Finals and school are over! Woo hoo! Anyway now I can continue with this fic. Okay I'm going to write this one in past tense.

*****

We stood on the sidewalk without moving and watched as the cab sped off. After letting what Monica said sink in, I turned to Rachel.

" About what she said, we're not getting together because I don't feel that way about you."

" Yea, same here. We need to just give her time to cool off and talk to her when she comes back. We'll explain to her that it was all just a mistake."

" Your right."

" I know I am." Just then Phoebe came walking up the street.

" Hey guys! What are you doing talking out here?"

" Umm no reason." Rachel and I answered at the same time.

" Okay…"

" What have you've been up to Pheebs?" Rachel asked, while she changed the subject.

" Joey and I just came back from the sub shop."

" Where is he?" Chandler chimed in.

" He went to buy more condoms incase he meets anyone tonight at dinner."

" Dinner?"

" Yea, the two of us are going out to dinner like we always do to talk about you guys." The three of us walked up the stairs and went into Rachel and Joey's apartment.

*****

" Miss?" I then realize that the cab driver asked me twice where I want to go.

" Umm anywhere. It doesn't matter. I just can't stay home."

" How about we just drive around like a tour?"

" Sure."

" May I ask what's bothering you? You look like you have a lot on your mind."

" Actually I do have a lot on my mind."

" Crap!"

" What?"

" There a lot of traffic. Since we have time on our hands, why don't you tell me what's wrong."

" Umm you seem nice but I don't think so. I don't even know you."

" I'm Rick, I grew up in Brooklyn. Married for 14 years with 2 girls. Now will you tell me, I'm a good listener."

" Well, Rick, I'm just having one of those days when you find out that your boyfriend you live with has been sleeping with your best friend and their having a baby. I'm Monica by the way."

" Wow. Monica, through all the people I've picked up and helped, you have one of the hardest situations."

" Thanks Rick. That helps me a lot." I replied with a hint of sarcasm that only reminded me of Chandler.

" Why don't you start from the beginning."

" Okay. In a nutshell, my boyfriend and I were having problems. Arguments, working late, stuff like that. One night, like six weeks ago, he worked late and I was pissed off because I came home early so we can spend time together. So we argued and then he walked out and didn't come back until the next day. I was worried sick. He walks in and says sorry and blah, blah, blah. Since that night we have been doing great but the way he does things or acts just gave me a feeling like something was going on. Maybe he was guilty or I don't know what. I was telling my friend Phoebe this and she was like just come out and ask them. So I was walking up to our apartment but I heard him and my best friend Rachel in the apartment across the hall and she told him that she was pregnant. Then I ran outside and hailed the cab and you know the rest. I mean how could they do this!"

" That's one big ass nut shell." I laughed a little. " Did you talk to them? Do you know what exactly is going on between them?"

" No… I don't even know if I want to know anything. It just hurts to know that two people that you love, betraying you like that. You know?"

" I know. It's gotta hurt. And it should."

" What?"

" That's the only way you know if you really love someone, if when you lose them or they do something that hurts you and it feels like hell. When you love someone you do whatever it takes for you two to stay together. I'm not saying that if someone treats you like dirt that you immediately go running back to that person. You need to talk to Chandler and see what he has to say. If they have been going at it for a long time and he loves this Rachel girl then you have to realize that it wasn't meant to be. And move on-"

" I don't know."

" You didn't let me finish. How long have you've been together?"

" About 2 years."

" If he has been in with you for that long then he must feel something for you still. And you said he acted guilty around you right?"

" Yea."

" If he didn't still love you then he wouldn't feel guilty about doing what he did. How about I take you home so that you can talk to him?"

" Thanks, that would be good." 15 minutes later.

" Here you are." I reached into my purse to take out my wallet but he stops me.

" No, need. It's on me."

" Thank you. It's nice to meet someone who is so friendly in this city and has good advice. Your one of a kind."

" Thank you. Just call me the advice cab." He smiled.

" Alright well I'm gonna go. Thanks again for everything."

" No problem. Remember what I said."

*****

The door suddenly swung open and Monica came in not noticing me on the couch.

" Hi." She looked up surprised to see me.

" Rachel." I look into her eyes and see that there is no emotion. She doesn't look angry, happy, or sad. Just nothing. " Where's Chandler?"

