BPOV
I couldn't fucking believe I was falling for Edward Cullen out of the whole world!
It was getting very clear to me with each passing day that I had serious feelings for him, and even though I was aware of the fact that this could completely be one-sided feelings, I couldn't help myself.
The more I got to know him, the more I was falling for him. I realized that I had never actually known him before. We were more similar than I had initially thought.
"Bella, can I ask you something?" Masen asked me on the phone after a few days.
"Yeah," I said.
"Did you find anyone else there?" He asked.
What a strange question, I thought.
"Not really," I said.
I didn't want to tell him about my feelings for Edward yet. First, I didn't even know if Edward had any feelings for me, and I didn't want to make a fool of myself. Second, I wasn't sure how Masen was going to take it. I mean, I was dating him just a few months ago!
"Same here," he said.
Wait, but I guess I needed to clarify with him that I didn't have any feelings for him!
"I'd say my heart is definitely growing fonder with each passing day," he chuckled.
Ummmm... No, just no!
That was never going to be possible!
I couldn't do this to him!
"Look, Masen..."
"We can talk about it in detail when you come here," he said.
That might be a good idea, I guess? I thought. It's better to talk in-person and try to explain everything instead of having this conversation on the phone. I mean, I was going there after two weeks anyway!
"Yeah, let's talk when I get there," I said.
Suddenly I was scared about how he was going to take everything!
I hope I didn't have to break his heart!
I started feeling ashamed of myself for falling for his brother!
What kind of person I was! I sighed.
