Okay i know i have another story going but this one would NOT leave my brain so i had to type it out. If it doesnt pan out, then at least i got it off my chest.

This is the unplanned pregnancy between JJ and an OC that no one asked for, but i am posting anyway.

This is in a slightly AU to the series but does touch on some of the things that happened. It's based on the future and after high school.

This first chapters gets pretty smutty around the endish, so if that's not your cup of tea, i would love for you to stick around for the story, but you may want to skip over the middle section.

This is unbated, and all errors are my own

How did this happen? I mean I know how, but this wasn't supposed to happen. I hadn't planned it and it was an in the moment thing, something that felt right. Yeah, there was a lack of good judgement and a lot of alcohol but up until now I had been careful. I sat in the bathroom leg bouncing anxiously as I sat on the edge of the bathtub and held my head in my hands.

7 Weeks Prior

Walking up to the stage in a field surrounded by people I paused with the person in front of me as names were called one by one. Looking out at the crowd listening to the cheers I felt a sense of accomplishment. The last four years had been hell, getting to the point of graduating from high school after everything felt amazing. I had no clue what the future held for me, not sure what I wanted to do but right here and now I just wanted to enjoy this. Cap and gown on I took a step, butterflies swirled in my stomach.

I wasn't naïve I knew I wouldn't here a loud cheer as I crossed the stage. My mom hadn't been the cheering kind. She was probably floating on a Yacht with her, current this week, boyfriend from Figure 8 that would most definitely end in her coming home depressed until she finds a new sugar daddy. It had been that way my whole life. From the moment I was able to take care of myself she was gone. Days, weeks to months at a time, moving in with her rich mansion toting boyfriends, leaving me in a shit double wide trailer alone.

It wasn't all bad. There were good times, they were just scares and far between. I tried not to dwell on the rumor mill she created for herself. She was well known in the Figure 8 for gold digging, but she always found someone who thought they could reel her in.

"Kailynn Christine Evans." My name was called and took in a deep breath making my way across the stage. As the diploma hit my hand, I expected the typical clapping that is standard what I was expecting was the loud shouts and whistle from the student class. A little shocked I smiled and took the principals hand shaking it turning. There they were my real family standing amongst the seated students.

Kie was whistling loudly. After having been threatened with boarding school she had shown her parents that even if she was a Pogue, it wasn't a bad thing. Her father had been a Pogue and that was what she related with the most, which is probably why her and her mom butted heads, but they loved her and seeing her sit with all of us meant a lot. There had been several points that I didn't think she would be sitting here in an identical cap and gown. She had, had a Kook year where she did the Kook academy with Sarah and that had been… an adventure, but she was still Kie.

Pope was behind her a few rows. Still quiet Pope, but after finding out who his family was, and where he came from, his shell cracked, and he became so much more. He never got that scholarship but he did get another one after writing a paper about the cross, Denmark Tanny ,The Merchant, it had been a huge deal and brought a lot of historical interest to our small island.

Sarah was in the stands smiling from ear to ear. She had graduated at home from the Kook Academy. After everything with her father and brother, school was a lot, and I couldn't blame her. She had moved out of Tannyhill and into her own apartment. Rose and Wheeze had left after her father conviction in her brother cover up, which left Tannyhill to Sarah. She felt wrong about it seeing as it was Pope's ancestors' home but he wasn't going to take it. She still kept it up on the chance maybe someday someone will want it but for right now the wounds are still too raw. Her eyes were on me but floated to John B and I was happy for her and him.

John B had been put in a lot of shitty situations in the last few years. Losing his dad, being pegged for murder… he deserves to be happy and Sarah, she made him happy and that's all I could ask for. He had been one of my closest friends… a brother since third grade when he had met JJ and I. Since then, we had always taken care of each other. He had been there when my mom temporarily kicked me out, or left me with nothing, just as I had been there when his dad ditched with their rent or CPS came by.

The last person my eyes fell upon was the blonde hair, blue eyed, surf loving boy I had been friends with since I was six years old. Over everyone I could hear him yelling my name obnoxiously. He had the biggest smile on his face, and it made my heart skip a beat. He was my best friend, but I felt like I was in a stupid rom-com. The crush I had on him had only gotten worse with age, but the fear of losing him won out and my true feelings for him were pushed down to the deepest darkest corner, only coming out in small spurts.

