Title: To Call You Mine
Author: Lisa
Chapter: 1
Rating: G
Author's Notes:
Hey! I'm back, bringing chapter 1 of "TCYM." Now, I have to say I am VERY happy about the reviews for this particular fic! I have NEVER gotten almost 40 reviews for just a prologue before! Please, please don't stop reviewing though! After all, it's your reviews that keep me going! Enjoy and don't forget to review!! ^_^
Disclaimers: Sailor Moon and the others don't belong to me, but this story does.
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The day had already been bad for Usagi already. She felt the deep emotions of shame and embarrassment overtake her in a frenzy of tears. The pillow became soaked with those drops of salty water. "How can I face everyone now?" she asked aloud, no one to hear her. The girl slumped into her bed and curled up into a ball to shed more of those crystalline tears of hers. "How can I go to school now?" Her mind slowly contemplated on who could have found her diary, but drew a blank. 'It was in my hands after math,' she thought silently, 'and then...perhaps I left it in my locker.' The thought comforted her a bit, and she got up from the ball and wiped the stray tears from her eyes. She washed up in the bathroom to hide her tear stains and came down to meet her parents for dinner.
"Mom..Dad..." Usagi greeted in a calm manner and seated herself. Her mother, Ikuko, passed her a plate and began to serve her, while Kenji, her dad, looked deeply into her eyes. Frightened that he could see something in them, she broke the gaze and began to eat her dinner, her eyes not for one second daring to meet his.
"How was school today?" he inquired, wiping his mouth quickly with a paper napkin and then took a sip of his tea.
"It was..." Usagi wanted to tell her parents about what happened and the urge to do the right thing was strong, but the fright of them yelling at her was greater. "Um...just like the usual," she lied.
"I see. Did you take the final exam today?"
"Iie, it is tomorrow," she answered quickly, taking a sip of her drink.
"Usagi, you need to pass all your exams," he replied sternly. "Can you do it?"
"I can try...my best.."
"Then your best it is. That is all your mother and I expect of you." Kenji became silent after saying that as the family ate. Usagi pushed a piece of meat with her fork, having suddenly lost her appetite. She knew that her parents wanted more than just her best. They wanted her to be the best. Usagi tried to the best of her ability to live up to their expectations, but the overwhelming pressure of school kept her from fully succeeding. Shingo, on the other hand, did extremely well when school came to play. He aced his tests with ease and did his homework without a stern word from anyone. Usagi sometimes envied her younger brother.
The blonde noticed how quiet it was without the annoyance of her younger brother Shingo around. He usually sat across from her at the table, making strange noises and teasing her. How nice it was that he was having dinner at a friend's house. 'I should enjoy it...' She couldn't though. The thoughts of the lost diary kept her from thoroughly enjoying her dinner and the quiet. 'Where could it be...and with who... I hope it's in my locker...please let it be in there...'
"Usagi, the big dance is coming up at your school, right?" her mother queried, trying to start up a conversation. That snapped Usagi out of her thoughts. She gasped sharply. "I almost forgot about it!"
"When is it dear?" she asked her daughter, sounding interested.
"In a week...at least I can get a dress by then.."
"And someone to go with?" her father interrupted. "Are you going to go with someone, Usagi?"
Usagi sighed in a melancholy fashion. "No...I have no one to go with..." Usagi missed the happy look on her father's face then. He didn't want this daughter to go out with anyone yet. He was a somewhat overprotective father, of sorts, who tried to cling onto the little girl image of his daughter as long as he could. Kenji sighed. He knew that Usagi was growing up so fast, and knew that he would have to let her go soon. 'But not now...'
The telephone rang then, disrupting any further conversing between the Tsukino household. As her father got up to get it, Usagi cringed. She was positive that it was one of her teachers calling.
***
Mamoru was mesmerized by Usagi's secrets, especially the secret feelings for him. He read each page with wonder and amazement as the bubbly girl in his class poured her entire heart and soul out on the pages before him.
Dear diary,
Today was one of those days that I dread. Mamoru,
the one whom I have a crush on...asked out Kishi, one of
the most stubborn girls in our school. Though I must admit,
she is quite beautiful..yet selfish...so selfish..
Oh Mamoru, when will I ever get the chance with you?
