chapter three
Chapter three here, sorry for the wait... I wrote it impulsively after watching 6x03 and needed a little bit of Marina's soft love
I don't own the characters and English isn't my first language, just having fun! I also know very little about medical stuff, so please accept my ipothesys
Carina had left Maya's room to look for the ob who had visited her, she needed her second opinion.
As she walked through the hospital she was picturing how the previous night had gone by: Maya had invited her over and prepped dinner because Andy had an overnight shift.
"Not like we ever really care about Andy being here, but I like just being the two of us" Carina stated as they were cleaning the table.
Maya smiled awkwardly at her, she had been silent the whole time, justifying herself by saying she was tired.
Carina shut the dishwasher off and grabbed Maya's waist, closing the distance between them; they shared a soft but passionate kiss and Maya let herself go. It wasn't long until they had moved to the bedroom. Maya was laying naked on the bed and Carina crawled on top of her, she started kissing her neck when she felt her body shiver underneath her, she looked in her eyes and saw tears. Maya was choking on her own sobs. Carina rapidly moved next to her and covered them both with a blanket.
"Hey… what's going on?"
Maya crawled closer to Carina but she stayed silent, still crying.
"Did I do something you did not want?" Carina asked.
Maya shook her head "it's not you, it's completely not you… I… I just can't handle to keep it for me anymore"
Carina was confused "What are you talking about?"
The blond moved a bit from the other woman to look at her in the eyes "I have to tell you something… I hope it won't make you too mad…" she looked down in embarrassment "I'm pregnant, I found out two days ago"
The brunette closed her eyes and started shaking her head slowly. A tear fell down her cheek slowly, she was brought back to a month earlier, that ugly feeling of betrayal growing inside her.
Maya was sobbing in front of her and took her arm "Please say something…"
"What could I possibly say?" She replied, with her eyes still closed.
"I don't even know what to do… I'm a firefighter I can't be pregnant and I… I don't wanna lose you… I love you"
Carina had left the bed and was looking around for her clothes, that had been rapidly thrown on he floor all around the bed.
"I'm sorry… Carina my love believe me… it's just since we've been together I stopped taking the pill and the condom must have broke…"
"Maya…" she sighted, she didn't even know what to say "I'm sorry, I… I will go"
And just like that she got in her car and drove aimlessly for twenty long minutes.
"Dr.De Luca, did you page me?" dr. Nelson called her taking her back to reality.
"Yes, hi, I wanted to know something about Mrs. Bishop"
"Yeah, are you on the case too?" She asked.
"No… sorry she is my girlfriend so I…"
"Oh, sorry you know I'm new here, if you girls are trying any artificial insemination could you give me some feedback?"
Carina shook her head "No insemination, she cheated on me with her ex…"
The other doctor gave her a shocked look "Welll, I did not see that coming… you know I could not say it…"
"I know I'm sorry, I'm not on the case, I shouldn't even be asking this. But that's a person I love and she's in pain… I checked her vitals and all her symptoms suggest a miscarriage, still from the ultrasound you can see the fetus and hear the heartbeat"
The other ob took a couple of seconds to think about it, but she gave in and trusted Carina "I was confused too, so I had her blood drawn"
"The only thing that might be happening is she was pregnant with multiples that have been absorbed, so we might be witnessing the passing on of those extra cells…" the Italian suggested.
"My thought exactly, I'm waiting for the results and, if it's this, we'll have to try to understand if what's happening it's just a coincidence or if there's something wrong also with the other fetus. She might be here a while…"
"Okay…" Carina said breathing heavily, destroyed by the thought of Maya being in pain "thanks I… I need a little space, I'll meet you back at her's"
And just like that she went to her office, having in a few minutes the last appointment of the day. As that ended her brother knocked on the door. He was there because he saw Maya had been admitted in the er and Carina finally let go all of her emotions to him. Maybe it had been the language barrier, but with him she was finally able to express her feelings: she felt betrayed but she was mainly worried about Maya not being okay, still she could not quite handle being with her, but could not forgive herself about leaving her alone.
Her brother's suggestion was to follow her gut, and her gut was telling her to go and support somebody she loved who was hurt.
"Allora vado" (Then I'll go) Carina said.
"E vai!" (Go come on) he replayed.
