Part 6
"Jeff.please let me go." Trish sobbed. Why did she come in here? She wondered to herself. All of a sudden she felt a wet drop on her hand and realized that he was crying as well.
"Oh Jeff." She said.
"I love you Trish. I need you. I can't go on like this anymore. I just can't. I need you baby." Jeff said pulling her into his embrace.
Looking up at him, she raised her head and met the dark green eyes so filled with sorrow at that moment and felt a pain in her heart. She hated seeing him in any kind of pain and until this moment, she had never seen him in that much pain. She didn't pull away when he bent down and softly touched his lips to hers.
Jeff closed his eyes as he felt her hands tangle in his hair. He deepened the kiss and pulled her closer. Somehow then ended up lying down on the bed and he knew that this felt right. Having her in his arms made him feel complete.
"Trish.baby." Jeff said as she tried to take off her shirt.
"What? What is it Jeff?" She asked.
"No.not tonight. I want to make sure you're ready before we do anything." Jeff said softly but couldn't help but caress her face as he looked into her clear blue eyes.
"Ready?"
"I want you to know everything." He said tenderly as he watched the change of emotions in her eyes from passion to hurt.
"Trish don't" He said tightly and pulled her into his arms. "It's not that I don't want you. God knows, I want you so much. I just want you to be sure of how I feel about you and I want to know how you feel about me. There's been so much hurt and pain in our relationship and I need to be sure that everything will be okay between us."
"Now I know you have some questions and I know you don't really trust me but." Jeff began.
"Jeff.Jeff I.why? How could you do that to me? Why did you want to hurt me like that?" Trish said as she burrowed into his arms.
"Oh Trish." He said regretfully as he tightened his hold on her.
"When you said those things to me, I felt like I was dying. The thought that you used me for sex..that hurt a lot. And then the realization that you just didn't care about me at all.I couldn't take it. I had never felt so hurt in my life. Was I just some rebound girl for you?" She asked.
Jeff looked down at her, and felt a pain in his heart at the sad look in her eyes. God.how could he have done this to her?
"I know I don't deserve. I know it. I think I knew it then too. I was so scared when I started feeling things for you. I had been with Beth for so long.and yet when we got together I knew that you were no rebound girl. I knew that when we finally slept together that I felt something stronger for you than I had ever felt for Beth. It scared me and I felt like I was doing something wrong. Like I was ruining you because when you looked at me that night I knew you felt something for me. But I wasn't sure if it was anything close to what I felt. It scared me so much. I just.I love you Trish. I knew then that somewhere along the way, in our friendship, I had fallen in love with you and I didn't know what to do about it. I know that's no excuse for what I said and did, but that's all I can tell you." Jeff said, he breathed deeply when he felt her pull away from him.
"Oh god, she still hates me. She's going to leave me again." He thought to himself and fought the panic he felt in his chest. A panic that made him want to grab hold of her and force her to never leave him.
"Jeff." She began. She looked at him and was surprised at the sheer fear she saw in his eyes. "He thinks I'm leaving." She thought to herself.
"Oh Jeff.sweetie, I'm not leaving." She said to him, leaning down to kiss his lips.
"You're not?" Jeff breathed a sight of relief.
"Look Jeff. I know what I said last time at the bar. I guess I just wasn't ready for you to say those things to me. I love you." She smiled at the look in his eyes. "I loved you then and I love you now. I just.when Amy called me today and told me that she thought you had a concussion, all these things flew in my head. I was so angry.and hurt. But then I thought of never being able to see you again and I couldn't breathe. I felt like my life was just ebbing away from me. Yes.You hurt me with the things that you said, but I can forgive you for that. I guess for me, I don't think I realized until today that I can't live without you. I can't." She said, tears filling her eyes once more.
"Trish.does this mean that.that you're giving me another chance?" Jeff said afraid to hear the answer, his hands shaking as he wiped the tears away from her face.
"Yes you idiot. I'm giving us another chance. I just can't deal with trying not to show you how much I care about you. Today when you had that match.all I wanted to do was run out to the right and kick Mark's ass." Trish said through gritted teeth and couldn't help but smile at the sound of Jeff's laughter.
"You wanted to kick his ass? Baby, I can't even do that." Jeff said his happiness taking over as he breathed a sigh of relief. "She's giving me another chance." Was all he could say to himself as he looked down at her. He leaned down to give her another kiss.
"Hell hath no fury as a woman scorned." She mumbled against his lips.
"What?" He asked.
"I said hell hath no fury as a woman scorned. And when anyone hurts my man, I sure as hell am not going to stand by and watch it happen."
"Your man? Hmmm.I like that." Jeff grinned. He was so happy right now he felt like he was going to explode.
"You just remember that Jeffro.you're mine now and if you ever hurt me again I'll." Trish stopped as he placed a finger on her lips.
"I'll never hurt you again. Ever." He said fervently.
"Promise?" She said, she still couldn't believe she was taking this chance. But she knew that she just couldn't let him go without at least trying.
"I swear to you. I love you so much Trish." He whispered against her hair.
"I love you too." She said.
