Hello, long time no see. I didnt plan for this to take so long, but life gets in the way. I would be very happy if you would tell e what you think about this chapter.
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All I could think about were Kate's lips and what she was doing to me with them. Her style of kissing was different from Tanya's, she was more demanding but also more playful. She would bite my bottom lip occasionally, making me moan, which I could assume was her goal. It didn't take long for our kiss to become a full blown make up session. That could only end because my need for oxygen, that stupid oxygen.
Kate understood my need, and slowly started to break off our kiss. At which point I opened my eyes only to see the most precious look on her face. The adoration was clear in her eyes, as was the lust, which I assumed could also be seen in my eyes. She smiled at me, a million-dollar smile that I could never get tired to see.
I couldn't believe that she was mine, only mine. All the time that I spent worrying about my attraction to her, she was mine. It was so surreal. My brain was still trying to process all the things that they said to me, but my heart was not letting me panic or fear them. This feeling was the right one. They were the right ones for me. For the rest of my life.
"I can't believe this is real, that you are mine," I told Kate, caressing her face, which had her lean more into my hands and closing her eyes. Not long after I could hear a faint purring sound, at first I was a little taken aback, but then I realized that it was coming from Kate. And it was getting louder.
"Are you purring?" I asked her in a teasing voice, not expecting that. "Should I start calling you kitten?" at which she let out a little laugh. I could see the happiness in her eyes, which made me feel like I won a lottery.
"You said I was yours," she told me, giving me an answer to my question, not that I completely understood how that answered it. "And just so you know, I am no kitten, no, maybe a lioness," she said teasingly.
"Whatever you say my little kitten," I said, fully laughing at this point. I could see her personality come out, and I loved it. This is what I wanted.
"I will give you a kitten," she said in a fake offended voice and started to roar like a lioness pretending to bite my neck while I tried not to pee my pants with laughter and trying to get out of her grip.
She would have continued to mess with me but my stomach started to make itself known, and now that I felt it I realized how hungry I was. Kate also heard it and stopped her attack on me. She seemed reluctant to release me from her arms.
"Kate, she will not disappear, we need to feed her." At the sound of Tanya's voice I turned to look at her, my mind was so focused on Kate that I forgot that she was in the room. I felt really bad because of that. But like she read my mind she said, "Do not worry you have all the right to enjoy your time with Kate, do not feel guilty", and then with the smirk said "I doubted that Kate still has her charm in her, poor thing." I let out a laugh, my mind calming down from my worry of how this will all work. But I still needed to talk to them about it. But first food.
I started to move so Kate let me go and I decided to go to Tanya, so I could kiss her, feel her, I know that this whole thing wasn't easy for her, she was worried that I would run from them.
She opened her arms for me and I kissed her, trying to let her know that I wasn't going away, she had me.
"I love you so much," she told me. "Never in my dreams did I think that I would deserve a mate like you. So strong, so beautiful. Thank you for giving us a chance and staying." I knew that she meant everything that she said.
"How could I not, when you have my whole heart. I love you too," I told her, giving her a little peck, and taking her arms and turning toward the door, when I noticed that Kate was not in the room. In a matter of seconds my emotions changed, a piece was missing, and my heart was screaming to me to find it again.
"Do not worry, she went to the kitchen, to start to prepare you a breakfast" Tanya told me, again reading my emotions so clearly. And it started to get a little freaky, I put that on the list of questions that I needed to ask them.
We got to the kitchen and Kate was indeed there, preparing me food and I could feel myself relaxing again. Both of them were near me and that seemed to be my top priority in life. Well, you won't hear me complain.
Before I could sit at kitchen island, Kate had already put the plate in front of me, two big turkey sandwiches with lettuce. I could just murmur "Thank you" before devouring those sandwiches. I didn't realize that I was starving, maybe all this stress was doing its damage, but I felt like I could eat ten more. My mind was so focused on food that I didn't even notice that Tanya put orange juice in front of me and that Kate was preparing another sandwich for me, which was devoured quickly as the first two.
Only when I finished my feast did I lift my head up, they were on the other side of the island, watching me like I was doing some sort of performance. "What?" I asked them.
"We do not know much about human habits, but you literally inhaled those sandwiches in 2 minutes," Kate said in wonder. "Do humans really become this hungry? I mean you did eat yesterday in the evening." I could tell that she actually wanted to know.
Now that she said that it made me think, I usually wasn't this hungry, not that it would seem that I was starving. But the past couple of days were very emotionally draining so it wasn't strange that my body demanded more.
"Usually not, I do not act like I was starving for days but I think that all things that happened yesterday and today made my body want and need more. Humans do depend on their food quite a lot," I told them, the last part in a playful tone. But I could see that my statement worried them.
