DISCLAIMER: I don't own anybody besides Aliya, Kendre and Pelanar……
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The Poem punctuating at different parts of the story is by ff.net writer "Reindeer". Thank you for your permission, Reindeer, and you have beautiful work.
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Feuyaer - disgusting one
Gorgaer - fearful one
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ALIYA
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There was not much else to do than wait. And wait I did. I didn't talk again to anybody, even Kendre for a fortnight. After reliving my story, my every thought and dreams was of it.
I then entered an even deeper state of despair than ever before. Waiting. Instead of waiting to see if I lived or died, I would have to see what would happen now. I had no place to go. My family abandoned me and my home was gone. I did not know what to do.
I drifted off to sleep finally one night, but it only seemed like minutes before I was awakened once again by Kendre.
In pure instinct, I recoiled and flinched.
~~~FLASHBACK
"Feuyaer! Gorgaer! Get up you lazy dog!"
~~~END FLASHBACK
But in an instant, I felt 2 strong hands grip my shoulders and lower me down. My body went limp and I began shaking again.
It was a moment before I realized that I was in a room in Mirkwood. I opened my eyes. Legolas was sitting on the edge of my bed, holding me tight, and Kendre stood nearby, calm and collected, holding a tray in her hands.
I recoiled a bit more from Legolas and tensed up. He lowered me slowly against the bed and stood up, backing away from me. Kendre took his spot on my bedside.
~~~
My friend,
I wish you weren't so afraid
Of people getting close…
I wish that when I knock,
You'd let me in…
I watch sadly as you back away in tears,
Stare into my open hand,
Wondering what you fear…
~~~
"You are okay…" she whispered, "I brought you back some food…"
She handed me the tray, my hands shook as I took it. It had on it a mug of sweet tea, soup and bread.
I ate slowly, and for the first time, looked around my bedroom. Legolas had taken a seat in the far corner of the room near the door in a large highly decorated wooden chair. The room was decorated in deep crimson and gold, purely royal colors.
The bed I lay in had a large gold canopy and the quilting on top of me was soft and intricate. As I ate, my hands moved over the many designs, forests and leaves, and my eyes traveled to meet Kendre's.
"My father requests that you will break your fast with him the morning after tomorrow…" she said in an inviting tone.
Meet the King? I thought. Just thinking about it made me feel like crying again.
"But I have no clothes, or shoes…" I said, sadly.
But Kendre just smiled and said, "I have already taken care of that… A while ago, I took your dress measurements and I am having some made for you."
I nodded and Kendre went on by saying, "Can I tell my father that you will be there?"
"Yes…" I said handing the now empty tray back to Kendre.
"Good!" she said, "He wishes very much to speak to you."
Kendre left the room probably to go back and report to the King. I noticed Legolas did not leave, though. It's fine…. I had to assure myself, he saved you, remember, but I couldn't help being afraid of him. All the men I had ever known betrayed me. Was he any different?
It brought more tears to my eyes to think about my father and brother and what they had done. It was true that my father had never really wanted me, he was content with the one son he had, and my brother was no different. We had never gotten along and were always fighting. I buried my face in my arms, not noticing that Legolas moved from his chair to my bedside.
As he sat down on the bed, I tensed, the only thing I had ever expected before was being hit, and my time with the orcs made it no different, but instead, I felt a slender hand rest on my shoulder.
"My sister told me what happened to you…" he said in a low tone, "I'm sorry Aliya… If I had known…"
"It is fine, Legolas… You didn't know…" I whispered through sobs. I tried desperately to control my body, but my shaking and sobbing now seemed involuntary.
"Talk to me Aliya…" he said, "Tell me what else is wrong, tell me how you feel…"
"I don't know if I can… I don't know if I want to…"
"I know your scared. I know the pain is immeasurable for you, but trust us…" he crooned, stroking my shoulder gently.
"I was so scared…" I started, "Everyday… It wasn't the pain, or the misery, it was being so frightened, all the time. It was not knowing if they would kill me, or if they would beat me, or rape me again… I almost gave up hope… I wanted to, so badly…I…."
"Oh, Aliya…" Legolas said, touching lightly the brand on the back of my shoulder, "You were so mishandled… I wish to the Valar, I wish with all my heart that this had never happened… That I had found you first…"
~~~
I'd like to take you somewhere,
A place where you need not be afraid
Someone would take your heart,
And wipe away your tears.
