Perfection, Chapter 8B - Moonshine (Part 2)
Susan leant on the railing by the river. She could see her's and Luka's apartment window from where she stood. She looked up at the window and saw Luka stood there. She smiled and waved at him. He didn't see her, maybe he wasn't looking, and maybe he wasn't even worried about her.
"No!" she said aloud then quickly checked around to see if anyone heard her. Of course no one heard her, it was just after 6am and only the odd French runner was up at this time. She realised that she was walking down the riverbank without even realising. She needed some space from Luka, just for a little while, just to figure out what she wanted, what she needed.
She looked down into the river; it looked so calm and easy. She wished life was like that, calm and easy. 'But it's not' she thought. There's always something, or someone, blocking the way to what you want. For her that someone was Luka.
Odd as it seems Luka was blocking her way. She wasn't sure if she even loved him now. It was weird; she had felt so in love with him until Abby rang. She's awoken an old desire she'd managed to hide in the back of her mind.
When Susan went back to County she'd seen Mark but all the feelings she had for him had disappeared when she saw him with Elizabeth. But with Carter it was different. He was single when she first came back and she's proceeded to completely blow her chance with him.
She had lied to Abby, they did have chemistry and she knew it. It was Carter she was worried about; she didn't know whether he felt the same way as she did. It was hard to understand him, how he felt, what he thought. Only Abby could do that really. She was jealous of Abby now, not just because she was having John's baby and getting married to him, but because they had that closeness she'd always hoped for but could never have.
Susan stopped by a bench; she sat down and looked up at the moon. It was just starting to fade into the sky.
Back in Chicago it was just after 1am and Carter was at home waiting for Abby. Her shift finished at 2am but he couldn't wait up any longer for her. He had a double shift starting at 9am next morning and all the excitement of the baby and the engagement had worn him out. He wrote Abby a quick note and headed to bed.
He glanced out of the window as he got into bed. The moon was high in the sky, a full moon, shining a silvery grey between the clouds. It was beautiful.
Luka stood at the window. He'd seen Susan wave but he hadn't responded. He was angry with her. She'd just gone, he had visions of Danijela. He had a feeling he'd never see her again but when he saw her wave he knew that she wasn't leaving him and that she was ok. The feeling of fear turned to one of disappointment.
He loved Susan, or he thought he did. She was pretty, caring, loving, sexy, all the things he wanted. And best of all they were in love. He looked out of the window again to see Susan walking down the riverbank, he had an urge to go out and talk to her but he thought he must've upset her by not waving back.
He pulled a chair up to the window and looked out over the Paris skyline. He loved Europe, it was so beautiful and different to America. There was never the urgency or exaggeration like in the US. Everything was as big as it needed to be, not bigger. It was cool, but not cold like Chicago. And he really hoped Susan liked it here.
He thought about what Susan had told him about Abby and John. He'd grown to like John and he still loved Abby, but just as a friend now. He was happy for them both and he wished them the best with the baby and their engagement but he couldn't help but feel that Susan was holding something back. He wasn't entirely sure what it was, maybe she was envious of the fact that Abby was pregnant. The thought that she still had feelings for Carter never even entered his head.
He looked at the moon. It was starting to fade into the Paris morning sky. It was creeping behind a cloud but it looked wonderful.
Abby entered her apartment. She looked around, Carter wasn't there.
"Must be in bed" she whispered into the darkness. She flicked the light switch and walked into the kitchen. She put her coat over the back of her chair and yawned. She was about to head off to bed when she saw an enveloped labelled "Mrs J T Carter" she smiled to herself and tore it open. She sat down at the table and read the letter.
"Cher Abby, vous pouvez ne jamais commencer à comprendre combien je t'aime. J'ai vous ai aimé pendant longtemps, la première fois que j'ai vraiment réalisé étais probablement la nuit où je vous ai porté à la boule de charité au musée. Vous avez regardé si beau mais moi m'a connu ne pourrait pas vous avoir. Ce mal. Mais maintenant vous êtes les miens et je vous espère serai pour toujours. J'ai juste voulu que vous sussiez cela. Tout mon amour, Carter xxx"
She had absolutely no idea what it all meant but she guessed it was pretty romantic. She grinned to herself, she'd ask him what it all meant in the morning. All she wanted to do now was get into her bed with her fiance and not wake up until she had to.
She stepped into the bedroom and saw that Carter hadn't closed the curtains. She walked over to the window and looked out.
The moon was beautiful. She thought about who could see it, she guessed it was the same moon for all around the world.
It was the same moon that over the past hours, Susan, Luka, John and herself had all looked at. They all had love on their mind when they looked at it and that was all any of them needed to go on.
