A/N Busy Thanksgiving here with many gatherings and kids home and work and not alot of writing time. So sorry.
Thanks for the new favorites and follows and ads and as author likes and reviews. I might not have time for requests just now but will see in future depending on what they are too.
Special thanks again to Carol scarlett2112 for the nurse and medical advice and previewing these chapters for realness and accuracy. I did this story myself for another fandom and it was a huge success and Carol was the one that encouraged me to change it up for a Roman story and I love that I did. Lots more unique very wrestling based too and so it's been a blast to rewrite in the WWE world.
You are the best, Love ya. I am always in awe of her storytelling abilities in the Vampire Diaries fandom and how she can pull time periods and literally teach us history with the romance and suspense as well for that precious couple of Damon and Elena.
I hope people are enjoying Fall and Thanksgiving for fellow Canadians.
I will keep updating Fighting to Live but the muse isn't nearly as strong there right now plus I am hardly getting any response so I am not sure what to do with that at the moment and hope more ideas will keep coming.
Watch for another chapter tonight. All full of Roman's backstory...and he was so eager to tell Sara all about who he really was. It was time.
Sara's POV
Roman had his eyes closed as he lay back against the tree trunk and I curled up against his chest but looked up at him.
"I still have no idea how anything we were doing was helping your pain Roman. I was so worried, so scared for you when I saw your burn. But I had already given you all the medicine I could, and we didn't have a trauma unit equipped to handle that kind of extensive type case."
He bent his head, and I felt his lips on my hair. "I know you did everything you could. I know you would have done more if you could. And the meds were helping I know they were, or I know I would have been crying out in pain and curled up on the damn floor, I'm sure."
He chuckled in my arms, and I could feel his chest rumbling. "I mean it baby. You would have seen a hell of a lot more vulnerable side to me than you did. I thought raw and uncensored me was a lot already."
Now it was my turn to laugh, and I snuggled closer, and my arms stroked up and down more on his back, feeling the damaged skin. "No, I liked that part Roman. It gave such a deep look at you, and you were not hiding from me at all. It was so refreshing to just know everything was so real and open and honest."
I looked back up at him and met his eyes. "But be honest now. You seriously were not in pain when were so intimate? I was helping you?"
Roman moved his hand and stroked a finger down my cheek. "Yes, oh yes Beauty you were helping. Just focusing on you was incredible relief. The meds were helping numb it too and I think I was still partially in shock too till right close to the end. You know how bad it got by then. But don't ever doubt that you were everything I needed that night."
"I know you did everything you could. I remember we couldn't get to the hospital any quicker. Something about a highway pileup and that was why the ambulance was so late." Roman said.
Stroking my fingers through his hair to almost lay it like a pillow under my head I nodded. "I know, and if I had not been so panicked, I could have thought to maybe even drive you there myself but maybe the roads were even blocked, I have no idea. I just knew I needed to cool off that burn and get your mind onto anything else."
"Mmm and you did Baby girl. So much," he whispered against my head and kissed me again. "Kissing you and teasing you on the plane... till you were trembling in my arms happened so fast and was over before it barely began. That night, even in pain off and on, time didn't just fly by so fast. Kissing you, touching you, tasting you. It felt like time froze just for us. God Sara, I want more moments like that."
I nuzzled my head more to his and turned more to him, moving higher in his lap to meet his lips with mine. "I do too, Roman. I missed you so much. It broke my heart that after your surgery you had no short-term memory of any of that day or the week even from the trauma. The doctors said you might never get it back. It feels unreal that you did. Everything about being here with you like this feels unreal."
I thought back to that night once more, finally glad not be the only one with those precious memories. Roman changed my life in one night and it was pure torture that he didn't even know it before...
Back at the prison...weeks ago
I felt his lips next in a very intimate place and my knees nearly buckled as my hands scrambled to clench harder in his hair as Roman Reigns had trailed kisses across my breast and wrapped his perfect lips around my aching bud. He gave me no time to even breath before he suckled at it, and I cried out as I felt my body start slipping down the wall.
