Darkness Falls
This will be my first fanfic and I will be grateful for any constructive criticism on this story. Well, it's a Takari, with a few other surprise couplings thrown in for good measure. (I love a good triangle, polygon and what else!) DO NOT READ IF YOU DONT LIKE YAOI!! It has a mixture!!
I do not own Digimon, but a girl can wish!
A grey day!
That's exactly what it was. It was pouring with rain outside, very dark and very windy. Not one of the best sites to get up to, but you can't help it if you have school.
It was grey in another respect too. I woke up this morning with a foggy head, to my brothers express train snoring. I think he has a cold because he doesn't usually snore that loud. Anyway I felt sick! It was probable due to the Vodka I drunk last night. Now I don't usually drink, especially on a school night, but I am also not one to shy away from a dare, especially one set up by Takeru and Daisuke. A group of us had decided to get together after school at Daisuke's house. His parents were out so we were playing an amusing game of truth or dare while sprawled over the living room. After a couple of truths, came my dare. After whispering between them, Daisuke came out with it. Miyako was edging me on and Ken was pouring out the pint! Yes the pint. A pint of Vodka, straight down the hatch was the dare and I was the one suckered into it. I did refuse at first, but after a fell calls of chicken and coward, I grabbed the pint glass from Ken and knocked the whole thing back. After swallowing the last drop, I hauled ass to the toilet, and brought practically all of it back up again. I remember Daisuke found this very funny as did Miyako. Takeru was very apologetic and he stood over me while I was being sick, rubbing my back soothingly. No one else got suckered into any other dare because Daisuke's sister came home with her date and threw the lot of us out, including Daisuke. I think that he slept over at Takeru's house after helping bring me home. Now, thanks to them, I have a headache the size of Texas!
I really didn't want to go to school this morning, but as it was the last day before the holidays, I decided to go. As well as the grey clouds outside, it felt like grey clouds were forming around me! I had a really bad feeling something was going to happen soon, and it wasn't good!
When I got to school, it felt as if the clouds had got thicker. In the classroom we all met in before lessons, I was sitting on a stool, hunched over a computer. Miyako was yammering on in my ear about Ken. How he was cute. How he was shy. How he was sweet. The list goes on and on. I was seriously considering getting out the duct tape and taping her mouth shut for a few minutes just to calm the headache that was growing at the moment, but then Takeru and Daisuke decided to walk through the classroom door, chattering and laughing about something. My head began to hurt a little more as I remembered something Daisuke had told me:
Two months previously, just after the Metalmyotismon (Is this right?) incident, Daisuke had pulled me aside after school and asked if he could have a private word. I had sat on a park bench for nearly half an hour, Daisuke pacing in front of me without saying a word, before I got pissed and demanded he come right out and tell me the problem. Then, out of the blue, he told me he was in love with someone and he needed my help to get that person to notice him.
I was elated at first, because he explained that his obsession with me was a way for him to pretend he wasn't in love with this other person. He didn't want to admit that he liked them. It was nearly all I could do to not jump off my seat and begin whooping in joy. My resident stalker was quitting on me to start hounding on someone else, so of course being the idiot I am, told him I would gladly help him. I just needed to know who it was.
Daisuke described this person to me. He said he was too embarrassed to say the name.
Soft blonde hair that smelt of Lime and Kiwi. Deep crystal blue eyes that you could loose yourself in. A tall, slim figure and strong posture whom was great at sports. A caring personality whom always put others first.
I think everything in my body shut down from this point. He was talking about Takeru. The Lime and Kiwi hair was a dead giveaway. It was me who told Takeru to continue using the shampoo after trying out a free sample. It was a fresh, tropical smell that made you sigh in contentment.
Everything else just fit him perfectly and my mentioning his name out loud to see Daisuke blush confirmed it. As soon as I saw his blush, I got up from my bench and ran!
Let me get this straight. I am not a homophobic. I am not! I just have romantic feelings for my best friend who just happens to be a guy, but my other friend who also is a guy likes him too and as he told first, it is like he has 'fist dibs!' on trying to catch him. My life was ruined!
I'm not sure if Takeru knows Daisuke likes him more than a friend or not. I know no one else apart from myself knows. Daisuke doesn't make himself obvious until Takeru starts talking to me. Then and only then does Daisuke get slightly 'touchy feely' with Takeru. I think the others, after watching Daisuke grab Takeru at these moments, think wrongly that he is trying to keep Takeru away from me. He is actually trying to keep me away from Takeru.
All of these thoughts begin to really affect my already pounding head and I groaned and placed my hands on my temples, leaning on my desk for support.