Taking the diploma back to my seat when I sat down, I sighed in relief. I had heard I wouldn't cut it, wouldn't make it so much in my life that this small thing means everything. Not only did I prove all the naysayers I could do it. One by one I watched everyone I considered family walk across the stage. There were so many setbacks and events that could have ended each one of us, but here we were going through this milestone together, the way we started.

"Congratulations!" Sarah squealed meeting us outside the school. JJ may be my best friend, but Sarah was right there with him. If I couldn't talk to him, I would always go to her. Even with her in Figure 8 we connected pretty quick. Kie and I were cool, but her Kook year took a number on our friendship, and it was still a work in progress.

"Freedom!" JJ yelled cheering putting his arm around my shoulder and John B's. "Time to party!" I elbowed him in the stomach as the Carrera's came up as he spoke. He grunted in pain, and I had to stifle a laugh.

"We are so proud of you guys." Anna stated giving me a hug. I embraced her and soaked in the motherly comfort I some days longed for.

"Thank you." I state softly swallowing the lump in my throat. Over her shoulder I could see Heyward patting JJ on his back and Mrs. H giving John B a hug. The Heywards really stepped up for them, they both lost a lot.

"Is your mom here?" Anna asked palm on my cheek as we broke apart.

"No." Clearing my throat to hopefully make my voice stronger, I shook my headed and finally met her eyes forcing a smile, "She couldn't make it, something came up." I saw her purse her lips and analyze my response for any sign of distress.

"Well…" she gave me a soft smile, ''I'm sure she is very proud."

"Yeah." It was a struggle to keep from rolling my eyes. I doubted my mom knew it was graduation day if I was being honest. As she moved to her daughter, I caught JJ staring at me concern shown in his eyes. Shaking my head, I tried to ignore the pit in my stomach and focus on the celebration. Once we were rid of the parentals we crowded around the Chat.

"Party tonight at Tannyhill." Sarah stated

"Really?" I scowled at her. She sat on John Bs's lap and nodded.

"Yeah. That place has been locked up for the last year, what better way to bring it back to life than a good old graduation party." She smiled.

"Let's smoke some beers and drink some weed baby," JJ stated. I groaned from my place laying across the couch lead on his leg, my own legs hanging over the end.

"Pope gonna make it?" I asked looking at Kie before taking the blunt from JJs lips smirking at him as he scowled.

"Should, his early admission already was accepted so he doesn't have any excuse. I'll tell him he has to come, that it's a required social convention or something." Kie answered. Her and Pope decided they were better as friends after the stress of his family lineage was discovered, it was easier for her to be there for him without the pressure, and he could be himself.

"Let me know how that goes." I laughed taking a drag of the joint before passing it to JJ. Groaning as I stretched my legs, I stood grabbing a beer from the fridge inside and walking the long way around The Chateau to the dock. Walking to where the HMS Pogue floated, I sat down dangling my feet into the water before laying back closing my eyes. I graduated. I should feel happy, excited about the future, but when I started to think about it, I couldn't see much.

My mom had made a point a few times in her depression waves to tell me I wouldn't amount to much, and I could push it down but after a while I started to think she could be right. I had no direction, at least not right now. Lost in my spiral I didn't hear the footsteps coming up and when a body dropped down beside me, I jumped, jerking to the side and looking over.

JJ was sitting, arms around his knees looking out at the ocean, but I could see his side eye'd glance.

"I'm fine," I answer his unasked question and he scoffed and rolled his eyes. "What?"

"You can fool everyone else, but don't bull shit me." He shook his head before laying down beside me putting an arm behind his head. "When was the last time you saw her?"

"She called last week…" I answered quietly, "to let me know rent was going up and to make sure it was taken care of."

"Shit Kail…"

"It's not a big deal." I shrug avoiding his eyes. I shouldn't be complaining. JJ had his mom ditch him and his dad bail I had nothing to complain about. "It's a few more shifts at the country club and I start at the pre-school tomorrow."

"It shouldn't be up to you to work to pay for that shit hole… no offense." He said.

"It is what it is at this point Jay. No point in fighting it." I answered sitting up running a hand through my hair. "Which is why we are going to go party."

"You know if you need help…"

"Come on Jay… I don't want to bring the day down with my reality." I interrupted. "And I don't need any help, I have been dealing with this since I was old enough to get a job."

"You are so irritating." I groaned pinching his eyes and I just laughed.

"You love me." I said lightly. "Come on we have a party to get to."

By the time we had picked Pope up and made it to Tannyhill the house was lit up and the music was loud and raging. Kids were out on the lawn and filtering in and out of the large home, some stumbling and others were in full groping sessions. We quickly dispersed into the house. Grabbing a drink from the kitchen I got lost in the sea of people.