His one hand darted out fast and caught my waist even in the slippery shower and leaned me more against the wall to make sure I didn't lose my balance again. Roman stood up a bit more, bracing himself and breathed low, right by my ear. "Careful gorgeous, I'm not always going to be around to catch you..."
Oh, my Sweet Lord...
I had no words for how incredible I felt hearing that deep amazing voice like that. I couldn't even say a thing and was just awestruck by everything that had happened in the last few minutes.
He kissed my breast again, and I felt the softness of his lips and the tickle of his goatee on my delicate skin and my hand moved to the back of his neck and just tugged harder on his hair.
I felt him nuzzle my skin and then the deep voice was back again. "Mmm, so good."
My head fell back to the shower stall as stars exploded behind my eyes in the darkness as I felt him tease and suckle again. Then he pulled the dress lower to massage the other breast in that hand too.
"Roman, please..." I begged. Not even having any idea what I was saying.
I felt super vulnerable right then not even sure why, but something in me just snapped and I felt tears in my eyes. "Please don't ever leave me..." I begged him."
It felt so off, so raw of me to say that. So stupid even I thought, and I was kicking myself the second the words slipped past my lips. But it was too late.
Roman moved back up and I felt him cradle my face in his hands, stroking my cheeks. I was so glad all this, anything we were doing was distracting him from any pain and now it looked like I really shook him as he held me so close in the darkness.
"Sara," he breathed. "I don't want to ever leave you again. I will fight like hell to be with you. To survive wherever we are and get you safe and away from everyone here." He took a deeper breath right by my lips too. "And I will fight the powers trying to put me away too so we can be together. I do want that."
He dove back in against my mouth, and I melted to his kisses. They felt incredible and I felt him this time cup my face and cradle it still with such tenderness and sink into the kiss and moan my name as he seemed like he was drowning in everything about me.
How could something like this with a prisoner feel this incredible? It didn't even feel real. Things like this just didn't happen to me. Someone like Roman didn't exist for me.
"You still okay gorgeous?" he mumbled against my lips, and I nodded at him and kissed him again.
"Yes, amazing, Roman really. Are you? I'm wish there was more I could do. More I could give you, Hell I hate that the ambulance is taking so long, and I have given you more pain meds than I probably should have already. But I have no idea what else to do to help you..."
I felt him put a finger to my lips. "THIS is pure pain relief baby. Everything about you is the most amazing distraction. Remember the Greys anatomy episode. Porn for pain management."
I had to laugh at that, and I heard him too. There was a power outage and none of any other meds worked on the guy. Nothing except porn and the damn TV wasn't working so they had to talk all sexy to him. It sounded totally nuts but it freaking worked.
"Yeah, I remember," I said and kissed him again.
"Mmm mm, well you my little angel, are pure fucking pain pills every time I touch you and kiss you. So, promise me you will tell me if anything is taking advantage of you because it feels like I can numb the burn pain. I don't even know if that's real or just my brain by passing the pain receptors, but I will take the win however its coming. "
I smiled in the dark. "I am so happy to help you however I can Roman, and you aren't taking advantage of me at all. I want you and need you too."
And I felt it. I was okay with everything and he was being so gentle and so tender. It felt like this was pain relief for me too.
Just emotional and not physical.
I didn't feel all dark and depressed about the losses in my life. I actually felt safe and protected and treasured in the dark shower and not scared to be so intimate with him at all. He made me feel safe and I didn't want this to end.
We truly were healing each other, just like he said. Physically and emotionally.
I felt brave now maybe for the first time in ages and grabbed his face in the darkness. "Please don't stop Roman," I whispered against his ear and sucked the lobe of it into my mouth.
