Okay after a long vacation, Im back. For now on I'm writing like this. Sorry for always changing like the point of view and stuff but I'm experimenting so don't be mad.
"Oh no…" Rachel sank into the chair while Chandler told her about Monica's condition. "Now I feel even worse, this is like icing on the cake."
" I know what you mean. This really does make it even worse. I really don't know what to do."
" Well, umm, will she talk to you?"
" No. When I enter the room or try to talk to her, she just makes up some lame excuse and exits the room."
" Chandler, this is really bad."
" Ya think?" Chandler quipped.
" This is no time for your annoying sarcasm Chandler!"
" Sorry. Does anyone else know?"
" No, at the most they may suspect that something's not right, but besides that, its all good." She paused for a moment. " I have an appointment tomorrow which will confirm that I'm pregnant and refer me to another doctor." He gave a slight nod. She replied with a week smile, thankful that he is at least attempting to seem fine when actually he was far from it. An awkward silence raised again then the door opened and Monica came in.
" Okay I know why you're here Chandler, but why the hell is she here? I don't want you my apartment."
" Monica, be reasonable."
" Shut up Chandler!"
" Its okay Chandler. I'm going." Monica looked away as she past and headed out the apartment."
" Monica, you can't just go kicking people out of our apartment like that even with the circumstances!"
" Chandler you have no right to tell me how to act after what you did, I mean at least I'm faithful! Anyway, It's not our apartment anymore, I want you to move out." She looked away again so that she didn't see his heartbroken countenance.
" But… Mon, I,"
" Don't make this harder than it has to be." She looked up at him and her sapphire eyes were pleading to him.
" Okay, I'll move out as soon as I can but for now I'll stay in the guest room."
" Fine."
" But I still want to talk to you about what you said before and you can't run out this time."
" What are you talking about?" She asked although she knew exactly what he was talking about."
" You said that you couldn't have children, is that true?"
" Of course it is, you think that I would make that up! Then you don't know me at all!" She snapped even thought she immediately wanted to take it back.
" I do know you. I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that."
" Stop saying you're sorry."
" Okay. It's just hard to believe. How long have you've know?"
" Two weeks."
" And you kept it to yourself this long? Why?" Monica went to sit on the couch as if her only support.
" Because I refused to believe it. I refused to believe that something was wrong with me and that I couldn't get what I longed for." She said sincerely. " Besides I had other things to deal with like cheating boyfriends and backstabbing friends." She added bitterly. Chandler moved slowly to her and this time she let him put his arms around her. He held her for the rest of the night rocking her back and forth while occasionally kissing the top of her head. The next day he started to pack his bags. Monica couldn't bear to watch it so she went out for a walk and then to the movies.
*****
Chandler sealed another box and took a rest. He leaned against a box that was open. He reached and pulled out his favorite picture of her. He looked around the apartment, once a place that reminded him of love, now set off an air of despair. What else could go wrong?
" Anyone home?" A voice asked. It was Joey with Phoebe. Chandler jumped up.
" Hey guys."
" Hey, what's with the boxes? Did you and Monica fight over that room again?" They laughed while Chandler only wished that were the case.
" I'll tell you the real reason but where's Ross?"
" At the coffeehouse. Why?"
" Do me a favor and go get him. I would like to tell you all at once." A couple a of minutes later, Joey returned dragging a puzzled Ross.
" Okay can you guys sit down?" They did so.
" I'm sensing this isn't good news." Phoebe prophesied.
" It isn't."
" I knew it!"
" Phoebe be quiet! Go on Chandler." Ross demanded.
" Thanks. I don't know where to begin. Okay a little more than a month ago Rachel and I got really drunk and slept together and now she's pregnant. Monica found out and was upset because of what happened and because she can't have children. She won't talk to Rachel and she told me to move out and that is why you see these boxes. It was all a big mistake and I am so sorry guys." Each of the friends had different reactions. Joey got up and stormed out. Phoebe looked from Joey to Chandler to Ross in shock. Ross stared at Chandler with pure hatred in his eyes. He slowly got up and gave Chandler a powerful punch in the eye.
" Ross!" Phoebe jumped up to hold Ross back.
" You son bitch! How could you do this? First of all, you broke the code by sleeping with Rachel, my ex. And you hurt my baby sister, which you promised you wouldn't do! I'll never forgive you for this!" He stormed out with Phoebe following.
" Well that could've been worse." Chandler put ice on his bruised eye and walked across the hall to see if Joey ran there. Sure enough, he was there but sitting in his barker lounger facing the tv as if he was watching but it was turned off. Chandler pulled up a stool and sat watching the blank tv also.
" Do you always watch this show?"
" Shut up."
" Okay."
" You making your jokes just make my decision harder."
" And what decision is that?"
" Rather I should be pissed off at you and punish you forever or forgive you because you are my friend and can make mistakes."
" Come to a conclusion yet?"
" No not yet."
" I did make a very bad mistake."
" A very very bad mistake."
" A very very bad mistake. And I'm sorry but Rachel did a wrong also and no one is punishing her."
" I'm contemplating that too. Was it worth it?"
" What?"
" Destroying a 2 year relationship with Monica to have a drunken one night stand with Rachel."
