Author: miku
Disclaimer: Standard disclaimer applies in this fic.
Warning: This story contains shounen-ai (boy/boy relationship) and if that offends you, better leave. I may add some lime or something like that (m.a.y.b.e) but I'll warn you before you can proceed.
Another note minna! I've changed some errors and added some lines in Part 13! ^^;; gomen ne… Maybe next time I should check before I publish, ne? I'm just really excited to impart the scenes to you! ^^;;
Sendoh: So, are you really making a lemon, Miku-chan?? *blink blink*
Miku: Ahh… Sendoh-san… I'll think about it… ^^;;
Actually, I was really, really, really, REALLY guilty of writing the "lime" (if that's already lime to you) part. Ehehe… I'm not used to. But anyway, as I've told you, it's REALLY needed for the story to go on. ^^;;
But I don't think I can write a lemon… oh well… who knows… what do you say minna??? I'm having one lemon part in my mind, and yes, it's still needed in the story. But I'm trying hard to avoid it. What do you say???
Part Fourteen
A Best Friend's Advice
WHAT HAD HE DONE!?
Was he stupid or what!? He kissed Kaede and almost went beyond it! Why did he not think about everything first. Maybe because he was a coward to be defeated by Sakuragi? Or was he really a spiky-head hentai?
No. He really did not plan of kissing the younger boy. It's just that seeing those deep blue eyes and the beautiful face made the atmosphere heavy and he just felt the urge to… well… kiss him.
It was obvious that it was Kaede's first kiss and that made Sendoh somehow glad. He was Kaede's first kiss. Shallow it might seem and too 'girly', he was still happy. Kaede's lips tasted naturally sweet unlike the lipstick coated pout of his previous girlfriends (or if he could call them that). Actually, everything in the past were just 'flings' and those girls knew it. They were just so willing to be Sendoh's even just for a short time. And it was difficult for a man to avoid temptation, right?
But Kaede was different. He was a challenge. He was innocent. He was a whole new change from all the girls Sendoh had before. Of course how could he not be? He was a man for pete's sake! But then, seeing the beautiful face made Sendoh forgot anything about gender. Every time he's with Kaede, they're just Sendoh and Kaede, no more.
But what now?
Would Kaede hate him now? He told him to leave, right? His voice might have been calm but yet… that's just so Kaede.
Did that mean that the raven boy did not care?
That would hurt a lot. But maybe it would be better than be avoided. He could not live if Kaede would not talk to him and see him.
He's getting so unlike him.
The Sendoh that people knew was the Sendoh who would care less about heartache. More so, he was the one who never knew what heartache was. Or so they thought.
He knew heartache and rejection and had experienced it many times yet he did not show it.
And that was the Sendoh people knew – the Sendoh with the mask and not the real one.
When could he be himself?
Kaede… Sendoh uttered silently in the night hoping that the young boy's image would soothe him.
He stirred from the bed and opened his eyes. His room was well lit now but he could not remember of turning them on since… what… about three days or so?
He heard noise from the other side of the room and quickly recognized his best friend. Yohei was cleaning up the mess he had done. The bottles of beer were already gone. He smiled wistfully.
I thought you were him… Sakuragi, not knowing, thought it out loud.
"Of course Rukawa was here before Hanamichi," Yohei answered, smiling at his friend whose eyes just widened upon hearing him.
He came? He was here? I was not dreaming?
"Yes, you were not dreaming, Hanamichi," Yohei said as if reading his friend's mind.
The redhead tried to get up. Sitting on the bed now, he massaged his throbbing head.
"I never thought of it really," Yohei started telling. "I never thought that he would come to you. I never thought that he would be the one to comfort you…"
"Yohei…"
"You love him, don't you, Hanamichi?" his best friend suddenly asked but still serious. Sakuragi was caught unguarded and he actually stammered on what to say.
"I- I don't Yohei! He's just… he's just a friend and…" Sakuragi tried defending.
"Liar. You already confessed it a while ago, baka!" Yohei teased and continued cleaning the beer spills.
"I- I did what?!" the redhead suddenly exclaimed unbelievingly.