"Ti voglio un mondo di bene" (I love you)
Carina knocked on Maya's door. It had been almost an hour since she had left but apparently dr. Nelson still hadn't come by.
Andy was still next to Maya.
"Sorry I had a patient. How are you feeling now?"
"The meds kicked in…" Maya replayed "I… I guess I'm no longer in pain, but they have been doing a thousands tests"
Carina nodded slowly and tried to walk closer. Andy took the hint and got up "I'll go get some coffee. BRB"
The room stayed silent for a while "what's happening to me, Carina?"
The doctor took her hand "I can't talk for sure, we don't have your lab results yet but… what we saw was a healthy baby, still you are presenting the symptoms of a miscarriage. What I think is that you were pregnant with multiples and one got absorbed… we don't know"
Maya shivered "So what should I do to feel better?"
"Well the pain is caused by the fact that not everything was absorbed and your body is rejecting it… so we'd go in surgically and get everything fixed off, but that's not what i'm here for"
A tear dropped on Maya's left cheek "What are you here for then?"
Carina wiped the tear off with her thumb "I'm here for you, yesterday I was mad, but I can't be mad at you when you are in pain. I already forgave you so… I'll stand by you"
The blond's shoulders relaxed on the bed and she smiled for a second.
"However what I told you this morning still applies, that you'll make up your mind and then I'll choose my, i don't know, my role in this situation"
Maya sighed, but she understood Carina's point of view; she knew she loved babies and wanted a family in the future, but she couldn't be expected to accept this whole situation at the drop of a hat.
As they were talking dr. Nelson finally came in
"Oh hi dr Deluca" she greeted "Hello Mrs. Bishop, so your labs came back and, as I suspected, you were pregnant with twins but one was absorbed. I believe it was just a coincidence, but still I can't rule out completely the fact that there might be an issue that might affect the other fetus. I don't want to scare you off, I just have to let you know that, until the end of your first trimester at least, I want you to be on active rest."
Maya sighed again, this time in disappointment, she couldn't afford to put a pause on her career.
"What we are going to do now is put you under local anestesia and 'clean off' any residue that is making you sick. If you think you don't want to go along with the pregnancy I please to let me know now; because I want to stress your body as little as possible."
Maya didn't speak, her face was pale, even if Carina had already explained her the whole thing she was still in shock.
"I'm sorry, I don't want to upset you, I just have to let you know all your options and you don't have to choose right now, I only ask if your sure so that I can avoid you unnecessary procedures. Now, we have to wait for a room to clear so it might be a while." The patient was still silent and, in a different situation, dr Nelson would have stayed longer to make sure she had understood, but she shared a look with her colleague and decided to leave, giving the two of them some time.
"Hey" Carina asked onde they were alone again.
"Did I do it? Was I too stressed and caused this to happen?"
"No you did not… it just happens sometimes" Carina explained to her chuckling softly.
"And it can happen again?"
"It might, but we don't know yet. Don't stress about it."
Maya nodded "I don't know if I want this baby though"
Carina swallowed down a gasp.
"It's just… I don't know if this is the situation to bring a child in… I don't think I'd be a good mother and it would change my life completely… a baby shouldn't carry the blame of it" the blond did all of these statements taking long breaks. In those breaks her thoughts flowed fast and the silence was unbearable, she then sought Carina's eyes "But still… I think you would get away from me in any case… would you still love me if I made you stay in a family with Jack? And how would you feel if I didn't have this baby out of selfishness?"
Carina caressed softly Maya's hand with her thumb "Hey… hey calm down, first of all I would never judge you for making a choice about your life, I would be mad if I knew you were lettering yourself be affected by someone else in such an important decision. I'm sorry that what I'm about to say won't help, I'm perfectly aware but I cannot lie to you, there are somethings you can control and some you can't. You have control over the decision of becoming a mother or not, but you cannot control my reaction, and I'm sorry but right now I cannot assure you anything… I can tell you that I will support you as a person who loves you"
"Okay… I think I need i few minutes alone, but I'll need Jack before my surgery"
Carina got up, she felt a little anger growing in her, but realised immediately Maya was right, the only problem was that her reason did not agree with her impulses.
Review, review, review, what do you think will happen? Let me remind you that we are dealing with season 3 Maya...
