Title: Passion
Author: Roxy
Spoilers: No Spoilers, stuff from old seasons like season 2 and 3
Disclaimer: I don't own any characters. "Buffy The Vampire Slayer" Belongs to UPN, and Joss Whendon.
Summary: B/A. F/T (Yes. there is f/f slash in this. God forgive me for putting Faith and Tara together! But believe me when I say you'll be at the edge of your seat just thinking about Angel and Buffy! Just read. cause I suck at summaries and reviews are requested. This is my first Buffy FanFiction.) There is a English spell that is translated into rough Italian.
Rating: PG-13 (Violence and Profanity. And what ever else you can come up with.)
A/N: Reviews always help me write faster! Thank you all for the nice reviews and keeping up with the story. I'm glad you are all enjoying it. In addition, I'd like to dedicate this one to my friends and family who cheered me on. Didn't I tell you you'd be at the edge of your seat thinking about Angel and Buffy. It can only get worse from here! :: smirks :: I love teasing y'all! OMG! I am so sorry for not updating sooner. School has started which means I write very very slowly!
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Nothing's ever simple anymore. I'm constantly trying to work it out. Who to love or hate. Who to trust. It's just, like, the more I know, The more confused I get.
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Giles stood in the hallway breathing heavily, he looked over to Angel knowing that the threat he had made to him was empty. That's how they all felt inside "Empty", like as if someone had gutted them on the spot. Then the aching began, the realization that this was real and happening right now. Buffy was dead, and it wasn't as if they could resurrect her. This wasn't magic, it was real life.
Faith stood up and walked into the room where Buffy laid unmoving, Faith sat beside her not being able to feel anything.
"B..." Faith looks at the chosen slayer's face touching it softly with her hand, "Aren't you supposed to tell me what a screw up I am. How I could have saved you?" The second slayer gulped her feelings starting to rise to her throat, "Your supposed to be here... You're the one who's needed. God... I wish I could take your place." Faith looked down, and then back up at Buffy again outraged that her friend could not longer talk to her, "Answer me Damnit!" She put her hands on Buffy's cold skin, "Just answer me!" Faith begged shaking Buffy slightly, she screamed at Buffy. "Answer me!"
Faith shook her head at Buffy as if she was doing something wrong, "You're so cold." She moved away slightly gasping. "Please... Don't- Don't be cold... Don't be dead... Angel loves you... Tara, and Giles... they love you... You gotta be Five by five. Buffy What if I loved you... couldn't you come back if I told you that?"
Faith started to choke up, "You're gonna give up. just like that? Remember the first rule of slaying, don't die! It's a rule, you made the goddamn rule! You fucking made it; so follow it... get up, and live, and have kids... and be with your psycho-vamp boy, cause he loves you so much. Your making life a living hell right now. and it's not fair. it's just plain not fair."
Faith sighed, "I know what you'd say to me... you'd say to me, 'Faith... life's a bitch.' and you know what, your right. I hate you being right. I hate you for dying. I hate you for bringing this upon yourself even when so many times you bailed me outta my messes, and I really hate that this is one mistake that I can't do the same to you. I hate you so much and love you so much and it just tears me up inside to see you being the weak one here... because you gotta be the strong one this time... you gotta live."
She finally put her head in her hands, and sobbed.
*~~~*
Yes, it's terribly simple. The good guys are always stalwart and true, The bad guys are easily distinguished by their pointy horns or black hats, And, uh, we always defeat them and save the day. No one ever dies, And everybody lives happily ever after.
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Giles goes over to Tara, "She's really gone isn't she?" He asks sounding more like the child then the adult. Tara sees the loss in Giles' eyes as she whispers to him, "I didn't ever get to thank her."
"I was her watcher for years...Tara, She saved my life countless times... and gave me one to live in. and I never thanked her. What a blood git I am." Giles swears at himself.
Tara identifies with Giles, "She gave me my first life really." Tara pauses for a moment smiling at a memory, "She gave me my family."
Giles smiles slightly at Tara, "She was my family too." He place a hand on the young wicca's back, then he whispered and sighed at the same time, "I can't believe it."
"She loved you... more than anything Giles..." The blond stated soflty
"You should have seen her talk about you, only good things came out of her mouth when you were the topic." Giles said to Tara.
Tara looked to Giles, "Giles.I didn't get to say goodbye" Tears started to build up behind her eyes and throat. "I am so selfish .its always about me, me this me that" Tara's voice sounded so bitter, "When this is all my fault anyway."