"We didn't know that you would feel like that, we didn't consider that your body possibly couldn't handle this stress. How could we have overlooked that? Kate, make her more sandwiches, it seems that she likes them quite a lot," Tanya finished, looking like she was trying to solve the world climate problem. I knew that I needed to stop both of them, before they entered panic mode.
"Whoa, everything is alright. There is no need for more food, this was enough for now. I don't think there is a need to worry so much, I ate yesterday, and nothing will happen if I don't eat more today. You don't need to worry," I tried to calm them down but all I seemed to do was upset them more.
"Bella, you need to understand that our main priority in life is making sure that you are healthy, safe and happy. So please do not try to make this seem like nothing, we should have fed you first thing in the morning. This will not happen again. I promise you that," Tanya finished with a serious look on her face. I looked at Kate in the hope that she wouldn't be so hard on herself, but she wore the same look. I would need to talk to them about that.
I got up from my seat and started to reach for my plate and glass so that I could clean them but before I could reach them, Kate was already putting them in the dishwasher. I lifted my brow at her, as if asking what that was for.
She looked at me confused. "What?" she asked when I didn't say anything. "There is no need for you to do that kind of things when we are around," she told me like it was the most normal thing in the world. A part of me liked that, liked being taken care of, having mates that took care of me, but then another part of me wasn't okay with that. And I needed to talk to them about that.
I sighed, "I appreciate that you want to take care of me but I am a grown woman that took care of herself for my whole life. And I don't plan to change that anytime soon. It makes me feel wrong, like you think that I am not able to care for myself." I started to get emotional, I didn't want them to take it the wrong way.
They took a moment to think about my words and then Tanya said, "We hear you Bella, we don't want you to think that we do not care for your opinion nor do we think that you are not capable of taking care of yourself. That's not the case at all. It's more that our nature is the 'problem' here. If you were a vampire we would hunt for you, proving to be capable hunters that could satisfy your needs. You see, our beasts at the moment are trying to prove that we are worthy of being yours. That we are capable of taking care of you, that you don't need to look for someone else. Unfortunately, I don't think that will ever stop, but with time we will be able to control it more," she finished.
Kate took my hand, kissing it slowly. "We will do our best to get them under control as soon as possible, but we beg you to not be angry at us, at least not in the beginning when everything is so fresh and our instincts are going nuts," Kate said, and I could hear pleading tones in her voice.
How difficult was this situation for them, having me as a mate, a human that didn't understand their needs nor the depth of their feelings for me. At least I could try to make it easy on them, this was something that they needed. And here I felt that this pull was supernatural, because before their answer I was ready to fight them on it, but as soon I realized that this was something they needed, there was no problem at all within me. I would do everything to make it easy on them, to take care of them.
"Okay, I can't say that I completely understand what you feel, but if there is something I can do that will help you I will," I told them, receiving beaming smiles from them.
"And we promise not to take it to extreme, or well try to," Kate said winking at me, letting her playful nature come through.
"Would you like to go to the living room, we could just lay there and rest or if you have questions for us, we will be happy to answer them," Tanya suggested, at which I eagerly nodded. I wouldn't mind being horizontal with them again, but maybe I should find out a few things first.
"I do have more questions for you," I told them, at which they smiled.
"We would be disappointed if you didn't," Tanya said teasingly. At which I stuck out my tongue at her and started walking towards the living room. I could hear them laughing and then following me.
I sat in the corner of the sofa so that they could both sit near me and it would be easier to talk to both of them. Tanya sat on my right and Kate on my left, leaving no room between us. They were seeking the contact and I was happy to give them that.
There were no words that could describe the bliss I was feeling with them, the happiness they gave me. At that moment it was becoming clear that they were the most important people in my life, everything else was secondary. I could feel my eyes tear up, but from happiness.
It didn't take long for them to notice. Tanya started to move her hand on my thigh in a soothing manner, while Kate wiped my tears with a confused look on her face. "I know that you are not in distress or sad, so why are you crying, my darling?" She knows, another thing I need to ask them. But first to clear up the situation.
I smiled at her, "Do not worry, these are happy tears. I feel so much happiness right now, I just couldn't contain them." The pure happiness that could be seen on Kate's face at my statement will forever be present in my mind, I was sure that Tanya wore the exact same look. Which she did. I decided to give them a little kiss, before asking them to explain things further.
"Sooo, I have a few questions that I want to ask you, I am sure that there will be more in the future," I let out a little laugh.
"Shoot," Tanya said, curious to see what I would ask them.
"Well… while I was eating it came to my mind that I don't know.. how should I say… I am curious to know about your diet," I told them, unsure how to phrase my question.
