This will be a multi chapter story. This is based on a Spanish song called "Llorar y Llorar" by Mau y Ricky & Carin Leon.


"Even if I wanted to stop loving you I will not be able to (yes). Even if with both hands I hold on to you I'm going to lose you, mmm If you say goodbye saying an I love you tell me in the bathroom so that the echo lasts longer So that all your friends And my friends don't see me cry"

Quinn POV

Hearing those first few lines and that raspy voice singing it was enough to stop me in my tracks. I turned around and saw the one person i had forced herself to never think about again and here she is on that stage with a left handed guitar a spot light on her and her head looking down as you could hear the pain and the emotions behind those words.

Flash back 6 years ago

"I'm going to do it, i'm not sure how or when but i will achieve my goal. I will have the studio and the career. Just watch me babe!" Santana said as she kissed Quinn and got ready fro her bartending job. All i could do was smile and nod. Santanas dream was to be famous and i have no doubt in my mind that she would do it. But it just seemed that i only believed in her and everyone else around us seemed to just not care.

"Why do you keep entertaining her Quinn?" Rachel asked as i walked into the kitchen of the loft they all lived in. "Why do you mean Rachel?" "I mean why do you let her believe all those things? She has been in that job for 2 years and has done nothing to work on her so called dream." It was true Santana had promised herself that she would only work at the bar for no more than a year as she saved money to get her career going.

"What do you want me to do Rachel? I know this is what she wants and she's not that girl that would party all the time and spend her money in God knows what anyone." "Well I for one think you need to giver her a wake up call. She is too busy fantasizing about something she's not even working on. Here you are about to graduate from Yale and soon starting Law School and you have the whole world ahead of you and it doesn't seem like she will be able to keep up with you in that life. I love Santana and i'm so glad we can be friends but i am only looking out for you Quinn she will only drag you down. What happens when you graduate and she still hasn't started on her dream, are you going to take care of her?"

I sat there thinking about what Rachel was saying and it made sense. We were all working on our goals and dreams. Rachel was on Broadway and Kurt was working for Vogue and constantly helping with runways. I was about to graduate from Yale at the top of my class and soon start Law School here at Columbia University (Santana didn't know yet but i was accepted and i was waiting to tell her.)

It took Santana and I the majority of our high school years to finally come to terms that we loved each other. But none of us did anything about it because of our pride. It wasn't till the morning after Mr. Schues failed wedding that we talked about what we felt and we decided to give "Us" a chance and it was a challenge thats for sure. But we have been going strong since then and she is the love of my life. But theres a saying that goes "You can't live off of love" and I know Santana is a hard worker but every time one of us brings up what she plans to do she always says the samething "I have it figured out, just trust me." but the thing is i need a plan and i need to know what the next move is and she's not like that she has this great faith in life and in the process and that on its own scares me.

"Okay babe, I'm leaving for work. I will see you tonight at Callbacks with the rest of these losers." She smiles and kisses me with such passion that it makes my hears skip a beat. She runs out of the loft and i sit there still thinking about what Rachel said. "I'm sorry if i upset you Quinn, but you have to also look our for yourself. Santana has a good heart but it seems that you're the only one that looks past her flaws and one of those is that she won't grow up." "It's fine Rachel i know you mean well and thank you for bringing it to my attention. I think her and i need to talk."

Santanas POV

It took everything inside of me to not walk out of my area and tell that hobbit off. Even if she tried to whisper she is still loud with that big mouth of hers. I hate that she put those thoughts in Quinns head. I know it may seem like i'm doing nothing but I have saved up money to be able to buy this small studio about 5 blocks from the bar and with the help of Puck and Dani we will be going into business together with me holding 50% and each of them with 25% since i'm the one coughing up the majority of the money. We just haven't told anyone till it's all settled.

Kissing Quinn as i left felt different this time, I wanted to show her i loved her and she's safe with me with that kiss, but something felt different.

"There you are! We thought you'd be late." Puck said as he gave a hug "Don't even joke like that ass hole, you know today of all days i'm ready" I say as i hug him back. "I'm excited that we are doing this! This is going to be a new chapter in our lives and it's going to prove all those who doubted us wrong." I smile as i hear Dani say those word because it's true everyone around us has doubted us three in our goals and dreams and we know it will be hard work but it will pay off, we're 20 years olds and we have the balls to do this without anyones help.

