Author's Note: All disclaimers from previous chapters apply. This epilogue is just to wrap up a few dangling strings, the sequel is already out. Anyway, this epilogue is really sappy and romantic, may give you a toothache.
Epilogue: How to Heal a Broken Heart
By: Xel-chan (now you know where to direct your rotten eggs
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Heero's Journal
I'll always remember Duo's words. What he said to me that day he decided to take the pill. I felt something clench my heart into a tight grasp when he told me he loved me. Duo is a lot braver than he seems in person. I used to dismiss him as the idiotic joker, but there's something deeper to him. I feel...like I want to understand him. Like I want to know what makes him tick. I want to know every single nuance of Duo Maxwell's thinking process. I want to know more about him in general. I'm beginning to sound like one of those corny romance novels. But Duo is one of the closest friends I've ever had. I don't want to dismiss this like it was nothing. Duo...Duo means something to me now. The thought of letting him go tears a hole in my heart. Is this love?
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Duo's Journal
The honeymoon is over. Now all I'm doing is sitting here, all by myself. I'm glad I got to tell Heero how I feel, even if he never speaks to me again. I got to feel how it felt to be held in his arms. I got to pretend that it would last forever. There were no Oz soldiers, there was no war. Just he and I together... He may never ever speak to me again, but at least I have that one memory to look back on.
I don't understand why my tears are smearing this page. Why am I crying? That's a really stupid question; I know why I'm crying. Why? Why can't it last forever? Why can't I be selfish and think of my own needs for once? It would have been so easy to stay female, to hide under an illusion. But when Heero said no matter what, we'd always be friends; I knew no matter what, I'd never be able to hide my true heart from those searching blue eyes.
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Duo's P.O.V.
As I closed the book, it was as if a dam had broken. The only time I had cried had been that time when I had been female. Really, who had I been trying to be strong for? Who cared if I cried every once in a while? I curled up into a ball as my body shook with the force of my sobs.
A tiny knock at my door startled me for a moment. It sounded rather timid. It couldn't be Heero, he was never timid. I took a few deep breathes and tried to stop sounding like I was crying.
"Who is it?" God, my voice broke.
"Duo, are you alright?" Oh shit, it was him.
"I'm fine" I shot back with as much force as possible. I wanted him to leave didn't I?
"Oh...okay." I heard him walk away. The sobs returned. I hadn't really wanted him to leave. It felt like my heart was breaking. My room door opened, I looked up, and through the blurriness, I saw Heero, bad fashion sense and all. We stood there frozen for a minute, our eyes locked as if seeing who would be first to break.
Then he closed my door, and walked over to me, and held me. In his arms I didn't have to hold back. He let me cry until my ribs were sore.
"He...Heero?" My voice sounded scratchy.
" Yes?" He stroked my hair gently.
" Why?"
He didn't try and play stupid. "Because, it hurts me to see you cry."
That answer so simply given, gave me hope. "Heero, are we still friends?"
"Don't ask stupid questions Duo."
"Do you think...we could ever be more than friends?"
He was silent for a few minutes. "Who knows what the future might bring. A good friend once told me to live for the moment."
I smiled and felt my eyes closing. I couldn't fight against it. " I love you Heero."
"Why?"
"Because," My hand went to his cheek, "maybe it's the ugly outfit, or maybe it's your personality, or maybe...maybe it's just because you're you."
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I hope you enjoyed this small wrap up for Changes. I'll see you all in Colors of War.
Epilogue: How to Heal a Broken Heart
By: Xel-chan (now you know where to direct your rotten eggs
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Heero's Journal
I'll always remember Duo's words. What he said to me that day he decided to take the pill. I felt something clench my heart into a tight grasp when he told me he loved me. Duo is a lot braver than he seems in person. I used to dismiss him as the idiotic joker, but there's something deeper to him. I feel...like I want to understand him. Like I want to know what makes him tick. I want to know every single nuance of Duo Maxwell's thinking process. I want to know more about him in general. I'm beginning to sound like one of those corny romance novels. But Duo is one of the closest friends I've ever had. I don't want to dismiss this like it was nothing. Duo...Duo means something to me now. The thought of letting him go tears a hole in my heart. Is this love?
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Duo's Journal
The honeymoon is over. Now all I'm doing is sitting here, all by myself. I'm glad I got to tell Heero how I feel, even if he never speaks to me again. I got to feel how it felt to be held in his arms. I got to pretend that it would last forever. There were no Oz soldiers, there was no war. Just he and I together... He may never ever speak to me again, but at least I have that one memory to look back on.
I don't understand why my tears are smearing this page. Why am I crying? That's a really stupid question; I know why I'm crying. Why? Why can't it last forever? Why can't I be selfish and think of my own needs for once? It would have been so easy to stay female, to hide under an illusion. But when Heero said no matter what, we'd always be friends; I knew no matter what, I'd never be able to hide my true heart from those searching blue eyes.
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Duo's P.O.V.
As I closed the book, it was as if a dam had broken. The only time I had cried had been that time when I had been female. Really, who had I been trying to be strong for? Who cared if I cried every once in a while? I curled up into a ball as my body shook with the force of my sobs.
A tiny knock at my door startled me for a moment. It sounded rather timid. It couldn't be Heero, he was never timid. I took a few deep breathes and tried to stop sounding like I was crying.
"Who is it?" God, my voice broke.
"Duo, are you alright?" Oh shit, it was him.
"I'm fine" I shot back with as much force as possible. I wanted him to leave didn't I?
"Oh...okay." I heard him walk away. The sobs returned. I hadn't really wanted him to leave. It felt like my heart was breaking. My room door opened, I looked up, and through the blurriness, I saw Heero, bad fashion sense and all. We stood there frozen for a minute, our eyes locked as if seeing who would be first to break.
Then he closed my door, and walked over to me, and held me. In his arms I didn't have to hold back. He let me cry until my ribs were sore.
"He...Heero?" My voice sounded scratchy.
" Yes?" He stroked my hair gently.
" Why?"
He didn't try and play stupid. "Because, it hurts me to see you cry."
That answer so simply given, gave me hope. "Heero, are we still friends?"
"Don't ask stupid questions Duo."
"Do you think...we could ever be more than friends?"
He was silent for a few minutes. "Who knows what the future might bring. A good friend once told me to live for the moment."
I smiled and felt my eyes closing. I couldn't fight against it. " I love you Heero."
"Why?"
"Because," My hand went to his cheek, "maybe it's the ugly outfit, or maybe it's your personality, or maybe...maybe it's just because you're you."
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I hope you enjoyed this small wrap up for Changes. I'll see you all in Colors of War.