I'd like to take you to my world,
Where eagles still fly in the sky,
Where wolves howl at the moon
And the deep, dark forest
Protects you from your gloom…
~~~
"I wanted to die Legolas… I wanted it to end… They took everything from me.." I sobbed.
He lifted my head up gently in his hands and looked me in the eye.
"They took the light from your eyes, Aliya, but they did not take your eyes…" He whispered, "They took the smile from your lips, but they did not take your lips… They broke your body, but did not steal your thoughts or memories… You are still Aliya, and that can never be taken from you… You are such a beautiful person, and such ugly things have happened to you… But nothing will ever happen again. I say this, with sincerity that has never been expressed before, you are safe."
He pulled me into a tight embrace and I cried, trying to believe what he had said so many times.
~~~
My friend,
Don't be sad,
You don't have to be alone.
Just open the door,
And let me in…
~~~
~~~
LEGOLAS
~~~
As she lay there in my arms I didn't know how to help her. I knew what must have happened was bad but I never imagined how emotionally hurt she could be. It was as if she was reduced to a mere child, unable to protect herself more than cower in fear. Right away I knew that I liked her but I didn't know how to bring her out of that place she had grown so accustomed to in her own mind. I needed to earn the trust from her that I knew she wasn't ready to give out.
~~~
My friend
Like a child crying in the dark,
I rise to comfort you,
But am pushed away,
Wondering now…
Should I go or stay?
~~~
"Your fine, Aliya…" I continued to whisper to the small, crying girl in my arms, "No harm will ever come to you here…"
~~~
But I hear you weeping,
And I can't bear the sound
Of your tears as they fall,
Hitting the ground,
Sounding like bombs,
Destroying all hope,
What kind of friend would I be?
If I can't get you to see,
That even you can learn
To trust me.
~~~
I repeated this over and over again. I didn't know what else to say. It was only 3 hours later when I felt her breath steady, and her shaking calm. I knew she had fallen asleep. I got up quietly and left the room in search of my sister. I knew Kendre would know what to do.
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REVIEW!!
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The Poem punctuating at different parts of the story is by ff.net writer "Reindeer". Thank you for your permission, Reindeer, and you have beautiful work.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Feuyaer - disgusting one
Gorgaer - fearful one
~~~
ALIYA
~~~
There was not much else to do than wait. And wait I did. I didn't talk again to anybody, even Kendre for a fortnight. After reliving my story, my every thought and dreams was of it.
I then entered an even deeper state of despair than ever before. Waiting. Instead of waiting to see if I lived or died, I would have to see what would happen now. I had no place to go. My family abandoned me and my home was gone. I did not know what to do.
I drifted off to sleep finally one night, but it only seemed like minutes before I was awakened once again by Kendre.
In pure instinct, I recoiled and flinched.
~~~FLASHBACK
"Feuyaer! Gorgaer! Get up you lazy dog!"
~~~END FLASHBACK
But in an instant, I felt 2 strong hands grip my shoulders and lower me down. My body went limp and I began shaking again.
It was a moment before I realized that I was in a room in Mirkwood. I opened my eyes. Legolas was sitting on the edge of my bed, holding me tight, and Kendre stood nearby, calm and collected, holding a tray in her hands.
I recoiled a bit more from Legolas and tensed up. He lowered me slowly against the bed and stood up, backing away from me. Kendre took his spot on my bedside.
~~~
My friend,
I wish you weren't so afraid
Of people getting close…
I wish that when I knock,
You'd let me in…
I watch sadly as you back away in tears,
Stare into my open hand,
Wondering what you fear…
~~~
"You are okay…" she whispered, "I brought you back some food…"
She handed me the tray, my hands shook as I took it. It had on it a mug of sweet tea, soup and bread.
I ate slowly, and for the first time, looked around my bedroom. Legolas had taken a seat in the far corner of the room near the door in a large highly decorated wooden chair. The room was decorated in deep crimson and gold, purely royal colors.
The bed I lay in had a large gold canopy and the quilting on top of me was soft and intricate. As I ate, my hands moved over the many designs, forests and leaves, and my eyes traveled to meet Kendre's.