" I don't know." There was a moment of silence and then I break the ice.

" Can I just tell you something."

" What now?" she sighed.

" The whole Chandler and me was a mistake. We were both drunk and in a bad place. It only happened once. Totally a huge mistake."

" It wasn't a mistake. I know that much."

" How can you say that? Do you think I would do that on purpose?"

" I don't know Rach! I don't know what to expect from you. When we were kids and I was fat, we were best friends. Then I had my first boyfriend Billy Marks. Of course, after he heard from some 'rumor' that you liked him he figured 'why don't I break up with fat Monica and date miss popularity Rachel'. Then in high school I had the biggest crush one Ryan Phillips but you stole him too and you knew I liked him!"

" Hey! I didn't know you liked him until after we had broken up and you said you didn't care then."

" Well I care know! Then of course there was Justin."

" Justin? Who's Justin."

" You know which Justin I'm talking about. I was in love with him and at my birthday party, I have to find you two in the back kissing."

" How many times do I have to tell you that he kissed me! He was an ass hole!"

" And now you took Chandler. How many times are you gonna do this Rach? Stealing the people that I love."

" I didn't make it my goal to sleep with Chandler! And it only happened once by the way! We can't even remember what happened." She looked at me then rolled her eyes. " Look, forget about what ever happened years ago. Okay I'm sorry for all of that and this too. Chandler and I didn't tell you what happened because we didn't want to hurt you. The bottom line is I love you like a sister and you don't go around hurting people who are your family. I'm asking you to find it in your heart to forgive me because I went over the line but I'm truly sorry about it. As God as my witness it will never happen again. I'll see to it." I tried to read her face but again there was nothing. She just looked down. "I'm going to go because I have…a thing…to do. Hopefully I'll see you later Mon."

*****

Ring, Ring. I ran to get my cell phone since hardly anyone calls me on it.

" Hello?"

" Chandler."

" Monica?" Her voice was but a whisper.

" Yes. It's me. Can you come home like now? I really need to talk to you."

" Okay. I'm coming up." I was up there in a matter of minutes.

" I called you because I want to deal with this situation right now." She looked so calm. But an eerie type of calmness as if she is acting tougher than she feels. When she talked it was merely above a whisper.

" Okay."

" I talked to Rachel."

" Did she tell you everything? About how it was just one night, it meant nothing and we're so very sorry."

" Chandler, do you know what one of my biggest fears is?" I shook my head, a little confused. " Of course you wouldn't, I never told you this. You know how I always used to complain because I never had a decent boyfriend. Well I always hoped that I would find a husband who really loved me and cherished me. That truly and deeply loved me. Having a mother like mine is not easy and having a father whom is completely oblivious to how much my mother hurt me with her criticism. Ross didn't help either by being the perfect child in the family, which made me feel like an outcast. So I just wanted someone who loved me for me unconditionally and who most importantly would never hurt me." She then broke down in tears. " My fear was loving someone with all my heart and them turning around and hurting me in the worse way. I used to think you could never hurt me but you did Chandler, you hurt me really bad."

" Monica, I'm sorry." I said with my voice shaking.

" I bet you don't know how I felt when I heard Rachel talking to you and saying that she was pregnant and with your child. It felt like someone ripped out my heart and stomped on it then tried to put back as if it would work! That killed me inside not only because I realized what the love of my life did behind my back with someone else that I love but to know that she was having a child with you! That was supposed to be me, I'm the one who should be saying that we are having a baby together, not her! She is having a baby with the man that I love! For that moment it felt like she had the two things I wanted the most but can't have: you and a baby."

" What do you mean the two things. You can still have me Monica! I need you! We can be together, get married and have a kid of our own!" I shouted back.

" No we can't! Because I can't have a baby!" She screamed, crying hysterically.

" What are you talking about?"

" I can't have children! I have a problem that makes me not capable of having children." I stood there stunned.

" When did you find this out."

" Today before I called you. I guess I'm just finding everything out today." By then she was on the couch crying. I moved closer to hug her and comfort her like I always have but she flinched at my touch and pushed me away while jumping up.

" NO! Don't touch me! Just don't!" Then she ran out of the apartment to only God knows where.

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