Title:
Dust In The Wind
Lyrics:
Kerry Livgren
Author:
CCT
Disclaimer:
I do not own the GW boys… nor do I own the lyrics to this song. ^^; I never
claimed I did.
Warnings:
This is sort of yaoi related… sort of. ^^; Does that make sense?
|KEY|
[Song
Lyrics]
'Thoughts'
|Trowa's
inner self|
//Another
one of Trowa's selves\\
***Dream
Sequence
==========
[I
close my eyes,
Only
for a moment]
Trowa sighed as he walked into
the living room. He slowly scanned the room noticing no one around. They were
probably busy taking care of the data for their latest mission. The Preventers
asked all of the Gundam pilots to help them take down a terrorist group on the
move. Trowa didn't really pay much attention to the details, the group could
handle it without him, and he knew it. So Trowa decided to stay out of everyone's
way, and only help when asked. Of course no one had asked yet.
The only reason Trowa came was
for one simple reason, Heero. It had been at least a year and a half since he
had last seen the Wing pilot. Trowa had sort of a crush on Heero when they were
fighting in the war and over time it hadn't gone away. Trowa figured he was
just being obsessive and didn't think much of it, at first. But as the year
rolled along Trowa had begun to feel an emptiness cover his soul. He knew what
it was, loneliness. He felt lonely without Heero, but couldn't (or wouldn't)
admit it. Well, at least not until he heard about this assignment. He jumped at
the chance to see Heero again, and that was when he realized he was truly
lonely for the Wing pilot's company.
Trowa slowly sat down on one of
the couches. He began to think about how nice it would if he could just tell
Heero how he felt. Or better yet have Heero return his feelings.
[And
the moment's gone]
Trowa let out a long sigh when
he realized that was probably impossible. Heero didn't seem like the type of
person who would fall in love with anyone, let alone another guy. Trowa sighed
once more as he turned to lie across the couch. He placed his hands behind his
head and stared up at the ceiling. He began picturing Heero in everyday
situations, a smile slowly gracing his lips.
//When
did it turn into love?\\ A voice inside Trowa's head asked.
|When
you first met him.| another voice whispered. Soon the images faded as reality
hit Trowa once again. Trowa frowned.
'Love can really hurt..' Trowa
thought.
//Yes…\\
|…It
can.|
[All
my dreams,
Pass
before my eyes, a curiosity.
Dust
in the wind,
All
they are is dust in the wind.]
'Maybe Heero could return my
feelings. Anything is possible, right?' Trowa began to think. 'I mean he is
human.'
//Is
he?\\
|He
doesn't act like one.|
'I know, but he still is. I
could see him softening up…holding me in the middle of the night…stroking my
hair as I fall asleep in his arms…God; I can taste his lips…'
//Heero
YUY!? Are you kidding me?\\ the voice laughed.
|You
are so pathetic Trowa.| the other added.
'I can dream, can't I?' Trowa
closed his eyes, leaning into the couch even more.
***
Heero walked into the room, his
eyes scanning the room. His eyes softening a bit as they fell upon Trowa's
sleeping form. He let a smile creep across his face. Trowa looked so peaceful
sleeping on the couch like that, his chest rising and falling softly.
Heero slowly made his way to
Trowa. The pilot on the couch didn't stir as Heero slowly Lifted Trowa's top
half, sliding down on the couch.
Trowa slowly opened his eyes as he felt arms
wrapping around his now sitting form.
Trowa looked up as his eyes were fully opened and a
smile appeared on his face. Heero looked down and also smiled.
"Home?" Heero nodded. "Good."
Trowa sighed happily, scooting back to get as close to Heero as possible.
"Trowa?" Trowa looked up.
"Yes?"
"Trowa?"
"Yes?" Trowa blinked.
"Trowa?"
***
Trowa gasped as he sat forward.
[Same
old song,
Just
a drop of water in an endless sea
All
we do,
Crumbles
to the ground,
Though
we refuse to see.]
Heero frowned as Trowa looked up
at him puzzled. And then a light shade of red streaked across Trowa's cheeks.
"Y-yes?" Trowa croaked out.
"We need you in the dinning
room. We are going over the basics of the mission." Heero stated flatly. Trowa
nodded slowly as his cheeks began to redden even more. Heero cocked an eyebrow
at Trowa's strange behavior. "You all right?" Trowa nodded again, slowly turning
to look at Heero.
"I'm fine…I just…" Trowa looked
Heero straight in the eye. "I'm fine…" Trowa whispered, his eyes falling to
stare at Heero's feet.
Heero walked over to the couch,
sitting down next to Trowa. Trowa's cheeks turned even redder as Heero's gaze
fell upon him once more. "You sure?" Heero was really concerned about the
Heavyarms pilot, it wasn't often Trowa seemed this disoriented.
//I
don't believe it.\\ the voice whispered.
|Heero,
actually sounds concerned.| the other added.
'Yeah…' Trowa thought, "…but
why?"
"Why what?" Trowa froze; he had
said the last part out loud.
"Nothing!" Trowa cursed himself
for answering so quickly.
//Nice
one Barton.\\
|Yeah,
he sure won't think any thing is wrong ~now~|
[Dust
in the wind,
All
we are is dust in the wind.
Don't
hang on,
Nothing
lasts forever.
But
the earth and sky.]
"Didn't sound like nothing."
Heero stood up, moving in front of Trowa. "Besides the fact that you are
blushing." Trowa blinked.
//You're
blushing!?\\
|Great~|
'I didn't know!' Trowa,
subconsciously, moved his right up and lightly touched his check. 'I must look
like an idiot…'
"Want to tell me what's wrong?"
Heero crossed his arms in front of his chest, almost in an intimidating
fashion.
"No…" Trowa still wouldn't look
Heero in the eye. "I'm fine. Really."
Heero looked Trowa over. Trowa's
reddened cheeks were beginning to fade. "If you are sure. Come on we need to
get the mission stats down." Heero turned and walked out of the room. Trowa
watched Heero leaved and then he sighed heavily.
[It
slips away,
All
your money won't another minute buy.
Dust
in the wind,
All
we are is dust in the wind]
//You
are a fool, you know that?\\ the voice laughed.
|Yeah!
You had a chance there to tell him! And you ignored it!| the other voice
screamed.
'That's not fair…I didn't see
you helping me!'
//Like
you would have listened.\\
'I would have!' Trowa screamed
in his mind. 'I would have…'
//You
better get going…\\
|They
are waiting for in the dinning room…|
'Yeah…I'm going…'
==========
And that was it. ^___^