"Kari?" A soft voice said my name questioningly. I raised my eyes and stared into crystal blue depths. Takeru was practically ten centimetres from my face, staring into my eyes with such a gentle expression that I wanted to jump him right there, headache be damned. "Are you okay? Do you have a headache?"
I was about to answer him, but Daisuke butted in, pulling Takeru to a safe distance away from me and wrapping his hands around his upper arm. "Sure she is Takeru. It's just a hangover from yesterday, right Kari-chan!"
My eyes moved from Takeru's face to Daisuke's, stifling the growl in my throat. Although he had a friendly grin on his face, there was a look in his eyes which clearly said to me 'Back off. He's mine!' His hands were still on Takeru's arm for he still hadn't brushed him off. Even so, Takeru did reach out his other arm and gently stroked a few strands of hair from my face with his fingertips, pulling my eyes back to his.
"If your headache gets worse Kari, go to the nurse." He said softly. "Don't sit there and suffer."
"Hai..." I managed to stutter out. He smiled at me, then went to his seat. Daisuke followed him, glaring at me as he passed.
The grey cloud, which had hovered over me this morning, had dissipated slightly while I was staring into Takeru's eyes. But now, it had returned with a vengeance.
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I sat at my desk in math class, next to Takeru who seemed focused on the problems on the board. I personally couldn't focus on anything but him. I was sitting so close to him, that the Lime and Kiwi fragrance was strong. Every time his elbow brushed mine while he was writing made me just want to grab him right here in class and start kissing him until he was breathless! I suppose it was my own fault. I was the one who had pulled my chair so close to his, so the punishment was on my head. Thank god this class was the last one of the day. All of this growling at Kari whenever she got too close to Takeru was definitely putting strain on my throat.
"Hey Takeru." I whispered to him.
"Yes Dai?" Takeru looked at me. I stared into his eyes, trying to force words past my tongue.
"Q..Q..Question three. How...."
"Its y-3x = 2x+2. x=9 and y =7!"
"Thanks." Takeru smiled at me, then went back to his own work. I just sat there staring at him. How did he do that? He could just reel off an answer without blinking. I seriously think he was a match for Miyako and Koushiro, he just didn't flaunt his intelligence. He was always calm and composed with everyone, even me when I was in my Kari obsession. The only time I have seen his temper was when we were fighting evil in the Digiworld. He claimed to hate all that was evil, but I think it is something more. There is something about Takeru Takeshi that I cant put my finger on, no one can, not even Kari. The Digidestined all think it has something to do with his crest and maybe that is part of it, but there is something else there, something that even his brother Yamato is unsure on.
I had decided this morning, as I woke up on my futon in Takeru's room that I was going to tell him exactly how I felt about him, today. It was while I lay there, staring at Takeru's sleeping face. He looks so sweet when he is asleep, his hair sticking out everywhere on his pillow. The only thing is, for some reason just lately, he seems sad, like something is eating away at him. Even when he sleeps, his mouth is turned into a frown. I have asked him a couple of times what was wrong, but he just turned his sweet smile on me and told me there was nothing wrong. It is hard to argue with him, so I drop the subject, but it doesn't stop me wondering.
"Takeru." I said again, putting my pen down on the desk.
"Yes?" He replied, looking at me again. He always seems to give me his full attention when I'm asking him a question.
"Can I have a private word with you after school." O boy, am I nervous, but I look pleadingly into his eyes, which look back at me.
"Of course you can Dai. Is it a problem of some sort?" He asked.
"Sort of." I mumbled back. "Tell you in a bit."
Ten minutes later, the bell went, signifying the end of school. Instead of sighing in relief as I usually do, my heart began to hammer loudly. I tossed my books into my backpack then looked up to see Takeru standing next to me, a smile on his face.
"Come on then." He grabbed my arm and pulled me out of the classroom. "Let's hear this problem."
He pulled me down the corridor at a brisk pace, dodging all of the students going in the other direction, to the doors overlooking the field. He pulled me outside and over to the greenhouses beyond the school building. When we had reached the area behind the greenhouses, he stopped and turned to me.
"Is this private enough?"
I nodded mutely. Takeru let go of my arm and placed his bag on the floor, next to where I had thrown mine. I stood staring at the floor, not knowing where to start.
"Well, what's up?" Takeru asked, a small smile on his face.
I couldn't say anything. I couldn't get any words out. Fear had suddenly struck me. What if he hated me for this? What if he called me a disgusting sicko? I admit that I am. I am in love with another guy. One of my best friends. One of my only friends. I looked up at him, a tear slipping down my cheek. He was surprised at this and reached out and brushed away the tear with his fingers.
"Dai, come on tell me. What's wrong?"
He wouldn't hate me! I told myself. He's too good a person for that. He will let me down gently, trying not to make me feel bad. I was going to tell him!