"We see," Tanya smirked. "You are wondering if we will drink your blood?" she asked smugly.
"You would be delicious my darling," Kate said, making me smack the hand that was traveling towards my neck, at which she giggled.
"To answer your question, we do survive on blood, either on human or animal, with human blood being superior, making us stronger. Nowadays there is no real need to hunt humans, other than to satisfy our hunting instincts because we have blood bags from donations that keep us well fed. Even that is better than animals. You do not need to fear us in that regard, we will never feel that hunting instinct towards you. It would be impossible," Tanya answered me. I was pleased that they had human blood that kept them well fed, with no need to harm humans. "But I need to tell you something, with you being human and our mate, we would be able to drink your blood with no danger to you. In our world it is one of the most sacred things, being trusted to enjoy our mates blood. It is usually done while doing more intimate things, if you get what I mean," Tanya finished and I had a feeling that she would be blushing if she could.
And the second my mind went to that scene, of them drinking my blood, while making love, I could feel myself getting wetter. Which they must have felt, because I could feel them getting even closer to me, with more hunger in their eyes.
I wanted to act on my feelings but before I let myself, I needed to know something.
"What about human food?" I asked, hoping that they would understand. Which they did.
"It disgust us, it is like someone gives you shit on the stick," Kate said, lightening the mood.
"Eww, it is a shame, there are wonderful things you are missing," I told her.
"If you say so," she didn't look like she believed me. "To clarify what Tanya said earlier, even if it is possible for us to drink your blood, we would never do something that makes you uncomfortable. That would be your decision entirely."
I smiled at them; they knew what to say. "I trust you my loves, but thank you for telling me that." I kissed both of their knuckles. It meant the world to me, to know that they had my back 100% percent. "There is something I want to know before we take our relationship to the next level. I need to know how our relationship will work," I told them, knowing that I didn't explain very well.
"Can you tell us what exactly you are wondering?" Tanya asked me, in a more serious tone.
"Well, you are both mated to me, right?" They nodded their heads. "But not to each other." Again, they nodded. "So I was wondering how it would work. For example, how are you feeling when I kiss the other? Or when we start to head further? I don't want the other to feel left out or jealous if I am with one and not the other. For example, making love, will we all be together or—"
"Bella, Bella love, calm down, take a deep breath," Tanya told me, while caressing my cheek. "Even with us not being mates, our bond with you makes jealousy impossible between Kate and I. There isn't and will never be a problem of displaying your affection towards one when the other is present. The same goes for making love, if you want the both of us or just one at the time, we will never feel jealous of one another. Not that we won't want to be there, because we will, but there won't be any bad feelings involved," Tanya explained, making me feel better.
"That is so good to hear. I was worried that I would need to be careful, so I don't hurt the other. Something I never want," I told them, feeling shy.
"I think that we are okay with that because you want us at the same time, you don't want to separate us, but make us even closer. Our beasts can feel that and pull us towards each other even more. It is the reason I feel aroused when I watch you and Tanya, why it makes me feel good, fulfilled. Same goes for her," Kate told me, trying to explain their side of the story.
I don't think I will ever get used to supernatural forces and their influence on my life, but I will not complain.
"You are right, I would never want to separate you two, or choose to spend time with only one of you. Or having to hide my emotions towards one in the presence of the other. This makes my life a lot easier." I breathed out in relief, feeling the stress leaving my body.
"We can tell, but you don't need to worry about our relationship functioning in a way that you don't want. Even if it is your subconscious desire, our beasts will know what you want and will do everything in their power to do the right thing for you," Tanya looked proud saying that but I didn't want them to be slaves to me.
"But isn't that unfair to you! That isn't something I want, what about your desires?" I asked them, upset.
"We do not see it that way. When a vampire finds a human mate they naturally take the more dominant role in the relationship and that entails doing everything to make their mate feel safe and happy. It is in our nature, it is who we are, so we don't and never will see it as unfair."
"Please never think that you are making us do something we don't want, as it is simply not true," Kate added after Tanya.
It left me to think that I knew very little about the dynamics of vampire relationships and how strange it all sounded to me. But one thing I knew is that they were not lying to me. They were telling me the truth and now it was up to me to make my peace with that. But it was not easy when you lived your whole life feeling like you didn't need anyone and that you didn't change for nothing.
"I cannot say that I understand it completely, it will take me time to get used to that but I trust you completely. And I trust you to tell me if I do something that doesn't feel right for you. Can you promise me that?" I asked them.
"We promise you," they said in unison, smiling at me and taking my hand to kiss it. I could already see that I would be defenseless against them.
