster! She has MY duster! Damn can't go back.*
Spike looked back at the town. Sunnydale was not his home anymore, heck it never really was. Sunnydale was his own personal Hell. He couldn't stay. He couldn't live with what he had done. *You stupid Wanker! You shagged the Slayer God knows how many times. But I only wanted her to love me. That was it. And I thought if I showed her much I loved her she would know.* He had been wrong. She did not love him and never would.
All those months he was the only one there for her. She had used him. And he didn't care at all. Just as long as he was with her, but eventually that wasn't enough. He needed to know how she felt too. *It killed her to use me, my Bloody arse! She could have used me just fine if I hadn't asked for something more. All I asked was for her love. Stupid! Stupid! You stupid Poof, just 'effen like him. And with the same stupid Bint of a Slayer!* He had tried to do everything he could for her, and now she hated him for it.
Spike started up the motor bike he had. He would go as far away from here as possibly and get what he wanted. All he wanted was for her to see. And when he came back she would. She would see who he really was.
He felt bad about not saying anything to Dawn. She was the only one, who could stand him, but he hadn't been around and Buffy probably told her about what had happened between them. And now she probably hated him too. Hell, everyone hated him.
And Anya.what about Anya? He had shagged her. Big deal? She was good in bed at least. He couldn't feel bad it, he was evil and soulless. It was a pity shag for each other really. Now he could never really ever go back and tell Buffy he lover her though. *Right Slayer. I love you some much I shagged Demon Girl.* That would really work.
Plus Xander would have him dust in five seconds flat. *But why does the Whelp even care? The Bloody Bastard dumped her at the alter.* Xander wasn't a problem really. Once he got what he wanted he would never have to deal with the likes of Hellmouth or anybody there again.
What would Willow think? She was always the little nice one. Only she had her problems too. All that magic crap got her girlfriend to dump her, but it was her own fault. She had gotten in to deep. It all started with raising the dead. *This her fault. If she hadn't brought the Slayer back all this wouldn't have happened.* Everything would have been normal. They would have grieved and got over it.
*Or maybe it's Buffy's fault. Yea if that Bitch hadn't asked me to stay and look after the Lil' Bit I would have left. Left along time ago and probably got this damn chip out too.* She had refused to tell her friends. She had used him! She had used him and thrown him out like yesterday's trash.
But that was all in the past now. He was leaving for bigger and better things.
"Now I'm walking away Slayer! It's what you wanted isn't it? I'm walking away from you and all my other problems! Going to get what I need and then." Spike shouted as he started up his motor bike.
