Hi, this is Crimcram here. I'm here with a new fanfic. Just so you know, I don't own Honkai Impact 3rd. Mihoyo does.


A lone grave stood outside of the base. In this harsh desert landscape of the state of Utah, a lone girl stood in front of the grave. The girl's jacket blew in the breeze. She clutched a bouquet of camellias, forget-me-nots, and gladiolus close to her chest. The girl knelt and ran her hand across the name etched on the gravestone.

"I'm sorry I didn't get to visit you these past few days." The girl placed the flowers on the grave and sat in front of it. She pulled a small flask out of her pocket and opened it. "Cheers." The girl took a sip and gagged.

"Oh… how the fuck were you even able to drink this?" she said, almost spitting it out.

The girl's blue eyes rested on the grave as if she respected a response. She sighed. "I don't know why I do this. Bronya, Seele, and Class Rep said that this would be therapeutic for me but… all it makes me feel is guilt."

"Oh right, I should update you on everything that happened since I only got around to building this grave. Sorry for not doing it sooner, I didn't exactly slow down after it all went down." The girl closed her eyes and let out a hollow laugh.

Again, the headstone stood there, a silent listener to the girl's outpour.

"I bet you're wondering where Mei-senpai is. Well, she's gone. She joined our ancestry in the war against the Honkai. Class Rep told me not to go near him because he could swat me like a fly," she said.

"I miss you. I miss you so much… so why? Why did you sacrifice yourself for someone like me? I lost dad, mom, and now you too," the girl screamed at the gravestone. "You were the last family I have left and now… and now…" The girl clenched her fist as she curled in on herself and began to cry. She had promised herself she wouldn't cry but pain was still raw, no matter how long ago it was.

After a few minutes, the girl leaned back and let out a long-winded breath. She sniffled and began wiping her eyes. "I told myself I wouldn't let you see me cry. I told myself that I would prove to you that I'm grown up. That I became the strongest Valkyrie for the two of us and that I stopped the Honkai… but the truth is, I'm still scared of it all. Everyone around me just seems to throw their lives away… Are all of our victories pointless?"

Again, the headstone did not speak.

"I'm tired. I just want it all to end but I can't rest yet. Sirin is still trying to wake up. More Herrschers are being born and Schicksal and World Serpent are still out there. But I guess I should talk about happy things right?" she smiled at the headstone.

"I finally met Seele. She's nice. I think she and Bronya were from the same orphanage," she said, placing her finger on her chin. "I can't really remember. The girl has a real sweet tooth. But I didn't know that she liked spicy food too so I'll go find the most authentic Szechuan restaurant in Utah for her."

"Aunt Teri is also training those two berry-themed girls from Bratnya's old orphanage. The little brats have Honkai modifications. It reminds me of a certain someone," she said, letting out another laugh. This one had a bit more life to it, but it made it sound all the more bitter and cynical. Her eyes dimmed as she looked down at the small pile of dirt.

The more she looked, the more she remembered. And as the sun began to set upon the Salt Lake City Skyline, her mind began to fly to the moments of yesteryear.

Back in the days when she and the others were still wide-eyed Valkyrie students at St. Freya Academy.

Back when she could clearly remember that she had her standing behind her.

Back when she was still here.

And so, the girl, who lost everything, allowed herself to reminisce for the first time in a blue moon.

And all she could dream of was the warm touch of her hand and the sound of her voice.