"Takeru, I am in love with someone and I thought I should tell you!"
He looked at me with a smile.
"Is it Kari? I understand how you feel, but you didn't need to tell me...."
"NO!" I nearly yelled out. I stared directly into his eyes. "It's not Kari. Its you Takeru. I'm in love with you!"
If he was surprised about this little revelation, he didn't show it.
"How long?"
"Huh?"
"How long have you felt this way?" Takeru wasn't smiling now and there was a questioning look in his eyes. My gaze dropped and once again, I stared at the floor.
"I...It started when I first met you, but I pushed it away, thinking it was hatred of you and jealousy of your friendship with Kari. The feeling grew and grew until I couldn't deny it anymore." I had started to cry. I could feel the tears fall down my cheeks and I did nothing to stop them. "I'm sorry TK." I reverted back to his other name. "I'm sorry." I had ruined it. I had ruined my friendship with Takeru, all because I couldn't keep my feeling a secret. I was just about to grab my bag and run, when I felt Takeru's hand touching my cheek, stroking away my tears.
"It's okay Dai. Don't cry. There's no reason to cry." I stared at his face and he smiled at me.
"Why?" I asked him. "You don't return my feelings, do you?" My heart was beating a mile a minute, praying that the answer was positive.
"I don't know!"
"Excuse me?" My head was whirling now. He had lost me.
"I don't know Dai. I don't know how I feel about anyone. I care about you, but I don't know if it is love, or something else." He had brought e close to himself while he spoke, wrapping his arms around my waist, drawing my head onto his shoulder. "I'm sorry I can't give you an answer that you wanted to hear."
I shook my head slightly, lifting it from his shoulder so I could stare into his eyes. "No. It's fine Takeru. I just don't want you to hate me."
"Don't worry Dai. I could never hate you." He smiled at me again. His face was so close to mine, that I started to breathe heavily.
"Takeru." I said raspily, wetting my lips with my tongue. "Can....can I ki..ki..kiss.....?"
I couldn't finish my sentence, but it didn't matter, for Takeru leaned down and kissed me, gently on my lips. I couldn't believe it. I had wanted this for so long, and it had finally happened. The only problem was, I wasn't responding. I placed one arm around his waist, the other around his shoulder, one hand in his hair. I pulled him closer to myself and used my tongue to open his mouth. He did willingly and suddenly; my mouth was filled with the taste of Takeru. I felt his tongue brush mine and my grip on him grew tighter. I delved into his mouth again and again, my teeth scraping his tongue gently as it entered my mouth and mine probed every inch of his mouth it could reach. I did surface for air, but my mouth was back on his after a few seconds. I couldn't stop myself and Takeru wasn't stopping me either. He gave me back as much as I took from him, which only heightened my pleasure. I didn't know when it happened, but during my next breath of air, I realised we were lying on the grass, me sprawled on top of him. This didn't stop me, I just continued kissing him. I couldn't get enough of Takeru's taste, his scent. My hands went to his shirt and began to open each button, my mouth still on his. I had to touch his skin under my hands. When all of the buttons were open, I began T o stroke the silky skin of his chest. When my finger touched one of his nipples, he groaned into my mouth, gripping me tighter. Realising I was on to something, I detached my mouth from his and kissed down his neck, nibbling at certain points, to his chest. Takeru was breathing very heavily, letting out a light gasp every time I nibbled. His eyes were closed and his hands were gripping my shoulders tightly. I reached his right nipple and blew on it, making him groan again.
"Dai.... suke" He managed to get out. I responded my clamping my mouth his nipple, using my tongue to arouse him with as much sensation as possible. His fingers tightened onto my shoulders and loud gasping was uttered from his mouth. I pulled on his nipple with my teeth and he actually cried out.
"DAIUSUKE!"
I looked up to see him sweating and panting heavily. My emotions were going haywire. I needed to kiss him again, so my mouth went back over his again, my tongue entwining with his. My hands were stroking over his chest again and he had finally placed his hands under my t-shirt so he was touching my back. Every one of my nerve ends was tingling. Oh did I love this boy! I lifted myself up slightly so I was straddling his hips, and then I slid my hand down the front of his trousers. At this point, Takeru began to fidget under my touch. When I began to stroke him gently, he let go of me and grabbed my wrist, pulling my hand out of his trousers. My adure cooling slightly, I detached my lips from his and looked down at him curiously.
"What's wrong?" I asked, trying to calm down my heavy breathing. He was doing the same thing, but it was harder because I was still stroking his chest with the hand he wasn't gripping.