Everyone went off in their own directions and after a few hours the liquor made the stress of the future fade away and I found myself smiling and laughing with kids whose names I didn't know. I had lost track of John B and Sarah early on, Kie was off in the corner with a few other smoking, Pope was out on the lawn playing a game of beer pong, which he claimed was simply just physics. JJ I had seen around the corner down the hall, a red head in tow giggling. As much as it pained me to watch him flirt and hook up with someone else I was happy that he was enjoying himself. With all the stress of the last few years letting loose was definitely needed.

Several drinks later, I was in the center of the large living room surrounded by other kids moving to the bass of the music. Arm in the air I moved my hips as best I could with the music closing my eyes until I felt hands on my hips. I instantly tensed but didn't want to overreact, I could have fun too, so maybe dancing with someone wasn't a bad thing. I was grinding up against the person behind me just enjoying myself until his hands squeezed my hip.

"We could take this upstairs." the persons lips were by my ear, and it sent chills down my spine. Spinning out of his grasp I pushed hard at his chest, causing me to stumble back a few steps.

"Fuck off Kelce." I seethed.

"Oh, come on Kail don't be like that." He smirked reaching for my arm to pull me towards him. He was definitely drunk. "We could have fun."

"Let me go." I say through clenched teeth. Turning I tried to push through the crowd, but I didn't get far before he was right there. Spinning me around he smashed his lips to mine and despite my struggling he tried to hold me there.

"Bitch!" he cursed when I bit down on his lip and he shoved me away. The commotion had gotten Kie's attention, and she was quickly moving to stand in front of me as I was keeled over, hand on my knees spitting on the ground.

"What the hell Kelce." Kie exclaimed.

"The way she was out their shaking her ass… she was asking for it." He defended touching his lip.

"Excuse me?" I stated. "I didn't ask you to fucking touch me."

"Don't act all innocent." He said rolling his eyes. "Come on Kail. We all know who your mom is, why don't you show us what you inherited from her? The gold digger of Kildare."

"Fuck you." I seethed and from the corner of my eye I could see others starting to stare. Turning I wanted to just disappear. When I turned JJ was staring at me his concern for me instantly turned to anger at Kelce.

"Hey Kailynn, when are you gonna start doing your rounds in figure 8?" Kelce yelled, "I'm sure being young and the daughter of Amanda will pay well." I saw red, I could see JJ clench his fist, but I was faster I turned quickly and stalked towards him, and with out missing a beat my fist met his jaw. He was taken by surprise and was knocked on his ass, but he didn't stay there. He was up pretty quickly wiping her nose with the back of her hand. "The sooner you realize what everyone already thinks…" I was moving towards him again only to have a strong set of arms come around my waist pulling me back.

JJ pulled me back and pushed me towards Kie while he turned to Kelce. "I think its time for you to go." He stated.

"Oh, I think I'm gonna stay."

"You don't get it, that wasn't an option." JJ shook his head, "Look around you man, no more Rafe to protect you, no more Topper."

"It doesn't change that you Pogue don't deserve a damn thing." He shot looking around lifting his chin to everyone. The irony is that the party was filled with everyone not just Pogues, but that didn't seem to stop Kelce's insults. "You can't tell me you wouldn't bang her if you had the chance." JJ wasn't going to let him continue he was already in front of him just as I saw Pope enter from the side door rushing to help or stop the fight.

I was over it, I was done with the party, I just wanted to escape. I turned out of Kie's grasp and turned my back on the room.

With half a bottle of, whatever Vodka was in the kitchen, in hand I finally stumbled my way into an empty room. What should have been a fun night had been ruined by one comment from Kelce. Now… Now I just wanted to drink until I passed out and forget it all. I hadn't waited after Kelce ran his mouth, my hand throbbed but it was nothing compared to the gut punch his words had done to me. Shutting the door behind me I looked around the room, bed, dresser, vanity, and a large window. Slowly I pushed the window open and looked down at the party still in full swing below. Putting the bottle to my lips I sat on the window ledge and took a large drink, the liquid burned, and I cringed, closing my eyes and shaking my head.

Leaning my head on the back I listen to the bass from the music hoping it would drown my own mind as it spiraled. There was a knock at the door, and I glared at it taking another drink from the bottle ignoring the door. The knock came again, and I groaned.