Usagi
Mamoru couldn't believe what he was reading, that the always cheerful Usagi would feel this way. She was so wonderful in class..but she seemed to different in these words she had written, she seemed to be so mature and understanding...wise, possessing some great inner charm. 'Still, I broke up with Katie days ago...' Then he realized the date to the entry. 'No wonder...this was written weeks ago..'
"Usagi..." he would whisper once in a while, feeling guilty that he never noticed this before, all those times she would smile at him when he passed back papers, or when he would look at her.
Dear diary,
Mamoru was absent today, most to my disappointment.
It has only been a day since I last saw him,
yet in my heart it seems like an eternity.
Even though he never notices me...it is still nice to see him. I
hope he will be here tomorrow.
Usagi
He read on and on, never stopping, never missing a word. I was until the last entry that he even looked up from the precious book in his arms. "Midnight..." he muttered. "Great. And I have a final tomorrow...still..." His hands turned to page to read her last entry. "I have to read it."
Dear diary,
Our end-of-the-year-school dance is coming up soon.
I have no one to go to it with...but maybe I can find someone..
My only wish would be for Mamoru to take me...that is
impossible though...he has so many girls who want him..
Girls who are much better than me. Just my dancing with him
would be a dream come true..
Good night diary,
Usagi
He took in a shaky breath and ran a hand though his think hair. "The dance...I had forgot about it..." It was a good thing that he had read that diary, to remind him of the dance coming up in a week...
Upon reading Usagi's honest entries, the young man began to look at her in a whole new light. Here she was, this wonderful girl who was mainly quiet all the time and who had a crush on him. 'How come I can't look at her the same way anymore?' Letting out a sigh, Mamoru didn't even bother to go to bed. Instead, he laid down on the couch and closed his eyes. Sleep claimed his instantly.
***
Usagi laid in her bed, tears flowing freely from her eyes. She had received a complete lecture from her parents after the phone call, just as she had imagined she would have. She was sent to her room with no dessert with tears in her eyes that threatened to overflow. Now, a few hours later, Usagi was still awake. From her half-open window, the blonde could see the full moon casting its glow over the world. Taking a glance at her clock to find that it was past midnight, she turned over and listened to her pet cat Luna breathing next to her, purring softly in her sleep. "Luna...I'm so alone...you're the only friend I can come to..." The seventeen-year-old hugged the black cat, softly stroking her warm fur as she hummed a soft melody. "Oh Luna..."
The cat awoke and purred loudly, and licking her master's face, and curled against her more closely. Her eyes seemed to talk to Usagi, to comfort and soothe her. Usagi giggled at her cat, and yawned, turning to once again see the full moon shining through her window. Sighing contentedly, she felt better now, and scooping the cat to her chest, she fell asleep.
She got up that morning and found her parents to have already left for work, a box of cereal and milk waiting ro her on the table. She didn't even bother to eat and just grabbed her lunch box, leaving the house at the speed of light. Her heart pounded from all the running, thoughts ran through her head as she ran down the streets, not caring, just running. She had to know...had to find out if her diary was really in her locker..or not. She silently prayed it was...but...it could not be...
Usagi ran into the school and opened the opened her locker. Inside, she found her books, all stacked neatly...yet her diary was not among them. "Iie...it..can't be..." She shivered and felt the rush of tears forming again. A lone tear ran down her cheek as she took out her language book and walked down the crowded hall. Her mind began to replay the events that happened...how the diary was safe in her arms..then gone when she got home. She remembered talking to Mamoru...
'Maybe his fan club took it from me..maybe I dropped it and they picked it up,' the girl thought bitterly. This was not good, she could feel it..and it scared her...deeply.
She half expected the whole class to burst out laughing when she entered the room, and breathed a sigh of relief when no one did. It seemed to be normal in class, Mamoru sitting two seats across from her, reading a novel of some sort. She smiled a bit and sat down, preparing to take the final exam. She felt nervous again. If she didn't pass this exam...then...it wouldn't be good.
What she didn't see was Mamoru taking glances at her. He seemed somewhat edgy, as if he kept having urges just to walk up to her something. 'But what could he possibly have to say to me?'
Mamoru put the book down with a sigh; he could just not concentrate on the novel when Usagi's eyes were upon him, taking in his every move.'We could be friends..' he contemplated. Somehow, he knew that wouldn't satisfy her. 'We can't be a couple...right?'