"Jeff.please let me go." Trish sobbed. Why did she come in here? She wondered to herself. All of a sudden she felt a wet drop on her hand and realized that he was crying as well.
"Oh Jeff." She said.
"I love you Trish. I need you. I can't go on like this anymore. I just can't. I need you baby." Jeff said pulling her into his embrace.
Looking up at him, she raised her head and met the dark green eyes so filled with sorrow at that moment and felt a pain in her heart. She hated seeing him in any kind of pain and until this moment, she had never seen him in that much pain. She didn't pull away when he bent down and softly touched his lips to hers.
Jeff closed his eyes as he felt her hands tangle in his hair. He deepened the kiss and pulled her closer. Somehow then ended up lying down on the bed and he knew that this felt right. Having her in his arms made him feel complete.
"Trish.baby." Jeff said as she tried to take off her shirt.
"What? What is it Jeff?" She asked.
"No.not tonight. I want to make sure you're ready before we do anything." Jeff said softly but couldn't help but caress her face as he looked into her clear blue eyes.
"Ready?"
"I want you to know everything." He said tenderly as he watched the change of emotions in her eyes from passion to hurt.
"Trish don't" He said tightly and pulled her into his arms. "It's not that I don't want you. God knows, I want you so much. I just want you to be sure of how I feel about you and I want to know how you feel about me. There's been so much hurt and pain in our relationship and I need to be sure that everything will be okay between us."
"Now I know you have some questions and I know you don't really trust me but." Jeff began.
"Jeff.Jeff I.why? How could you do that to me? Why did you want to hurt me like that?" Trish said as she burrowed into his arms.
"Oh Trish." He said regretfully as he tightened his hold on her.
"When you said those things to me, I felt like I was dying. The thought that you used me for sex..that hurt a lot. And then the realization that you just didn't care about me at all.I couldn't take it. I had never felt so hurt in my life. Was I just some rebound girl for you?" She asked.
Jeff looked down at her, and felt a pain in his heart at the sad look in her eyes. God.how could he have done this to her?
"I know I don't deserve. I know it. I think I knew it then too. I was so scared when I started feeling things for you. I had been with Beth for so long.and yet when we got together I knew that you were no rebound girl. I knew that when we finally slept together that I felt something stronger for you than I had ever felt for Beth. It scared me and I felt like I was doing something wrong. Like I was ruining you because when you looked at me that night I knew you felt something for me. But I wasn't sure if it was anything close to what I felt. It scared me so much. I just.I love you Trish. I knew then that somewhere along the way, in our friendship, I had fallen in love with you and I didn't know what to do about it. I know that's no excuse for what I said and did, but that's all I can tell you." Jeff said, he breathed deeply when he felt her pull away from him.
"Oh god, she still hates me. She's going to leave me again." He thought to himself and fought the panic he felt in his chest. A panic that made him want to grab hold of her and force her to never leave him.
"Jeff." She began. She looked at him and was surprised at the sheer fear she saw in his eyes. "He thinks I'm leaving." She thought to herself.
"Oh Jeff.sweetie, I'm not leaving." She said to him, leaning down to kiss his lips.
"You're not?" Jeff breathed a sight of relief.
"Look Jeff. I know what I said last time at the bar. I guess I just wasn't ready for you to say those things to me. I love you." She smiled at the look in his eyes. "I loved you then and I love you now. I just.when Amy called me today and told me that she thought you had a concussion, all these things flew in my head. I was so angry.and hurt. But then I thought of never being able to see you again and I couldn't breathe. I felt like my life was just ebbing away from me. Yes.You hurt me with the things that you said, but I can forgive you for that. I guess for me, I don't think I realized until today that I can't live without you. I can't." She said, tears filling her eyes once more.
"Trish.does this mean that.that you're giving me another chance?" Jeff said afraid to hear the answer, his hands shaking as he wiped the tears away from her face.
"Yes you idiot. I'm giving us another chance. I just can't deal with trying not to show you how much I care about you. Today when you had that match.all I wanted to do was run out to the right and kick Mark's ass." Trish said through gritted teeth and couldn't help but smile at the sound of Jeff's laughter.
"You wanted to kick his ass? Baby, I can't even do that." Jeff said his happiness taking over as he breathed a sigh of relief. "She's giving me another chance." Was all he could say to himself as he looked down at her. He leaned down to give her another kiss.
"Hell hath no fury as a woman scorned." She mumbled against his lips.
"What?" He asked.
"I said hell hath no fury as a woman scorned. And when anyone hurts my man, I sure as hell am not going to stand by and watch it happen."
"Your man? Hmmm.I like that." Jeff grinned. He was so happy right now he felt like he was going to explode.
"You just remember that Jeffro.you're mine now and if you ever hurt me again I'll." Trish stopped as he placed a finger on her lips.
"I'll never hurt you again. Ever." He said fervently.
"Promise?" She said, she still couldn't believe she was taking this chance. But she knew that she just couldn't let him go without at least trying.
"I swear to you. I love you so much Trish." He whispered against her hair.
"I love you too." She said.