I couldn't see him to see his reaction to my words, but his hands went up, pulling my face back in front of him and cupped my cheeks, stroking so gently along the sides of my lips before he kissed me again. "As you wish..." he breathed against my lips.
Princess Bride...smooth. I loved it.
Roman let his hands slip from my face and drop behind my back and I felt him tugging more on my dress as he had me still pressed into the wall of the shower. I felt his palms slipping down my back, looking for a zipper and heard a slight rip at the top of the soaking wet fabric and his head flew up. He was fast with apologies, and I was already shaking my head.
"No, it's fine Roman, see it's like this," I was still panting from his kisses, but my heart was racing at what he was exploring now, and I helped him untie the side waist tie on my dress and it slipped open, and he slid his palm in around my bare hip.
Oh God how far was I taking this? The ambulance wasn't here yet or at least it wasn't looking like it. I had no idea how long we had, or if we would get a chance to ever be like this again.
I felt his hand stroking my wet skin up and down my side and hip, under my dress as he was kissing a path down my throat and the water kept soaking everything. Roman's kisses felt incredible as he unwrapped the dress on me. It was hanging just off my arms, the only garment I was still wearing was lacy, red, silk panties.
I hadn't worn them even to match the dress on purpose really and I sure wasn't expecting to have anyone undress me tonight...my first night I dared to even go out and try dating again. And here I was making out with a condemned man in the shower at the state prison!
Damn I wished so badly that I could see him. I wanted to see his eyes more clearly, wanted to see how he was looking at me as he touched me. They say your other senses are heightened when one is suppressed, but right now all I wanted was my sight back, so badly.
Roman must have been able to sense my insecurity and he pulled me into his arms against the wall and just held me there, wrapped so tight in his arms. We didn't say anything, and he didn't push for me to say anything either.
I clung to him; my arms wrapped tight around his neck. "I want to see you...but I don't want to let you go long enough to turn a light on." I breathed against his throat. "None of this feels real. I feel like I will just wake up tomorrow and this night with you like this will have all been a dream."
Roman held me just as tight in the darkness and I was so thankful for his understanding. "It's real Sara...you and me," he whispered. "It's real."
"And I've wanted you, and hoped you needed someone like me since the day I met you. I could see you were so empty, and so sad Sara. " Roman spoke so softly and still cradled me so close, his lips by my cheek. "I have to go now for a while...I know I do cause of this damn burn. But I will be back..."
I knew that. He needed surgery and badly and I was surprised he wasn't showing more pain yet.
"Oh, it's starting to burn like a bitch Baby girl. It is. But every moment I was touching or kissing you...I could hardly feel it." He kissed me hard on the lips right then and took my breath away before pulling back once more. "Can I leave you with one more gift. One more reminder of me? And it will pure fucking pain relief to me too. "
I heard him and was already aching that I knew our time was almost up. "Yes, Roman I trust you."
"Then kiss me and enjoy my Sara."
I loved hearing him call me his. That felt so strange and yet so right. I wanted to be his and just the thought of being Roman's, sent more flutters through my belly.
The next moment, the second my lips crashed into his, I felt fingers slipping down my body under my dress. Fingers that stopped just between my legs and gently started rubbing in circles on the silk of my panties.
I whimpered into the kiss and shifted my hips toward him, and he rubbed more, and I could feel him smile against my lips. Roman's fingers moved more surely, more confidently against me, knowing I was liking it and not pulling away and I could already feel the wetness growing on the silky material.
He moved his hand around lower to side and slipped a few fingers underneath the hem of the lace panties and I bucked my hips pressing in closer, aching for more.
I gripped his head and tugged harder on his dark locks in the darkness, my mouth delving deeper, my hips swirling against his fingers.
"Oh God Roman so good..." I whimpered and nearly bit his bottom lip. He slipped his hand fully in my panties and caressed my bare flesh still more and I moaned more and started feeling lightheaded from the sensations as the waves were starting to build. Light stroking but teasing circles and sure strokes and I was so wet.
