Hey everyone, happy Saturday!
Here's a little update of this story that I really hope you enjoy. Big thanks to my friend Sarra, who helped me navigate this chapter and capture the nature of these characters.
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Xoxo,
Nina
They were lying on the couch, his arms were tight around her as she slept soundly on his chest. Adam was tired as well, but he refused to close his eyes and miss this view; not only because she looked relaxed and at peace, but also because he was afraid of waking up and realizing that none of this was true, that maybe it was only a trick his mind was playing on him.
His left hand was softly running up and down her back, and he could have stayed like that all night if it meant her safety and happiness.
"What time is it?" Kim asked after stirring a little, her voice full of sleep and her eyes halfway open.
"Hmm, almost one thirty." He replied after checking his watch. Her living room was dark with the exception of one lamp which was next to the couch and Adam managed to turn on once Kim fell into a deep slumber.
"I'm crushing you, aren't I?" Her question was light and playful, causing Adam to smile.
"Not really. I love to have your body weight on me, always have." His confession tinted her cheeks red. She couldn't stop her head at the sound of his words.
He felt her muscles getting tense and realized what he had just said. "I didn't mean it like that. I was just trying to say that I'm comfortable around your body. Fuck, that sounds worse." He was incredibly nervous and Kim was having too much fun right now to put him out of his misery. "Bottom line is you're not crushing me."
"Why so nervous detective Ruzek?"
"I'm not nervous."
"You're not? Because judging by the dramatic increase of the beating of your heart, I could have sworn differently." Her head was still on his chest, finding his heartbeat soothing.
"Ok, maybe a little."
"Why am I making you nervous?"
"I don't want to make you uncomfortable, say or do something stupid. I don't want you to feel pressured by me in any aspect. I don't want you to think I'm taking advantage of you or this situation. I need you to please tell me if anything at all makes you feel bad or rushed, or…"
"Do you want me to tell you what I think?" Kim interrupted him, trying to ease his worries.
"Very much."
"Ok." She tried to sit up without hurting him. "I think you should stop worrying about that and just be yourself. I mean, it worked before."
"It's different now, Kim."
"It is. Now we know a whole lot more about each other. And while I might not remember every little last detail, I know, remember and feel all the important stuff." She searched for his hand and started to play with his fingers. "I know you love me, I know you look out for me and take care of me and always have my best interest. You spent nights sitting next to me while I slept just to be close to me, for god's sake." Kim noticed how his upper lip started to quiver and realized just how profound this was for him too. He was finally getting to release some pain, and his face didn't let him hide it. "How could I ever think you're taking advantage of this?" She got rid of the space between them and kissed him deeply, before brushing one hand over his forehead and pushing a rebellious lock of hair back. "I also know that I love you."
"Can you please say that again? You have no idea how many times I wished to hear your voice telling me that."
"I love you, baby." Their lips met again for a few seconds until Kim decided to pull back. "Let's go to sleep." She stood up and held her hand out for him to take, his hesitation forcing her to speak again. "Before you even think about suggesting it, the answer is no. You're not sleeping here. I want to fall asleep in your arms and wake up next to you. Can I?"
"Yes."
"Thank you."
They walked together to her room holding hands. She got her pjs and disappeared into the bathroom, letting him get ready as well. The clothes he used to have around her house weren't there anymore, so he thought his boxer and the white wife beater he had under his shirt was the best option. He didn't want to come across as disrespectful, especially after the way she fled to the bathroom to get changed.
"Adam?"
"What happened? Are you ok?"
"Yeah. Um, can you do me a favor?"
"Anything, darlin'."
"Turn off the lights, please."
"Sure." The request took him by surprise, she was a bit self conscious at times, but this was a first. Not even the first time they had sex had she needed the light off. He did understand though, this was a new start and it was nerve wracking.
"Thank you." She said softly and kissed his cheek.
"You're welcome." He moved closer to hug her and realized she was a little stiff. "What's wrong?" His whisper was a soft caress to her soul.
"Nothing."
"Don't lie. If you changed your mind and you want me to go, you can tell me. I totally get it."
"It's nothing like that. I meant every word I said."
"Then what is it? How can I help?"
"You can't help, really."
"Kim, you're freaking me out here. What happened?"
"My memory wasn't the only thing affected by the accident." She sighed. "I have this huge, horrible scar I don't want you to see."
"Belle."
"It's ugly."
"Nothing that is a part of you can be ugly."
"Oh, come on. Don't sugar coat it."
"Do you know what that scar means to me?" He got a little closer and moved his hand to her hip gently massaging it with his thumb, as she waited for him to answer his own question. "It means that you love me and Gracie so much, you were willing to give your all to protect us, to protect her and help her see her parents again. That scar represents the biggest and most selfless act of love I've witnessed."
Her eyes were getting watery and he was able to see that thanks to the glimmer of the moon and stars that crept through her window.