"My father requests that you will break your fast with him the morning after tomorrow…" she said in an inviting tone.
Meet the King? I thought. Just thinking about it made me feel like crying again.
"But I have no clothes, or shoes…" I said, sadly.
But Kendre just smiled and said, "I have already taken care of that… A while ago, I took your dress measurements and I am having some made for you."
I nodded and Kendre went on by saying, "Can I tell my father that you will be there?"
"Yes…" I said handing the now empty tray back to Kendre.
"Good!" she said, "He wishes very much to speak to you."
Kendre left the room probably to go back and report to the King. I noticed Legolas did not leave, though. It's fine…. I had to assure myself, he saved you, remember, but I couldn't help being afraid of him. All the men I had ever known betrayed me. Was he any different?
It brought more tears to my eyes to think about my father and brother and what they had done. It was true that my father had never really wanted me, he was content with the one son he had, and my brother was no different. We had never gotten along and were always fighting. I buried my face in my arms, not noticing that Legolas moved from his chair to my bedside.
As he sat down on the bed, I tensed, the only thing I had ever expected before was being hit, and my time with the orcs made it no different, but instead, I felt a slender hand rest on my shoulder.
"My sister told me what happened to you…" he said in a low tone, "I'm sorry Aliya… If I had known…"
"It is fine, Legolas… You didn't know…" I whispered through sobs. I tried desperately to control my body, but my shaking and sobbing now seemed involuntary.
"Talk to me Aliya…" he said, "Tell me what else is wrong, tell me how you feel…"
"I don't know if I can… I don't know if I want to…"
"I know your scared. I know the pain is immeasurable for you, but trust us…" he crooned, stroking my shoulder gently.
"I was so scared…" I started, "Everyday… It wasn't the pain, or the misery, it was being so frightened, all the time. It was not knowing if they would kill me, or if they would beat me, or rape me again… I almost gave up hope… I wanted to, so badly…I…."
"Oh, Aliya…" Legolas said, touching lightly the brand on the back of my shoulder, "You were so mishandled… I wish to the Valar, I wish with all my heart that this had never happened… That I had found you first…"
~~~
I'd like to take you somewhere,
A place where you need not be afraid
Someone would take your heart,
And wipe away your tears.
I'd like to take you to my world,
Where eagles still fly in the sky,
Where wolves howl at the moon
And the deep, dark forest
Protects you from your gloom…
~~~
"I wanted to die Legolas… I wanted it to end… They took everything from me.." I sobbed.
He lifted my head up gently in his hands and looked me in the eye.
"They took the light from your eyes, Aliya, but they did not take your eyes…" He whispered, "They took the smile from your lips, but they did not take your lips… They broke your body, but did not steal your thoughts or memories… You are still Aliya, and that can never be taken from you… You are such a beautiful person, and such ugly things have happened to you… But nothing will ever happen again. I say this, with sincerity that has never been expressed before, you are safe."
He pulled me into a tight embrace and I cried, trying to believe what he had said so many times.
~~~
My friend,
Don't be sad,
You don't have to be alone.
Just open the door,
And let me in…
~~~
~~~
LEGOLAS
~~~
As she lay there in my arms I didn't know how to help her. I knew what must have happened was bad but I never imagined how emotionally hurt she could be. It was as if she was reduced to a mere child, unable to protect herself more than cower in fear. Right away I knew that I liked her but I didn't know how to bring her out of that place she had grown so accustomed to in her own mind. I needed to earn the trust from her that I knew she wasn't ready to give out.
~~~
My friend
Like a child crying in the dark,
I rise to comfort you,
But am pushed away,
Wondering now…
Should I go or stay?
~~~
"Your fine, Aliya…" I continued to whisper to the small, crying girl in my arms, "No harm will ever come to you here…"
~~~
But I hear you weeping,
And I can't bear the sound
Of your tears as they fall,
Hitting the ground,
Sounding like bombs,
Destroying all hope,
What kind of friend would I be?
If I can't get you to see,
That even you can learn
To trust me.
~~~
I repeated this over and over again. I didn't know what else to say. It was only 3 hours later when I felt her breath steady, and her shaking calm. I knew she had fallen asleep. I got up quietly and left the room in search of my sister. I knew Kendre would know what to do.
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