"Feels so fu..." Roman started to say, but I covered his mouth with my own, pressing my hips hard against his hand I was so close. Everything felt so so good.
But then we started hearing the sounds of sirens and the ambulance siren growing louder. There was no doubt in the world that was for him and to take him away from me. The rush, the orgasmic feelings started waning as I clutched at his arms.
"No, Roman. They are coming..." I cried out fearfully. I knew I had needed the ambulance to come for him. To help him. He needed it. But the other part of me finally felt safe and I hadn't felt like that in SO long I literally felt an ache in my heart knowing he had to leave.
I felt him hug me closer and whisper again my cheek. "I know Sara. I know. I am so sorry" I felt him shut off the water with one hand and pick me up under my legs with the other and carry me out of the bathroom. He growled and I knew it must be hurting him to move like that at all.
"Roman stop hurting yourself more," I begged him.
"I'm not!" he snarled out, kicking the door open and I knew that anger wasn't at me as he laid me down on the couch on my back in the staff room and halfway leaned over me.
"I just wanted to leave you with good memories, and I have no idea how long I will have to be gone and I don't want you to be scared of the surgery and I wanted to..." Roman was pissed and so freaking cute when he was angry and I pulled his head to me and caught his lips with mine, pulling him more on top of me.
It was still pretty dark in here too but there was light from the hallway, and I could see him more than in the shower. We were both soaking wet laying on the couch now as I was hearing the ambulance sirens getting louder by the second.
I pulled back from his lips and nodded to him. "Please me now..."
We could barely see each other in the dim light but I saw his eyes widen at that and he looked away down towards the sounds coming and then back down where he was nestled between my legs. "Now, like this...here?"
I looked around and was already half naked in my wrap around dress that was still soaking wet. I had never done anything like this with anyone. Ever. But I never felt like this about anyone either.
I slipped out from under him and ran and locked the door. Giving us even just the tiny bit of privacy and more time and then walked back to stand in front of the couch and where Roman was sitting up now, already reaching to pull me back in his lap like it was the most natural thing in the world.
I knelt on my knees straddling him and slipped my hands under his shirt and I was already even tempted to please him. I could feel him rock hard beneath me as I sat on him, and I saw him watching me.
Roman cupped my hands in his and brought my knuckles to his lips. "Next time..." And he nodded and it was like he could read my mind. "I don't want anything for me tonight Baby girl. I needed to show you how I felt about you..."
I nodded at his deep stare back at me and his gray eyes were deeply serious. "Okay Roman. Next time baby."
I saw him smile at my use of baby for him and those beautiful gray eyes looked like they freakin sparkled in the moonlight. I had never called a man that before. Not even Daniel. And it felt good to call Roman an affectionate name. I saw him smile and nod at me.
I shifted myself off of him and stood back up again, I was shaking a bit, till I felt his palms rubbing back and forth on the back of my legs. Roman Reigns was positively beaming at me as he sat up looking up at me, his dark hair falling soaking wet down his back.
"Give me the moment you want me to remember Roman, till I can see you again after all this. Please baby," I nodded slowly, bringing my body closer and I watched him lick his lips.
Oh, I was falling hard, and I beamed right back at him, my smile wide across my face. He stood up first, and gently cradled my face and kissed me so tenderly, tunnelling his fingers in my hair, before moving his lips down my body. Kissing down my throat, blazing a trail across one breast to suckle at one nipple while massaging the other in his palm.
I was shivering by the time he got to my stomach as he kissed down my belly as I was still standing and then he sat back down and pulled me in.
"They match your dress and your cute toes," he smirked up at me and was stroking his fingers along the edge of my red lace panties. I smiled back at him full on blushing and watched as his lips fell between my legs and felt him suck on the lace of my already soaked panties.
My fingers sunk into his wet hair as I watched his dark head move, his gray eyes still up and watching me, feeling his palms move up and down my bare legs squeezing my skin between his fingers.