"I love you. I'm in love with you and every freckle, bump or scar on your skin. I get how this could make you feel uncomfortable, but babe, you don't have to worry about that."
The muscles of her body were slowly loosening up, and he took that as a cue to gently lower his hand and run his fingers over the lengthy scar that was now on her thigh. Kim flinched a little at the contact of his touch on her. "Does it hurt?"
"No, not right now. I just don't want you to be grossed out by it."
She was truly concerned about this and it devastated him to know that.
"Shh." He moved even closer to her and kissed her lips, as his left hand was still tenderly caressing her thigh. "I told you how I feel about this, and I'm not sugar coating it. I mean it." She scratched his beard as she took in his words. "Do you trust me?"
"Of course I trust you, Adam." She sighed when his lips touched hers again, and was disappointed when he moved his head back, not wanting to lose contact with him. He pushed the covers back and slid down a little to feather the skin of her thigh with the back of his hand. He broke the connection between their eyes to give full attention to that part of her body he was desperately trying to show he loved as well.
His lips on her thigh triggered a whole lot of sensations she didn't remember feeling before, like sparks running through her body that were accompanied by goosebumps covering her skin. As he made a trail of kisses over his skin, she shifted a little making him stop instantly.
"Am I hurting you?" He inquired in almost a whisper.
"No." She sighed out.
"Do you want me to stop?"
"No."
"Are you sure? I can stop, nothing has to happen tonight."
"I'm sure." Her answer came with a smile. She shut her eyes to the feeling of his sweet kisses on her scar, almost making her forget it was there to begin with.
Little by little his lips started to cover more ground. Although it was hard for Adam to pace himself, he was putting all his energy and willpower into it. He was ready to let Kim guide him and to stop at any given time. Tonight was all about showing her just how much her cared and loved her
Kim was letting herself go. Being so close to him and feeling his tender care was everything she didn't know she needed. As his kisses continued to pepper her thighs, her hands began to play with his hair, gently scratching the back of his neck making both of them feel so much comfortable.
He started to move upwards, making a straight line from her stomach to her chin, kissing over her shirt and finally reaching her lips.
Kim took over, intensifying their kiss and pushing her tongue that was desperate to find his again. By now it was clear to her that Adam was just following her lead and she trusted him completely to do that; she knew that he wouldn't rush her, she knew she was safe with him.
Her hands timidly found their way under his shirt, making her fingertips burn to the touch of his skin.
They were lost in each other, their kissing making them forget everything around them. Adam held her waist carefully over her clothes, he was still afraid to go too far too fast; but the path his lips were taking, that he couldn't control.
His lips slowly shifted from her mouth to her jaw and from her jaw to her neck, where he left little pecks trying to show her how much he cared and respected her, making her gasp and pushing his body closer to hers. Kim's hands were still running up and down his back, finally looking for the bottom hem and clumsily pulling it trying to take it off him. When she finally managed to do it with Adam's help, her hands decided they wanted to keep exploring him and traveled farther down to his hip, where she began to play with the waistband of his black boxers. The feeling of her finger gingerly grazing his navel made sparks run though his spine, but when her grip on the elastic became tighter and she slowly pushed his underwear down, Adam came back to his senses.
"Wait, Kim."
"What happened?" Her question was almost inaudible. The state of bliss she was entering was making it hard for her to speak.
"We should stop."
"Why? Adam…" She trailed off after pronouncing his name trying to get him to look at her. "I want this. Don't you want this too?"
"Darling, God help me I do. I just want to make sure that you"
Kim didn't let him finish.
"Baby," Her right hand cupped his cheek as she spoke into his eyes. "I'm perfectly fine. I haven't felt this good in a long time and I want this. I need this. I need you." Her head moved just enough to capture his lips, and started to melt in him again.
He allowed her hands to play freely with his boxers, as he gently began to wander over his girl's body, getting to touch her soft skin after what felt like ages.
Their clothes started to disappear one by one, they took their sweet time to accomplish the task, adoring their bodies and covering every inch of skin with sweet and tender kisses, they were in no rush.
Once the last garment was off, and there was nothing between them, Adam looked at Kim who smiled sweetly and nodded to him telling him everything he needed to know.
Becoming one again was the most exceptional sensation for them both. While Adam felt like part of his life was slipping right back into his body, Kim felt complete again. A few images running through her head warming up her heart. She knew what it was, new memories popping in her head.
His movements were soft, demonstrating his deep respect, care and love, but their bodies moving in complete sync, still managed to make sparks fly in the room.
Kim bunched the bedsheets in her hands as her eyes shut tightly and her body began to shake, when Adam took them both to their climax.
The feeling was indescribable to both. Sure they had been together before, but this was totally different. It was magic. It was pure love.
"I love you." She whispered to his ear when he collapsed on her chest.
"I love you too, Belle. I missed you so much."
"Me too, baby."