"Okay so as soon as you as you sing on the red line Ms. Lopez the studio is yours." My hand is shaking and I feel excitement and nerves at the same time. But this is the start of the dream and the goal. "Congratulations it's all yours and I wish you nothing but the best in your future." "Thank you so much Brian for all your help and patience with us." I say as i shake his hand and he hands me the keys. "It's ours bitches!" I scream and we all hug and high five each other. "Lets get to work!" Puck says as we look around our studio. It's nothing big but its a start. And all i can think about is that i can't wait to bring Quinn here and show her.

We clean the studio for a bit and then i have to head to the bar to at least clock in a few extra hours. See today was my day off but i needed to get this done and i could always use the extra money. I don't want to keep depending on my parents for money even though i know they would have just handed it to me. I want to be able to do this on my own and prove to Quinn that i can also support her and take care of her. I want to make her my wife. But i also have a surprise for her but that will be given to her later tonight.

I get to Callbacks a little after 10pm and i look for all our friends and I see Quinn and Rachel in a very intense conversation and honestly I hope that hobbit hasn't been filling my girlfriends head with her stupid ideas because if she does i will kill her. I go straight to the bar where Puck and Dani are talking about the studio and all the things we have planned. I grab a beer and we make sure to not be too loud so we won't ruin the surprise. Blain and Kurt walk in and we all say our hellos and go sit on a booth and just chat. Quinn and Racheal approach us and we all start to talk about our day.

"Are you okay?" I ask Quinn as she sits next to me "Yeah, but we need to talk. I have to tell you something." She looks serious and I put my beer down and as her to go with me to the restroom. I make sure theres no one in there and i lock the door. "What's going on babe?" "Santana what's your plan?" "What do you mean? You know the plan. You attend law school and become this hot shot lawyer here in New York and i get the recording studio and get my music out there and become an artist. We've talked about this millions of times babe. Why is it being brought up again? Did the hobbit say anything?" "Stop calling her that and yes she brought it up to my attention that you talk all this big game about what you want to do with your life and you do noting about it. You still work at that stupid bar and haven't tried to even get a job in a studio." "Because i don't want a job, I want to own my own studio and produce my own music. I don't want to be coffee grabber for anyone else and you know that!" "And how is that going to happen? You can't possibly be making millions at the bar! How will you get the money to start your own production company? Or wait are you going to wait till i become a lawyer and expect me to pay for it? is that the plan Santana?!" I'm not sure if it was the hurt in my face or the shock that made her realize what she just said but i was stunt "Oh my god babe i'm so sorry i did not mean it like that" "No it's okay i know what you meant Quinn. Look if this has been bothering you for this long why didn't you say anything? and most importantly why would you speak about it with someone else that's not me?" "I'm sorry Tana, i just worry and Rachel brought it up today and she made some valid poin-" "I am sick and tired of that nosy ass bitch getting in between us! She always has something to say but doesn't have the balls to say it to my face! Not everyones life is planned out to a t. We all go through life differently for fucks sakes I'M YOUR GIRLFRIEND not HER! You should be talking to ME about this." We both look at each other not wanting to back down.

I finally speak up"If you think i'm going to take your money then you're wrong." "Santana you need to be realistic with yourself and realize that you have to have more than a dream in order to start a business like that. You don't even have a college education to be able to guide you." "Seriously Q? A college degree? So just because i'm not in college like you i'm worth less then you and your ivy friends?" "That's not what i meant and you know it. But yes you need to at least have something under your belt to be able to get you those opportunities." "So what? You were just going to drag me along till you got tired of me and found someone better? Someone with a college education? That's low Q even for you." "Listen Santana I love you more than anything but i can't stand here and watch you throw your life away and not do anything about it. You can't live off of a dream and sometimes love isn't enough." "What are you saying Q? Be honest." "I'm going back to New Haven tonight and I'm going to give you the time you need to figure out your life and what it is that you're going to do." "If you walk out that door Quinn without us figuring this out tonight, it means we're done." She turned around and looked at me one more time and said "I love you" and with those word she walked out and I could hear the words echoing in that restroom.

All i could do was hold that key to the apartment I had also bought that's above the studio. The first apartment that would be ours but i guess now was only mine.