"Mmm, Roman oh so good, " I mumbled, and my fingers tangled in his hair, scrambling to stay upright as my legs wobbled till I felt his strong arms holding me up steady.
I watched him even in such dim light and was mesmerized as he pulled my body closer, still standing but now cradling my hips in his palms as he sucked hard on the lace of my red underwear. I half knelt on my one knee on the arm rest of the couch in his lap as he started rolling them down the swells of my hips, but my position was not helping him get them off.
"Any sentimental attachment to these?" I heard him breath and I barely understood what he said but felt him pulling on the edge of the panties. I shook my head and tried to think where on earth they were even from.
"No, they are new..." And in seconds I heard ripping and pulling and oh God his mouth felt so good on my bare skin as he had pulled me back to his lips and I cried out at the rush of the sensations crashing through me.
My hands needed something to hold onto, bracing myself on his shoulders and one hand finding its way into his hair again as his large hands gripped my thighs tight and I whimpered as I felt his tongue delve deeper and swirl in circles and then suck hard on my sensitive bundle of nerves.
"Oh God, Roman, please..." I whimpered and my hips pressed up against his mouth as I felt his hands cradling my body close.
It was still so dark, and I could barely see him looking at me or see his expression at seeing me so intimately revealing to him. He guided me to lie back down on the couch and felt like I was so close to the edge of oblivion.
I gripped his long hair, tugging harder, feeling his soft, warm tongue swirling and dipping in my wetness and my hips pressed up to meet him. Hungry, aching, so so full of want for everything this amazing man was giving.
I felt him pull back for a just a moment and those gray eyes just locked onto mine, searing me with the deepest love look. He bent down and gave me a long deep lick as his eyes never left mine, his hands cradling my hips before a smile curled at the corner of his lips as he lay nestled between my thighs. I heard that low sexy voice as my heart raced. "Come for me Baby girl. Feel it, and let go...and be happy..."
And his lips dropped back down, and I felt him plunge his tongue in me so freaking deep...his palms squeezing my legs and oh my God...
"Roman, so close, oh my..." and one more dip of his tongue and I was already crashing and falling and my legs clinging to his head as I felt him suck and lick my sensitive skin as I rode out my high.
It had hit so hard and fast that almost wish it had taken longer. But it had been a long time since anyone had ever done that, and my body reacted so fast and hard to all the sensations.
I felt him crawl up my sweaty body in the darkness and lay on my chest and I cradled him against me. Roman pressed a kiss to my lips and moaned and he dropped his head back down to my breasts. "Mmm Sara, that was incredible. You are incredible."
I smiled and clung to him. "Don't leave me Roman." I felt him hug me closer.
Suddenly the after glowing type mood was shattered when there was loud banging on the door, and I just held him tighter and felt tears slipping down my cheeks.
More banging and then I felt his hands on my face. "Hey Sara, hold onto this feeling okay...I don't want you to think this was just physical for me. I just didn't know how to show you how much I felt for you. I just wanted to give you a moment of not feeling so sad. There will be more time for us. Trust that. Trust me. Believe that. "
Now it sounded like someone was trying to kick the door down and I whirled back to him and kissed him once more. The kiss was hard and hungry, and we both were clinging to each other, my hands buried in his hair and his arms wrapped around my near naked body as I was in his lap on the couch.
We clung tight to each other till the last possible second as the door was kicked open and then guards came rushing in and turned the bright light on. I had pulled my dress closed fast, tying it up and was curled up on the couch beside Roman who was moaning in pain curled up in my lap. Instantly my arms wrapped tightly around him, and I tried to comfort him and felt his hand grab mine.
I had whispered to him to lay down and look vulnerable and it looked like the numbness was in fact wearing off and it looked like this wasn't pretending in the least. He looked up at me and tried to smile and I smiled back, and I saw tears in his eyes that he must have fought to hold back for who knows how long already.
