Author: miku
Disclaimer: Standard disclaimer applies in this fic.
Warning: This story contains shounen-ai (boy/boy relationship) and if that offends you, better leave. I may add some lime or something like that (m.a.y.b.e) but I'll warn you before you can proceed.
I added a few lines to Part 12! So please check if you have read the "somehow" revised Part 12. When I read it, it was full of errors. ^^; I was so engrossed writing the part that… well… I did not check my writings anymore. Oh well…
Oh! Lime alert!! My friend told me that it's not really advisable to write a very long fiction with no lime in it. She's right although I'm trying hard to write one without it. But Sendoh's here anyway and what do you expect. ^^;;
Sendoh: WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT?!?!?
Miku: ^^;;; gomen ne, Sendoh-san… ehehehehe
Part Thirteen
Getting Complicated
He had been so unusual that day.
He had a poor game play during their practice that afternoon. He had missed many (actually only few, but it already meant "many" for him) shots and the others had easily eluded him at several (still few… ^^;) times.
But most of all, he did the most impossible thing everybody would think of him to do.
He actually went to check for his teammate and that was so untypical of him. Yet, he felt somehow at eased. He felt contentment upon seeing Sakuragi alright. It was a very achieving moment. He actually showed his concern and there had been a witness too. Mito Yohei. He wondered what the latter would think of him.
But he was to blame, right? He was the reason why Sakuragi was indifferent during the past days even though he tried to deny the fact. So it's not as if he really cared. He's just guilty and responsible.
"I don't know. I think I'm falling for you yet I could not accept it. I kept on denying it. I'm not sure. It's wrong I know. People might hate me for it. And most all you might hate me for it but it just kept hurting me. It just kept hurting me every time I would try to deny it and see you with that bastard Sendoh. I don't know… I'm just… I'm really… I'm really confused…"
How could a guy like Sakuragi Hanamichi like him? Or even fall for him? He was an unlikable guy really even though girls worship him like some idol or something. But he was not worthy of any of it. He was so cold and distant. Always aloof and unconcerned… or maybe he did care but he could not show it.
So what's so good in him that made even Sakuragi… like him?
He should admit to himself that when it comes to personality, Sakuragi was better. He's only good in basketball and nothing more. So what if he's good looking? As if that's the only whole of him, right?
He's not worthy of all these affection.
Maybe he should go to America already. Maybe now is the right time…
"So, our pretty boy is in deep thought, huh?" Rukawa heard someone uttered behind him and he knew that voice. Sendoh. Surprised he had been, he just snorted and continued walking.
"Oi, matte Kaede-kun!"
Sendoh ran to him and walked beside him. "Mind if I walk with you?"
Rukawa did not answer and Sendoh took it as a "yes".
They walked in a comfortable silence until they reached Rukawa's apartment.
He did not want to be with anyone tonight yet he felt like he owed Sendoh one this time. He did not like the feeling of gratitude and actually wanting to return kindness… but… "Come in if you want to…" he offered coldly (or as cold as he could manage). Sendoh smiled and followed him inside.
The room was neat. Unlike Sendoh's place, and to think that Rukawa was living alone… I bet he'll pass as a wife… Sendoh thought happily.
After dumping his bag to one corner, Rukawa went immediately to the small kitchen after telling Sendoh to "make himself comfortable" or something like that.
And so did the older man. He roamed his eyes and checked everything he could check, like the awards and trophies displayed, the CD's organized in the rack, the books collected in the cabinet – they were mostly novels. There was quite a collection of Air Jordan and Nike's. And the only pictures in the place were the Tomigaoka Team when Rukawa was still the captain and the Shohoku Team when Akagi, Mitsui and Kogure were still there.
His eyes returned to the CD's and he studied some. Most of them were rock and slow metal. Sendoh smiled. Just looking at Rukawa, he could already conclude that he was not into pop or ballad. He might seem a loner and a calm one but he still reflected the aura of an untamed and wild fox.
Sendoh's grin widened. Perhaps Sakuragi was right of calling Rukawa "kitsune"…
Sakuragi…
He was glad that the redhead was not thinking of fighting him for Rukawa. But then… maybe he was still uncertain of his feelings. It was obvious when they talked after their one-on-one.
"Here," Rukawa's voice brought him out of his reverie.
He looked up and smiled and uttered a cheerful "thanks!" Then he looked at the foods served before him – Iced tea and cake. Hm. But wait, he had never seen this cake sold in any bakeshop here in Kanagawa…
"You made this?" Sendoh could not help but ask.
"Would that matter?" Rukawa asked in return. He sat next to Sendoh on the couch and reached for the remote control of the T.V. and opened it.
