~~Sweet Misery ~~ By Valerie

I basically went through the whole thing in "Goodbye To You" about how Ross and Rachel never had Emma and never slept together after they broke up. So to bring you up to date. Monica and Chandler are still married. Rachel lives with her fiancé Ryan, who she has been dating for only six months. I know I left this out in "Goodbye To You" and I didn't mean to so here is the background information on Ryan. Ryan works in Rachel's office; he is actually her new boss. Rachel and Ryan liked each other from the start but after what happened with Tag she decided never to sneak around dating people in her office again. But Ryan soon quits his job there and goes to work as a manager in Bloomindales. He comes back to the office though to ask Rachel out on a date and she says yes. They are practically made for each other and have lots of the same interests. After only three months of dating, Ryan proposes to Rachel while they are away on a weekend. Rachel is shocked but accepts his proposal happily. Ok. So anyway the time of their wedding comes and Rachel can't be happier. Monica, while talking to Rachel the day of the wedding, says she always thought Rachel would end up with Ross. She tells Monica that she and Ross are a thing of the past. Monica won't object to her. Ross gives Rachel is blessing on the wedding and the ceremony goes on almost smoothly. Ross objects to the wedding and in the back of the church, confesses his love to Rachel. And that's it. I suggest you read "Goodbye To You" before reading this just so you can completely understand.

~~In The Back Of The Church~~

Rachel: Oh my god. Ross I can't believe you are actually saying this!! Why didn't you tell me this earlier? I can't. I don't understand. I thought we were over each other.

Ross: I was never over you, no matter how much it seemed I was.

Rachel: Oh my god.

Ross: Rachel I'm sorry but. I had to tell you. I couldn't let you marry him without letting you know.

Rachel: Yes you could have.

Ross: You were going to stop me from marrying Emily in London, so you should know how this feels.

Rachel: Yes I was but I didn't. I couldn't do this when I knew how happy you were with Emily.

Ross: I had to take that course of action. I love you Rachel. I could never live knowing I couldn't be with you. You know that.

~~Monica and Chandler's apartment~~

Monica: She was so upset. I don't know what got into Ross. It's like. I don't even know what it's like.

Chandler: Ross wouldn't even talk to me. I chased him outside and he totally ignored me.

Phoebe: What could he have possibly said to Rachel?

Chandler: Uh maybe that he loves her? He has always loved her. And I mean he's gotten married lots of times. But maybe now, seeing Rachel get married something snapped. Like when he was marrying Emily.

Monica: Did you get to talk to Ryan?

Joey: When I left the church he was pounding on the door for Rachel to let him in to the room.

~~Rachel and Ryan's apartment~~

Ryan: (pounding) Rachel let me in!! Please Rachel.

Rachel: Go away for the seven hundredth time!!

Ryan: Rachel!!

Rachel: (flings the door open) Ryan I don't want to talk.

Ryan: We have to talk. Why did you call the wedding off??

Rachel: I can't marry you Ryan. Do you realize what we almost did today? We almost crossed a line we would have never been a million years been ready to cross. Ryan. We're only dated for something like three months before we got engaged.

Ryan: Exactly three months.

Rachel: I've begun to doubt myself on why I even said yes. Ryan I love you. Don't get me wrong you're such a sweet guy. But I don't think. I don't think I love you like that like I thought I did. It's just not what I was looking for after all.

Ryan: Rachel please.

Rachel: No. Ryan we can't be together. I'm sorry.

Ryan: I love you more than anyone. You do know that?

Rachel: It's not meant to be.

Ryan: Is Ross?

Rachel: Is Ross what?

Ryan: Is Ross meant to be?

Rachel: I don't know.

~~Ross's apartment~~

Chandler: Man what were you thinking???

Ross: I don't know!! I mean. Come on Chandler. You know how I am about Rachel. How long have I loved Rachel?

Chandler: You've loved Rachel since 9th grade.

Ross: Yea. And I never stopped loving her. I finally got the chance with her and I'll admit I blew it.

Chandler: But you were on a break.

Ross: Not now Chandler.

Chandler: Okay fine. But I thought you said you were over Rachel?

Ross: I was. At least I thought I was. I've never loved her more though. I couldn't very well sit there and watch the woman of my dreams get married.

Chandler: She did it for you with Emily.

Ross: And it didn't matter because I still loved Rachel then too.

Chandler: What???

Ross: I loved her then. I dreamed about having that moment with Rachel so many times. And now that she was there. I guess I sort of started picturing her there instead of Emily.

Chandler: Even so. This was supposed to be the happiest day of her life dude.

Ross: If Monica was marrying Richard today and you were still in love with her could you watch her marry him?

Chandler: Well, no. I love Monica too much. She's not meant to be with him, she's meant to be with me.

Ross: Rachel's not meant to be with Ryan. She never was. It's always been Rachel and I've always loved her. I know maybe somewhere deep in her heart she still loves me. It's meant to be.

~~Rachel and Ryan's apartment~~

Rachel: (opens the door) I don't want to talk.

Ross: We need to. It can't stay like this Rachel.

Rachel: No. Ross. I can't deal with this right now okay?

~~Monica and Chandler's apartment~~

Phoebe: Rachel he just wants to talk.

Rachel: This is too much. I mean first I had to break it off with Ryan.

Monica: But you said yourself it wasn't meant to be.

Rachel: That doesn't mean it didn't hurt him and I to do it. And now I've got to find a way to deal with this.

Monica: There's only one question you have to answer Rachel.

Rachel: And it's the hardest thing to do.

Phoebe: This is Ross we are talking about. Ross. You two have so much.

I was lost And you were found You seemed to stand on solid ground I was weak And you were strong And me and my guitar we strummed along

Monica: Phoebe's right. Rachel you were so crazy about him. Don't you remember that?

Sweet misery you cause me That's what you called me Sweet misery you cause me

Rachel: Of course I remember. Do you remember what happened because of us?

I was blind But oh, how you could see You saw the beauty in everything, everything in me I would cry And you would smile You'd stay with me a little while

Monica: That was one mistake. Every couple has problems.

Phoebe: What matters is the rest of your lives. Can you see yourself with him for the rest of your life?

Sweet misery you cause me That's what you called me Sweet misery you cause me

~~Ross's apartment~~

Joey: Dude this is Rachel. She'll come around don't worry.

Ross: What if she doesn't? She wouldn't even talk to me, do you know how much that hurt?

And in my heart I see, oh What you're doing to me And in my heart I see, oh Just how you wanted it to be Sweet misery Oh whoa

Chandler: Sure it hurt. But she loves you. There is no way that she can't love you. I mean she broke off her engagement to Ryan. That must count for something.

Sweet misery you cause me That's what you called me Sweet misery you cause me

Ross: So what if she broke off her engagement with Ryan? She may not love him but she may not love me either.

And in my heart I see, oh What you're doing to me And in my heart I see, oh Just how you wanted it to be Sweet misery

Joey: Ross all of us have been friends for so long. Do you think we don't have eyes? We see what goes on in both Rachel's life and your life everyday. We see what's going on. She's crazy about you.

I was weak And you were strong And me and my guitar, We strummed along