Miz raced in and so did Lashley with weapons raised and aimed right at Roman till they saw he was weak and crying out and then lowered them and simply waved the all clear to the ones by the door.
The captain stormed right up to me. "Why the hell did you lock the door Dr. Jordan?" he demanded. I glared up at him, still desperately holding onto Roman who had tears slipping down his cheeks now and already seeing the paramedics being led in and knowing I needed to give some kind of explanation for that.
He was in real pain now, his hand clinging to mine, his head buried against my chest and my arms were tight around him. It was getting worse and I all I wanted was to push everyone out and keep him in my arms and protect him from everyone. I didn't trust them that they wouldn't just hurt him more.
His one arm moved to slip under the dress from between the tie and I felt his warm palm wrap tightly around my bare waist and cling tightly to me. He didn't want to let me go either. I could feel his fear, like it radiated from his skin into mine that none of this was safe. That we were only safe together. I heard him whimper just softly, against my chest and for no one else to hear. "No Sara, no."
I tangled my hands in his hair and shut my eyes. God I know Roman, I wanted to say.
"I didn't." I snapped back at Miz, hating pulling my attention back to him. " I mean I don't think I did. I was half carrying him here to cool off his burn and I guess I locked it by accident. And when you guys started banging on it, I was trying to calm him down and we have been waiting for God knows how long for your stupid ambulance service that is supposed to take minutes not hours. SO, excuse ME for not moving fast enough for YOU!"
I felt angry at everyone. And suddenly I was being held back and Roman was being pulled out of lap. It felt like I was being ripped apart. I cried out and tried to push forward to go back to him and was already calling his name, but another damn officer held me back. I could even see Roman's hand reach back out for mine as they slapped a handcuff on that hand.
It could not be a more glaring reminder of how completely wrong for me he was.
He reached for me again while on the stretcher his one hand out and wide open looking for mine. I pushed and fought the guard and ran ahead to him, already aching inside and missing him and clasped his hand between both of mine. That hand was quickly cuffed to the metal bar as they laid him down and the guards wasted no time cuffing his other hand to the bar on the other side too.
They ignored his painful cries as they got louder, as I realized now the burn was being rubbed as his back was trapped down against the hard back on the back board and he had no way to move. I was yelling to get them to stop and that they were hurting him more but everything I said fell on deaf ears. Why the hell were the paramedics doing that?
No one cared about his comfort. No one but me.
I could hear him fighting the chains on his wrist as he reached for me. It hurt to see him like that. Everything hurt like I was the one chained to the damn stretcher as they pulled me away from him again.
We had just been so close, with no chains, no cuffs, nothing trapping him like an animal.
He dropped his head, seeing it was no use to keep fighting and I could already see more tears slipping down his cheeks as I knew he was trying to hold them back as he followed me with his eyes as he was being led out.
"Sara," he gasped weakly, and my heart nearly broke wanting to tear through everyone there and pull him back in my arms but Miz's other guard held me back again and this time by both wrists and no matter how much I struggled he did not let go the whole time I watched Roman get torn away from me.
His gray eyes were locked to mine till the very last moment, and tears slipped freely down his face as I saw him bite back more pain again. Yes, the burn was fully affecting him now. The pain meds I gave him must have worn off and I couldn't give him any of me to sooth him.
I struggled and cursed at Lashley holding me, as I watched Roman being rolled away from me through the staff room and into the hall. I was let go and Miz just shook his head and told me to stay there. Like hell. I already wanted to go to the hospital and find my Roman there.
I was gasping and fighting my own tears but didn't dare let Miz see me cry. But I felt like I needed Roman more than my next breath. I literally felt like I could hardly breath and collapsed to the couch.
The door slammed shut behind them as I just sat there alone taking in all that had happened…
My body was still thrumming from all his touch, his tongue and kisses. What on earth had just happened between us? How in the world could I treat him like just a patient after that?!