The English teacher walked in and took attendance. Then came the time of the testing. Usagi tried to act normal, although it was hard. This test and the others she was going to take was going to determine her future here...if she failed..then she would be in high school again next year...and everyone knows how embarrassing that would be. 'Besides, I wouldn't be able to see Mamoru again...'
"Mamoru, please pass out the tests," Mrs. Thomas said, handing the stack of tests to him. The teacher was an American woman in her mid-thirties who had come to the country to teach her native language to her students. She had a fair face, and a moderately stocky build. Brown curls swept past her shoulders and sharp green eyes that darkened to a deeper green color complimented her features.
"Yes ma'am," he replied and gladly took the tests from her hand. In his hands was a small piece of paper, or rather, a note for Usagi. As he came closer to her desk, he became more overwrought. He quickly gave her a test and practically threw the note down. Thankfully, Usagi had caught it and hid it away before anyone could see what happened. Her eyes were wide with curiosity.
During the test, Usagi had trouble concentrating. She did her best, though the note was fresh on her mind. Second period wasn't much better either. In seventh period, the math final was easier than she had thought. Usagi did it quickly, taking a look at the clock every five minutes. She still didn't have the time to read the note yet... The bell rang after she turned in her test and students left, including Mamoru. Usagi opened up the note hurriedly, and read it.
Usagi,
Please come to the park this afternoon,
I need to speak with you privately.
Mamoru
Her breath caught up in her throat, she ran to the park without a second thought. There, she met up with Mamoru.
"Usagi..."
"Mamoru..." she muttered, trying to catch her breath.
"I..." he started to say, slowly pulling out the diary from his book bag, "have something you might want back..."
Usagi gasped loudly, the note flying from her hand. "You...have it?"
"Hai..."
"And you...read everything?"
"Everything. I know how you feel about me now. But...I think we are better off getting to know each other better...and just be friends...not a couple..."
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Okay, I know this chapter wasn't my best, and it didn't have any mushy stuff, but I hope you've enjoyed! The next chapter will be better, I promise. Now, do you want the next chapter? The secret is to *gasp* REVIEW!!!! To more reviews I get, the faster the next chapter will be out. Or if you want, please send me an e-mail at LisaZUMstories@aol.com. It's up to you...well, bye!
This story written and posted May, 2001, edited March 2002 and October 2002.
Author: Lisa
Chapter: 1
Rating: G
Author's Notes:
Hey! I'm back, bringing chapter 1 of "TCYM." Now, I have to say I am VERY happy about the reviews for this particular fic! I have NEVER gotten almost 40 reviews for just a prologue before! Please, please don't stop reviewing though! After all, it's your reviews that keep me going! Enjoy and don't forget to review!! ^_^
Disclaimers: Sailor Moon and the others don't belong to me, but this story does.
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The day had already been bad for Usagi already. She felt the deep emotions of shame and embarrassment overtake her in a frenzy of tears. The pillow became soaked with those drops of salty water. "How can I face everyone now?" she asked aloud, no one to hear her. The girl slumped into her bed and curled up into a ball to shed more of those crystalline tears of hers. "How can I go to school now?" Her mind slowly contemplated on who could have found her diary, but drew a blank. 'It was in my hands after math,' she thought silently, 'and then...perhaps I left it in my locker.' The thought comforted her a bit, and she got up from the ball and wiped the stray tears from her eyes. She washed up in the bathroom to hide her tear stains and came down to meet her parents for dinner.
"Mom..Dad..." Usagi greeted in a calm manner and seated herself. Her mother, Ikuko, passed her a plate and began to serve her, while Kenji, her dad, looked deeply into her eyes. Frightened that he could see something in them, she broke the gaze and began to eat her dinner, her eyes not for one second daring to meet his.
"How was school today?" he inquired, wiping his mouth quickly with a paper napkin and then took a sip of his tea.
"It was..." Usagi wanted to tell her parents about what happened and the urge to do the right thing was strong, but the fright of them yelling at her was greater. "Um...just like the usual," she lied.
"I see. Did you take the final exam today?"
"Iie, it is tomorrow," she answered quickly, taking a sip of her drink.
"Usagi, you need to pass all your exams," he replied sternly. "Can you do it?"
"I can try...my best.."
