Hello guys. I appreciate all your reviews. I'm sorry it has been too long. All characters belong to Jane Austen and parts of pride and prejudice will be quoted.

Darcy POV


"I behaved badly"

"You always do"

I do? I behaved like a normally do…perhaps that was the problem…no,no,no I behave like father did, like a Darcy should always behave.

"If I do why have you never said anything?"—he accused Richard

"I did not know I was your governess, you have always been proud but it got worse once you became Master of Pemberley…"

"Stop! Fitz just tell us"

Richard rolled his eyes— "I believe he has to hear this"-he said to Georgiana who shook her head

—"After the story"

"Bingley came to me around the New Year's asking me to go with him in search of in Estate, his sisters were pressuring him and he had finally decided to take action. I agree of course I was proud of him for it. The idea was to visit different estates and see the land before leasing one but Bingley does everything the wrong way. A few weeks after Ramsgate he reminded me and I couldn't say no. I went to consult with Aunt Helen if it was prudent to leave Gigi alone and she agreed it would be best to distance myself, that way you"— he said pointing at Georgiana— "Wouldn't feel pressure with my presence, everything was going well until the day before leaving for Hertfordshire. Uncle Edward sent for me and we had a fight"—He finish avoiding his sisters eyes.

"I know about the fight"—Georgiana said in a whisper.

"He told you!"— Richard said, perplexed.

They would have to talk with his Uncle. He specifically said no to his orders. The fight had been one of the nastiest one he had with anyone. Not even the one he had with his father because of Wickham. His uncle had crossed a line and he was going to let him know.

Darcy my boy, I do feel your Georgiana's, pain, but her actions could have and still can destroy our family name. The scandal will be devastating. We have to know if she's with child. If she is, we have to send her away and find her a husband immediately. If you are too afraid to ask her, I could persuade a physician to come see her. He could look for us and be gone with not a single word.

He had been enraged that his uncle would suggest such a thing. He had forbidden any doctor to look at Georgiana. No one would touch his sister.

"Did he call for the Doctor?"— Darcy asked angrily.

"No I believe Aunt Helen didn't allow it, but he waited a few days for both of you to be gone and he demanded answers from me."

"Georgie, what did he ask?"— Richard said, grabbing her hand.

"If George had touched me anywhere without clothing? If we had kiss? If we had been completely alone? If he had tried to take my maidenhood?"—She said with a pain voice.

"And?"— Richard asked.

Darcy hold his breath. This was something he should have asked because it was important and he stupidly never did because he was afraid of the truth. Perhaps that was his problem. He avoided conflict.

Georgiana took a deep breath and said.—"No. Yes. Yes. And no, though now I understand that he did made some comments regarding it"

"You let him touch you"—He yelled without realizing it.

Georgiana started, weeping loudly.

"Gigi, stop crying,"— he ordered.

"You're disappointed in me"— she said between sobs

"I'm angry at myself, at Uncle Edward, at Wickham. Disappointed at you, my dear sister you are a child so I cannot entirely fault you, but you understand between good and bad, you understand etiquette…"

"Why him, Georgie?"

"He was so charming and I couldn't…"

"Ah, I know,"— Richard said. He, better than anyone, knew what a charming man could do. He himself had been charming enough.

"No"— she shook her head. — "You do not know. Since the moment I showed signs of becoming a woman, I was taught that we should not show emotion. Our thoughts, our opinions our desires and needs should stay hidden. Aunt Helen always told me about the dangers of the world. But no one tells us that those dangers will knock on our doors, with a charming smile and a pleasant face. They warned us of rakes, but no one tells us what exactly a Rake does.

You have to be friendly, agreeable, sweet, but they don't warn you people might take advantage, women of our class are told nothing."— Angry tears running down her cheeks. –"When he arrived, he was oh so pleasant, agreeable and charming. I started feeling things I didn't understand but that I enjoyed."—She said blushing pressing her palms at her cheeks to calm the embarrassment.

Darcy took a sip of his Brandy. He knew his sister wasn't wrong. Women of the first circles are taught nothing. The more naïve they arrived to marriage the better, according to society. Georgianna was an example of how wrong that was. She wasn't the only one that had fallen to a charming smile. She had been one of the few that were lucky to escape.

"I'm sorry, Georgina."

"It's not your fault."

"I believe it is."

"I believe. We all have little to blame. Ramsgate happened and we cannot change it. We have to learn from it."—Richard said.

"That is why we here. But now my head is hurting. I know I forced you to this, but I need to retire."

She looked exhausted, pale and with dark circles under her eyes.

