I sat in my apartment, thinking about what had happened the same day, 6 years ago.
I had always been depressed, moving from home to home, but Tom was always there for me. Always by my side. We began to grow apart, after being friends our whole lives. Our other friends, Mark and Travis said it would come eventually. We'd eventually grow apart... And then they began to become famous. Tom made mark come and tell me...I remember his exact words,
"Catie.., me, Tom, and Travis..are all moving to Los Angeles .. and going on tour."
That's the last time I ever saw him, or any of them. I think I thought after that, I had feelings for Mark.
But probably just because he had always been the only one I'd tell things about Tom too. He wouldn't tell anyone...
The phone rang and broke my thoughts, it was 2:30 in the afternoon, a rainy, dark day, as it was a lot in Chicago during fall. I slowly walked to the phone, in black jeans and a dark purple top.
"...Yes...?"
No one spoke for a moment, "C-Catie? Is it really you?"
The voice sounded familiar, but I couldn't name it.."Who the hell is this?"
Someone laughed, "It is you....Catie...it's me...Tom."
I almost fell over, and passed out. it had been 6 years, and he's calling me now?! A thousand things ran through my head, 'What do I say?-What does he want?-Is he coming to visit?-Does he want to see me?-'
I didn't realize the time going by, "Catie? Catie! Are you there? Are you okay?"
I looked up, "Yeah...sorry......Um,..Hey..."
"Me, mark, and Travis are all in Chicago for a couple weeks. We wanna see you."
I sort of sighed, but half-smiled. "Okay...'
I had so much to tell him, so much to ask him. He didn't even really seem like talking..
He gave me an address of where to go, we hung up.
I put on a light jacket, still trying to place together this. Still trying to figure out what to say when I see him, what to do, how to react.
"But, hey, I'll get to see mark.."
I still don't know if I had true feelings for Mark...
-Half Hour later-
I arrived at the address he gave me, it was a 5-star-hotel, enormous. I raised an eyebrow,
"And Im supposed to find him..how?" I took a breath and walked into the lobby.
And there they stood, Tom, Mark, and Travis. And three other girls, looking quite aggravated.
The group turned around, and Tom, Mark, and Travis all grinned. They, had grown up..So much since the last time I saw them all. But I guess I had too, by their remark.
"Damn Catie! Look at you!" He laughed.
I half smiled again. I hadn't thought on what to say.
Tom walked towards me smiling, he hugged me, and to a great surprise, placed a kiss on my cheek.
He'd never done 'that' before.
The same thing happened with Travis, except no kiss.
But next...Mark did the exact same as Tom.
The next few hours they acted as if we'd never been parted, and I had trouble coping with that.
Tom held hands with one of the girls, suddenly. And I didn't know what was happening...but I suddenly felt jealous..or angry...
I smiled. "I'll be right back.."
I walked quickly to the bathroom, and looked at myself in the mirror, not noticing someone was in there..
"What the hell is wrong with me..?!"
"I can't like Tom...I just...can't!"
I splashed water on my face. "I like Tom...I can't believe myself..."
"I have a boyfriend." "I just CANNOT like tom..."
Someone walked out of one of the bathrooms, her face familiar.
It was one of the 'girls' that were with tom, mark, and Travis.
I looked up. 'Oh fuck..'
She smiled. "I'm Mark's cousin...I wont tell anyone, I promise.." She laughed, "But I know exactly how you feel."
I smiled, and nodded, "Thanks.."
I walked out of the bathroom, and back to the group. We were all still sitting in the lobby, talking about our lives..
It came to be my 'turn,' and I had to explain to them what Ive done for the past 6 years.
But I don't think it would be great to say, 'I've thought only about you guys and cried over you all.'
I explained my life, and it hit me, I'll tell them I have a boyfriend...Maybe that will make me feel better...
"After that, I met Chris, we've been going out for 4 years."
Mark & Tom stopped smiling after that..