"Fuck off!" I said but the door opened anyway. JJ came in tense, his fist clenched. He immediately relaxed and raised an eyebrow before moving towards me. I eyed him suspiciously, as he moved towards me glaring at him, daring him to say anything about what just happened downstairs. To my surprise and relief, he didn't speak just nodded to the bottle in my hand.

I was reluctant to give him the bottle. I wasn't possessive, but currently I wasn't looking to give up something I wanted to help me forget about the night. Taking the bottle, he sat on the ground below me lifting the bottle up to me after he took a drink. I moved from the window seat to the ground beside him and we passed the bottle between us in silence. Feeling more than a little buzzed I found myself starting to laugh. In the silence of the room, with the bass of the music below I was the only sound in the room.

"Here I was stressing about my future and turns out I can just go into the family business." I was still laughing but it was more cynical. "My mom's laid the foundation, turns out I will just follow in her footsteps… problem solved."

"Kail, you know that's not true." JJ's voice came out with a tense sigh.

"Who am I kidding Jay," I rolled my eyes leaning my head back with a groan. When he didn't respond I started to feel guilty. "Party's downstairs. No reason for you to spend your graduation night with my drunk ass drowning my sorrows in fucking Vodka."

"I would rather be up here." He stated, how was it he didn't even sound even remotely drunk? I knew he had been drinking long before me but here in this room sitting beside me, he was almost… sober.

"Yeah right." I snorted rolling my eyes. "A party full of free booze, weed and girls and you would rather be up here," he laughed, and I looked at him both surprised and a bit embarrassed. After a beat in time, I laughed along with him taking another drink from the bottle and laying my head on his shoulder. We fell into silence again and listen to the screams and laughing of drunk kids below us.

"You know what Kelce said wasn't true right?" JJ finally broke the silence. With a sigh I lifted my head off his shoulder and closed my eyes, the burning behind them coming back and I could feel the lump in my throat as I swallowed.

"It doesn't matter JJ." I said quietly finishing the bottle and moving to stand. Once on my feet the world tilted slightly, and I had to close my eyes before trying to move away from the window to the door. If I was going to continue talking about this, I needed more alcohol.

"Of course, it fucking matters Kail." He replied his voice angry as he stood to follow me. "He was talking out of his ass, pissed you wouldn't let him in your pants."

"He wasn't entirely wrong though." I replied stopped and shrugged begging for this conversation to be over. "My mom has made a name for herself, and as fucked up as it is, I am her daughter no one will ever see me as anything else. At this point why should I try to change their opinions?"

"Since when do you care what everyone's opinions of you are?"

"I've always cared." I turned to JJ nearly shouting tears burning at the back of my eyes. "Its always mattered, why the hell do you think I worked my ass off to try and make my own freaking name. but no matter what I do, I will always be her daughter… and Kelce just made that perfectly clear."

He still stood a few feet away from me but the anger in his expression softened. "For one night I just want to be… god I don't even know what I am because I have been so lost in her shadow. I don't know who I am supposed to be…"

"You are smart," JJ interrupted me and took me by surprise and made one-step towards me. "You are the smartest person I know, and I don't mean just book smarts, I mean yeah you are probably the only reason I passed all my classes and graduated but you are street smart, survival smart. There is no way we would have all gotten through the last four years without. You have taken care of all of us. You are selfless and funny and…" he stopped as he made a few more strides until he was right in front of me. He brought a hand up to my face pushing a piece of hair behind my ear.

My heart was beating wildly as in my drunk haze I could feel the heat radiating from JJ. I blamed the alcohol for my cheeks become flushed and my breath catching, but in reality, my long-standing crush on my best friend probably had a lot to do with it.

"You're beautiful," he stated, and it caught me off guard. He was close now and his voice was a low whisper, "and anyone who refuses to see any of that doesn't deserve you." I continued to look up into his cool blue eyes and held my breath as his hand moved to tuck a strand of hair behind my ear. I was waiting for the smirk, the shrug, the laugh, anything to tell me this was just JJ and his usual self, but it never came, and I found my eyes moving down to his lips. When I met his eyes, again I noticed his were no longer searching my eyes but were on my lips. Releasing a shaky breath when he met my eyes again, I saw the hunger and need that replicated my own.