" No. It never was and never will be. I messed up big time, she even went as far as to kick Rachel of the apartment yeserday and then told me to pack up and leave minutes latter.
" Well can you blame her?"
" No, I guess not. She'll never forgive me."
" Here is my advice: do everything in your power to get her back if you really love her…"
" I do, so much."
" Show her that it was a mistake and make her take you back. By the way, I made my decision. I'll forgive you two since no one else will and because you look really sorry."
" Thank you Jo. It means a lot to me."
" I know it does."
*****
Phoebe tried desperately to catch up with Ross as he stomped off looking steaming mad.
" Ross wait up!" He stopped and waited. " That was a hellva punch. I didn't know you had it in you."
" Well he deserved it. I had to bring Red Ross out. How could he do that! Monica must've been crushed when she found out. He slept with Rachel, my Rachel. That bastard!"
" 'My Rachel'?"
" No, well you know what I mean; my ex."
" I see."
" He broke the freaking code!"
" I don't understand why you guys have that stupid code. Women don't have that code."
" You sorta do. You all don't like it when friends sleep with your exs."
" No. That's not true…"
" Phoebe, I know you do. You like flipped out when your massour friend started dating the 'gay' or should I say 'straight' ice dancer after his divorce."
" Okay… but this isn't about me right now. We're talking about you. Besides I eventually got over it because I realized they were meant for each other. Chandler and Rachel aren't going to be together like that. And another thing, you keep saying you're angry with Chandler. What about Rachel? You know what they say… it takes two to waltz."
" You mean tango, it takes two to tango."
" Same thing."
" It just seems harder to be angry with Rachel."
" How so?"
" I don't know. It just is…"
" Is it hard because you love her?"
" No! No way…"
" Yes you do! You re-re-love her!"
" What? You're crazy!"
" Yes you do!"
" No I don't!"
" Yes!"
" No!"
" Yes!"
" No!"
" Yes!"
' Okay a little bit…"
" Ah ha! I knew it! Were you going to tell her?"
" No, she doesn't feel the same way."
" How do you know?"
" I just do."
*****
Monica walked into the apartment expecting to see Chandler but was relieved when he was nowhere to be found. She didn't think it would be that hard to tell him to leave, after all, they did something unforgivable no matter what that stupid cab driver said. She had to stop thinking about this so she turned on the radio and sat on the couch. The song that came on made her finally breakdown.
I thought I saw a man brought to life
He was warm
He came around like he was dignified
He showed me what it was to cry
Well you couldn't be that man I adored
You don't seem to know
Seem to care what your heart is for
But I don't know him anymore
There's nothing where he used to lie
My conversation has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's fine I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake
And I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there
And not some holy light
Which crawled beneath my veins
And now I don't care
I had no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can touch I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake
And I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late
I'm already torn
Torn
There's nothing where he used to lie
My inspiration has run dry
That's what's going on
Nothing's right I'm torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor
Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake
And I can see
The perfect sky is torn
I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed
Bound and broken on the floor
You're a little late
I'm already torn
Torn..
Her world was definitely torn. She cried and cried and didn't even hear the door open and Phoebe walked to the couch.
" Monica, sweetie, its okay. We all know." Monica knew exactly what she was talking about and Phoebe knew that was why she was crying.
" Why did this have to happen? You remember when we were talking at the coffeehouse and I told you Chandler had been acting weird?"
" Yeah, I remember."
" Well when I left to find him I heard them talking about it and that's when Rachel told him that she was pregnant."
" Oh Mon. That's horrible to find out that way."
" I know. I mean now I would give anything to go back to the way we were. Before we ever had that fight or even before we started having any problems."
" I wish we could go back in time but we can't. Not in this day and age anyway."
" Yeah. I try not to cry and stay tough and strong. But the thing is every time I look at either one of them I get reminded of that moment when I heard them then ran down stairs and hopped in a cab to just try to get away from it all. Life can be so hard sometimes."
" It will get easier I promise and I'm certainly talking out of experience. I haven't had the best childhood and look at me now, happy as ever. If I can get through that, you can get through this. You are a lot stronger mentally and physically than you think. Well you know you're physically strong. Everyone does." Monica smiled. " Oh so you do still know how to smile, I haven't seen one from you in a while. But seriously, whether or not you take Chandler back or be friends with Rachel again, it will all still be okay. And hey, about your other problem, you can always adopt, there are thousands of kids out there who would be lucky to have you as their mother."
" Thanks Phoebe, it's nice to know that there is still someone I can count on."
" Anytime and I mean it. Anytime."
*****
Rachel busted through the door with puffy red eyes and mascara running down her face. Chandler and Joey just looked at her until Chandler got up and hugged her.
" Hey, what's wrong?"
" I …I lost it."
" Lost what?"
" Well actually I never had it."
" I'm still lost, had what?"
" The baby. I'm not pregnant, the test was wrong."
That song was "Torn" by Natalie Imbruglia. (I don't know if that's spelt right.) This chapter is a bit longer but I felt that I had to keep it like this. I have a lot of the rest of the fic already written so just stick with it. Please (makes puppy dog eyes) okay review!!