"Yeah. So answer me okay? Did you make this?"
Sendoh could hear Rukawa grunted for a moment before he nodded.
So, Kaede-kun knows how to bake. Impressive… "Really, Kaede-kun? Will you teach me how sometime?" he begged together with his puppy dog eyes. This used to work against Kosh… he mentally reminded himself.
"Hn."
"Oh, come on Kaede-kunnnn!!!" he pleaded.
Rukawa sighed and rolled his eyes. This scene was like a déjà vu already. But… just not let Sendoh do what he did before…
"Okay, okay. Now shut up I'm watching," Rukawa answered irritated. Sendoh beamed and began eating the cake.
It sure tasted good. Very good.
Sendoh concentrated on eating and Rukawa on watching. But their minds were adrift.
Maybe this was the right moment. Should he tell Rukawa what he feels for him? Maybe. Maybe now before Sakuragi could make up his own emotions and finally confess.
He watched the younger boy carefully. He was very beautiful in a manly way. Yet, beautiful enough to turn a man on. His eyes seemed so cold at times but when they began to show emotion, one could almost drown in them.
He watched Rukawa parted his lips to sip his drinks. He watched how the pink tongue wipe the wetness of juice on his lips. He had watched them before and it still had the same effect. Could he really kiss him now? Could he? Would it be wrong?
Sendoh slowly placed his glass to the table.
"Kaede…" he called suddenly serious. Rukawa was not used to this so he glanced at the taller man and looked at him questioningly. "Kaede… It might seem strange for you… but…" Sendoh tried to continue but he was quickly lost for word. He just stared pleadingly at Rukawa hoping that his eyes could declare what he wanted to say.
Those deep blue eyes…
"You are so beautiful Kaede…" he spoke suddenly unaware that he had just. Sendoh reached for Rukawa's face, stroking it gently. Rukawa was left frozen in his place.
"You are so beautiful…" Sendoh repeated before leaning over the raven boy and kissed him. He meant it to be a short and chaste one. But as soon as his lips touched Rukawa's, he just felt the desire to do… more…
Rukawa was taken aback. He had never expected this. And not with another man. Not with Sendoh. But Sendoh was kissing him and he could not do anything. His body seemed to have gone paralyzed. Or maybe… or just maybe because Sendoh was a good kisser and Rukawa could almost feel like responding. And respond he did. He just realized it though when they were already lying on the couch, Sendoh on top of him, kissing him in a way he never imagined. He was beginning to lose air. He clutched to Sendoh's collar and tried to push the other boy.
Sendoh realized that the younger boy was having a difficulty in breathing so he stopped and pulled himself up. Rukawa looked so seductive than ever with his hair tousled, cheeks flushing and lips wet that he could not help but quickly lean again for another kiss, hotter and more passionate this time. Rukawa's inexperience heightened his desire even more.
He made his way down and was now kissing Rukawa's neck, biting it slightly and sucking the smooth, soft flesh. Rukawa writhe underneath him and even released a silent groan.
Rukawa knew that it was not right yet it felt wonderful. But still, it was not right. Especially with someone of the same gender. He tried to push Sendoh but failed. He could feel Sendoh's lips descending more from his neck trailing its path to the junction of Rukawa's neck and shoulder. Rukawa knew he would lose control if this moment goes on. He pushed Sendoh harder this time and succeeded. They were now staring at one another blushing furiously in realization to what just happened.
However, Rukawa quickly regained composure. He looked at a different direction and discreetly supported himself up – it was difficult though having Sendoh still on top of him.
"I think you should leave now," Rukawa advised coolly.
After a short moment, Sendoh nodded. "Yeah. I guess so…" then he stood up, freeing Rukawa at last, and subtly fixed the polo shirt he was wearing.
None of them tried to look at each other straight in the eye. After bidding a silent farewell, Sendoh left.
Rukawa slumped to the couch rubbing his forehead thinking "what had he done".
To be continued…
Miku: ^^; I'm not good with lime so pardon minna. The lime scene was needed really. Really! I did not just add that to have a lime scene! It had it's purpose! +_+
Sendoh: You don't have to explain it, miku-chan. The readers understand it, I'm sure.
Sakuragi: You're just happy because you were able to kiss Kaede in that part!
Miku: *eyes narrowed slyly* jealous, Hana-kun…???
Sakuragi: OF COURSE NOT! Why would the Tensai get jealous especially to that spiky smiley baka!?!?
Miku: Then I guess I'll be making a lemon next time, ne, Sendoh-san? What'dya think of it??
Sendoh: *grins mischievously* That's the soundest thing I've ever heard from you.
Sakuragi: OI!!!!!!!