We always had a way of reading each other's thoughts and this instance was no different. We collided, his lips claiming mine at the same time I dropped the bottle and brought my hands up and around to the back of his head pulling him towards me. I had already made it a good way to the door to leave, so with a few steps backwards, still connected to JJ's lips I was pressed firmly against the closed door. As he pushed his tongue between my lips, a soft uncontrolled moan escaped from me, and it only seemed to fuel the fire. His hands were on my hips moving smoothly under my tank top, the rough and calloused palms scraped up my sides, but I melted under them. My own hands were exploring down his naked chest, his button-down shirt hanging open from the earlier. My fingers traced lightly over every muscle until they reached the button of his shorts, my finger dipping just the smallest amount into the elastic of his boxers.

He groaned against my mouth and broke away from me, only to pull my tank top up and over my head in a quick motion. I was breathing heavily as I stared back at JJ, searching for any sign of regret, but it wasn't there, what I found was a desire, a heat. Our pause only lasted a second and then his mouth was on mine again biting and sucking on my lip, his body pushing me against the solid surface behind me. I could feel his erection hard through his short causing heat to pool down to my core.

His fingers traced down my sides sending chills down my spine and then his hands were under me lifting me up. I didn't need any further encouragement. My legs instinctively wrapped around his waist, his length now rub up against the sensitive place between my thighs, the friction from the clothes in between making the sensation stronger. He kept one hand my ass while the other moved up to cup the side of my neck pulling his lips away from mine, but they didn't move far, they trailed down my jaw and he sniped at the sensitive spot at the base of my jaw eliciting a gasp from me. Closing my eyes, I leaned my head against the door rocking my hips into him as he continued to suck and kiss down to my shoulder, around my collar, touching my throat and then to the valley of my breasts.

The friction continued until it was almost unbearable. JJ must have felt it to because he pulled his hand from my neck and wrapped it around my back as he pulled me towards him and away from the wall. I felt his grip squeeze my ass as he turned and walked me to the bed in the center of the room. My arms were around his neck the moment he pulled me away from the support of the door and I clung to him my tongue plunging between his lips. The hand on my back expertly unclasped my bra and by the time we reached the bed it was hanging loosely on my shoulders.

Leaning down with me still hooked around his neck he pulled me further onto the bed crawling over me. As he removed his hand from around my back pulling the bra off the rest of the way. If I was sober, I would be embarrassed to be this naked in front of my best friend, but here and now all I thought about was the lust I had for him and this moment. Towering over me he looked over me the hunger still in his eyes, it was a look he had never given me before, one I don't think I have ever seen him have but one I wanted more of. One hand moved over my stomach and took one breast into his palm kneading it before pinching at the nipple.

I gasped in surprise and pleasure moaning and arching my back. JJ took my lips to his again as he continued to twist and tug until his hand moved lower reaching the waist of my shorts. With a flick of his finger, the button was undone, and his fingers crept under the fabric and below my underwear reaching the most sensitive area. I made a sound I wasn't aware I could do as he rubbed at my clit, circling it running his middle finger around my opening before dipping it in.

"Oh God…" I moaned against his lips, and I felt them quirk up in a smirk as he added another finger, starting to pump in and out hitting the right spot to cause a tightness in my belly. He continued, his thumb running circles while his fingers moved in and out, his lips moving to devour mine. My already clouded brain was no longer focused on anything but the growing feeling inside me. Pulling his lips from me dropped his head to my ear, nipping at the lobe.

"Let go for me Kail." He whispered and it was his deep, gravelly voice working with his fingers that sent me over the edge in a loud moan calling out his name. He rode me through my high until I was breathing heavily and felt like complete jelly, but JJ was far from spent, and I was far from ready to let this night end. My shorts were gone before I knew what was happening and JJ had removed his own moving again to crawl over me, but I wasn't ready to let him take control again.

Reaching my hand up gently around his neck my other on his chest as I pushed him over and rolled him so he was on his back. He seemed surprised at first but I tilted my head mischievously at him. Straddling him I lifted my ass and reached between my legs to find him fully erect and ready. Stroking him he groaned and threw his head back muttering a few curse words, which only encouraged me to go faster, my hand squeezing just enough for him to build up. Once I was satisfied with his torment, I placed myself over him, running my slick folds over him, continuing to tease him until his hands gripped my thighs. I was sure I would have bruises but I didn't care.

Meeting his eyes, I continued to hold them as I moved so he was directly at my entrance and slowly I pushed down. Fully sheathed I was shaking, and my breath was coming out in gasps. JJ reached around took control again rolling us, so I was again below him, all without pulling out from me. Slowly he began to pull out watching my every move, every twitch. Pulled almost completely out he slammed back into me. The action took my breath away, but before I could gasp or yell, he took my lips in his and smothered the sound. My tongue danced with his as he continued to move in and out. My hips met his urge the action to continue.