"Then your best it is. That is all your mother and I expect of you." Kenji became silent after saying that as the family ate. Usagi pushed a piece of meat with her fork, having suddenly lost her appetite. She knew that her parents wanted more than just her best. They wanted her to be the best. Usagi tried to the best of her ability to live up to their expectations, but the overwhelming pressure of school kept her from fully succeeding. Shingo, on the other hand, did extremely well when school came to play. He aced his tests with ease and did his homework without a stern word from anyone. Usagi sometimes envied her younger brother.
The blonde noticed how quiet it was without the annoyance of her younger brother Shingo around. He usually sat across from her at the table, making strange noises and teasing her. How nice it was that he was having dinner at a friend's house. 'I should enjoy it...' She couldn't though. The thoughts of the lost diary kept her from thoroughly enjoying her dinner and the quiet. 'Where could it be...and with who... I hope it's in my locker...please let it be in there...'
"Usagi, the big dance is coming up at your school, right?" her mother queried, trying to start up a conversation. That snapped Usagi out of her thoughts. She gasped sharply. "I almost forgot about it!"
"When is it dear?" she asked her daughter, sounding interested.
"In a week...at least I can get a dress by then.."
"And someone to go with?" her father interrupted. "Are you going to go with someone, Usagi?"
Usagi sighed in a melancholy fashion. "No...I have no one to go with..." Usagi missed the happy look on her father's face then. He didn't want this daughter to go out with anyone yet. He was a somewhat overprotective father, of sorts, who tried to cling onto the little girl image of his daughter as long as he could. Kenji sighed. He knew that Usagi was growing up so fast, and knew that he would have to let her go soon. 'But not now...'
The telephone rang then, disrupting any further conversing between the Tsukino household. As her father got up to get it, Usagi cringed. She was positive that it was one of her teachers calling.
***
Mamoru was mesmerized by Usagi's secrets, especially the secret feelings for him. He read each page with wonder and amazement as the bubbly girl in his class poured her entire heart and soul out on the pages before him.
Dear diary,
Today was one of those days that I dread. Mamoru,
the one whom I have a crush on...asked out Kishi, one of
the most stubborn girls in our school. Though I must admit,
she is quite beautiful..yet selfish...so selfish..
Oh Mamoru, when will I ever get the chance with you?
Usagi
Mamoru couldn't believe what he was reading, that the always cheerful Usagi would feel this way. She was so wonderful in class..but she seemed to different in these words she had written, she seemed to be so mature and understanding...wise, possessing some great inner charm. 'Still, I broke up with Katie days ago...' Then he realized the date to the entry. 'No wonder...this was written weeks ago..'
"Usagi..." he would whisper once in a while, feeling guilty that he never noticed this before, all those times she would smile at him when he passed back papers, or when he would look at her.
Dear diary,
Mamoru was absent today, most to my disappointment.
It has only been a day since I last saw him,
yet in my heart it seems like an eternity.
Even though he never notices me...it is still nice to see him. I
hope he will be here tomorrow.
Usagi
He read on and on, never stopping, never missing a word. I was until the last entry that he even looked up from the precious book in his arms. "Midnight..." he muttered. "Great. And I have a final tomorrow...still..." His hands turned to page to read her last entry. "I have to read it."
Dear diary,
Our end-of-the-year-school dance is coming up soon.
I have no one to go to it with...but maybe I can find someone..
My only wish would be for Mamoru to take me...that is
impossible though...he has so many girls who want him..
Girls who are much better than me. Just my dancing with him
would be a dream come true..
Good night diary,
Usagi
He took in a shaky breath and ran a hand though his think hair. "The dance...I had forgot about it..." It was a good thing that he had read that diary, to remind him of the dance coming up in a week...
Upon reading Usagi's honest entries, the young man began to look at her in a whole new light. Here she was, this wonderful girl who was mainly quiet all the time and who had a crush on him. 'How come I can't look at her the same way anymore?' Letting out a sigh, Mamoru didn't even bother to go to bed. Instead, he laid down on the couch and closed his eyes. Sleep claimed his instantly.
***
Usagi laid in her bed, tears flowing freely from her eyes. She had received a complete lecture from her parents after the phone call, just as she had imagined she would have. She was sent to her room with no dessert with tears in her eyes that threatened to overflow. Now, a few hours later, Usagi was still awake. From her half-open window, the blonde could see the full moon casting its glow over the world. Taking a glance at her clock to find that it was past midnight, she turned over and listened to her pet cat Luna breathing next to her, purring softly in her sleep. "Luna...I'm so alone...you're the only friend I can come to..." The seventeen-year-old hugged the black cat, softly stroking her warm fur as she hummed a soft melody. "Oh Luna..."