"Tara! No... this is not your fault, never ever say that!" Giles told her
Tara looked at Giles speaking so softly, "It's just so hard! I hate pain. I hate suffering. I hate this."
*~~~*
My life happens to, on occasion, suck beyond the telling of it. Sometimes more than I can handle. And it's not just mine. Every single person down there is ignoring your pain because they're too busy with their own. The beautiful ones. The popular ones. The guys that pick on you. Everyone.
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Angel paces back and forth contemplating his own un-life's worth, he had killed her. To kill that girl you had to love her, and he did with his whole heart.
Faith kisses Buffy's forehead softly, "Goodbye B... see you next fall." says metaphorically and turns to exit the room.
Buffy groans from inside opening her eyes suddenly, "Faith, you are one crazed psychopath superbitch" (A/N And She's Alive!)
Faith turns around to Buffy, running to her, "I'm so glad to hear you...You answer me.. you actually did that." she's hugging Buffy.
Buffy looks at Faith a little weakly, "Yeah... that's it..." She laughed slightly.
Tara stands thinking about all that has happened in the past day, Faith's return, their kiss, Angelus, Buffy's death, It all happened so fast, but she's quickly brough out of her thoughts by the sound of Faith's voice.
Giles looked up, "Buffy!" Giles goes into the room. where Faith is crying happily. Tara is following him at a run. She runs to both slayers, her heart jumps in her chest.
Buffy looks at them all, "I'm okay really."
"Uh... B... being dead is not okay." Faith tells her.
Buffy doesn't seem to remember being dead, "Okay... it felt like sleeping."
Tara can't tear her gaze from Buffy, "H-how did this happen?"
"Well... Bodies...of a slayer heal much faster, Buffy could have only been dead for a couple minutes." Giles explained.
Angel is walking slowly to the exit of the hospital, he's going to be what he promised, but then he stops dead, a feeling creeps down his spine, he turns back and runs to the room, "Buffy!" He runs to her., "Oh god. Buffy." He wraps his arms around her.
Buffy looks at Angel, "I'm... I'm fine..." it was a little awkward for her because she loved him so much.
Angel doesn't seem to ever want to let go of her, he looks into her eyes heartfelt emotion clear, "I thought I lost you."
Buffy nods slowly, "I thought I lost you too."
Giles isn't sure he likes Angel and Buffy together.
Tara watches the two, emotions swirling around in her heart, Love, Happiness, Excitement.
Faith looks at them, feeling slightly sorry for them thinking that maybe there could be a way to help them.
"Angel..." Buffy smiled softly at him.
Angel leaned over to kiss Buffy, but she pulls away from his kiss no matter how much she wants it. He backs away accepting this, he knows the risks, and he's taken them.
Buffy can feel her heart breaking in two, she wishes that it could be otherwise. He wonders why life has been so cruel to them. Buffy closes her eyes for a moment this was the moment she hated with all the passion within her soul, "Angel... I.. I. wish I could." The others move out of the room.
Angel just reaches out and touches Buffy's hand, "I know. you don't have to say a word.. I know."
Buffy grasps his hand, "So this is the only thing I get to do... hold your hand?"
"Buffy, What could we possibly do?" Angel asked her softly.
"I wish I knew." Buffy replied.
Angel looks angry for a moment, "You know, Buffy, I think someone up there hates me."
Buffy nodded painfully, "I think they hate me too. I really think they hate me too."
Outside the hospital doors, Faith looks at Tara in sadness, they discuss ways to help Buffy and Angel, "I don't know... make a permanent soul, found out to make him human?"
Tara stops and looks at Faith, "I want to...but my spells.. what good have they done us so far?"
"Willow?" Faith asks the inevitable.
Tara whispers to Faith suddenly feeling a pang of guilt in her gut, "Together Willow and I could do it"
Faith looked pained for a moment, You and Willow... you two are together right? like more then wicca buddies."
Tara slowly answers Faith looking down at her nails, "Y-yeah..."
Faith opens her mouth to say something, but can't speak.
Tara looks sad for a moment, then changes the topic, "We can get her to help us do this ."
Faith doesn't particularly want to change the topic but goes along with it, "Then... we'll get her to help them... they.. they need it."
Tara takes a deep breath gathering her courage, and reaches for Faiths hand, she whispers, "What about what we need..."
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If you could hear what they were feeling. The loneliness. The confusion. It looks quiet down there. It's not. It's deafening.