I could feel the tension build up again and I had to pull away the feeling almost too much. He nestled his head into the crook of my neck as his movements became more uncontrolled and wild. My climax hit me like a freight train my nails digging into his shoulders. He chased his own release with groans and rapid thrust before he reached his just as quick groaning into my neck his teeth scraping at the skin. Finally able to catch our breath he rolled off of me to lay on his back breathing heavily. I knew the feeling, and from my place beside him I felt his arm snake under my back before pulling me to his chest a secure hand running down my back.

With my head on his chest, I listened as his heart raced under his chest letting it slowly lull me into an alcohol and sex induced sleep. His lips brushed the top of my head, and I could have sworn he whispered something, but I was too exhausted both physically and emotionally. Right now, I wanted to stay in this moment, in a bed with my best friend, tomorrow I would live with the regret but right now, I just wanted to freeze the clock. Eventually my eyes fluttered closed.

It was a brutal awakening the next morning. I had left the window open last night and the sun was unrelenting in its rise above the coast and into the room. Grumbling, I went to pull the covers over my head only to realize there was an arm over my stomach. I froze and closed my eyes tighter. I had hoped it was a dream, a really good wet dream, that all the alcohol I had drank last night only resulted in me passing out. Holding my breath, I squinted my eyes open looking at the arm over my bare stomach, on its wrist sat a hand full of handmade bracelets I would recognize anywhere. Following the arm, I turned my head only a small amount to find JJ firmly cuddled up against my back his forehead resting on my back.

JJ and I had always toed the line of our friendship, tripping over the edge every now and then for the purpose of the other. He has been my fake boyfriend before to keep a Touron skeez off me and I had made out with him at a party before to keep Jenna Miller from cornering him, but that was always where the line was drawn, never had we gone this far. I wanted to blame the alcohol, claim to have been black out drunk… but reality was that I knew what was happening, I remembered everything and as much as the alcohol gave me courage and strength to push over my panic and fear it hadn't dictated my decision.

I wasn't sure why JJ had let it continue but I couldn't dwell on it and assume it had meant to him as it meant to me. I have had a crush on JJ since sixth grade, but I never let it show, I pushed it down not wanting to risk rejection or the loss of the best friend I could have and needed. He was always constant in my life, even when we were fighting, he never abandoned me, when my actual family had he was there, I needed him but wasn't so sure it was a reciprocated feeling.

Ignoring the pounding in my head I slowly slid out from his arm gently putting it on the space I had been laying. Quickly grabbing my clothes scattered around the room and quickly put them on before picking up my sandals I had kicked off at the door. Looking back at the bed JJ was still snoring softly and my heart felt like it was in a vice. I knew leaving before he woke up was a dick move, no one liked waking up alone, but I wasn't sure if he would want to know it was me, he had slept with, and I wasn't ready to look at the disappointment in his eyes.

Quietly stepping through the house, it was a disaster, cups and beer bottles were littered over the main floor of the house, up the stair and even out onto the lawn. I felt bad for the housekeepers and lawn care people today, but at least I knew Sarah paid them well. Struggling at the step to slip on my sandal I squinted up at the sun with a groan. My stomach rolled and head spun but it didn't change that I still had to work my way home.

Crossing my arms over my chest I began the slow trek back to the outer banks. My mind kept flashing memories from last night, of JJ, his intense stare, the feeling of his hands, his lips… my strategy to push my feelings down, to ignore them and skate by in hopes that they would disappear was no longer going to work. I had slept with my best friend, and it was everything I had wanted and hoped for and everything that I was scared of.

"Kail!" someone called, and I froze hearing the tires on the gravel pulling up beside me. Turning I saw a familiar jeep and a blonde hair kids stick his head out the window.

"Hey Topper." I sighed squinting up at him.

"You look like you had some fun." He smiled. Topper had come a long way from the asshole obsessed with Sarah. He had even help us out during the whole murder trial. At some point he realized him and Sarah weren't going to happen and realized his friends were dicks. I hadn't seen him much but every now and then he shows up and hung out with us on the surf.

"Yeah so much fun." I rolled my eyes before groaning.

"Where's your truck?"

"Shit finally broke down." I said stuffing my hands in my pocket. "JJ's gonna see if he can bring it back to life."