The cat awoke and purred loudly, and licking her master's face, and curled against her more closely. Her eyes seemed to talk to Usagi, to comfort and soothe her. Usagi giggled at her cat, and yawned, turning to once again see the full moon shining through her window. Sighing contentedly, she felt better now, and scooping the cat to her chest, she fell asleep.
She got up that morning and found her parents to have already left for work, a box of cereal and milk waiting ro her on the table. She didn't even bother to eat and just grabbed her lunch box, leaving the house at the speed of light. Her heart pounded from all the running, thoughts ran through her head as she ran down the streets, not caring, just running. She had to know...had to find out if her diary was really in her locker..or not. She silently prayed it was...but...it could not be...
Usagi ran into the school and opened the opened her locker. Inside, she found her books, all stacked neatly...yet her diary was not among them. "Iie...it..can't be..." She shivered and felt the rush of tears forming again. A lone tear ran down her cheek as she took out her language book and walked down the crowded hall. Her mind began to replay the events that happened...how the diary was safe in her arms..then gone when she got home. She remembered talking to Mamoru...
'Maybe his fan club took it from me..maybe I dropped it and they picked it up,' the girl thought bitterly. This was not good, she could feel it..and it scared her...deeply.
She half expected the whole class to burst out laughing when she entered the room, and breathed a sigh of relief when no one did. It seemed to be normal in class, Mamoru sitting two seats across from her, reading a novel of some sort. She smiled a bit and sat down, preparing to take the final exam. She felt nervous again. If she didn't pass this exam...then...it wouldn't be good.
What she didn't see was Mamoru taking glances at her. He seemed somewhat edgy, as if he kept having urges just to walk up to her something. 'But what could he possibly have to say to me?'
Mamoru put the book down with a sigh; he could just not concentrate on the novel when Usagi's eyes were upon him, taking in his every move.'We could be friends..' he contemplated. Somehow, he knew that wouldn't satisfy her. 'We can't be a couple...right?'
The English teacher walked in and took attendance. Then came the time of the testing. Usagi tried to act normal, although it was hard. This test and the others she was going to take was going to determine her future here...if she failed..then she would be in high school again next year...and everyone knows how embarrassing that would be. 'Besides, I wouldn't be able to see Mamoru again...'
"Mamoru, please pass out the tests," Mrs. Thomas said, handing the stack of tests to him. The teacher was an American woman in her mid-thirties who had come to the country to teach her native language to her students. She had a fair face, and a moderately stocky build. Brown curls swept past her shoulders and sharp green eyes that darkened to a deeper green color complimented her features.
"Yes ma'am," he replied and gladly took the tests from her hand. In his hands was a small piece of paper, or rather, a note for Usagi. As he came closer to her desk, he became more overwrought. He quickly gave her a test and practically threw the note down. Thankfully, Usagi had caught it and hid it away before anyone could see what happened. Her eyes were wide with curiosity.
During the test, Usagi had trouble concentrating. She did her best, though the note was fresh on her mind. Second period wasn't much better either. In seventh period, the math final was easier than she had thought. Usagi did it quickly, taking a look at the clock every five minutes. She still didn't have the time to read the note yet... The bell rang after she turned in her test and students left, including Mamoru. Usagi opened up the note hurriedly, and read it.
Usagi,
Please come to the park this afternoon,
I need to speak with you privately.
Mamoru
Her breath caught up in her throat, she ran to the park without a second thought. There, she met up with Mamoru.
"Usagi..."
"Mamoru..." she muttered, trying to catch her breath.
"I..." he started to say, slowly pulling out the diary from his book bag, "have something you might want back..."
Usagi gasped loudly, the note flying from her hand. "You...have it?"
"Hai..."
"And you...read everything?"
"Everything. I know how you feel about me now. But...I think we are better off getting to know each other better...and just be friends...not a couple..."
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Okay, I know this chapter wasn't my best, and it didn't have any mushy stuff, but I hope you've enjoyed! The next chapter will be better, I promise. Now, do you want the next chapter? The secret is to *gasp* REVIEW!!!! To more reviews I get, the faster the next chapter will be out. Or if you want, please send me an e-mail at LisaZUMstories@aol.com. It's up to you...well, bye!
This story written and posted May, 2001, edited March 2002 and October 2002.