11. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART
John apologized and told Satine he had to stay alone for a while, to thin about this situation. He left the room and sat on a chair near the window. The young man leaned and lit a cigar. The despair started fulfilling his heart. This triangle's solve was clear for him, but it was still too hard to accept her. The artist remembered his first meeting with the beautiful young woman. He didn't suspect she would give him so much joy, love. and pain. John just wanted to help one confused soul. Now the things were different. He was in love with her. There was no doubt about. The greatest passion in his love, so flaming and sweet that made him sure he want to spend the rest of his life with her. Satine. Even her name was lighting a fire inside of him. No matter about all other mysterious fact. But they did matter. The meeting with Christian assured the. John couldn't live in the sweet fog of ignorance forever. The life wasn't fair, but what could he do about that? He took one woman who didn't belong to him, if it wasn't the incident on the port, now she would be with Christian, his best friend. Their friendship. Another circumstance. How could he take out the love from Christian? It would the meanest and mot selfish act in his life. John would suffer of pang of conscience all his life. In every way someone would be hurt. It depended on him how much pain would be caused. The evil part of his mind was telling him to send Christian to blazes, to forget about the entire story and run away with Satine. "Come on, what are you waiting for? Go, while she is still confused, lie to her. But don't let her go to him." "No, I can't do that!" "OK, Johnny, be a noble fool if you wish that!" It was the most suitable time to say goodbye with her, while his friend wasn't here. Full of pain, the young man got up and entered the other room. Satine was sitting on the chair gazing at the door. But when she heard the creak turned to him and said quickly. "We need to talk, John." "Yes, that's true. I must tell you my decision. But. not before I do this. He held her hands and set her up straight. She moved nervously. "It's not suitable time for this. He." "Shhh. It is important for me." John kissed her in the most tender and soft way he had ever kissed. It was the sweetest and mots bitter, because he knew this was the last time he could caress and touch the beautiful Satine. Their last kiss. it was so horrible to stop right now, but it was necessary. "I. wanted to tell you that I will always love you. You will always be in my heart. You were the first person in the world who made me feel this way. I'll have a special place for you. When you need help, when you need friend. To lose you. well, it will be painful. But I can't be with you anymore. I have no excuse. You belong to him."
"Wait. you are telling me goodbye?" Her eyes widened.
"Let's face the facts, Satine. If the Duke hadn't attacked you, you would have been with Christian. We would have meet again, but in different way. You love him and he loves you too. He is the one who got you out of the Moulin Rouge. He had saved you. I." He sighed. "I don't think I would have done that if I was instead of him. I'm selfish.
"No, you are not! If you were, now this conversation would be different."
"For God's sake, I'm trying to make it easier. Christian and you are connected long before you and me. We just met in the wrong place, at the wrong time. It is impossible love. Don't feel guilty for me. All I want is your happiness. He could make you happy."
"But I promised I would never leave you." Tears rolled down her cheeks. "I don't want to give you harm."
"I'm setting you free of your promise. Don't worry about me. Just go ahead and be happy."
Satine didn't reply and just sat back on the chair, leaning on the table. She looked sad and thoughtful.
"You gave me so much and I'm repaying you in this way."
"That's the second reason I don't want our love affair to keep on. I have no wish for gratitude. I would never be sure if you really love me or you are sorry for the fool John Green.
"I really loved you." Satine whispered. "I really love you. I mean, I'm still deeply fond of Christian, it hasn't changed. But I have got a corner in my heart. Only for you."
"That's enough, darling. May be in another life, under any other circumstances we will be together. But not now. In this life you must be with Christian.
"Thanks. for everything."
John apologized and told Satine he had to stay alone for a while, to thin about this situation. He left the room and sat on a chair near the window. The young man leaned and lit a cigar. The despair started fulfilling his heart. This triangle's solve was clear for him, but it was still too hard to accept her. The artist remembered his first meeting with the beautiful young woman. He didn't suspect she would give him so much joy, love. and pain. John just wanted to help one confused soul. Now the things were different. He was in love with her. There was no doubt about. The greatest passion in his love, so flaming and sweet that made him sure he want to spend the rest of his life with her. Satine. Even her name was lighting a fire inside of him. No matter about all other mysterious fact. But they did matter. The meeting with Christian assured the. John couldn't live in the sweet fog of ignorance forever. The life wasn't fair, but what could he do about that? He took one woman who didn't belong to him, if it wasn't the incident on the port, now she would be with Christian, his best friend. Their friendship. Another circumstance. How could he take out the love from Christian? It would the meanest and mot selfish act in his life. John would suffer of pang of conscience all his life. In every way someone would be hurt. It depended on him how much pain would be caused. The evil part of his mind was telling him to send Christian to blazes, to forget about the entire story and run away with Satine. "Come on, what are you waiting for? Go, while she is still confused, lie to her. But don't let her go to him." "No, I can't do that!" "OK, Johnny, be a noble fool if you wish that!" It was the most suitable time to say goodbye with her, while his friend wasn't here. Full of pain, the young man got up and entered the other room. Satine was sitting on the chair gazing at the door. But when she heard the creak turned to him and said quickly. "We need to talk, John." "Yes, that's true. I must tell you my decision. But. not before I do this. He held her hands and set her up straight. She moved nervously. "It's not suitable time for this. He." "Shhh. It is important for me." John kissed her in the most tender and soft way he had ever kissed. It was the sweetest and mots bitter, because he knew this was the last time he could caress and touch the beautiful Satine. Their last kiss. it was so horrible to stop right now, but it was necessary. "I. wanted to tell you that I will always love you. You will always be in my heart. You were the first person in the world who made me feel this way. I'll have a special place for you. When you need help, when you need friend. To lose you. well, it will be painful. But I can't be with you anymore. I have no excuse. You belong to him."
"Wait. you are telling me goodbye?" Her eyes widened.
"Let's face the facts, Satine. If the Duke hadn't attacked you, you would have been with Christian. We would have meet again, but in different way. You love him and he loves you too. He is the one who got you out of the Moulin Rouge. He had saved you. I." He sighed. "I don't think I would have done that if I was instead of him. I'm selfish.
"No, you are not! If you were, now this conversation would be different."
"For God's sake, I'm trying to make it easier. Christian and you are connected long before you and me. We just met in the wrong place, at the wrong time. It is impossible love. Don't feel guilty for me. All I want is your happiness. He could make you happy."
"But I promised I would never leave you." Tears rolled down her cheeks. "I don't want to give you harm."
"I'm setting you free of your promise. Don't worry about me. Just go ahead and be happy."
Satine didn't reply and just sat back on the chair, leaning on the table. She looked sad and thoughtful.
"You gave me so much and I'm repaying you in this way."
"That's the second reason I don't want our love affair to keep on. I have no wish for gratitude. I would never be sure if you really love me or you are sorry for the fool John Green.
"I really loved you." Satine whispered. "I really love you. I mean, I'm still deeply fond of Christian, it hasn't changed. But I have got a corner in my heart. Only for you."
"That's enough, darling. May be in another life, under any other circumstances we will be together. But not now. In this life you must be with Christian.
"Thanks. for everything."