*~~~*
Author: Roxy
Spoilers: No Spoilers, stuff from old seasons like season 2 and 3
Disclaimer: I don't own any characters. "Buffy The Vampire Slayer" Belongs to UPN, and Joss Whendon.
Summary: B/A. F/T (Yes. there is f/f slash in this. God forgive me for putting Faith and Tara together! But believe me when I say you'll be at the edge of your seat just thinking about Angel and Buffy! Just read. cause I suck at summaries and reviews are requested. This is my first Buffy FanFiction.) There is a English spell that is translated into rough Italian.
Rating: PG-13 (Violence and Profanity. And what ever else you can come up with.)
A/N: Reviews always help me write faster! Thank you all for the nice reviews and keeping up with the story. I'm glad you are all enjoying it. In addition, I'd like to dedicate this one to my friends and family who cheered me on. Didn't I tell you you'd be at the edge of your seat thinking about Angel and Buffy. It can only get worse from here! :: smirks :: I love teasing y'all! OMG! I am so sorry for not updating sooner. School has started which means I write very very slowly!
*~~~*
Nothing's ever simple anymore. I'm constantly trying to work it out. Who to love or hate. Who to trust. It's just, like, the more I know, The more confused I get.
*~~~*
Giles stood in the hallway breathing heavily, he looked over to Angel knowing that the threat he had made to him was empty. That's how they all felt inside "Empty", like as if someone had gutted them on the spot. Then the aching began, the realization that this was real and happening right now. Buffy was dead, and it wasn't as if they could resurrect her. This wasn't magic, it was real life.
Faith stood up and walked into the room where Buffy laid unmoving, Faith sat beside her not being able to feel anything.
"B..." Faith looks at the chosen slayer's face touching it softly with her hand, "Aren't you supposed to tell me what a screw up I am. How I could have saved you?" The second slayer gulped her feelings starting to rise to her throat, "Your supposed to be here... You're the one who's needed. God... I wish I could take your place." Faith looked down, and then back up at Buffy again outraged that her friend could not longer talk to her, "Answer me Damnit!" She put her hands on Buffy's cold skin, "Just answer me!" Faith begged shaking Buffy slightly, she screamed at Buffy. "Answer me!"
Faith shook her head at Buffy as if she was doing something wrong, "You're so cold." She moved away slightly gasping. "Please... Don't- Don't be cold... Don't be dead... Angel loves you... Tara, and Giles... they love you... You gotta be Five by five. Buffy What if I loved you... couldn't you come back if I told you that?"
Faith started to choke up, "You're gonna give up. just like that? Remember the first rule of slaying, don't die! It's a rule, you made the goddamn rule! You fucking made it; so follow it... get up, and live, and have kids... and be with your psycho-vamp boy, cause he loves you so much. Your making life a living hell right now. and it's not fair. it's just plain not fair."
Faith sighed, "I know what you'd say to me... you'd say to me, 'Faith... life's a bitch.' and you know what, your right. I hate you being right. I hate you for dying. I hate you for bringing this upon yourself even when so many times you bailed me outta my messes, and I really hate that this is one mistake that I can't do the same to you. I hate you so much and love you so much and it just tears me up inside to see you being the weak one here... because you gotta be the strong one this time... you gotta live."
She finally put her head in her hands, and sobbed.
*~~~*
Yes, it's terribly simple. The good guys are always stalwart and true, The bad guys are easily distinguished by their pointy horns or black hats, And, uh, we always defeat them and save the day. No one ever dies, And everybody lives happily ever after.
*~~~*
Giles goes over to Tara, "She's really gone isn't she?" He asks sounding more like the child then the adult. Tara sees the loss in Giles' eyes as she whispers to him, "I didn't ever get to thank her."
"I was her watcher for years...Tara, She saved my life countless times... and gave me one to live in. and I never thanked her. What a blood git I am." Giles swears at himself.
Tara identifies with Giles, "She gave me my first life really." Tara pauses for a moment smiling at a memory, "She gave me my family."
Giles smiles slightly at Tara, "She was my family too." He place a hand on the young wicca's back, then he whispered and sighed at the same time, "I can't believe it."
"She loved you... more than anything Giles..." The blond stated soflty
"You should have seen her talk about you, only good things came out of her mouth when you were the topic." Giles said to Tara.
Tara looked to Giles, "Giles.I didn't get to say goodbye" Tears started to build up behind her eyes and throat. "I am so selfish .its always about me, me this me that" Tara's voice sounded so bitter, "When this is all my fault anyway."