"We shall continue tomorrow" he said.

"Really." She said in surprise.

He sighed, the pain in his chest was too strong but if Gigi could talk about her misfortunes, then so could he.

"I believe I have to speak with someone or my bad mood well prevail."

She half smile. –"Well, goodnight. No more drinking, please."— And she left the room. He knew Richard wanted to speak with him, and both waited a few minutes in case Georgiana was listening at the door.

"Yes, Richard"— he said before his cousin lunged at him. They wrestle through the room for a while, knocking furniture, neither making any damage. Finally, Richard was able to shove him over the small table in the middle of the room, and he fell on his back near the fire.

"Really, Richard?"— He ground, rising to his elbows glaring at him.

"You're working piece of…"

" I know, I also feel like one."

"Elizabeth Bennett, you have been like this for a country girl with no fortune, no connections"— he spat.

"Drop the act. I know you liked her too"— He practically growled.

"I found her entertaining and pretty, but…"

"I love her."— He looked at him.

Richard returned the gesture, incredulous.

"I do. She's everything I have always wanted. Well, everything I didn't know I wanted."

"All your life you have been a proud, arrogant man. You have all the manners of the first circle. You like to remember everyone, their place in life. You look down at anyone you believe inferior. You rejoice in your uncle, the Ear, your uncle Darcy, the Bishop, your godfather the Marquess, of being one of the wealthiest men in England. You want me to believe you, Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy; master of Pemberley is in love with a girl of lower status. A girl who a year ago you would have considered beneath you that not a single gleans would have been given towards her."

Richard had not said his words with Venom just with truth, but Darcy could not help himself and assume his cousin was jealous. No. Richard loved the army too much. He could not afford having a wife with no fortune.

"I do. There is not a single day since I met her that I do not think of her. Im disgusted of the men you just described, I cannot believe I have let myself behave in such ways. I believe she fancied me, who would reject me Richard?"—Darcy laughed—"She did, she called me…"—Darcy shook his head.—"I cannot say them. She detest me, hates me even."

Richard pause and sigh—"What happened, Darcy?"

He shook his head.—"If I'm to say it tomorrow, I cannot say it tonight. It's too painful."— He said, going for the door.

"Are you going out?"— He eyes him suspiciously.

"No."

"You need to be more careful if anyone sees you go into those places."

"I don't visit pleasure Houses Richard."

"A mistress, then?"

"She's not my mistress. She's a widow; she cannot have any more children."

"Do I know her?"—Richard said trying to name all the widows of the ton.

"No, she does not visit London often."

"Does my mother…"

"Really cousin why do you care"

"Curiosity."— He said, rolling his eyes.

"My father and her husband did business in Scotland. Her husband died three years ago."

"She's old?"

"Really, Richard?"— Darcy said, shrugging—"She's seven and thirty, I heard she was in town and visit her, and you have your own acquaintances. Why are you bothering me with this?"

"I'm not. I have no right, but our stations are different"

"It's all right, Richard. Do not worry, no bastard children, no disease I abstinent most of the times"

"But you needed to forget Elizabeth."

"Miss Bennett to you and yes, at first I believe it to be carnal. I desired her so much it was painful. At Bingleys Ball, she looked like a goddess and wanted her for myself. It was until Christmas when I realized I loved her"

"How so, you give no sense of affection?"

Darcy sighed. He leaned on the door.— "I never allow myself to show it. I believed her inferior, on Christmas when we were all having dinner, I looked at my family, my Aunt and Uncle sharing glances, you and Henry discussing politics, I remembered my own parents. My mother loved Christmas. I felt lonely and I pictured her with us, with me at Pemberley. I realized I enjoyed more than her beauty, I enjoyed her wit, her mind, the way she gave her opinion, the fact she can talk of poetry, politics, farming, how stubborn and strong she has to be to endure her own family, how her smile makes her eyes shine, her beautiful laugh even though it was never directed at me. I denied myself that"—He said silently.

Richard looked at him with a small sad smile—"My god you really are in love"

"I really I'm, now excuse me, my head is throbbing"

Richard nodded in. Said he would retire in a minute.

He nodded and headed towards bed, Jenkins his valet was waiting for him.

"Goodnight, Elizabeth"— he whispered.

Hello, I know it been too long and it's very short but I just wanted you to know I'm coming back to this story.


One thing I did warn you was my that characters would be a little OOC so I'm sorry if you think this Darcy is horrible for having Sex with other women but I never really believe Darcy to be a Virgin. I think his aversion for Wickham was because he took advantage of the innocent.

Remember I do this for fun, be kind and please review.