"Need a ride?" he asked, and I chewed on my bottom lip. "Come on Kailyn you really planning on walking to the outer banks with a massive hang over?" I gave in pretty quick with him putting it that way. Jumping in, he took off down the road. Closing my eyes, I let reveled in the cool breeze that washed over my face. "Congrats on graduating."

"Thanks." I mumbled opening my eyes and resting my cheek on my palm, elbow on the open window. We drove through Figure 8 in silence and eventually he turned into the Cut and the houses quickly changed from life of the rich and famous to run down fish shacks and trailers. "Thanks for the ride, probably saved my head from exploding." I said stepping down and shutting the jeep door.

"Any time." He stated leaning out the window looking from me to the run down, unkept trailer behind me. "Your mom home?"

"Fat chance." I rolled my eyes with a sarcastic laugh.

"What Kelce said…" I saw the regret and remorse in his eyes and shook my head putting my hand up to interrupt him.

"You don't need to apologize for your friends idiocy." With that, I turned on my heel and up the steps to the worn wooden door of my house. I heard his jeep pull away as I unlocked the door and walked in. The dimly lit room looked the same as I left it. I did my best to keep it livable, my mom rarely stayed here, when she was here, she complained about everything and when she wasn't I was on my own. Sighing I picked up the mail that had been slid under the door and filtered through them. Bill, bill, junk mail… nothing worth getting excited about. Tossing the mail to the counter I walked back into my room and quickly stripped out of my alcohol and sweat covered clothes and jumped into the shower.

I desperately wanted to wash away the night before. I had been an idiot and hadn't stopped, I wasn't blacked out, I could have said no… why hadn't I? I was lost in thought until the water went from warm to cold indicating the hot water was gone. Quickly getting out I dried off and changed into a pair of jeans and blouse for work before flopping on my bed groaning as the movement made the pain behind my eyes worse.

My phone buzzed from its spot in the kitchen, and I slowly moved to grab it. Dread washed over me when I realized it could be JJ and I still wasn't ready for that conversation. To my relief it was Sarah and I smiled collapsing on the couch before answering it.

"Hey sunshine." I said into the receiver.

"Hey." I could hear her smile through the phone and damn it all if it wasn't contagious. "We are all headed to the Chateau for breakfast slash lunch to soak up all the alcohol from last night."

"I have to work today." I sighed.

"It's literally the first day of summer, why the hell are you working?" she questioned but I knew she wasn't really looking for an answer, it was a rhetorical question. She knew why I worked as hard as I did and as much shit as I got for it, she supported me. "Well come over for a bit and then I'll take you to the school." If I said no, she would know something was up and either come over or send John B, if I went I risked the unwanted conversation with JJ… at this point it was a catch 22.

"Yeah Ok." I said quietly rubbing my eyes.

"Everything okay?" She asked concern laced in her voice.

"I'll be there shortly, I gotta lock up." I ignored her question and hung up. Just as the call ended a text came through from JJ and I held my breath.

Jay: Hey

I choose to ignore it while I quickly got ready to leave. As I headed out of the trailer my phone buzzed again.

Jay: Are you headed to John B's?

I groaned as I stared at my phone and started the walk to the Chateau. Where my house was inland I had to walk through Kildare and past the boat yard before I reached the Marsh, but I didn't mind the walk. Finally arriving let myself through the screen door of the porch and fell onto the old couch, throwing my arm over my eyes.

"That good huh?" Pope chuckled at me from the chair.

"How many times now have I said I will never drink again?" I asked lifting my arm to squint at him. I watched as he exaggeratedly started counting on his fingers and pretended to think hard on the question. "Forget I asked."

"Whats up party animals!" John B called loudly, and I groaned loudly tossing a towel that was on laying below at him.

"Shut up!"

"What did someone have a bit too much?" John B laughed and I simply flipped him off as a response. Sarah moved passed him towards me tossing me a paper bag which smell very much like something fried. Sitting up and mouthed a 'thank you' to her and she smiled sitting on the porch railing. "All seriousness though Kail, I heard what Kelce said, I'm sorry I wasn't there."

"Why?" I scowled stuffing a fry from the bag into my mouth. "Honestly, if you would have been there it wouldn't have changed what he said, or that I kneed him in the nuts."

"I know but you don't deserve any of what that asshole said." He said frustrated leaning on the railing next to Sarah.

"Its bullshit that people make all these assumptions based on our parents…" Sarah stated quietly, and I felt a pang of guilt for what she has had to go through. Her brother murdered Sheriff Peterkin and her dad covered it up and tried to bribe his way out of it. They were gone but everyone knew. The slam of a car door pulled our attention to the side of the house where two people joined us.

