Chapter3
When I woke it was late in the afternoon about 2 3:00. At first I thought it was all a bad dream, But when I saw Hedwig's body lying next to me I knew it was far from a dream.
I couldn't believe the Dursleys hadn't woken me up to cook, Wash, Or clean anything yet. I heard something at the window I looked up and infront of me behind the bars were two owls, One was a big brown barn owl from Hogwarts, And the other was a ginger owl with black spots on both wings.
I could just see that the spotted owl had brought a neat tidy later from Hermione I didn't care though I didn't deserve to go back to Hogwarts again, I didn't deserve biscuits,cakes, And Choclate Frogs after I moderered(Forgot how to spell it) my own owl friend.
After a few minutes the two Owls got sick and tired of waiting for me to take there letters so they flew away. I watched sadly as the two Owls parted at the horizen and went there seperate ways.
Thats how it was for days Owls came and Owls went. I got fed one plain half a roll, And half a glass of water from Aunt Petunia once a day. I didn't argue though I was glad to get anything. And if I was lucky enough I would get Dudley's old scraps from lunch.
The beatings from Uncle Vernon only happened twice a week now since Aunt Petunia decided to cut the no sex for a month out, And once or twice a day Dudley would come into the lounge room showing of some delicious food while I cleaned and washed.
I had been at the Dursley's house for a week and 3 days now and I still had Hedwig's body in my room(If you would call it a room that is) Hedwig's body stank of rotten eggs and old socks(Even older then mine) But I didn't care I was the one that put her in that state.
One early morning I lay awake on the cupboard floor since there was no bed to lie on. I was looking at Hedwig intently, I whispered under my breath, "I am selfish," "I could have saved Hedwig but I didn't I am selfish."
I constanly muttered that under my breath for hours on end. If some one were to see me now they would probably ring up the mental hospital and see if anyone had escaped recently.
For a whole day I just stared blankly into thin air telling myself I was selfish. More then once I caught myself staring at the butcher's knife Uncle Vernon hadn't put back in the kitchen yet.
I decided to punish myself every now and then by cutting my arms,legs, And even my face with the large sharp knife not even caring that it hurt and was destroying my skin, I even started to ask Uncle Vernon to beat me more often which was pretty weird.
Days past by I didn't eat or drink anything. The Dursley's had decided to leave me in the cupboard and not let me out ever since I threatened Dudley with a spoon when I was cleaning the dishes one afternoon,
I only threatened Dudley with a spoon because he kept putting ice cream in my face. As 3 more days plast by Hedwig's body had slowly began to turn to bones and stunk more then before.
A little like me except my bones were covered with skin but you could almost see through my flesh which hadn't surprised me since I hadn't ate in weeks. As I looked out to the horizen through my bars one night I saw something that wasn't part of the horizen.
Something flying it was bigger then a fly, Bigger then a bird, And bigger then a plane. But what ever it was it was flying towards my window.
To be continued.....
When I woke it was late in the afternoon about 2 3:00. At first I thought it was all a bad dream, But when I saw Hedwig's body lying next to me I knew it was far from a dream.
I couldn't believe the Dursleys hadn't woken me up to cook, Wash, Or clean anything yet. I heard something at the window I looked up and infront of me behind the bars were two owls, One was a big brown barn owl from Hogwarts, And the other was a ginger owl with black spots on both wings.
I could just see that the spotted owl had brought a neat tidy later from Hermione I didn't care though I didn't deserve to go back to Hogwarts again, I didn't deserve biscuits,cakes, And Choclate Frogs after I moderered(Forgot how to spell it) my own owl friend.
After a few minutes the two Owls got sick and tired of waiting for me to take there letters so they flew away. I watched sadly as the two Owls parted at the horizen and went there seperate ways.
Thats how it was for days Owls came and Owls went. I got fed one plain half a roll, And half a glass of water from Aunt Petunia once a day. I didn't argue though I was glad to get anything. And if I was lucky enough I would get Dudley's old scraps from lunch.
The beatings from Uncle Vernon only happened twice a week now since Aunt Petunia decided to cut the no sex for a month out, And once or twice a day Dudley would come into the lounge room showing of some delicious food while I cleaned and washed.
I had been at the Dursley's house for a week and 3 days now and I still had Hedwig's body in my room(If you would call it a room that is) Hedwig's body stank of rotten eggs and old socks(Even older then mine) But I didn't care I was the one that put her in that state.
One early morning I lay awake on the cupboard floor since there was no bed to lie on. I was looking at Hedwig intently, I whispered under my breath, "I am selfish," "I could have saved Hedwig but I didn't I am selfish."
I constanly muttered that under my breath for hours on end. If some one were to see me now they would probably ring up the mental hospital and see if anyone had escaped recently.
For a whole day I just stared blankly into thin air telling myself I was selfish. More then once I caught myself staring at the butcher's knife Uncle Vernon hadn't put back in the kitchen yet.
I decided to punish myself every now and then by cutting my arms,legs, And even my face with the large sharp knife not even caring that it hurt and was destroying my skin, I even started to ask Uncle Vernon to beat me more often which was pretty weird.
Days past by I didn't eat or drink anything. The Dursley's had decided to leave me in the cupboard and not let me out ever since I threatened Dudley with a spoon when I was cleaning the dishes one afternoon,
I only threatened Dudley with a spoon because he kept putting ice cream in my face. As 3 more days plast by Hedwig's body had slowly began to turn to bones and stunk more then before.
A little like me except my bones were covered with skin but you could almost see through my flesh which hadn't surprised me since I hadn't ate in weeks. As I looked out to the horizen through my bars one night I saw something that wasn't part of the horizen.
Something flying it was bigger then a fly, Bigger then a bird, And bigger then a plane. But what ever it was it was flying towards my window.
To be continued.....