Some accomplishment came over me..although Im not too sure what it was.
I had always been depressed, moving from home to home, but Tom was always there for me. Always by my side. We began to grow apart, after being friends our whole lives. Our other friends, Mark and Travis said it would come eventually. We'd eventually grow apart... And then they began to become famous. Tom made mark come and tell me...I remember his exact words,
"Catie.., me, Tom, and Travis..are all moving to Los Angeles .. and going on tour."
That's the last time I ever saw him, or any of them. I think I thought after that, I had feelings for Mark.
But probably just because he had always been the only one I'd tell things about Tom too. He wouldn't tell anyone...
The phone rang and broke my thoughts, it was 2:30 in the afternoon, a rainy, dark day, as it was a lot in Chicago during fall. I slowly walked to the phone, in black jeans and a dark purple top.
"...Yes...?"
No one spoke for a moment, "C-Catie? Is it really you?"
The voice sounded familiar, but I couldn't name it.."Who the hell is this?"
Someone laughed, "It is you....Catie...it's me...Tom."
I almost fell over, and passed out. it had been 6 years, and he's calling me now?! A thousand things ran through my head, 'What do I say?-What does he want?-Is he coming to visit?-Does he want to see me?-'
I didn't realize the time going by, "Catie? Catie! Are you there? Are you okay?"
I looked up, "Yeah...sorry......Um,..Hey..."
"Me, mark, and Travis are all in Chicago for a couple weeks. We wanna see you."
I sort of sighed, but half-smiled. "Okay...'
I had so much to tell him, so much to ask him. He didn't even really seem like talking..
He gave me an address of where to go, we hung up.
I put on a light jacket, still trying to place together this. Still trying to figure out what to say when I see him, what to do, how to react.
"But, hey, I'll get to see mark.."
I still don't know if I had true feelings for Mark...
-Half Hour later-
I arrived at the address he gave me, it was a 5-star-hotel, enormous. I raised an eyebrow,
"And Im supposed to find him..how?" I took a breath and walked into the lobby.
And there they stood, Tom, Mark, and Travis. And three other girls, looking quite aggravated.
The group turned around, and Tom, Mark, and Travis all grinned. They, had grown up..So much since the last time I saw them all. But I guess I had too, by their remark.
"Damn Catie! Look at you!" He laughed.
I half smiled again. I hadn't thought on what to say.
Tom walked towards me smiling, he hugged me, and to a great surprise, placed a kiss on my cheek.
He'd never done 'that' before.
The same thing happened with Travis, except no kiss.
But next...Mark did the exact same as Tom.
The next few hours they acted as if we'd never been parted, and I had trouble coping with that.
Tom held hands with one of the girls, suddenly. And I didn't know what was happening...but I suddenly felt jealous..or angry...
I smiled. "I'll be right back.."
I walked quickly to the bathroom, and looked at myself in the mirror, not noticing someone was in there..
"What the hell is wrong with me..?!"
"I can't like Tom...I just...can't!"
I splashed water on my face. "I like Tom...I can't believe myself..."
"I have a boyfriend." "I just CANNOT like tom..."
Someone walked out of one of the bathrooms, her face familiar.
It was one of the 'girls' that were with tom, mark, and Travis.
I looked up. 'Oh fuck..'
She smiled. "I'm Mark's cousin...I wont tell anyone, I promise.." She laughed, "But I know exactly how you feel."
I smiled, and nodded, "Thanks.."
I walked out of the bathroom, and back to the group. We were all still sitting in the lobby, talking about our lives..
It came to be my 'turn,' and I had to explain to them what Ive done for the past 6 years.
But I don't think it would be great to say, 'I've thought only about you guys and cried over you all.'
I explained my life, and it hit me, I'll tell them I have a boyfriend...Maybe that will make me feel better...
"After that, I met Chris, we've been going out for 4 years."
Mark & Tom stopped smiling after that..
Some accomplishment came over me..although Im not too sure what it was.