More to It All
by Wesai
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Completed October 14, 2002
(may undergo heavy revision in the future)
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Padme.... Amidala..... Queen....Senator.... Woman .... Girl...
Sometimes it was hard to forget she was one and not the
other any longer. And other times it was too easy to
forget she was anything but one... The rest of the time,
I remembered her as she is and always will be...
all these things and more.
Her beauty was apparent at a young age, the first time I
knew her was as Padme. She said she was only a
Queen's handmaiden. In her I saw a leader, strong,
willful to a fault, yet graceful, kind, loving.... qualities
of a queen.... especially the queen to my own heart.
Young Anakin saw these qualities in her too, from a
child's eyes, no matter how knowing, can leave a great
impression. This I fear may have been the start of
something more, now that I look back on it. Padme
surely hadn't felt the same about the boy at the time,
not then. Both were too young to see the road to
love, and where it would take them.
I knew, and I stayed away from that path, made sure
of it infact. Tried to anyways, but I couldn't help but
notice her. Not only then, but even now. Master told
me that I should keep my mind focused on the
mission, never mind how much my stomach flies or how
my heart flutters. Let your emotions get the best of you and
you fight blindly, give way to the Dark Side, just a little
at a time. Emotions weren't the only thing we're meant to keep
in check, but our pride and ego as well. Jedi are the
most prideful people I know.
Perhaps, this is where Anakin's descent began. A master
who could not control his paduan? Maybe I'm being
selfish, not letting Anakin go through the test. He seemed
to be ready. But what ideas he's been putting into
my head! Next thing you know, I'll start to say he's
been Turned. No, he's far from ready.
I didn't think I was ready to become young Skywalker's
Master. It could be that I'm not. I wasn't ready to fall
in love with Padme. I'm not sure I'll ever be ready for
anything. All there is, is to be ready for whatever
is dealt you. One cannot help thinking there is more
to it all than Master and Paduan, Jedi and Queen.
We're all growing everyday. Some more than others.
by Wesai
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Completed October 14, 2002
(may undergo heavy revision in the future)
~
Padme.... Amidala..... Queen....Senator.... Woman .... Girl...
Sometimes it was hard to forget she was one and not the
other any longer. And other times it was too easy to
forget she was anything but one... The rest of the time,
I remembered her as she is and always will be...
all these things and more.
Her beauty was apparent at a young age, the first time I
knew her was as Padme. She said she was only a
Queen's handmaiden. In her I saw a leader, strong,
willful to a fault, yet graceful, kind, loving.... qualities
of a queen.... especially the queen to my own heart.
Young Anakin saw these qualities in her too, from a
child's eyes, no matter how knowing, can leave a great
impression. This I fear may have been the start of
something more, now that I look back on it. Padme
surely hadn't felt the same about the boy at the time,
not then. Both were too young to see the road to
love, and where it would take them.
I knew, and I stayed away from that path, made sure
of it infact. Tried to anyways, but I couldn't help but
notice her. Not only then, but even now. Master told
me that I should keep my mind focused on the
mission, never mind how much my stomach flies or how
my heart flutters. Let your emotions get the best of you and
you fight blindly, give way to the Dark Side, just a little
at a time. Emotions weren't the only thing we're meant to keep
in check, but our pride and ego as well. Jedi are the
most prideful people I know.
Perhaps, this is where Anakin's descent began. A master
who could not control his paduan? Maybe I'm being
selfish, not letting Anakin go through the test. He seemed
to be ready. But what ideas he's been putting into
my head! Next thing you know, I'll start to say he's
been Turned. No, he's far from ready.
I didn't think I was ready to become young Skywalker's
Master. It could be that I'm not. I wasn't ready to fall
in love with Padme. I'm not sure I'll ever be ready for
anything. All there is, is to be ready for whatever
is dealt you. One cannot help thinking there is more
to it all than Master and Paduan, Jedi and Queen.
We're all growing everyday. Some more than others.