Susan leant on the railing by the river. She could see her's and Luka's apartment window from where she stood. She looked up at the window and saw Luka stood there. She smiled and waved at him. He didn't see her, maybe he wasn't looking, and maybe he wasn't even worried about her.
"No!" she said aloud then quickly checked around to see if anyone heard her. Of course no one heard her, it was just after 6am and only the odd French runner was up at this time. She realised that she was walking down the riverbank without even realising. She needed some space from Luka, just for a little while, just to figure out what she wanted, what she needed.
She looked down into the river; it looked so calm and easy. She wished life was like that, calm and easy. 'But it's not' she thought. There's always something, or someone, blocking the way to what you want. For her that someone was Luka.
Odd as it seems Luka was blocking her way. She wasn't sure if she even loved him now. It was weird; she had felt so in love with him until Abby rang. She's awoken an old desire she'd managed to hide in the back of her mind.
When Susan went back to County she'd seen Mark but all the feelings she had for him had disappeared when she saw him with Elizabeth. But with Carter it was different. He was single when she first came back and she's proceeded to completely blow her chance with him.
She had lied to Abby, they did have chemistry and she knew it. It was Carter she was worried about; she didn't know whether he felt the same way as she did. It was hard to understand him, how he felt, what he thought. Only Abby could do that really. She was jealous of Abby now, not just because she was having John's baby and getting married to him, but because they had that closeness she'd always hoped for but could never have.
Susan stopped by a bench; she sat down and looked up at the moon. It was just starting to fade into the sky.
Back in Chicago it was just after 1am and Carter was at home waiting for Abby. Her shift finished at 2am but he couldn't wait up any longer for her. He had a double shift starting at 9am next morning and all the excitement of the baby and the engagement had worn him out. He wrote Abby a quick note and headed to bed.
He glanced out of the window as he got into bed. The moon was high in the sky, a full moon, shining a silvery grey between the clouds. It was beautiful.
Luka stood at the window. He'd seen Susan wave but he hadn't responded. He was angry with her. She'd just gone, he had visions of Danijela. He had a feeling he'd never see her again but when he saw her wave he knew that she wasn't leaving him and that she was ok. The feeling of fear turned to one of disappointment.
He loved Susan, or he thought he did. She was pretty, caring, loving, sexy, all the things he wanted. And best of all they were in love. He looked out of the window again to see Susan walking down the riverbank, he had an urge to go out and talk to her but he thought he must've upset her by not waving back.
He pulled a chair up to the window and looked out over the Paris skyline. He loved Europe, it was so beautiful and different to America. There was never the urgency or exaggeration like in the US. Everything was as big as it needed to be, not bigger. It was cool, but not cold like Chicago. And he really hoped Susan liked it here.
He thought about what Susan had told him about Abby and John. He'd grown to like John and he still loved Abby, but just as a friend now. He was happy for them both and he wished them the best with the baby and their engagement but he couldn't help but feel that Susan was holding something back. He wasn't entirely sure what it was, maybe she was envious of the fact that Abby was pregnant. The thought that she still had feelings for Carter never even entered his head.
He looked at the moon. It was starting to fade into the Paris morning sky. It was creeping behind a cloud but it looked wonderful.
Abby entered her apartment. She looked around, Carter wasn't there.
"Must be in bed" she whispered into the darkness. She flicked the light switch and walked into the kitchen. She put her coat over the back of her chair and yawned. She was about to head off to bed when she saw an enveloped labelled "Mrs J T Carter" she smiled to herself and tore it open. She sat down at the table and read the letter.
"Cher Abby, vous pouvez ne jamais commencer à comprendre combien je t'aime. J'ai vous ai aimé pendant longtemps, la première fois que j'ai vraiment réalisé étais probablement la nuit où je vous ai porté à la boule de charité au musée. Vous avez regardé si beau mais moi m'a connu ne pourrait pas vous avoir. Ce mal. Mais maintenant vous êtes les miens et je vous espère serai pour toujours. J'ai juste voulu que vous sussiez cela. Tout mon amour, Carter xxx"
She had absolutely no idea what it all meant but she guessed it was pretty romantic. She grinned to herself, she'd ask him what it all meant in the morning. All she wanted to do now was get into her bed with her fiance and not wake up until she had to.
She stepped into the bedroom and saw that Carter hadn't closed the curtains. She walked over to the window and looked out.
The moon was beautiful. She thought about who could see it, she guessed it was the same moon for all around the world.
It was the same moon that over the past hours, Susan, Luka, John and herself had all looked at. They all had love on their mind when they looked at it and that was all any of them needed to go on.