"You already admitted it a while ago, Hanamichi, though indirectly. But you're point was very clear."
"With whom did I admit that?!" He demanded for an answer unaware now that he was furiously blushing and that his voice was very loud.
"With him. And I heard that," his friend answered calmly. Yohei halted from what he was doing and walked towards his friend who was still looking at him flustered, embarrassed, surprised… so many emotions. Yohei could not help but pity his friend yet at the same time smile… smile because he did not expect this reaction from his best friend. He was expecting for Sakuragi to yell at him and punch him, kick him and headbump him… but… his reaction was totally… different.
His friend changed a lot.
"Do you love him, Hanamichi?" his friend asked again, this time without the smile.
"I- I don't… I like Haruko and…"
Yohei smacked his forehead lightly as if in exasperation…? "You like Haruko. Yes. I know that. You like her as what?"
Sakuragi was silent. He never expected this question nor had questioned himself this before. "I… I wanted her to be my girlfriend…"
"Wanted… do you still want her to be your girlfriend now?"
It took another long time before he could answer, "Yes. I guess…"
Yohei smiled and held Sakuragi's shoulders. "Then tell me, do you love her?"
Love her… Of course he like Haruko! He should not doubt about it! Like her… love her… He was getting confused again. He thought he already sorted out his feelings with… Rukawa… a while ago… but then…
Had he really sorted out his feelings?
Had he really admitted something he should've not?
"Yohei… tell me… what do you think…"
"Hanamichi, I cannot tell you what you are feeling. It's your heart we're talking about here and not mine. All I can do is help you to think. But if you'll ask me… all I can say is that you've changed a lot… after being closed with Rukawa…"
Did I? Did I really change? So it's not good… perhaps… because I changed…
"Look here Hanamichi. I'll tell you one thing. Love makes you foolish but not literally like you have to look the most idiot creature there is. No matter how comfortable you would be to someone you love, it would still change you. You don't love someone because of what you see and what you think…"
"Yohei…"
"I'm not dictating you of what your feeling is but you know what? You've matured… only now…"
"Yohei…" Sakuragi could not say anything but only his friend's name. He was actually digesting what Yohei was telling him and it was so unusual of him. Before, he would just close his ear and stuck to what he believed… but now… he needed all help and advise he could get.
Yohei stood up and tapped Sakuragi's shoulder before he turned his back on him and went towards the door. "I guess I'll be leaving now, Hanamichi. Kaasan would be… worried. He might think I am out fighting… you know…" he spoke followed by a tense chuckle.
"Aa…" Sakuragi's eyes were darted outside the window but was seeing nothing… Yohei noticed it and smiled sympathetically at his friend.
"I'm going," Yohei announced once more. Sakuragi only nodded in response. "And Hanamichi," he called before he went out of the door, "Love doesn't need to be loud…" he advised once more before closing the door. Sakuragi was now staring blankly at the closed door.
TO be continued…
Miku: How's that minna? Yohei was so kind, ne?
Sendoh: How come Sakuragi received an advice from a friend and I am all alone thinking??
Sakuragi: BECAUSE I AM LOVED BY MANY! NYAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Miku and Sendoh sweatdropped
Sendoh: Nah-nah-nah… Because I am not as dumb as you to need another's point of view to sort my feelings! That's it! Yeah!!
Sakuragi: YOU!! YOU SPIKY-HEAD IDIOT-SMILEY HENTAI!!!
Miku: *sweatdropped* well minna… again… what do you say about lemon??? Ehehehehehe…
Sendoh: YAIY!!! You're so kind Miku-chaaaaannn!!!!!
Sakuragi: *glares*
Miku: Who said it's going to be for you, Sendoh-san??? *wink wink*
Sendoh: Miku-chaaaannn!!!!
Sakuragi: NYAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Miku: And why are you so happy, Hana-kun??? It won't be for you too… *wink wink*
LAST NOTE: There may be errors here again and… hehe… I'm lazy at editing… just… understand the story minna… ehehehehe… ^^;;
… Where's Rukawa anway??? …
Sendoh: *sneaked* Too dumbfounded from my kiss… ^_~ *received headbump from Sakuragi*