"Tara! No... this is not your fault, never ever say that!" Giles told her
Tara looked at Giles speaking so softly, "It's just so hard! I hate pain. I hate suffering. I hate this."
*~~~*
My life happens to, on occasion, suck beyond the telling of it. Sometimes more than I can handle. And it's not just mine. Every single person down there is ignoring your pain because they're too busy with their own. The beautiful ones. The popular ones. The guys that pick on you. Everyone.
*~~*
Angel paces back and forth contemplating his own un-life's worth, he had killed her. To kill that girl you had to love her, and he did with his whole heart.
Faith kisses Buffy's forehead softly, "Goodbye B... see you next fall." says metaphorically and turns to exit the room.
Buffy groans from inside opening her eyes suddenly, "Faith, you are one crazed psychopath superbitch" (A/N And She's Alive!)
Faith turns around to Buffy, running to her, "I'm so glad to hear you...You answer me.. you actually did that." she's hugging Buffy.
Buffy looks at Faith a little weakly, "Yeah... that's it..." She laughed slightly.
Tara stands thinking about all that has happened in the past day, Faith's return, their kiss, Angelus, Buffy's death, It all happened so fast, but she's quickly brough out of her thoughts by the sound of Faith's voice.
Giles looked up, "Buffy!" Giles goes into the room. where Faith is crying happily. Tara is following him at a run. She runs to both slayers, her heart jumps in her chest.
Buffy looks at them all, "I'm okay really."
"Uh... B... being dead is not okay." Faith tells her.
Buffy doesn't seem to remember being dead, "Okay... it felt like sleeping."
Tara can't tear her gaze from Buffy, "H-how did this happen?"
"Well... Bodies...of a slayer heal much faster, Buffy could have only been dead for a couple minutes." Giles explained.
Angel is walking slowly to the exit of the hospital, he's going to be what he promised, but then he stops dead, a feeling creeps down his spine, he turns back and runs to the room, "Buffy!" He runs to her., "Oh god. Buffy." He wraps his arms around her.
Buffy looks at Angel, "I'm... I'm fine..." it was a little awkward for her because she loved him so much.
Angel doesn't seem to ever want to let go of her, he looks into her eyes heartfelt emotion clear, "I thought I lost you."
Buffy nods slowly, "I thought I lost you too."
Giles isn't sure he likes Angel and Buffy together.
Tara watches the two, emotions swirling around in her heart, Love, Happiness, Excitement.
Faith looks at them, feeling slightly sorry for them thinking that maybe there could be a way to help them.
"Angel..." Buffy smiled softly at him.
Angel leaned over to kiss Buffy, but she pulls away from his kiss no matter how much she wants it. He backs away accepting this, he knows the risks, and he's taken them.
Buffy can feel her heart breaking in two, she wishes that it could be otherwise. He wonders why life has been so cruel to them. Buffy closes her eyes for a moment this was the moment she hated with all the passion within her soul, "Angel... I.. I. wish I could." The others move out of the room.
Angel just reaches out and touches Buffy's hand, "I know. you don't have to say a word.. I know."
Buffy grasps his hand, "So this is the only thing I get to do... hold your hand?"
"Buffy, What could we possibly do?" Angel asked her softly.
"I wish I knew." Buffy replied.
Angel looks angry for a moment, "You know, Buffy, I think someone up there hates me."
Buffy nodded painfully, "I think they hate me too. I really think they hate me too."
Outside the hospital doors, Faith looks at Tara in sadness, they discuss ways to help Buffy and Angel, "I don't know... make a permanent soul, found out to make him human?"
Tara stops and looks at Faith, "I want to...but my spells.. what good have they done us so far?"
"Willow?" Faith asks the inevitable.
Tara whispers to Faith suddenly feeling a pang of guilt in her gut, "Together Willow and I could do it"
Faith looked pained for a moment, You and Willow... you two are together right? like more then wicca buddies."
Tara slowly answers Faith looking down at her nails, "Y-yeah..."
Faith opens her mouth to say something, but can't speak.
Tara looks sad for a moment, then changes the topic, "We can get her to help us do this ."
Faith doesn't particularly want to change the topic but goes along with it, "Then... we'll get her to help them... they.. they need it."
Tara takes a deep breath gathering her courage, and reaches for Faiths hand, she whispers, "What about what we need..."
*~~*
If you could hear what they were feeling. The loneliness. The confusion. It looks quiet down there. It's not. It's deafening.
*~~~*