BPOV

I couldn't fucking believe I was falling for Edward Cullen out of the whole world!

It was getting very clear to me with each passing day that I had serious feelings for him, and even though I was aware of the fact that this could completely be one-sided feelings, I couldn't help myself.

The more I got to know him, the more I was falling for him. I realized that I had never actually known him before. We were more similar than I had initially thought.

"Bella, can I ask you something?" Masen asked me on the phone after a few days.

"Yeah," I said.

"Did you find anyone else there?" He asked.

What a strange question, I thought.

"Not really," I said.

I didn't want to tell him about my feelings for Edward yet. First, I didn't even know if Edward had any feelings for me, and I didn't want to make a fool of myself. Second, I wasn't sure how Masen was going to take it. I mean, I was dating him just a few months ago!

"Same here," he said.

Wait, but I guess I needed to clarify with him that I didn't have any feelings for him!

"I'd say my heart is definitely growing fonder with each passing day," he chuckled.

Ummmm... No, just no!

That was never going to be possible!

I couldn't do this to him!

"Look, Masen..."

"We can talk about it in detail when you come here," he said.

That might be a good idea, I guess? I thought. It's better to talk in-person and try to explain everything instead of having this conversation on the phone. I mean, I was going there after two weeks anyway!

"Yeah, let's talk when I get there," I said.

Suddenly I was scared about how he was going to take everything!

I hope I didn't have to break his heart!

I started feeling ashamed of myself for falling for his brother!

What kind of person I was! I sighed.