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Hello everyone. I seriously should stop apologizing for not updating, I keep doing it.
Either way. This was the first one I updated in 2022 so it's the longest since I updated- oops!
Anyway, some things have happened in my stories since then.
I have written four Oneshots, one for Tracy Beaker, one for glee and two for Harry Potter. Although one of those last is in Swedish so most people reading this don't have to care for this. I have also finished the stories Game on! That was a the dumping ground- fanfiction for Epilepsy awareness. And with it I have finished five of the stories that were close to their endings.
A bit ago I was talking to my mum about writing for Epilepsy awareness, I wanted to start a new one and write something for a new fandom. And I told her that when I started writing I never had a plan with what I was writing, I was always "I want to write this and this and this" and never had a plan. Which is why I ended up with random, long stories. Nowadays when I start new stories I always have a plan… So then, I started another story for awareness which is written for Virgin River and is called "I could hate it as much as I want (but that wouldn't make it go away)".
Also, September 16th was four years seizure free- YAY! And I had another idea of something to write, that was a story for Cobra Kai and is called "Leaving the past behind to make room for the future"
So with new stories and stories I have finished. I have a total of nine stories finished and five that are almost finished. I also have riding on the wings of a dove and how they ended up in care that are nowhere close to their endings.
And I have absolutely no idea how much there is left of this story…
…"And I can see all four wisdom teeth are out here"…
While I laid in the dentist's chair with Dr. Winter next to me, I wasn't even sure whether he was speaking to himself or to me. Sure I had felt the wisdom teeth in each corner of my mouth. But before I was here I could always pretend like I didn't need to have them pulled out at a point or the other…
…"You're not having anything pulled out today"…He said at last, moving away from me and then turned to some x-ray pictures they had taken only a few minutes ago. "But… you seem to have an infection in your gum…" He pointed to something I couldn't even see. "Now it's very important you brush your teeth. Twice a day, two minutes for each time."…
It was only that I kept forgetting to do exactly that- I couldn't help it!
"I think we're done here for today now." In relief I took a breath while I sat up- slowly not to get dizzy. "But I will get you a receipt with your planned new appointments… The wisdom teeth in the upper jaw I think someone here will do…" Dr. Winter had returned to his computer screen. "The ones in the lower jaw I'm not so sure. They're stuck so deep and so much I think you might have to go to the hospital and a specific jaw surgeon for taking them out."
Obviously I had breathed out too soon! Now I was dizzy anyway but with nervousity.
"Okay…" I had to say I sounded like I was drunk, after the local anesthesia I had had half of my jaw and mouth I couldn't feel at all. "I'm kind of used to having all of those wisdom teeth there by now. So, especially if they are hard to get out. Wouldn't it be best to just leave them where they are? Really, I'm used to them by now. It will feel strange more than anything to have them taken out."
Well, I could always hope. Obviously, doctors wanted to get their money but maybe there would be some way at all…
"Those aren't bad ideas…" Dr. Winter said, but I knew that tone in his voice. "But it seems there is an infection of bacteria in all wisdom teeth. Possibly caries. And if those would reach the root of the tooth- and it probably be will sooner or later. You would be in exactly as much pain as you were when you arrived here today. And we can't let that happen. Can we?"
I couldn't remember ever being in so much pain…
But dentist's!
"Well. I think we are finished for today." Dr. Winter said, but I thought he had already said that about five times. "But… Well, you will get another appointment sent home to you to make that filling permanent in a six months, eight months, nine months or so. The letter about that appointment will be sent in a letter home to you."
I couldn't have left fast enough.
Reading through the receipt of today and the dentist appointments I had next made me want to pull all my teeth out at once. That would probably hurt less than needles and instruments anyway. The next time to fix a tooth that had been broken God would know how long ago was next week.
I hated this! I hated dentists! I hated the fact that I had always been so bad with forgetting to brush my teeth and now I was taking the punishment for it.
Hadn't everyone heard about how much it really hurt wen a hole in one tooth reached through the tooth and to the root? And how much it hurt to fix it?
I only had myself to blame…
As if I wouldn't have to return I half- ran down the stairs and out the door to the clinic before crossing a parking lot with the same, quick pace.
It hadn't hit me that this wasn't the door I'd taken when dad dropped me off a little while ago, when this dentist appointment was still ahead of me. And I didn't think I would have more appointments first thing that happened in the end.
I knew in which direction school was, but I couldn't think- and I knew what direction the road was from the door I had just left so it should take me straight to school. But something in the back of my mind that lead me forward must have known that the only place I hated more than the dentists' was school. Because half an hour later of walking down the street, up the street, right turn, left….
I suddenly realized I must be walking away from school….
At last I stopped, looked around and realized must have gone around the whole block I thought I had known the streets of and ended up back outside the dentists'
Random fact
Yes! That happened. I walked through the wrong door from the dentist and ended up walking around the block and back to the dentist.
