EPOV
"Bella, I know you're really hurt, and I'm really, really sorry for all the mess you've to go through right now," I said.
I had been texting her since last night, and I kept texting her throughout the day. I guess she finally got fed up with that and that's why she replied just once in the evening that I could come to her apartment to talk to her.
She was in her work clothes, and she still looked disturbed.
"I don't understand what you want to talk about," she said.
"I'm sorry for everything," I said.
"Why are you apologizing?" She asked. She was talking in a robotic tone, without showing any emotion, so I wasn't really able to figure out what exactly was going through her mind.
"Because the root cause of this mess is me," I said.
"What do you mean?" She asked, looking confused.
"Because Masen said he did what he did because he thinks there's something going on between the two of us, and he went insane because of that. He thought I was trying to snatch his best friend away from him and he went insane because of that. I'm really, really sorry about that."
She didn't say anything, so I continued, "It's all my fault. I don't know what expressions he saw in my eyes for you... I think it all started because of that... But that's not how it was..."
"I know," she said, "He made a fuss based on the complete misunderstanding. I know you weren't showing any expressions or emotions that he mentioned. I mean, why would you? I think he was upset because I broke off the engagement with him. I'm sorry you got pulled into this mess."
Well, that wasn't completely true.
I was pretty sure I had shown some emotions unconsciously.
So... Should I clarify that?
But was this even the right time?
But didn't I always wait for the 'right' time that never really came?
Maybe I should tell her and let her reject me! I should let the matter end for good!
"Bella... I really don't know how you're going to take this... But I really have strong feelings for you," I said.
No!
I shouldn't have said that.
This wasn't the right time!