"Enough Dai. That's enough!" Takeru's eyes opened and he stared at me firmly. I scrambled away from him, slightly hurt. I sat, cross-legged opposite him, watching him sit up then re button up his shirt, my eyes tearing up again. What did I do wrong? This was my first time kissing someone I admit, but he seemed like he was enjoying it.
"What did I do?" I actually sobbed my words out. I loved him so much and his sudden rejection of me hurt. "Whatever it was, I'm sorry."
A gentle chuckle reached my ears and I looked up into his face. He was smiling again, rubbing his forehead with the back of his hand.
"As I said before, don't be sorry Dai." He said lightly. "It was just a bit fast for me, that's all. It was only supposed to be a kiss, remember?"
I blushed then, remembering that I did ask if I could kiss him. I admit I was the one who pushed it beyond chastity. I did everything. Takeru had just stopped me going too far.
"How do you feel about me now?" I asked quietly. Takeru stared at my blushing face thoughtfully.
"I'm still not sure." He pondered. "I do love you Dai, I'm just not sure that I'm in love with you!" He smiled at me. "Do you understand?"
"Yes!" I did understand. Takeru was confused, just like I was. He needed time. I stood up, wiping the remainder of tears from my face and smiled back at him. "You need time don't you?"
"Yes, time." The sad expression returned to his face, making me crouch down close to him again.
"Look Takeru. If you have a problem, tell me. Don't keep it bottled up inside!" He was really worrying me with his sadness. "I will gladly listen." The sad look left his face and he smiled at me again, reaching out his hand to cup my cheek.
"Thanks Dai, I will." He pulled me down and gave me a gentle kiss on the lips. "I'll see you tomorrow, yes?"
"Of course." Takeru released me and I went over and grabbed my bag. "I'll give you a ring in the morning." I smiled at him, blew him a kiss, and then began running back towards the school. I was smiling with contentment. I had kissed the boy I loved and he had kissed me back. This dark cloudy day was a little brighter!
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I sat at my desk, scowling at the back of Daisuke's head. I saw him move his seat closer to Takeru's when he sat down and I could see him continuously stare at him. It was slightly unfair. I should have admitted to Takeru how I felt about him when I had the chance. When he told me that he cared a lot about me, just before the dark ocean pulled me in, I should have admitted it right then and there. It would have saved me all of the anguish I'm going through now.
Hold it! Daisuke was whispering something to Takeru.......! Good. It was just a question about the problems on the board. I sighed and went back to doing my own schoolwork. Thank god my headache had gone, but I was still feeling a bit foggy. Those grey clouds were still around me and the feeling that something bad was going to happen still hadn't diminished.
Daisuke was whispering to Takeru again. Probably asking for more help. Why did I have to sit at the desk behind them? It was like I was cursed of something! Hang on, Daisuke was asking for a private word with Takeru, and he agreed! My stomach was twisting in knots. Daisuke was going to tell Takeru how he felt about him. I knew it! Was this the bad thing that was going to happen? Was Takeru going to admit that he liked him back? I had to know.
Now I'm not an eavesdropper, or a stalker, but I needed to know Takeru's feelings. If I had a chance with him at all! When the bell went, I put my books into my bag, then discreetly followed Takeru and Daisuke through the school until they reached the door, overlooking the fields. I knew where they were going. Behind the greenhouses. That was where Takeru and I used to have out little chat whenever either of us needed to let off some steam. I stopped in the middle of the corridor, ignoring the rushing students around me. This was wrong. I shouldn't spy, but I couldn't help it. I needed to know. I began walking again, slower this time. When I reached the doors and pulled them open, I just saw the pair of them pull around the corner of the greenhouses. I walked towards them slowly. I was just taking a walk! That was what I would tell them if they saw me, nothing wrong with a walk! A slow, gentle walk in the same direction as they were. I mentally scolded myself. What ever happened, I could take it! I was strong! I was!
Placing a smile on my face, I rounded the corner of the greenhouse, then stopped and gasped in horror at the sight in front of me. They were kissing! Takeru and Daisuke were kissing! I felt the tears slip down my face and I was ready to howl in misery. He felt the same way. I didn't have a chance. I just stood there for a few seconds, then I turned and ran. I ran back across the field, into the school and into the empty girl's toilets. Only when I was in a locked stall, did I release the howl of misery. I felt like I was going to die right there. I wanted to die right there! I couldn't stand the pain.
"I love you Takeru. I love you!" I sobbed out. "Why? It isn't fair! Why damn it? I want you!"
The grey cloud was stifling me. And the feeling something bad was going to happen was still there. Someone above hated me and I didn't know why. All I did know was that there was worse to come!
Please review on this chapter. I will gladly accept any ideas on how to begin my next chapter. I need to know if this is any good before I continue it
Thanks for reading!
Kal
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