"Well look who it is." Pope said with a smirk. "Hey sunshine how you doing?"

"Where'd you find him?" John B asked as Kie and JJ filed onto the deck. Instead of making eye contact I decided to take advantage of my hangover and cover my face.

"Coming out of a room upstairs." Kie answered and I could feel my heart clench at the realization that I had been in that room too.

"Who was she man?" John B asked and I peaked out from under my arm to see JJ's response. Hands stuffed in his pocket he shrugged moving towards me. He caught my eyes but only held my gaze for a moment before grabbing my legs from the couch and pulled them up so he could fall down next to me, placing my legs over his lap. "Oh come on dude, rumor has it you disappeared basically all night. She had to be one hell of a girl."

I had to bite my cheek to keep from groaning. My cheeks I knew were flushed and I was thankful of my arm still covering my face.

"I don't kiss and tell." JJ said, his voice was rough, like he had just woken up, or had smoked to much in one sitting. "Honestly not sure anyway, I was pretty messed up last night." I could have sworn my stomached turned and the little amount of food I had eaten was about to makes its way back up. My heart physically hurt. Whether he was playing off or truly was blacked out, it hurt to know something that meant so much to me could have been nothing. Even though I recall everything about last night and for him it may have been a blur.

Although his possible amnesia would help to make pretending like nothing happened and going back to being just friends easier… it wouldn't make it easy to push my feeling down again.

The other thing I needed to keep in mind was we had all been friends for years, hiding something like this from them wouldn't be easy and the smallest change in dynamic could set off a wave of question and jeering. Which is why JJ leaned forward over me grabbing a hand full of fries from the bag beside me I smacked it so they fell over mine and his lap.

"Get your own hangover food." I stated smacking the top of his hand again as he reached for a fry from my stomach.

"Come on Kail, sharing is caring." He smirked his blue eyes twinkling at me.

"Hmm, I'll keep that in mind when you refuse to share your stash." I rolled my eyes laying my head down again. Picking up the few stragglers from around us his hand rested again on my thigh, and I felt his thumb run lightly over it. It was a small gesture he always did when we sat together but now it turned up butterflies in my stomach. We eventually moved from the porch to the pier as John B and JJ worked on the HMS Pogue, that to be completely honest I was surprised still ran while Pope and Kie loaded surf boards onto the Twinkie.

"You sure your okay?" Sarah nudged my arm as we sat leaning on the railing of the dock our legs over the edge toes inches from the water.

"Yeah." I nodded with a sigh. "Long night… I'm gonna head out." I said standing. Heading down the dock I patted Pope on the back waving to Kie.

"Wait your leaving?" Pope asked confused.

"Gotta work," I shrugged.

"How? Its literally the first day of summer?" Kie questioned.

"Yeah for us… parents still have to work, so… the PreK does daycare and summer school through the summer." I state, "Plus it keeps food filling this fridge and the lights on at my house."

Turning on my heel I moved quickly around to the front of the house towards town.

"Hey Kail wait up!" I froze holding my breath when I heard JJ's voice behind me. My stomach was in knots when I turned to see my best friend running towards me. He paused in front of me and ran a hand threw his hair nervously. "Hey, um… I tried to reach you this morning."

"Uh… yeah I had to get home to change and you know…" my voice trailed off, not wanting to reveal to much if he didn't remember anything.

"Yeah, look last night…" he averted his gaze from me and looked back at the dock anxiously. "Are we good, I mean are we okay?"

"Yeah Jay we're good." I sighed turning to leave, trying to hide any disappointment I may have been feeling.

"Wait." He grabbed my elbow turning me towards him again. "We were both drunk and what happened… what…"

"We had sex JJ, its not the end of the world." I could see the internal struggle and it hurt to see that he was so unsure of what happened and how he felt. "Nothing has to change." There was something that flashed in his eyes that I couldn't place, but it was only there for a second before he nodded releasing my elbow.

"You're my best friend Kail I just don't want us to change you know." He said nodding. "Promise?"

"Yeah, I promise." I agreed giving him a hopeful smile before turning town the drive. "I'll talk to you later."

Seven Weeks -

This wasn't supposed to happen. I was supposed to be able to put the whole night behind me. Now staring at the three sticks on the counter all reading the same result I realized that couldn't happen. I wouldn't be able to ignore that I slept with my friend, because I was pregnant with my best friend's kid…

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