Another question came to my mind. "I was wondering how do you know so well what I am feeling? A couple of times today you knew what I was feeling like you were reading my mind. What's up with that?"
They let out a little laugh and then Kate answered, "Another perk of being a vampire. We can sense your mood shift and any major emotions like sadness, anger, happiness or arousal through your pheromones. Our noses are much more advanced than humans. It is easier to pick it up with you being our mate, as you will sense our emotions easily when you become one of us," Kate finished like it was the most logical thing. And while I got the answer to my question, she had started another topic that made me freeze.
They quickly picked up on my reaction and I could see them worry, they were probably afraid that I wouldn't want that. I could see them panic. But I couldn't calm them down when I didn't know what to feel. It was the most logical step, to join them in all eternity but something was holding me back. Something was stopping me from telling them 'yes, turn me tomorrow'. I could see myself with them in the future, as a vampire, but not now.
"When I become vampire?" I decided to ask them. Not saying anything else. They looked at each other, like they were trying to decide what to say.
"Bella, my love, there isn't another choice. You know our secret, our law is clear, turning you into a vampire or killing you." As soon as Tanya said that with an expression of agony, Kate let out the most animalistic sound that I have ever heard. It sounded like a wounded and furious animal, and she looked like she could kill. Which made me react instantly, trying to calm her down, knowing that I was the reason for that reaction. She took me in her lap, pulling me in and not letting go.
"Never!" she said with a hoarse voice that didn't sound like her. I started to caress her hands trying to calm her down, but it didn't work. Her grip only became stronger.
"Kate, calm down this moment," Tanya needed to interfere. I could hear her authority in her voice, not leaving Kate any other choice than to listen. Her reaction wasn't instant, so Tanya growled, making me jump a little. I'm not gonna lie, that struck me a little.
After that Kate's reaction was immediate, she put me in my original position and hung her head low, trying to make herself smaller. I could see the effect that Tanya had on her, as her leader, she had so much power over her. No wonder they took the role of leader so seriously, people with that power needed to be in check.
"I am sorry, Tanya, it won't happen again. But I can't bear the thought of her not being with us. I let my beast out of control. Bella I didn't want to frighten you, please forgive me," she told me, with a pained expression, not bearing that I could be mad at her. I could understand her reaction, so I kissed her slowly.
"I am not mad nor was I afraid, don't worry kitten," I told her, trying to lighten the mood. She smiled at that, but I could see that she was still troubled by her outburst. "I know that I will become one of you, it is the most logical thing. I can not live without you and the bare thought that you will be in pain is unbearable. From the moment that you told me that I am your mate I knew I would become one of you… but…. Something is stopping me from saying yes immediately and I don't know what," I tried to explain to them but how could I do that when I didn't even understand.
Tanya took my hands. "It is not an easy decision, leaving your life behind. We would never make that decision against your will, but I can say that we feel immense relief that you are not against it. What we can do is give you a little bit of time before turning you. Enough for you to make peace and say goodbye to your life. But we will need to contact the Queens and explain everything, there is no other way. I hope that they will support our decision to give you time but we will need to guarantee that you will become one of us," she told me. I could see the leader Tanya, and how seriously she took her role. I remembered the story that they told me earlier about Queens, how they had total control over the vampire race. It made me fear them. They had the power to hurt my mates if they deemed it right, and all because of my decision.
"The Queens are not evil, they always have our best interests in mind and we always had mutual respect, our coven has supported them when they needed. I don't think you need to worry, we can feel you panic," Kate explained, but that didn't do much for me. My worry for them was stronger. My mind didn't let it go, supplying me all the scenarios of them getting hurt because of me and my decision.
So why couldn't I let them change me in a couple of days? I knew that they were my everything even if we'd only known each other for a couple of days. There was no other for me. Leah was the only person that I couldn't see myself letting go, but for them and their safety I would do that.
They had me in their arms very soon, trying to calm me down by kissing my face, hands and body. They were muttering sweet nothings in my ear, grounding me, pulling me towards them.
They didn't stop, even when I calmed down completely, switching us to a horizontal position with me between them, in their arms that gave me all the safety I needed, I didn't feel the unnatural calmness that would be the product of their pheromones. Still they made me feel safe and I was tired from all the stress and excitement that I went through. I was starting to fall asleep and I almost got there, when a feeling of nausea suddenly overwhelmed me. I quickly jerked out, still half asleep, and tried to get out of their arms. I knew that I would vomit if I started to speak but they didn't let me go, not at first.
But when Tanya saw my hand over my mouth she realized what was happening and in the moment I was over the toilet, letting my guts out with my vampires standing next to me holding my hair and caressing my back.
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